[SF] without  you

{DOOJUN X YOSEOB}

Title:  With out  you

Paring:  Doojun  x Yoeob

AUTHOR:  KISA_KI

Love it Insidious

Can make a person a fool.

And I was one of them ...........

Love is so cruel

It can make a person become stupid.

And I am one of them...........

  Shira kuma

In the atmosphere of a bright love festival filled with the scent of love that spreads throughout every area. Including this private high school as well. The sweet festival of love spreads throughout the school. Young women and men prepared gifts to give to their loved ones and secret admirers from every corner of this high school.

But there is still a quiet place behind the school. It was a line that no young couple had ever walked past. But there were two youths standing in the corner that if you didn't look carefully you would definitely not be able to see them.

The small figure bent his head to hide his clear face that now had faint red streaks from his own excitement and embarrassment. His smooth white hand held a sweet-colored package containing chocolate that he had intended to give to the person he had "secretly loved" for a full year. Until finally, he firmly decided to tell him he loved him before the tall figure in front of him left from here.....

Even though in my heart I'm still afraid that the person in front of me will hate me for having a man to love me.

The tall figure stood with his brow furrowed in irritation at the sudden notice of an appointment to meet him at the back of the school today. At first he thought it was a letter from a young woman who was pestering him. So he really came to cut ties with her. But what was found instead was a cute young boy. Plus, the person who called him here didn't say anything at all, which made a hot-blooded person like him so irritated that he almost exploded.

"If you call me and don't say anything, I'll go."

After saying that, the tall figure prepared to walk exactly as he had said. This caused the small figure to frantically grab the other's arm tightly. Until the tall body felt the strength of the small body, although it was not much.

“K..that is.”

The small figure bit his pink lips, feeling depressed. The small figure's hesitation made the tall figure feel even more displeased than before.

Young Yoseob, please be bold. Just one word. Why can't I tell you?

Yang Yoseob's small body closed his eyes tightly, trying to give himself words of encouragement.

“What!!” the tall man shouted in disbelief. He Yun Dujun doesn't have that kind of patience! .Everyone knows each other well. To endure something for a long time, he has never been able to do it. That's why tall people change their sexual partners every day.

“I like you!!!” The little one said, startled by the other's voice. When I realized that I had accidentally said I love you, I was glad I was able to say it. But he was so embarrassed that he almost ran away. But the damn leg didn't move as he wanted. He could only stand still in the same place, his face flushed with blood until his entire face was hot.

Both sides were silent. This made the quiet atmosphere seem even more devoid of people than before.

“Doo Jun, I'm right here!! Yuna has been looking for it for a long time.”

The calm atmosphere was suddenly easily destroyed. When the woman's high-pitched voice broke through the quiet atmosphere,

Dujun's tall figure turned towards the voice of a young woman named Yuna, who was considered to be a very quick-tempered young lady. From the dress that shows off almost every part. She walked towards where the two were standing.

When Dujun saw that it was Yuna, the girl he was about to throw off, he quickly grabbed Yoseob's slender arm, who was standing pale with the girl's lascivious attire, and hugged her small body tightly.

“O.P. Doojoon!” Yoseob cried out in shock when he was suddenly grabbed and embraced in such strong arms.

building..lap..building..lap

The sound of his heart beating so fast that he was afraid the other party would hear it...

“Let's get together,” the tall figure said loud enough for Yuna, who was walking in, to hear. along with sending a smile to her causing the girl to stop immediately

“Let's get together,” Dujun simply whispered softly in his ear. But it was still loud enough for Yuna to be aware of the two of them as well. Yoseob could hardly believe what he had heard and experienced. Or was this just a dream? But it's a dream that I don't want to open my eyes and wake up to reality.......

The small figure accidentally nodded and answered in a rash manner, almost without realizing it. It felt like I was living in a dream that I had dreamed of for a long time.

“..K.”

“You're joking. Is that right, Dujun?” Yuna hugged her and stood looking at him with a cold expression. She looked straight at Doojun, who had been staring at her for a long time.

“What is your problem?” Dujun answered with a question instead. This made the small figure that was held loosely unable to turn its eyes to look at the girl named Yuna again. which was just in time for her to look in his direction.

Do these two know each other?

I could only question myself in my heart. I didn't dare to say anything at all.

“I don't have any problems,” Yuna said to Doojun, but her eyes were blankly staring at Yoseob. until the small body acted incorrectly

“Yuna just feels sorry for his little brother who was used as a tool....”

Yoseob's eyes widened, not understanding what the girl was saying.

Trick him into using it as a tool?

“..If you really want to break up with Yuna, you can just tell me directly. Yuna can go and tell Father to break off the engagement....”

“I don't see the need to drag unrelated people here.” Yuna crossed her arms over her chest in dissatisfaction. I'm not dissatisfied with breaking off the engagement. But I don't like that Dujun dragged other people into this. Even though she herself is a strong person, in matters of love she is so sensitive that she gets hurt over and over again.....and is afraid that other people will be like her as well.

Thinking like that, Yuna couldn't help but cast her eyes on the thin figure that her former fiancé held. Big clear eyes that tremble He looked at her and looked at Jun without understanding. Made her unable to stop thinking about herself in the past……….

“Why wouldn't it be relevant? This doctor came to tell me he loves me…”

“….Therefore, I will use this doctor as a tool! I don't see anything wrong.” Dujun said without any trembling. But it made some bodies tremble. The sweet dream from a moment ago was shattered in the blink of an eye. Like a clear glass that is shattered to the point of being unable to be put back together again.

Some felt their entire bodies numb. His big eyes were filled with tears that Yoseob had tried to hold back to show his own weakness. But the more he was embraced by this tall figure, the more it made his heart ache so much that he had to hold his chest to relieve the pain.

But it didn't help at all....

Why does it hurt like this?

The small figure could only lower his head and ask to himself. Swallowing the tears so they wouldn't let anyone see. Yoseob bent his head and held the sweet chocolate wrapper. Inadvertently, he clenched it so tightly that the sweet-colored package that had been wrapped so well was crumpled with emotions that were both confusing, painful, and chaotic to the point that some of his body didn't realize that right now his small body was trembling until the tall figure next to him felt it. But Doonjun chose not to care.

Doojun was sure that the boy in his arms loved him very much. Because if it's not By now he must have run away since he heard that he was going to use him as a tool. Even though I knew, I was still standing next to him. Even if it hurts, it means that even if it hurts, I accept it because he...

Heh, since he agreed to be such a tool, it would be a waste if he didn't use it.

“Look at Jun-nai!!” Yuna cried out in displeasure. In what the tall figure said

“Why does it have to be so hot? Since he hasn't said anything yet.” Dujun smiled at Yuna, saying it was the worst smile he had ever seen. She felt glad that she had broken off her engagement with this horrible man….

"How do you know? That kid might want to punch you for using him as a tool." Yuna shouted helplessly, demanding justice for the figure who stood there silently, not saying anything, but listening quietly.

“Tell him..are you willing to be my tool?” Dujun smiled teasingly at the woman before leaning down and whispering softly into Yoseob's ear. Some of my body trembled, I already knew the answer even though I was being used. He was willing for this person....agreed to everything whether using him as a tool.

Or let him die......

“Okay… tell her what you think.” Du Jun raised his thin chin and let out a smile. Even though I saw those two pairs of big round eyes filled with tears...

“I..” Yoseob pursed his lips tightly, feeling heavy for no apparent reason.

“It's okay..just say it, don't be afraid.” Doojun's deep, gentle voice sent to some of him so much that he could hardly believe that this was the same person as the person from just now. But when some of them looked into the other's eyes, they found only coldness. This gentleness is just an illusion.

"I love you..no matter what," he said softly. Feel the moisture flowing down your cheeks.

Yuna's eyes widened when she heard what someone said. I can't believe that some body would allow Doojun to use it as a tool, no matter how much it hurts himself......

Dujun smiled like a winner. Picking up a body with tears streaming down its face and kissing it as a reward. It was a kiss that Yoseob had longed for for a long time. But reality is often not as dreamed.

Dreaming of receiving a sweet, loving kiss. But the truth turned out to be just a loveless kiss. Bland and still full of....pain.

I know it's painful but I run towards it. Even though I know how much suffering it will cause......

“Let's date each other,” a deep voice whispered softly in my ear. Yoseob hugged his tall figure tightly. Resting your clear face on a strong chest No matter how tall he used him as a device or whatever. I just want him to be close by my side and that's enough for him....I really just want this.

"Yes..." a sweet voice answered softly.

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“Today, I'd rather make American fried rice for Dujun to eat,” Yoseob said, smiling happily to himself. Since that day, Doojoon hyung asked to date him. Yoseob became friends with Doojoon until he entered his first year. He moved to a condo with Doojoon. In order to take care of his lover closely

“Uncle Dujun...”

"what"

“Can I move in with you?” Yoseob said boldly.

"Why"

“I..want to take care of you closely.”

"indulgent..."

When he first went to propose, he had already prepared himself that he probably wouldn't go live with Doojoon. But when he heard that the tall figure gave permission, he was so happy that he could hardly hold back his smile...

A slender hand wrapped around a light brown bag containing fresh food to cook dinner for his lover. Yoseob steps inside a luxurious condo. Take the elevator to the highest floor. Some people feel that today the elevator seems to move really slowly. It was probably because he was impatient and wanted to cook food for his lover to eat quickly.

Ding!

When the elevator door opened Some people almost ran away immediately. But when he reached the front door, he didn't want to open the luxurious door at all. I felt a strange ache in my heart. I felt a strange feeling of intuition. Smooth hands wrapped around the bag of fresh food tightly and decided to slowly open the door...

Add....

“Ah..Doo Jun, someone is coming. Wait a minute. Kick,” the young woman's voice said, trying to stop the tall figure that was hiding near her breasts in a non-serious way.

A tall figure left his smooth white chest and looked at the newcomers who looked at him painfully. Before some of them walked away into the kitchen because they couldn't stand the sight they saw.

When I saw some figures walking away Doojun returned to the activity he had left off, not paying any attention to the figure who had walked away.

“Ah..Isn't that Dujun your boyfriend?” the woman asked. Along with feeling a little satisfied that some of them were able to walk away.

"Why do you care? Just me is enough," he said coldly. along with making love to the young woman very hotly They hugged each other without thinking about the third person who would also hear this love song.

Some people immediately walked away from the scene in front of them. It hurts when you see your loved one hugging someone in front of your eyes.

I don't want to see...

He had been deceiving himself all this time. Pretend that he and Doojoon love each other. Happy together as the days passed happily. Even though it's actually not!

The fact that Doojoon brought so many women to hug him He tried not to feel the pain in his heart. It hurts so much that it's hard to describe. It was like my insides were shattered until there was nothing left. Even if I try to make it back to the way it was before But I couldn't do it. This pain must stay with him forever.

Because Doojoon never once gave him time to rest his wounded heart. It's like he wants to add more pain to some body until he dies....

"vigorous..."

Yoseob's body sat and cried on the cold floor of the room, exhausted. His already fragile body at this time seemed even more fragile. Some of them let tears flow down their sweet faces. The cold floor of the room could not even be compared to the coldness his heart felt in the slightest....

Doojoon hyung...did everything I tried to do for you never reach you?

Can only ask questions that can never be answered. Because some of his timidity made him not have the courage to ask Doojun directly. Afraid of the other person's answer Afraid of getting even more pain than this.... Afraid that this heart that has been wounded over and over will not be able to take the pain any longer. Therefore he acted like a fool and did not dare to accept the truth like this.

Agreeing to stay by your side no matter how much it hurts. Even though Yoseob had previously intended that even Doojoon would never love him. Or even the slightest bit interested in him...but some of them are determined to make Dujun change his mind and look at him just a little bit.....

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Light shone through the curtains and hit some bodies covered in rose petals. Dujun stood and looked at the person in front of him with calm eyes. Thinking about last night, he never thought he'd be able to hug anyone for this long.

What is the reason? ….Probably not..

The tall figure stopped his thoughts there. Shaking his head, he dismissed the strange thoughts that were popping up in his head. Looked at the thin body that was fast asleep and made sure it was still there. before he walked out of the room.

Bang!

Yoseob slowly opened his eyelids that didn't know when they had been moist with tears. Slowly, he weakly lifted his wounded body up and leaned against the head of the bed. Clear eyes filled with tears looked around the luxurious room feeling longing.

It was unknown how much time had passed since the thin figure sat on the wide bed after the tall figure left. Yoseob got up to shower and get dressed and put everything that belonged to him into the bag he had brought to be with his lover....now he had to go.

Yoseob turned to look at the luxurious room again. Before dragging a large bag, twisting the door latch before walking out of this room....forever.

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Listen to this song too.

“D...Jun..Doo Jun!” The voice of a slender figure called out the name of his friend who was now just sitting there looking lost and not knowing where he was.

“Yoon Doojoon!!” A sweet voice called out to his tall friend, unable to resist.

“..Huh..What's wrong? It's so loud.” Look at Jun who was distracted. I thought of some figure in his room. I don't know if I'll wake up and eat anything now. I don't know what it will be like.....

“I called for a long time and never turned around. What can I do? I'm done with school."

“..Oh, I know.” Doojun replied kindly. Seeing Hyunseung complaining to himself

“I know....If you know, get up. I will continue traveling. Make an appointment with my beloved Junhyung.” The figure smiled sweetly at the tall figure who had now gotten up to follow him. “Uh..so do you want to continue together?” Hyunseung asked, not really paying attention to the other person.

“…..Better not,” the tall man immediately denied when thinking of another person who usually sat and waited for him every day.

After Hyunseung walked out to go hang out with Junhyung. The tall man immediately drove back to the condo. I don't know why today he feels like he wants to come back and see some figure who always smiles at him...

Feeling longing like never before To the point that Dujoon himself was surprised at himself right now.

A tall figure opened the door and entered a luxurious room..which today seemed very quiet. Because he didn't see the frail figure standing there smiling and welcoming like usual.

Yoseob hasn't woken up yet?

Thinking of this, he immediately walked into the bedroom. Open the door to go inside. Casting his sharp eyes towards the wide bed that should have had some bodies lying on it.....but now it was empty without the body of the person he now wanted to see the most.

Where are you going?

Doojun felt uneasy. Run and open every room like a crazy person. To find the little body that disappeared...

“Yoseob...where are you going?”

The tall man ruffled his own hair until it was messy. But it couldn't compare to his heart right now, which felt completely hot because some of his body suddenly disappeared. Even though in the past, no matter where he went, wherever he was, just casting a slight line of sight would see some figure smiling at him. But now, no matter where his sharp eyes swept, he found only emptiness....

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The bright sky had now turned into a dark sky. Decorated with hundreds of stars Doojoon's tall figure didn't stop trying to find the small figure. Wandered around looking for the crazy man's trap, going everywhere where he expected to meet Yoseob. But all I got back was emptiness....

A tall figure rests on a chair in the park. After searching for the little figure since the afternoon, many restaurants have all closed. including fewer and fewer people Now the tall figure felt tired like never before. Not just the body...but the mind as well. The tall figure rubbed his handsome face, which now looked clearly tired.

Where have you gone, sir? Why did you say you would stay with me and not go anywhere?

“Doojoon hyung...me..I'll always be by your side. I'm not going anywhere.”

“If you plan to stay It's here," the deep voice said nonchalantly.

"Oh, I'm not going anywhere...."

"I told you I couldn't do it...why would you tell me?" the tall man said weakly. Feel a tight feeling in your chest. that has been compressed since the time when a thin body was previously in sight but never cared has disappeared from this pair of eyes Like someone once said. When important things are nearby, we often don't notice their importance. But when it disappeared, its importance was only recently seen.

Yoseob..are you going to use that important thing?

The tall figure slowly closed his eyes. Thinking back to the days since he first met some body. He had never been interested in the thin body at all. Always hurting Joseph's feelings. Until now, he felt guilty for doing that. If he could go back in time, he wouldn't do this. But he couldn't go back and fix anything.

“God Please let me meet Yoseob one more time...” The tall figure looked up at the night sky pleadingly.

“Let this fool do something for him. To erase the things I have done..”

Let me tell him this feeling too.

The tall man sighed weakly. I don't know what inspired him to plead with God like this. But he felt encouraged. I felt that I would meet some body again as I had requested. Doojoon rose from his chair. Looking around, I don't know where I should start looking first. But had to stumble upon some figure walking on the other side of the road.

“Yoseob...” A deep voice said with an overwhelming feeling, both happy and not knowing what to do. Even though he couldn't see clearly, he was sure that it really was Yoseob. A certain figure that he had been searching for all day. I'm walking with my bag to grow on the opposite side of the mountain...

The tall man smiled happily. Feel the heart that was previously withered begin to beat rhythmically again. Du Junwin stood on the side of the road, watching the cars speed by in front of him. I want to run up and grab her body and wrap it in an embrace.

When the light turned green, a tall figure hurried across the road to find a figure walking around the corner and disappearing from view.

“Yoseob!!” The tall figure ran panting, calling out the name of a thin back from far away. Yoseob was slightly startled when he heard the familiar sound and felt longing all the time. But now he doesn't want to meet the person he dedicated his whole heart to.

He was afraid, afraid that if he turned around he wouldn't be able to get over Doojoon. causing some bodies to immediately run away

Please don't follow me, Dujoon.

Yoseob's thin body frantically ran away from the tall figure that was trying to follow him. Tears that had dried up once again flowed down her clear face. He will easily become weak.

“Yoseob!!!!”

The tall figure shouted and screamed as some of the figures ran away from him until they stumbled and fell. Doojun hurriedly ran towards some figure who was trying to get up but was struggling too much with worry.

The moment he stepped forward, he found some bodies sitting exhausted on the ground because they were in so much pain that they couldn't get up. There was a car traveling at speed and crashed into some bodies sitting on the ground, sending them flying far away. The sound of a car horn still reverberated in his ears.

Dujun's eyes widened as he looked at the body that had been hit and floated by the strong impact in shock. A tall figure slowly walked through the crowd of people who had gathered around to watch the scene. Walking towards a figure lying motionless, the entire body was drenched in the color of a crimson rose like a red blanket.

“...Yoseob” strong arms went to lift the thin body into a trembling embrace.

“Yoseob, wake up.” His hands stroked his clear face, which now looked extremely pale. His once ice-cold heart easily broke. My heart fluttered every time I felt the red blood flowing from the thin body in the strong embrace.

“P..Dujun..” A hoarse voice came out weakly, almost turning into a whisper. Blinking your eyes, you looked at the person holding you gently, wondering if this really was Doojoon who used to be so cold. Why does it seem so painful and warm right now?

“Yoseob..Yoseob doesn't..it's okay. I'll go call an ambulance. Please be patient.” When Dujun saw some of his body reacting, he hurriedly uttered words with joy.

“You don't have to follow me. I... have something I want to say to you.” A pale white hand held a strong arm, shaking his head gently to prevent the tall figure from moving away. I want my tall figure to embrace him like this.

“What are you talking about? Blood..there's so much blood on you..” Dujun was immediately stopped when he saw the pleading eyes of the fragile-looking figure in his arms. He couldn't say no to the figure in front of him. I could only hold another person tightly in my strong arms. I feel my heart hurting so much.

Seeing the tall figure do as he asked, some of them let out a smile. Even though it looks very weak

“Brother..brother..please listen to me..please..just. Just.” Yoseob coughed until he threw up. I felt my heart rate completely weaken. Some people know that they don't have much time left. And this feeling, the strong body was aware of the temperature of his thin body that was getting colder and colder until it was shocking. But some bodies cannot be denied.

I want him to stay and listen to me quietly....

"I..I probably can't... anymore." Some of the people spoke in short bursts. His voice was weak, indicating that he really couldn't take it anymore. "So..please listen to me quietly..just..please..."

Dujun could only tighten his trembling hug a little tighter before he gently nodded in response. The pale figure inhaled softly before slowly moving his pale lips to say one last thing to the tall figure. His "first love" and his "last love" as well "...

When I'm not around, I have to take good care of myself. Don't act crazy. Study hard to get good grades. Just quit smoking. It's not good for health. And keep a calm face. If you can't do that, the girls will all be afraid and run away. Learn to smile sometimes...smile..smile a lot...." Some bodies now look so fragile that people looking at them can't disobey the orders of the person in front of them.

He could only nod and let out a smile. Even though it wants to be cold....

When some of them saw the tall figure let out a small smile, it made him very happy....

Saw you smile at me for the first time And for the last time, I don't have anything else...I love you.

The pale figure let out a soft, cotton-like smile, slowly rising up before slowly closing his eyelids. Close your eyes and sleep like the sleeping beauty in the story, waiting for the prince to kiss you and wake you up from a long slumber...

“..Yoseob..” Dujun let out a soft hoarse voice. A trembling hand stroked the eyelid of the thin body that had always had big eyes looking at him, hoping that there would be big eyes staring at him one more time.

I don't know when the tears silently flowed down his dark face. The tall figure bent down and pressed a soft kiss on the pale lips of the still figure. Even though it was just a light touch, many feelings were conveyed.

"Sweet dreams, princess...I love you." He said in a soft whisper, saying sweet words that he had never said before...

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A cool wind blew throughout a cemetery. The cool breeze made the atmosphere even more gloomy. The cold atmosphere made people bitterly sweet. Even more, the atmosphere was quiet and lonely and the space seemed very sad. Gravestones line the lush green hills. Stone markers engraved with the names of many people who have lost loved ones and cannot return them are scattered throughout the area.

Strong hands gently stroked the cold stone. It was as if he was touching someone who had long since passed away. A bouquet of white roses was placed indicating his pure love for him. The many days he had passed still lingered on him. It's like it was just yesterday.

The first Valentine's Day he met someone. And every year on this day, he always comes back to see me with a beautiful bouquet of roses.

“Yoseob..Happy Valentine's Day,” a deep voice said softly. Kneeling to cover the corpse of a loved one that he had never cared about before Until the moment of loss, I understood "love"

But I remembered this time.

When you walked far away from me

If you're still here I will hug you to make you happy.

and speak slowly Everything that is in my heart…..