I once read a book about heart transplants where there were times where we could feel the previous owner's feelings about how he had felt. How have you ever felt love? Do you know that I never believed that it was possible for us to know other people's feelings just by having their hearts inside us? I have always believed that most feelings are right. They come from the brain, not the heart. I think those books are just fiction.

But then one day I had to believe in this with all my heart because it happened to me. The day I woke up with the heart of a person now beating inside my body, I was faced with a story I thought was just fiction.

“My name is Nam.” I am just an ordinary woman who lives like any other person. The only difference is that I have had heart disease since birth. My body is not very strong, so my family has to take extra care of me. I rarely go out. Most of the time I stay at home. My day to day life is based on books. I learn everything through letters only.

But I don't feel anything, I don't think I'm different from anyone else. Because I have a lovely family who stands by me, especially my brother. I love you so much. "P'Non" my good older brother is a very cute older brother. We usually live together until he graduates and then works.

Non works as a police officer so he doesn't have much time to spend with me like usual. And now that Non has a boyfriend, the time he used to have for me is even less. which I understand But I couldn't help but feel a little disappointed, which made me immerse myself even more in the book. You will be less interested in other things.

I once read a book about heart transplants where there were times where we could feel the previous owner's feelings about how he had felt. How have you ever felt love? Do you know that I never believed that it was possible for us to know other people's feelings just by having their hearts inside us? I have always believed that most feelings are right. They come from the brain, not the heart. I think those books are just fiction.

But then one day I had to believe in this with all my heart because it happened to me. The day I woke up with the heart of a person now beating inside my body, I was faced with a story I thought was just fiction.

I picked up the pen and wrote it down before thinking back to the first day I opened my eyes with a new heart and the day it all began.

one year ago

clear sky day The weather was clear, which is how it is every day. I woke up in the morning and went about my business as usual. Before going downstairs, where everyone in the house was sitting together like every day.

“We woke up late today,” Non, who was sitting across from us, said as soon as I sat down.

"Water didn't wake up too late," I said as I started eating.

"Nothing late...other people ate until they were all gone."

"You're eating too fast," I argued again.

"We argue all the time.....If you're not here for a little while longer, who are we going to argue with?" P'Non spoke up again.

"Where are you going? You're going to have to live in the water for a long time." I wrinkled my nose, causing Non and the others to laugh.

"Let's go somewhere else....somewhere far away."

"Well, while you're not here, I don't argue...wait until you come back and argue." I gave him a mischievous smile.

"And if you go......and don't come back....what will we do?" P'Non spoke up again.

"There's no way....you have to come back...I don't know what to say." I furrowed my eyebrows. Your words sounded strange, but I didn't care.

"Come on....just tell me.....if you're not here, take care of yourself," Non said again as he put down his spoon and got ready to go to work.

"I'm going to work now....don't be stubborn."

"Oh... you can act like Nam is a child." I looked at the hammer causing Non to laugh again.

"I love you.....take care of your parents." Non walked around to me and kissed me on the forehead. I felt strange about Non's actions today. Normally, I'm never like this.

"What's wrong with you? You're acting strangely." I couldn't help but speak.

“Is it wrong that I just want to kiss you?” Brother Non ruffled my hair irritably.

“It's normal....where have you ever done something like this?”

"Well, today I want to do it...before I didn't do it."

"Speaking strangely again...go to work," I said as I pushed Non away from me.

"You can go.....don't forget to take care of yourself," P'Non said as he walked out. I looked behind P'Non. It made me feel strangely frightened, as if I would never see you again, but I shook that thought away. Looked after him until he was out of sight. before finishing his meal and moving to the living room.

I sat watching movies and reading books until the time passed. I looked at the clock and it was now very cold. Why hasn't she come back yet? Normally, does she have to come back or is she going to find her boyfriend? I thought to myself, even though I thought like that, why did it feel so uncomfortable in my heart? I was so lost in my thoughts that the phone in the house rang.

“I'll pick it up myself,” I told my mother as I walked to answer the phone.

“Hello.....Baan Panya Kittinan Yes,” I said before hearing the answer on the other end of the line.

“What.......What did you say just now?” I asked in shock.

"Khun Non was shot....now in the hospital." I heard the other end of the phone say that I couldn't do anything. He had so little strength that he let the phone fall out of his hand before it fell to the ground. His mother ran to look at him in shock.

“Water...what's wrong with the water?”

“Mom.....Non was shot...let's go to the hospital.” I said as soon as I regained consciousness before we took each other to the hospital. My heart was pounding with fear, causing Mom to have to. They consoled me all the way so that nothing would happen to me until we arrived at the hospital. We rushed in immediately until we arrived in front of the emergency room. We waited with excitement. Until the room door opened and the doctor stepped out, we immediately rushed in to see him.

“Doctor, how is my child?”

“We tried our best....but the patient lost too much blood....I'm sorry,” the doctor said.

“What do you mean?” I asked in a trembling voice.

“The patient has passed away.”

"Isn't it true? My brother must be fine," I asked with tears streaming down my face.

"Isn't that true?......Doctor, answer me." I shook the doctor so hard that my mother had to hold me.

"Calm down, child...Once something will happen to me."

“Mom....isn't it true?” I turned around and hugged her tightly.

“Can we go inside?” Mom asked the doctor who was standing still.

"Please....The doctor will excuse himself first." After saying that, the doctor walked away.

"Mom...take me to see you."

"I'll wait here...Mom and Dad will come soon," Mom said.

“No...I'll go with you...take me.”

“Please let me go,” said the father who had been silent the whole time.

"Alright then....but you have to take good care of your heart, child," Mother said before we all walked inside, on a white bed where a breathless body lay. I walked in slowly and the moment I saw it, it made me cry almost to my core. Before hugging him tightly, my consciousness faded.

I opened my eyes slowly before meeting a clean, white ceiling. I blinked a few times to adjust my eyesight. Before I looked around the room and saw my mother sitting on the sofa, I let out a loud noise. But the voice that came out was so hoarse that it didn't sound like his own.

“Mother.”

“Water....have you recovered yet?” Mother quickly stood up and smiled happily at me.

"I'm very thirsty." As soon as I finished, my mother poured water and handed it to me.

“What's wrong with you?” I asked.

“I fainted, child.” Mother gently rubbed my head.

“And...what about you?” I asked, hoping it was just a dream.

"Brother.....he's not with us anymore," Mother said in a trembling voice.

"It's not true, right?...I must be dreaming......I'm going to see you," I said, trying to get up.

“I can't go anywhere...I haven't recovered yet.” Mother pressed me down as Father opened the door.

“I'm fine.....I'm going to go find you.” I tried to get up before having to lie down again when I felt a pain in my chest.

"Just lie down, child...I'll go get the doctor for you."

"Don't move too much...my wound isn't fully healed yet."

"What kind of wound?

“What about the surgery wound, child?...I just had surgery.” As soon as Mom finished speaking, I was even more confused. But before I could ask anything, Dad came back with a doctor. The doctor examined my body to make sure there was nothing wrong. going out I turned to ask my mother again with the question that was still lingering in my mind.

"Are you going to have a heart transplant?"

"Yes.....the day I lost consciousness that day....I almost died but luckily someone donated my heart...so I was able to survive" Father said while stroking my hair. too

“Who is the owner of this heart?” I asked, moving my hand to hold the chest where the surgery wound was. As soon as I touched it, warmth rushed in. The familiar feeling I feel right now

"My dear...this heart belongs to you.....I'm with you," Mom said while trying to hold back tears.

“Brother?” As soon as I finished listening, tears slowly flowed out.

"I have to take good care of myself.....I'll get better.....Please stay with me." Mother stroked my hair gently.

"Yes...I'll get better quickly....because P'Non is taking care of me." I rushed over and hugged my mother tightly.

"Very good, child......I won't be worried."

From that day until now, I have been recovering for a month. My body is much better because I tried to take care of myself so that I could go home quickly. Until today, the doctor told me to go home. I hurriedly got up early in the morning because I really wanted to go home. I stayed in the hospital until I was completely bored.

"Already finished....let's go home." Dad opened the door after he had finished taking care of the medical bills.

"Let's go....I'm bored here." I immediately got off the bed. Along with walking straight to the door Let mom and dad follow.

On the way back to the house, I looked around until I stumbled upon a flower shop located on the side of the road. I feel strangely familiar with this shop. I felt a warm feeling, my heart beating irregularly. I didn't know why it was happening even though it was just an ordinary flower shop. I looked until my mother turned around and asked in surprise.

“What are you looking at, child?”

“Nothing, Mom,” I replied. Before keeping the symptoms from showing I sat and thought all the way to my house. I walked inside and looked around longingly.

"Let's go get some rest first.....I'm still not well," Mom said as she followed me into the house.

“Yes.....Then I'll excuse myself.” I said as I walked upstairs before stopping in front of Non's bedroom. I stood there looking like that before walking to my room. I wasn't ready to go in and see the old atmosphere. I still couldn't accept that Non had passed away, even though there was a heart inside me. Brother Non is here.

I walked into the room and immediately threw myself onto the bed. As soon as I closed my eyes, an image of a flower shop floated into my head and I had to open my eyes again. I don't know why. Why do I feel connected to that flower shop and why is my heart beating irregularly? I have to find out.

As fast as I could think, I got out of bed and walked downstairs again.

“Mom...I want to go out,” I said immediately.

"Where are you going, child? I just got back from the hospital."

"I have important business......and I'll come back soon." I walked out as soon as I finished speaking without waiting to hear another word of dissuasion from my mother. I drove out of the house and went straight to the flower shop. I parked the car not too far from the shop before walking to the shop. The closer I got to the shop, the more excited I got. I knew why until I arrived in front of the shop. I stood and looked inside the shop from the outside.

This is a small flower shop, but it looks warm and beautiful. I opened the door and a young woman standing behind the counter greeted me.

“Hello.......flower shop.

AN

Welcome.” The sweet voice and the sharp, beautiful face that smiled made me feel my heart skip a beat when I saw it. A sweet warmth flowed into my heart. I stood still like that. Until the young woman spoke up again.

"Hello...is there anything I can help you with?" the owner of the sweet voice asked again until I came out of my trance.

"Uh.....well.....I want flowers." I said as soon as I regained my composure.

"What kind do you want?....Do you want to rearrange it or try looking at the ones already arranged in the store?" The woman spoke up again.

“Let me go take a look first,” I said. Even though my concentration wasn't on the flowers, it was more focused on the owner of the sweet voice.

“Then please make yourself comfortable,” the woman smiled before returning her attention to the work she had left behind.

I pretended to look at the flowers, but my eyes kept glancing at the beautiful shop owner. My heart was pounding hard ever since I entered the shop. I had never felt like this before. I walked like that for a while before picking up a bouquet of flowers and walking towards a young woman who was arranging flowers.

“Take this bouquet,” I handed it to him.

“Just a moment,” the woman took it before taking it to decorate it before handing it to me again. I handed over the amount the girl told me.

“Thank you....Please come again next time,” the young woman said, smiling at me.

“Uh......can I have a business card?” I asked.

“Sure,” the woman said as she picked up a business card and handed it to him.

"Thank you.....and I'll call and order flowers." I said as the young woman smiled. My heart skipped a beat just seeing her smile.

I hurriedly walked out of the store before the woman could catch me. I walked up to the car and put the flowers I didn't know what they were for next to me before driving home.

After that day, I went to that flower shop almost every day. Until we started to become closer, then I learned that the owner of that flower shop's name was “Aem”. Em and I talked every day until now we are very close. I would go to the flower shop to help Em every day. We talked about almost everything until I started to feel like I really liked Em. But I still didn't dare tell Em because Em's boyfriend just recently passed away. Em told me she didn't yet. I want to date someone because I still can't get over it.

I feel bad having to like someone who still can't get over their ex. Having to fight with someone who is still in their memories is very difficult. But I'll move on because I already like Aem.

Until one day, I came to Em's shop as usual, but today I saw Em arranging things and didn't pay attention to me as I walked in until I went inside. I walked closer before calling out for Em to look at me in shock.

"The water.....came quietly. Em was shocked," Em said as soon as she turned around.

"It's quiet.....the water came out normally...but Em was busy paying attention to other things." I argued.

"So...I guess Em will pack things for fun."

“What kind of things are you organizing?...and you took everything out all over the place?” I asked, looking at the things that were piled up.

"Em is going to take out old things...I plan to donate them," Em said before turning her attention to the items.

"Then help me with water.....so we can finish quickly," I said, moving to sit next to him.

"Oh...take it," Em said before the two of us helped to take things apart and separate them between things to throw away and things to donate.

“Em...and what is this box?” I asked, taking out the box.

"Let's take a look first." Em turned to open the box before stopping.

“What is it?” I asked, looking into the box. As soon as I saw what was inside the box, I felt like I was exhausted. Why? The box was full of pictures of Em and a man. It's not hard to guess what's going on because I can tell from taking pictures, but it makes me feel exhausted because the man in the picture is someone I know well. “Brother,” I picked up the picture with trembling hands.

“Who is this?” I asked in a voice that I tried to keep from shaking.

"It's Em's girlfriend....that Em told Nam about," Em said in a sad voice and pulled the picture from my hand.

"So...still can't forget him?" I asked again.

"Em probably won't be able to forget him…..but Em has come to terms with it."

"So......Will Em keep his picture again?" I asked, waiting for the answer.

“I keep it in case I miss it,” Em said, putting the picture back in the box.

"Em...don't you plan to open your heart to other people?" I asked, looking at Em's face as well.

"Em....I don't know what to say," Em said, avoiding my eyes.

"If someone wants to take care of Em...will Em open up to him?" I moved my hand to grab Emma's hand and hold it in his.

"Give Em some time.....Right now Em can't answer."

"Then Nam will give Em time to think....and then Nam will come and give me the answer," I said, standing up because right now I also need time to think. It's because I felt like I liked Em so quickly. what Is it because of me or because of Non's heart that is within me?

"Water will go back first..Am is ready to give you the answer. When will I call for water?" As soon as I finished speaking, I immediately walked out of the shop.

I drove back to the house. As soon as I got out of the car, I immediately walked upstairs, but this time the target was not my room, but Non's room, which I had always avoided entering. I opened the door and walked in. The first thing that caught my eye was the picture on the head of the bed. I walked in and took it to look. It was a similar picture to what I'd seen at Aem's if I'd come here in the first place. It probably doesn't have to be like this. You don't have to be confused with your own feelings like this about why it happened. Even though at first I was confident in my feelings that I liked Aem because of me. But when it came Today, the truth that I just encountered makes me hesitate. Is it because of Non's heart that he loves Em the same as when it was still Non's?

“Non.....please help me answer water, what is the feeling of water?” I said to the person in the picture, confused.

"Water is completely confused...now is it the water's feelings or yours?" I lay down on the bed before closing my eyes and trying to collect my thoughts. But then I heard a voice in my head. Allow me to ease my confusion. I slowly opened my eyes and smiled a little at what I just heard.

"Thank you...for giving me the answer...now I'm sure what it is...all that's left is waiting for Aem to tell me how to answer it." I smiled at the people in the picture before putting it up. He left it in the same place and walked out of the room.

As time passed, the day I had been waiting for came when Em called me to come to the store. After I let Em think for several days, I went to the store with excitement. I don't know what the answer will be, but I'm ready to accept it. I opened the door. Em was already standing and looking, as if waiting for me.

"Are you here? You've been gone for a long time…… If Em hadn't called, he probably wouldn't have come, right?" Em asked as soon as I opened the door.

"Just give Em time to think....don't want to disturb" I said as I walked in and sat in front of Em.

“So will Em be able to give me the answer yet?”

"Before Em answers....Nam must answer Em first."

"What do you want to ask me? I can answer everything." I smiled.

“How do you feel about Em?”

“Nam likes Em... wants to take care of Em.” I said immediately without thinking because it was my feeling already.

"And will the water be able to endure it...that Em still can't forget her ex-boyfriend...still misses her ex-boyfriend?" Em asked again.

“You can bear it.....because if Em agrees to be with Nam....Water will make Em think only of Nam...As for the matter of Em not being able to forget his ex-boyfriend....Nam understands and Nam also... I won't ask Em to forget because I know that Em's ex-boyfriend is a good person,” I said while giving Em a small smile.

“What does Nam mean when you say this?....And why does Nam talk like you know him?” Em asked with a questioning look in her eyes.

"Nam knows me..I know him well...because he is Nam's older brother."

“What...what did you say?” Em asked in shock.

"Em's ex-boyfriend is Non...Nam's older brother," I confirmed to Em again.

"Then...why didn't Nam tell Em?" Em immediately asked back.

"I just found out when I was helping Em pack her things and saw the picture." I quickly said before Em got angry.

"So why Nam likes Em? Are you sure it's not because he wants to take care of Em instead of his older brother?"

“Nam liked Em before knowing this....but Nam didn't dare tell....because Em said she still couldn't forget her ex.....and Nam would wait for Em to forget her ex first. The water will tell."

"Then why are you telling me now?...I still can't forget my ex-girlfriend," Em asked in a better tone.

"Well, that person is Nam's older brother... Em, don't forget." I gave him a naughty smile.

“Then I conclude that Em is now Nam's girlfriend,” I continued immediately.

"What...still haven't agreed yet?"

"I don't know.......Nam considers Em to have agreed...now Em is Nam's girlfriend." I immediately summed it up without paying attention.

“Crazy person,” Em said while looking at the hammer, causing me to laugh before pulling Em into a hug.

"Nam loves Em.....loves me myself....and Nam promises that Nam will take good care of Em....as well as Non took care of me...Em trusts Nam."

"Oh.....Em believes in water.....and Em loves water too."

I smile thinking that back in the day I had to thank Non for making me what I am today. Because of Non's heart that is beating in my body right now, I have a lovely lover. I'm not surprised why Non loves Em. The reason I met Em was probably because Non wanted the two of us to love each other. Thank you, brother. For making this little sister like this, most importantly, thanks to P'Non for helping Nam know her own feelings.

“Right now this heart belongs to water......the feelings that arise belong to water....use your heart to lead the way.....not your brain...and you will find hidden feelings. live"

This is the last sound of my good brother. That helped me understand my heart and make it possible for me to be today.

And most importantly, what happened made me realize that sometimes the books I read have some truth in them, just like what I experienced myself.

THE  END

This story is the first short story. Please leave your comments. It may not be that good, but please give me some encouragement.

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