hello! It's the writer. I stopped writing for a long time because I was busy with university exams. I really miss it. I wrote this short story because my teacher told me to write a script too, haha.

Anyway, thank you to everyone who came to read. Please give your feedback on this short story. :)

‘Impossible’

This sentence is just an ordinary sentence that doesn't seem special to anyone. This sentence is probably the sentence that reflects someone's story the best.

(Calum narrates)

'Calum Hood' is my name. I'm a twelfth grade student who should be looking forward to going to university, but I'm just being lazy. In fact, I'm stressed, but I really don't have the heart to pay attention to those things. Can you guess what my enemy is?

“Calam! Wake up.” While I was thinking about something fun, my roommate woke me up. Let me answer right here. My enemy is laziness, from the moment I get out of bed until I lie down. Think about it.

“Mmmmm,” I moaned because I didn't want to get out of bed.

“It's already seven o'clock. You're making me late again, friend." Ashton Irwin My close friend, who was also my roommate, said in a bad mood while I was sleepily taking a shower and getting dressed.

“Damn it, Calum. Can you learn to wake up a little earlier? ” He moaned softly as he fell onto my bed.

“Well, people are sleepy. You know what I'm like.” I talked to him while taking a shower and getting dressed within a few minutes, which is one of our daily lives. When I finished taking a shower and getting dressed, I prepared some toast and fried eggs. He made it for me Damn, why is he such a good person? I thought like that in my heart as I rushed towards the school that was not too far from this dormitory.

When Ashton and I arrived at school Our school was just an ordinary high school that wasn't too far from our dorm, so it shouldn't have been a surprise that I woke up late every day. Plus, bringing my roommate late today means I came earlier than every day because right now I'm not late at all, but in five minutes I'll be spanked by the teacher on the ass. Luckily, it's our first period. Same class, so we came together.

Okay, we're on time, viewers. Just two more minutes and it was considered a life-or-death situation.

“Learn to wake up like normal people wake up, both of you. Consider yourself lucky today.” Miss Reyna scolded softly as usual.

“You'd better tell this monkey-faced bastard. I woke up almost a thousand times and still couldn't wake up.” That's too much, I woke up in one go.

“I'll tell anyone. You can take your seat now, Mr. Hood. Mr. Irwin, "Aren't you going to relax at all? Whatever, Ashton and I went to sit as Miss Reyna ordered." Before starting chemistry class, it was no wonder I slept soundly from the first lesson of the day. I sat staring at the board, looking at Ashton, who was studying intently as if it was his favorite subject, but it wasn't.

He even said that this subject was the subject he disliked the most. He and I probably have many things in common. We like similar music genres and like the same subjects. (and that's the subject he hates as well) or even the type of girl he likes, the only thing that's different is his diligence.

Damn it, how can I be as diligent as this?

“What are you looking at?” he said. I guess I probably looked at him a lot.

"No, there's something I don't know stuck on my head," he said. It's rotting and the water is scalding. Oh, isn't it? (Do you understand that it's a joke..)

“Really, please take it out for me.” This is still a matter of faith.

“Come on, take it out for me.” I took it upon myself to playfully rub his head, while he shouted loudly at me.

“What the hell are you doing?!” Ashton tried to speak softly, pinching my hand that was rubbing his messy head.

"Mr. Irwin, Mr. Hood," Oh Shit, what's the matter?

“Let's take a look at these two questions, both of you.” Miss Reyna looked at us seriously, which was appropriate. So Ashton and I had to go out to the front of the room to do this problem. Damn it, I didn't know anything about it. I looked around and Ashton did another problem before adapting it a bit to my problem. Well, I can do this much…. Fairly confident... Be confident with ghosts!!

“Very good, Mr. Irwin.” Miss Reyna looked at Ashton with satisfaction, but then she shot me a murderous look!! She looked at the question I had done before making a face that looked a little stunned.

"Seriously, you can do it, Mr. Hood. Both of you can go sit." Thank God!! It didn't cost me the energy I sent to you a thousand times to do this challenge!! After that, Ashton and I thanked the girl. The barely young woman in front of me before returning to Ashton's seat hasn't talked to me at all since we were scolded just now.

Damn it, who used you to be such a petulant person? After this lesson, we have to split up and even though we have lunch, we have to meet up. I said that I would meet with him as usual. But he didn't answer me? Never mind. Let's reconcile later.

At the cafeteria

I walked to the cafeteria at noon. There were a lot of people at once. I looked at the menu today and it was pizza and spaghetti, Italian food again, and last time it was lasagna and something I don't know. I joined the spaghetti line because there were so many people in line for pizza. I don't understand, have you guys never eaten pizza?

I turned my attention away from them and looked for Ashton who usually came to eat with me. And there he was!

“Damn, we can't wait,” he grumbled slightly before I had him line up ahead of me as penance this morning.

“What is yours? You normally give it to me, right?” He gave me a puzzled look.

"I'm sorry I caused you any trouble," I said, smiling. The kind that doesn't look like someone who feels guilty at all.

“Make yourself feel guilty. You idiot,” he laughed, rubbing the top of my head lightly. After receiving the food, we

They chatted casually until it was time for lunch. So we had to split up to study for two more classes. I studied music and Ashton studied math his whole life. Does he ever have a time to relax? Sometimes I wonder if I'm too lazy (maybe).

After finishing two stupid classes, I had to return to the dorm. If you ask me if I'm bored with this kind of repetitive life? I can't answer completely because I feel that every stupid day I have is like something magical. I feel like today is a special day because What is it? I can't answer. I just feel like that.

I thought about it as I walked to the front of the school like I always did to wait for my good roommate. As usual, we lived in the same house (dormitory) and went back together while I waited for him. Same as before But there's something different, he's with a beautiful woman?!

As I am a good friend, I have to secretly peek. (This is very good.) It looks like things are going well and we're really enjoying each other. Our friends are not easy either. I look at myself and there aren't really any girls to talk to, but I don't feel very comfortable with them so I don't end up with any of them. But wait a minute. Look closely. That beautiful girl is Mary? I used to like her.

But she gently rejected me. And I hurt softly too. Haha, when I said that, I felt a prick. I felt that I deserved to go home so I decided to leave without telling Ashton.

Did I do something bad? Why do I feel delayed and hurt? Or do I still like her?

(Ashton narrates)

After I finished chatting with my beautiful female friend Mary, I looked for Ashton in front of the school, but today felt a little unusual. Since he wasn't where he was waiting for me, I decided to call him.

“Hello Calum, where are you?”

'Oh.'

“Why didn't you go back and tell me?”

'I saw you talking to your girlfriend. So I don't want to bother you'

“Huh, girlfriend? Ara.." Before he finished listening, he cut the call and ran away from me. He must have been sleepy, so he quickly cut the call. I tried not to think about anything and walked back to the dorm alone, but I couldn't help but think that I had done it. Is something wrong? Because as far as I remember, he rarely acted like this towards me, but what was the matter? When I didn't do anything wrong Maybe he's had his period or the girl isn't interested, but he shouldn't have ended up with me like this, my friend.

At the dormitory

I entered the room and looked at Calum who was lying on the bed with a comic book on his face. I shook my head slightly before putting the comic book back in its place. I looked at his sleeping face. Even with the children, I couldn't help but laugh. When I think about his normal times, he acts more mischievous than a baby monkey, but that's what makes me like him, yes.

I said that I liked him. He didn't like me the way normal friends feel. Many people probably thought that he would be happy to be with someone he likes every day. Plus, living together, you'd think that I'd have happy moments every day, right? But do you know? This kind of thing makes me suffer ten times more than anyone else because when I can't keep my feelings in anymore.

I could be hated, which is why I've harbored this feeling for so many years. Thinking about it, why am I so unlucky that I'm gay because I'm my best friend and I can't run away? Because the dormitory here is the cheapest and it's close to the school, it would be stupid to move.

"Why do you have to look like that, Ash?" He suddenly woke up in such a way that I wasn't expecting him to die. I accidentally stared at him for too long!

“No, you only woke up when I looked at your face,” I corrected, the water clouding over.

“Lie, I woke up the moment you picked up the cartoons for me.” Oh. Oh my god, what am I going to tell you?!

“Nothing really. I just stared a little too much.” I, who is not good at talking things out, had to just tell the truth.

"Han, you've already admitted that you're staring at me," he teased in a playful manner. But I'm really embarrassed! I don't want to think about my face right now.

"Hahaha, are you blushing in anger? I'm just kidding, friend." Lucky he's stupid. So I don't know that I'm embarrassed.

“Ash, I have a question. Answer truthfully.” I really hate this kind of sentence. It makes my spine tingle all the way down my ass. Am I not being manly enough for him to look like? Or do I have to play football like a man like the NSO says?

“Um, what do you say?” I waited to hear his answer.

“You have a girlfriend, right?” Huh?

"Are you crazy? Not yet." Since I only like you, where can I get a boyfriend?!

What kind of “lies” are you, Calum?!

“I'm so naked! Where did you hear that?” Maybe he was dreaming because he often fantasizes. (Actually, I'm good at imagining things but can't make them come true.)

“I saw it with my own eyes.” And Grandma? Wait, now isn't the time for jokes.

“How can I see it? Since I don't have one,” I answered truthfully.

“Then how do we explain Mary? Mr. Irwin?”

“You're just my friend. Don't tell me you like me and are jealous of me?” I asked teasingly even though it would hurt me (because I already knew the answer).

“Is that what you like?” Wow! Then I have to take care of this job... "But it's not you".....I would like to mourn for my own dragging.

“Shocked,” I said sadly. But I couldn't help but want to smack my head or two. For making me happy for free and even being happy for less than five seconds.

“I think I like Mary.” I wasn't surprised that he liked her because she was beautiful and nice, and he liked her before. It hurt even more.

“What makes you think you like her?” The two of them felt like they weren't talking anymore.

“When I saw you talking to her this evening, it felt so painful that I didn't know, so I thought I definitely still liked you.” He gave a pained expression unlike any he had ever had before. Damn it. If you knew that I was just as hurt as you, how would you feel?

“Since you're not her boyfriend. What do I want from you?” Oh. God, don't let it be like I thought.

“Can you help me flirt with her?” It was like a bomb near the border had exploded on my unlucky face, adding to the sadness. Is there anything more unlucky in life than this?

“I really can't forget you. Please.” The sight of the cat bell he sent me made me think that I couldn't refuse.

“Fine, I agree.” Yep, you were right. I was happy to see him happy and hugging me with that happy face.. I really can't refuse him. I really have to see him be happy with someone else, right? It might work because I know I can't make him as happy as he wants. The only role I'm good at is being a close friend.

(Calum continues narrating)

After my face lit up because my best friend had agreed to help me woo the beautiful Mary I'd fallen in love with since the first time I saw her, we agreed on the pretense of asking Ashton for her number. Then call her like it was the wrong call before inviting her to talk to start the relationship. It seemed like a solid plan and my relationship with her started from there, but sadly it had to be me who started it because if I didn't say hello and talk to her that day, we wouldn't be able to. Let's talk, but I'm not giving up because I still have Ashton who is encouraging and helping me from a distance, and the day I've been waiting for has arrived!

I finally got to date her! We agreed to go see a movie together. At first we were going to watch a sweet, romantic movie to please the girl next to me, but she said she wanted to see it.

Antman

So, I just found out that women also like superhero movies, and the two of us seemed to get along well. I thought she enjoyed me as much as I enjoyed her. After that, we went to a local coffee shop to strengthen our relationship. and I opened up the conversation

“I didn't know that girls like you would like black coffee?” Because girls are creatures that cannot lack sweetness.

“The more sugar, the fatter you become. I guess you don't want to see me get fat and be a cow,” she joked.

"Damn, you're still far from being fat." I said truthfully, I could confirm it from her X-rated figure, and I thought that all the fat had gone to her breasts.

"Oh, your lips are so sweet." She smiled sweetly at me, making my heart melt. I couldn't imagine the moment I kissed her. But I'm sure it will be wonderful. While we were getting on well, her phone rang and she asked to go outside to answer the phone. So I sat waiting for her in the shop, looking out the window. I saw Ashton sitting on the pew as if he was thinking about something, looking very tense, when suddenly a man walked up to him.

It's as if we had made an appointment beforehand. Ashton's expression was bright, unlike before. What exactly is this man's relationship with him? Why didn't I know him before? And most importantly..he looked very happy from the smile he smiled at that man.

“Calum, Calum?” Mary said my name into my ear about two times, maybe more. So I regained consciousness.

“What are you looking at?” She looked at me in confusion. Is the way I look at Ashton so strange?

“Uh, no, what do you think I'm looking at?” I hope she's not being dramatic with me.

"It's like you're looking at an ex-girlfriend" huh?

“It's crazy. There aren't any ex-girlfriends around here.” Or if there were, I wouldn't be able to recognize my ex-girlfriends, but each of them has changed a lot. both better and worse There are some who have gained ten kilograms of weight, and there are some who have become so beautiful that they are unrecognizable.

“I said like Doesn't mean yes Nevermind, I really have something to tell you.” And it looks like she's prepared to become my current girlfriend (Manorang).

"I have a boyfriend." Hey Wait...did I do something wrong?! “Wait, Mary, you lied to me, right..” I was very shocked. At this point, Jane Yanthip couldn't help me.

“I'm telling the truth, and I came on a date with you because I just wanted to spite my boyfriend, but now we understand each other. So please forgive me.” She bowed her head in remorse and asked for coffee this time as penance. I also regret that she won't be my girlfriend, but it's very strange that I feel indifferent.

It's like I haven't had feelings for her since the beginning. This date must be my last date with her. Before we go our separate ways I looked towards the bench where Ashton had sat. He doesn't exist anymore. So I decided to go back to the dorm and wait for Ashton to come back to tell Mary about my relationship and who that man was.

I really want to go and see, but I think it would be too intrusive on personal matters. Why do I have to know everyone who knows him? I shook that thought out of my head and lay down and quietly read my favorite comic book, and then Ashton came back.

“Why did you come back so soon?” he asked me, looking surprised because he probably thought I was going to dinner with her tonight.

“Mary and I, we have an agreement.” I knew I was not answering the question correctly. But I just want to act in a drama by speaking a little ambiguously, causing him to misunderstand and then answer later.

“You're dating her, right? Congratulations,” Ashton said before walking away from me into the bathroom. What the hell is this pain right now? I want to know the look on his face when he found out that he had been deceived by me, that she actually had a boyfriend and that I was the one who ate the water chestnuts. Ashton had been in the bathroom for so long, did he really have to poop that much? That's it! He's out! But he kept walking with his head bowed as if he was afraid that I would look at him.

“Is this really that much diarrhea? Do you want to take some medicine?” I asked him hopefully.

“Ah, but it's okay, but are you really dating her?” He sat down on the chair and still had his head lowered as usual. His voice sounded shaky, like he had just cried, which made me start to wonder if he just had diarrhea.

“If so, why are you doing it?” I asked, trying to see his expression, which seemed very unusual. He started clenching his hands tightly as if he couldn't stand it. “What are you doing, Ashton?” I asked him seriously.

"No, there isn't anything.." I don't know what inspired me to pick up his face and look at it. He hadn't finished speaking yet. His face looked like that of someone who had just cried. It made me realize that what I had just entered the bathroom with was... he cried

“Why are you crying Ashton? I did something wrong, I'm sorry.” I pulled him into a comforting hug, even though his tears had stopped flowing.

“No..I'm glad you're dating her.” His voice sounded like he was sobbing. It made me feel even more heartbroken because I made him cry. I think he might like Mary. To cry like this

“You like Mary, right, Ash?” The question didn't come without a response, which made me sure it was true. I slowly loosened my hold and looked at his face and said,

“Listen carefully, you are not dating me. She already has a boyfriend. She only dated me to spite her boyfriend.” After hearing the truth, his face looked a bit shocked.

“Is that true?” His face looked uncertain. So I replied with a smile, “And have I ever lied to you?” He smiled, but his expression was still as serious as ever, as if the matter wouldn't end here.

"But I've been lying to you all this time." I smiled immediately when I heard this. “What do you mean?”

"I like you. I've liked you for the ten years we've been together. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry," he said sobbing before taking his bag and leaving, leaving me sitting there in shock. I couldn't understand. at all Since when did he like me? So why wasn't I bothered at all? Surprisingly, I didn't feel any disgust even though he was actually a man. I tried to get the matter out of my head before taking a shower and going to sleep.

In order to go to class tomorrow, I have to talk to him about it.

at school

I tried to find Ashton in the first class where we were meant to be together. But a new person from an unknown place came into the room instead before he could even speak a sentence or two with Miss Reyna.

“Okay everyone, listen up. Today there will be a new kid named Stephen Patson. Be friendly with him too.”

“Please introduce yourself. You can call me Steve. I'm in the eleventh grade. Nice to meet you all.” He smiled friendly at everyone before Miss Reyna asked him to take a seat. In my head, I had no idea what he was saying. I was only interested in Ashton not showing up for class, then I found out from someone else that he didn't come to school today and he was absent for several days later.

Plus, this is already the second month, how can I not be worried when he's like this? I really hate that question. 'Don't you know where he is? You guys seem really close.' If I knew, would I have asked? I felt really uncomfortable. Where is he? Not a single item of clothing was taken. I called many times and never once did they answer me after that day.

I feel like I have no intention of studying because I've been thinking about him for the past two months. I called the police but still haven't gotten an answer. I feel terrible It's not because Ashton confessed his love to me, but I feel bad that he's gone.

'Toot...Toot...' The voice without response was still the same. I don't understand why I keep calling him like this. I don't understand why he has to be gone for so long. As I was waiting for Ashton's call in front of the school, something tapped my back.

“Why do you have to look so serious, brother?” The new guy from last time, probably named Diphtheria (Steve), came and poked me on the back. “It's about me,” I said, annoyed.

“Oh, it's not Ashton's business, is it?” I turned quickly to the person who had spoken before he could speak. “Or is it?”

“What do you know?” I asked him in a serious, though irritating, mood. But this was the first way for me to meet him.

“I don't know much. Just now he's with me.” I couldn't hold back his stern expression. Is Ashton really safe with this diphtheria bastard?

“Take me to him now,” I said in a very bad mood.

“Is this a request?” His words along with his teasing tone made me feel uncomfortable. “What do you want?”

“Just Ashton. When his brother broke his heart Why do you have to torture him so much?” He spoke harshly at me, but that didn't stop me from meeting him in the slightest.

“I want to see him. Please.” Begging for something from people you hate is the thing I hate the most, especially from people I hate from the moment I see you!

“You think I'm going to be soft on this stupid request?” Damn, he's so angry!! “Then what do you want? Money or what?!”

“Interesting, but I just want you to come work with me…”

“I agree,” I agreed without hesitation, without even listening to him finish. The other person smiled angrily before taking me to meet Ashton. I walked into the luxury sports car he drove to school. I accepted. Can't deny that this guy is really rich. And it didn't look trustworthy at all. I had always looked at the direction and remembered the way. In order to be able to return to the old way, I may have acted a little rashly, but my memory is quite accurate.

At Steve's house

The way he drove was O River Road before entering a village where I thought he was taking me to his house. He parked at a large house that I didn't think I'd ever set foot on. For once in my life, I looked at his house for a long time before rushing into his house because I couldn't wait to see him and I didn't know how he was. The guy told me to calm down and walk. Leading the way to a room before frantically opening the door because right now, for just a second, I couldn't bear to see him. And I met him! Even though Ashton was with his back turned and looking out the window, I still remembered that it was my best friend.

“Ashton!” I shouted before running straight to hug him. I don't know why I had to do this. But this was the first thing I wanted to do with him after I hadn't seen him for several days.

“Yes, Calum? How did you get here? I have to ask, why did you come here?” A face with swollen eyes could tell that he had been through a lot of crying.

“I came to see you,” I said, slowly releasing the hug. “I have a question to ask you.” My stern expression might have been the cause of him turning away.

“Why do you have to run away from me? And why do you have to live with this guy?” I think he knew I was referring to that diphtheria guy. Ashton slowly turned to look at me and said to me,

“The first question is because you must be disgusted with me for being confessed to by a man..” His voice softened as if he was feeling remorse.

“And I came to be with him because he was the only one who could help me.” What does "only able to help him" mean?

“He and I met at a gay bar on Denver Street. In order to forget you, but I couldn't, so I just drank alcohol. Then he came in and started talking, which is the beginning of making us friends.” Being friends in a gay bar like this, I can guarantee that he wouldn't think of me Ashton was definitely just a friend. “We became close until I told him about you…” Before he could finish speaking, I covered his mouth with my hand.

“Listen, Ashton, I never hated you. Even though you confessed your love to me And I can tell that this guy must not be honest with you. Stop messing with him,” I said with decisive words, “but he..” Before he could finish speaking, I interrupted him to speak.

“Trust me,” I said, holding his hand. “Let's get back together. For the past several days, I've been thinking about you in my head. ”I began to see his tears slowly fall as the words that came out of his mouth tremblingly said,

“You really don't hate me.. do you? I'm a man I've loved you for ten years, pretending to be your good friend. Even though in my heart I wanted to be more than that, Calum I'm such a disgusting person.” Tears began to flow down his cheeks again. This time, I want to do my duty to wipe away the tears of the person in front of me.

“Then I must be a disgusting person. Because of the three months that have disappeared I'm afraid that you won't wake me up every day. Not coming to make me breakfast like every morning, not having people who are always beside me whether I'm in a good mood or not, not having people who really understand me like you. I just recently realized that the people who made me feel hurt during That's not Mary. But it's you.

Am I detestable enough to be with you?” Since I had reached this stage, I couldn't lie to my heart anymore and said what I felt to him.

“Oh, I don't believe you. You lied.” He acted as if he was embarrassed by the sentence I just told him. I smiled at his cute expression before saying,

“And have I ever lied to you?”

Our story ends well. Ashton and I agreed that we were lovers even though it was a bit chaotic after that day. Because he had been out of school for two months, Diphtheria, whose real name was Steve, wanted to tempt me by making a frightening offer that made me afraid to help Ashton. But luckily, I was a little too rash and didn't think anything of it. So she agreed without thinking, so he revealed this truth and wished them a long time of love.

And later found out that the guy I saw with Ashton when I went on a date with Mary was also interested in my boyfriend. Heh, sorry he was mine first and I thank God for that. Sending this gift to me who probably realized a little too late that I had a precious gift in my hands for over a decade.

The whole time he was gone it made me realize that '*people really feel loss when they lose someone they love more than themselves' even though I didn't really lose them. But I can assure you, I will accept losing him no matter what. Because he is the person who makes me feel that every stupid day I have is a special day.

*Quotes from

Good Will Hunting (1997)