'Dooon, I'm sorry..'

You.. You.. I want to ask you something.

'Have you ever loved someone? Did you love them very much? I love you until I die for him. I love you until I'm gone and it's like there's nothing left in my life.'

Amidst the beautiful and cool atmosphere of the Han River in the evening, the light of the sun that is about to set is so beautiful. It's different from my mood right now where there's only pain in my whole heart. Pain close to death When thinking about the events that had passed less than an hour ago

“Dowoon,” the man who was called my lover, said as he went up the mountain to arrange for me to come here. On the banks of the Han River in the evening

“What do you say, Pil? Don't look stressed like that, I'm uncomfortable."

That's right, the person who is called my lover is 'Kim Wonpil', a senior at my university. He is a very cute person. Take good care of everything I'm glad to have you as my lover.

"Haha, what's wrong, little one? What's wrong with you?" After saying that, he put his hand up.

"No, but what about you? Why did you call me?"

I asked curiously. Normally people like Pil don't call me out when they take me somewhere. He always comes to pick me up and take me home.

"How long have we been together?" he said as he put his arm around my shoulder.

"That's it. We've been together for so long that I forgot how long we've been together."

Actually, we've been together since I was in middle school until now. He's about to graduate from university in a few months.

"Um, that's it. It's been so long that I actually forgot."

Pil, what's wrong with you today? You look strange."

“Doowoon.. If you say something today. Promise me first that I won't be sad, I won't cry."

"Why do you have to make a promise? Whatever you want to say, just say it."

I said and smiled at Pil. He looks really strange to me today.

"Promise me first.."

"Alright, I promise."

"What's wrong with you? Tell me quickly."

"..." He refused to speak, but kept his head down in silence.

"Tell me, I'm not mad at you."

Why do I feel so bad? It's like he's about to be dumped.

"Let's break up."

"Why.."

"I'm sorry I couldn't take care of you anymore. I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise to take care of you for the rest of my life. I'm sorry I made you sad. I'm sorry."

Finished speaking, the person who used to be called my lover walked away, leaving only me, 'Yoon Doun', a fool who once believed that a man named Kim Wonpil would stay by his side until the day he died, a fool. who believed in Kim Wonpil's promise What is this fool who once believed that he and I would never leave each other? Today, when they arranged for me to come out in a good atmosphere, what is this?

Did you intend to just break up with me? Why is he so mean to me? Why? Mom, but you still haven't given me time to ask questions, what should I do from now on? How can I go on with my life without him? For me it was very painful. It was so painful that there weren't even any tears to flow. The pain was as if a knife was cutting into my heart. It didn't hurt. Not much, but it's painful.

Do people passing by Mayoon Dowoon know that there are always people watching him? That person is none other than me, Kim Wonpil. I'm such a bad person. Doing this to someone who loves me this much, I know, I know he won't cry, I know how much he must be hurting. But if he knew the truth

He'd probably be in more pain.

“Wonpil, can we go now?” my mother said as she put her warm hand on my head.

"Yes, Mom. Let's go."

Now I'm traveling to a place where I can guarantee you won't want to come if you don't have to. Because the place I'm going is a 'hospital'.

“You came on time, Wonpil,” the doctor who treated me said.

"Yes." Tell me directly. Right now I really can't say anything. My current state of mind is no different from that of a living or dead person.

“Do you remember? What the doctor told me a while ago"

"Yes, I remember."

3 months ago

“Wonpil, our condition is very serious.”

The doctor who had the fever spoke with a tense expression on his face that made the audience know what I was going to say.

"Yes doctor, how long can I live?"

“Why do you talk to discourage yourself like this? But if you ask me directly, the doctor can answer no more than 6 months." After saying that, the doctor walked over and hugged me and left one sentence. It was a sentence that made me feel like I really wouldn't be living in this world anymore.

'If you have something to do, do it quickly. Before it's too late'

This is the reason why I had to break up with Dowoon. my lovely girlfriend The person who is half my life, the person who brings smiles and happiness to me. The person who has always been there for me no matter what happened, the person I love most in my life. And the person I promised to take care of and be with for the rest of my life, but in the end I couldn't keep my promise because I have leukemia and only have 6 years left to live.

The month which is now 4 months has passed. My body became weaker and weaker, causing me to make a decision that I had never thought of before in my life. It made us both sad, but I would be even more sad. If he knew the reason I had to break up with him because I couldn't stand seeing the person I loved cry on the day he knew I was going to die.

"Pil, I'm here." The door opened thanks to my close friend Brian Kang.

"Why did you come? I'm bored."

I teased it, since I've been in the hospital for three weeks I've only seen it, but it's good. It's better than sleeping alone. Right now, my condition is really bad. I don't even have the strength to move. I don't even know if I'm going to survive the night or not.

"This bastard, he won't come soon."

"Oh, don't be upset, I have something to help you with."

"What's going on?"

"You open the first drawer. There will be a letter on it. I'm going to give it to Dowoon. Don't give it to me now, give it to me first, then give it to me."

"Oh shit, that's a big deal."

Even though I complained, it agreed to my request. We talked for a while and then he asked to leave so I could rest. Hopefully I'll still be alive tomorrow.

'Doowoon, can you come out and look for me? There's a coffee shop in front of your dorm.

I received a call from Brother Brian. Wonpil's friend We've never even greeted each other in a hundred days, a thousand years, but what is this? Suddenly he called. I was confused, but I don't know what inspired me to come to the coffee shop in front of the dormitory, where right now I was sitting with Brother Brian.

"What did you call me for?"

"Wow, you'd call me betraying my friend, that is.."

"If you have anything, hurry up and say it. I'm tired."

Right now I'm really tired. Just seeing the face of my close friend Pil makes me miss him to the point of tears. Since we broke up There isn't a day that goes by that I don't cry, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't sleep soundly. No, I have to say that there isn't a day that goes by that I don't even sleep. I miss him. I miss him so much. 'Kim Wonpil', if possible, I want him to come back and be with me.

Come back side by side with Coming back to being happy together like in the old days, but I think it's probably just a dream. Just my dream

“It's... it's very uncomfortable. The doctor said he has another month to live, but looking at his condition, I don't think he'll make it. I mean.."

"Where?"

"Huh?"

"Where is Brother Pil at?"

"Before I ask you something, Take this first."

Brother Brian handed me an envelope and told me of the hospital where Brother Pil was being treated. When I received the letter I opened it and read it immediately, and it made my tears that I thought would never flow again flow again.

"I'm going to university first."

"Thank you, brother. Thank you very much for telling me. Thank you very much."

“Um, that's fine. But stop crying, Ping doesn't want to see you cry."

"Yes. Have a nice trip."

After separating from Bryan, I rushed to the hospital as soon as the time came. I immediately rushed to Pil's room. Pil's condition is different now. Really very different. Why, why does he have to be like this?

"Pil, why didn't you tell me?" I said through tears as I walked over and hugged his sleeping body.

"Dowoon.. I'm sorry.. I love you..."

He said while closing his eyes. His weak voice made me realize why his condition was so serious. Why didn't he tell me? Why is he so heartless and thinking of facing this problem alone? Does he know how sorry I am? Has he ever thought that when he has problems, I want to be the one who takes care of him and encourages him? I am truly sorry for his decision to do this.

"You answer me. Why do you do this?"

I asked the person who was asleep and unconscious. But there was no sound in response.

"You answer me."

"Answer me"

"P'Pil"

"Please don't be quiet."

"Don't do this, I'm scared."

No matter what I say What I got in response was silence. It made me feel really scared. I'm afraid I'll lose him.

"Excuse me, doctor. I'd like to take a look at the patient's condition."

A doctor's voice spoke up. So I ducked out in front of the room. The doctor walked out.

"Excuse me, are you a relative of the patient or not?"

"No, really. I'm just a junior."

"Oh, right? Then can you contact the patient's relatives for me?"

“Doctor, you can tell me. I'll go tell his mother myself."

"Well.. Doctor, I have to express my condolences.."

I ran from there. Just the doctor said this and I understood what had happened. I understood why he didn't tell me. Because it will make me cry like a crazy person like this. But right now, what I want to do the most is Hearing his goodbyes But that would be impossible, so I picked up the letter and read it again.

To Yoon Doun, my fat boy..

Uan, I'm sorry I didn't tell Uan about this. Uan will probably find out after you're gone. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry that I couldn't be with Uan. I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise. I'm sorry I couldn't protect Fat. I'm sorry I made Fat suffer. I'm sorry that I made Fat sad.

I'm sorry I made Fat cry. I'm really sorry, I'm not here right now. Being fat must be strong. Don't cry for me. Fat must continue to live. Do you know if there really is a next life? I wish to be born by Uan's side and will protect and take care of Uan until the day I die like I promised.

'I love you very much. Kim Wonpil's Yoon Dooon'

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