Only Tears

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LUMIN 

 KAIMIN

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B E R L I N ❀

Only Tears

LUMIN ♡ KAIMIN.

“You love me, don't you? You said you love me…” Minseok kept asking repeatedly. When hearing the words of breakup from another person's mouth 'Let's break up,' came a cold, disinterested voice. When I heard it, I couldn't imagine that it was the voice of people who had loved each other before.

The cold look from the person in front answered his question very well. In fact, he should have used the word 'I love you' to be correct. Yes...Luhan had said that. But that was a long time ago...

For days, Minseok had felt distant but chose to console himself that Luhan was working too hard, that he was tired, that he probably needed some alone time. If it seemed clear now that Minseok was wrong.

“You go pack your things in your room too.” The tone and look in his eyes pierced Minseok's heart. Clear water dripped from his round eyes.

Minseok used both his arms to hug Luhan from behind as he turned to walk away.

“Luhan...are you kidding me? I'm sorry...if I bothered you too much. I won't be spoiled anymore...but please don't tease me like this...na...Luhan.” A sob cut the sentence apart. It indicates how sad the person speaking is.

The person being asked did not say or answer anything. Slender hands tried to pull away the arms that were wrapped around him. And that was a good answer for Minseok... Luhan wasn't joking.

“Luhan...I'm hurt.” Minseok frowned. But Luhan didn't seem to care about his protest and continued to increase his strength until he was able to pull away from the arms that were hugging him. Then walked away without looking at Minseok again.

Minseok sat down on the ground and looked down at the red blotch on his arm. From Luhan's actions just now

“Minseok...are you okay?” Jongin walked over and helped Minseok up. He looked at the events just now for a while.

"....." Minseok couldn't answer but cried...so hard that Jongin had to pull Minseok into a hug. Hopefully this hug will help the little body feel a little better...just a little bit is good.

After school, Minseok and Jongin stay to take care of their unfinished business at the art club. Jongin will stay and wait until Luhan comes to pick up Minseok before he can leave. If Luhan didn't come to welcome Minseok today...but came to say goodbye.

“I'll drop you off…” Jongin said, gently stroking the back of the person in his arms.

The small apartment in front was where Minseok had lived for a while. It used to be so warm that he thought it was home. It's been almost a year since Minseok has been dating Luhan. I remember that at that time he went to buy things at a convenience store near the school. Luhan is an employee there. The first smile that Luhan sent to Minseok is still vividly remembered to this day.

Then he often went to the store to buy things. Until you are sure that your feelings are the same. So Luhan took the initiative to ask for his phone number first. Then call every day after work, late at night, or whenever you have free time. It had been like that for a month before they decided to get together. If love always has obstacles

Minseok's uncle finds out that he's dating a convenience store employee. So he ordered Minseok not to continue dating Luhan. Uncle searched for various reasons to persuade. Both the status is as different as heaven and earth. and the matter of Luhan being a man But that's it...Minseok never gives up. He disobeyed his uncle's orders and got into a serious quarrel.

It was so severe that the uncle even said that...if you haven't broken up with Luhan yet, don't show your face at the house again. That was why Minseok had to stay in this small apartment.

“Do you want me to come in too?” Jongin asked when he saw Minseok stop in front of the building for a long time. The person in question shook his head in response before going inside.

Minseok opened the door to his room as usual. But today, he came to take things out of here. Pick up everything. Because it seems that the owner of the room doesn't want to see even one of his belongings left behind.

“Luhan, come on...Minseok will see you soon.” A woman's voice came from the bedroom. This made the hand that was taking off his shoes stop...clear water began to pool at the corners of his eyes. But Minseok tried to hold back.

"I told you we broke up...you don't believe me?"

“Really...why? I suddenly saw you were dating each other.” His voice was pleading like that. It hurt Minseok's heart so much.

“Um...that's true. I'm done with it... well, there's no more money. The money he had with him was almost gone. His uncle hadn't given him any money for a while. If you continue this relationship, I will definitely have to spend more money raising him. Just these past few months I have had almost nothing to eat.”

"So you're dating me because of the money?"

“No...I love you Na Eun Ji. I've always loved you.” This sentence from Luhan immediately shattered the wall of tears that Minseok had built. Clear water flowed from a pair of beautiful eyes.

Money...Luhan I'm dating him because of the money.

Minseok walks in and yanks the bedroom door open. Saw Luhan hugging a woman. He knew this woman well because she was the daughter of the owner of the shop where Luhan worked... The sight before him didn't hurt Minseok that much. Because he was hurt until his feelings were completely numb.

The woman was shocked to see him. She pushed Luhan away before moving to sit behind Luhan... unlike the owner of the room who looked at him with cold, expressionless eyes and was even annoyed at his interruption.

“Hurry up and pack your things and get out.”

"Are you really dating me because of the money?...When you said you loved me it was never true, right?"

The person asked sighed heavily. Letting the media know that they're completely annoyed.

“You don't even know?” His voice sounded like he was accusing Kim Minseok of being so stupid. Minseok took off his shoulder bag and threw it in Luhan's face.

“If you want a lot of money Just take my stuff and sell it. Consider it a payment for me staying in your room.” After saying that, Minseok immediately ran out. He couldn't stay there. I couldn't bear to look at those indifferent eyes again...just for a second.

Jongin looked at the person sitting next to him with concern. Minseok has been sitting quietly like this since coming down from that apartment... Not even bothering to wipe away the tears that were falling down until Jongin had to hand him a tissue...

“The next stop will be at your house.” Minseok nodded his head up and down in acknowledgement. But my eyes drifted outside the bus. Jongin sighed softly. He felt bad seeing Minseok like this. It hurts so much I can't tell.

Jongin walked in and dropped Minseok off at home...

“Minseok…” The owner of the name took his hand away from typing the code to unlock the door and turned to look at the person calling. Eyes moist with clear water.

Jongin pulls Minseok into a hug.

“I won't stop you from crying. Cry out. Bring all your tears out. And tomorrow, don't let me see your tears again...can you do it?”

There was only a sob that came back in response. Minseok didn't dare promise. He wasn't sure if he could do it.

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Minseok walked into the house tiredly... He was tired, so tired that he felt like he wanted to fall down here and know that he would survive.

“Minseok…” A middle-aged man called out. The tone of his voice showed how happy he was to see his grandson. Minseok rushed into the embrace that was already waiting with open arms.

“Uncle...I'm sorry. I'm sorry I didn't believe you.” The uncle could only gently stroke his nephew's hair. Minseok's words were enough to easily guess what was going on. Because he had already warned this grandson...

Yunho...is the only relative Minseok has left. Minseok's parents were killed in an accident when he was still in elementary school. Then he lived with his uncle all the time. Uncle loves Minseok so much that he is willing to not have a family. Because he wanted to take care of Minseok as best he could. And has always done it well.

Uncle is responsible for every aspect of Minseok's life, including Minseok's family company. Intending to take care of her until Minseok graduates and is ready to take over.

“Have you eaten anything yet? Are you hungry? I'll have the maid cook something for you.” A large hand wiped away his nephew's tears... he always did this when Minseok cried... Minseok shook his head before hugging his uncle again...

It had been several days since Minseok had come home. Jongin could feel that the other person wasn't as cheerful as before...but it wasn't strange that he was like that. Because Jongin knows how much Minseok loves Luhan... So much...that sometimes he just thought he was jealous of Luhan.

“My father's company organized an art exhibition. Do you want to go take a look?” Jongin asked the person sitting absently.

“Minseok…” A hand touched the owner of his shoulder. Eyes filled with clear water, he looked back and forced a smile. The sweet face nodded gently. Jongin didn't say anything comforting because he knew that he wouldn't be able to stop Minseok's tears from falling. He could only give him a comforting hug...even though this hug couldn't warm Minseok's heart like that Luhan's hug.

“You wait... I'm going to put things away at the club first. I'll be right back,” Jongin said before slowly releasing Minseok from his embrace.

Tears fell and Minseok had to forcefully wipe them away. I hate myself for acting so weak. It's pitiful to just sit and think about that heartless person. Minseok stood up and headed towards the bathroom. He should wash his face and eyes before Jongin returns. Because if the other party saw the tear stains, they would definitely feel uncomfortable. He didn't want a good friend like Jongin to suffer as well.

“Huh!! We've been broken up for less than a week and you can already find someone else...quickly too.” That voice made his entire body numb. Joy rose when he heard it, but the indifference in his voice squeezed his heart to the point of being torn as well.

"Why have you come? Or are you here to see if this stupid guy has already died?" Tears welled up again and I couldn't stop him. The eyes that looked at Luhan didn't hide the pain at all.

Luhan swayed his shoulders before a smile curled his lips. He steps closer to Minseok. A slender hand lifted up and ran a finger across her smooth cheek. ...That heartless look in his eyes made Minseok's already broken heart shatter into pieces.

“Missing…” a blurry voice whispered. “It's something you should know about, right? I don't have to tell you.” Minseok slapped Luhan's hand away before pushing him away with all his might.

“I never thought you would be like this,” Minseok chided painfully.

“What kind?...Is this like this?”

Minseok was pulled into a kiss. If he pressed his lips so tight that Luhan had to bite his lip until it was dripping with blood. Dried tears flowed down again. Luhan had never used such barbaric violence against him... A hot tongue swept across his mouth, which was heavily scented with the smell of blood. Slender hands caressed smooth, soft skin.

Luhan pulled his lips out and hungrily kissed all over the white folds of his neck. Then he pushed Minseok to sit on the edge of the sink before undoing his pants.

"Huh...stop it right now...if you don't want me to hate you even more." His small hand scratched Luhan's neck until it drew blood. Luhan froze before looking at Minseok with a cold smile.

“Hate?” Luhan felt the hot body of his small body harden with his arousal. "If you hate me...why do you respond to me like this?" His slender hand kneaded hard until his small body moaned loudly. Both happy and sad until completely confused. I want to resist this touch, but another heart longs for me. Even though there was no gentleness left, it filled my heart with happiness deep down. The hand that was once scratching Luhan's neck suddenly wrapped around him.

Minseok was startled when Luhan's demands came in without him even realizing it. The small figure clenched his teeth. I could only swallow the lump in my throat. I don't want to cry out and make another person feel any more sad. His whole body shakes from the force that Luhan throws at him. His full lips were bleeding again as he tried to bite them down so that no sound would come out.

The more he saw Luhan's opposition, the more violently he hit his body until Minseok burst into tears. The small figure dug his nails into the other's shoulder to release the pain.

“Why...hug...why do you hurt my heart this much...hug? Why...Luhan?" Minseok sobbed. Her pretty face rested on Luhan's chest, exhausted. Once again, Luhan stopped.

“Do you want to know?” a calm voice asked before lifting Minseok's chin. His hot lips were pressed against his full lips and he was sucking violently until the wound that had broken open was completely stinging. Thick hips thrust into the small body with all their strength. It wasn't long before a low, hoarse moan signaled that all the desire had been released. Luhan parted his lips and pulled away from his small body.

Slender hands bent down to pick up Minseok's pants and pulled out a small leather bag. He pulled out a stack of banknotes and stuffed them into his pocket.

“Because of someone like you…” His eyes roamed over the other person's body without concealment... “Apart from things like the money in the bag....there's nothing interesting at all.” Luhan sneer The pants in his hand hit Minseok's chest before they fell to the ground again. Luhan made a noise in his throat before walking away without looking back again.

Minseok slowly moved down from the sink before picking up his pants and putting them on. His small heart was so cut by those words that there was no space left for the pain.

Minseok carried his weak body out in front of the bathroom. Saw Jongin standing sideways on the bench in front of the school building. No matter what, he knew that the other party was probably looking for him... The small figure slipped into the bathroom again before pulling out the small phone in his pants pocket... In less than a minute, a message was sent to the number. Jongin's...

I went home early and felt dizzy. Probably won't be able to go see the exhibition. I'm sorry...see you tomorrow...

Minseok slowly sat down. His thin back leans weakly against the wall... His sweet face rests on the arm that hugs his knees tightly before letting tears fall... He can't go out and meet Jongin in this condition. ..not really

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Jongin looked down at his watch impatiently. In five minutes it will be time for class. Why hasn't Minseok come yet? He pressed the phone to call Minseok but no one answered. He was starting to get so worried that he couldn't keep quiet.

Jongin's phone vibrated to notify him of an incoming call...he looked down at the number before smiling.

“Minseok, where are you? The teacher is about to start teaching.”

(Jonggin, this is Uncle)

“Oh, sorry, I thought it was Minseok. Hello, Uncle.”

(It's okay. Uncle will call to say that Minseok is sick. Uncle has now taken me to the hospital. Please leave teacher Jongin for Minseok.)

"Yes, I'll tell you."

(Jong In...next time, I'll leave it to Minseok too.) That voice was laced with concern.

“Yes, Uncle…” Jongin answered firmly. Take care of Minseok...he's wanted to do this for a long time.

After school, Jongin rushed to see Minseok at the hospital. The small figure lay on the bed, his face pale and pale, like he was a different person from the one Jongin knew... Not long ago he could still see Minseok's smile... But now I'm not sure if he'll ever see it again.

“Oh, Jongin is here?” Yunho greeted.

“Hello, Uncle Yunho.” Jongin bowed his head in greeting before turning his eyes back to the person lying on the bed.

“He's not feeling very well.” A middle-aged man walked over and gently stroked the patient's hair. “He shouldn't have to go through something painful like this. Uncle has already warned you...but he's still stubborn.” The sentence sounded like a reprimand. But it is filled with care and love.

“I didn't think it would be like this either,” Jongin said based on his feelings. Over the past few months, Luhan has shown how much he loves Minseok. Even he believed Luhan. But look at Minseok's condition now...

"I'll be right back."

“What would you like me to get?” the convenience store employee greeted. But he stopped when he saw the customer's face.

“I have something to discuss with you.”

“If it's about Minseok. I don't have anything to talk about..." He said nonchalantly before walking out of the counter. Then arrange the items on the shelves in their place.

Jongin took a deep breath, suppressing his anger before walking over and tugging at the collar of his shirt. Then he threw a punch at Luhan until he fell to the ground. Another female employee screamed in shock. Customers who chose to buy things gathered around to take a look.

“Does it hurt?” he asked when he saw the person who had been punched used the back of his hand to wipe the blood from the corner of his mouth. “...but this is nothing compared to what Minseok was hurt...” Jongin trailed off before breaking through the circle of onlookers and leaving the store...

Jongin is back at the hospital again. The anger was released into the fist that was thrown at Luhan. But it's still not over...He's not sure if he punches Luhan another hundred times, will his anger go away?

Minseok began to move slightly. It was like a sign that he was about to wake up. Jongin smiled with happiness.

“Jongin…” Minseok called as he opened his eyes to see the person sitting next to the bed.

“Uncle Yunho?” The patient looked around the room for the person in question.

“Go talk to the doctor...are you feeling better? Are you uncomfortable anywhere else?” he asked, touching Minseok's forehead with his hand.

"Not anymore..." A small smile was given to him.

Even though Minseok was smiling...but his eyes were so dull that Jongin was heartbroken.

Yunho came back into the room again. With a nurse bringing in dinner and medicine...

“Tonight, I will sleep with Minseok's friend. Uncle, you'd better go back and rest,” Jongin said.

The uncle was feeling considerate...but he thought again that by leaving Minseok with a trusted friend...maybe the nephew would be able to relieve some of the pressure in his heart...

“Alright then…” Yunho smiled back before walking towards Minseok.

“Uncle will stop by tomorrow after work... “

“Yes…” The sick man smiled before bending down to continue eating. If I were to say it correctly...I would have to say that I bent over and kicked the rice back and forth.

“I'll take you to the car,” Jongin said before walking with Yunho...

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“Jonggin...what's wrong with you? Why are you watching so quietly?” Minseok asked while changing the TV channel.

“No.” Minseok knew the answer wasn't true…but he didn't want to bother if Jongin didn't want to tell him.

His eyes turned back to stare at the TV...but he looked so distracted that he knew that what was currently showing on the screen wasn't in Minseok's mind at all. Jongin watched until his little body fell asleep. He stood up from the sofa and walked over to Minseok.

“Minseok will have to stay at the hospital for a while… Until the doctor can find the best way to treat it. We are now waiting for the analysis results from experts.” Yunho's words came back to his mind...the answer he got when he asked about Minseok's condition when he walked down to drop Yunho off at the car. ..

Jongin reached out and gently stroked Minseok's hair...tears began to well up until he felt a hard lump in his throat... If it hurts, you can replace it. He wanted to take all of Minseok's pain...Jongin bent down and gently kissed Minseok's forehead. From now on, he will be the one taking care of Minseok...

Jongin left the hospital early to go home and get dressed for school...Even though he was still worried about Minseok...but he couldn't abandon that duty either.

‘Don’t forget to continue teaching me…understand?’ He was also amused by the command Minseok had given him before he came out.

Time passed slowly. Until Jongin wanted to walk and turn the hands of the clock until it was time to end class quickly. It's a good thing today is Friday or he would definitely die. If I have to sit and wait for class to end like this again... As soon as the signal to signal the end of class sounded, Jongin immediately grabbed his bag and rushed out of the room...

Jongin looked down at the bag of comic books he bought in his hand. While at the hospital, Minseok must have been bored. If I had a comic book as a friend, it might alleviate my loneliness a bit... He smiled as he thought of Minseok's smile when he saw the things he had brought. I hope your smile becomes brighter, Minseok. You can only pray in your heart...

If his smile faltered when he saw Yunho sitting with his head down in front of the emergency room...

“What happened, Uncle?” He hurriedly ran towards Yunho.

“Minseok isn't feeling well…” Yunho's tears fell. It's like he used a lot of effort to stop it.

Jongin clings to the emergency room door before craning his neck to look through the clear glass... Clear water slowly fell from his eyes...

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“Change of heart? Minseok has heart disease?” Jongin exclaimed upon hearing the cure from Yunho's mouth... He knows it's difficult. People who would donate their hearts are very rare. Because the demand for it is many times greater.

“Yes…” Yunho nodded.

“Why did I never know that Minseok's condition was this serious?” He only knew that Minseok was not strong... but he never thought that it would be such a serious disease.

"Can't there be any other treatment?"

“Minseok's current condition...requires a change of heart,” Yunho replied before raising both hands to rub his face and sighing tiredly.

Minseok is still under the close care of doctors... Always stop by to take a look... Yunho uses every means to find someone to donate his heart to his grandson. In this life, he only had one Minseok. He didn't want to lose his only grandson like this.

“Is it true, doctor?” Yunho asked on the other end of the line, emphasizing that what he had heard was definitely not wrong. The doctor called and said there was a heart donor for Minseok. After hanging up the phone, Yunho immediately rushed to the hospital. But he didn't forget to call and tell Jongin the good news...so when he got to the hospital, he saw Jongin sitting and waiting...

The doctor brought documents for Yunho to sign giving consent for Minseok to have surgery...

“Uncle...I have something I want to confess to you,” Jongin said while waiting in the hospital coffee shop.

“Do you like Minseok?” Yunho seemed to know Jongin's thoughts.

“Yes...I would like permission to take care of Minseok.” Jongin bowed his head, knowing that he might be rejected. Minseok's uncle had blocked Luhan before... because he saw that this kind of love was inappropriate.

“Uncle already told you... that I'd leave Minseok with you.”

“Uncle, you don't prevent love like this anymore?” Jongin looked up and asked happily. Yunho smiled before shaking his head.

“Now…what will make Minseok happy? Uncle agrees to that." His smile fell when he thought of his nephew... As long as Minseok can get through this...from now on he won't stop Minseok from doing anything again... Even wanting to go back to Luhan...he wouldn't stop him at all.

More than half a day has already passed...Minseok's surgery isn't finished yet...Jongin and Yunho are now sitting in front of the operating room waiting. Time passed so slowly that he wondered if the clock had died. Why does the needle move so slowly?

The operating room door opened..before the team of doctors and nurses walked out of the room...

“Uncle...the doctor has come out.” Jongin touched the arm of the person next to him who had fallen asleep due to exhaustion from waiting for many hours...

Both Yunho and Jongin rushed towards one of the doctors who had just walked out of the operating room.

“How are you, doctor?” Yunho asked with hope.

“The surgery went well...but we have to wait and see if the patient responds well to the new heart...”

"Doctor, I would like to meet the relatives of the person who donated the heart. I would like to thank them."

Yunho said with relief...if the tone in his voice was a little sad when he thought of the owner of that heart...he saw the doctor look behind him before answering.

“Yes...the patient's relatives also want to see you...that's it.” The doctor gestured towards the nurse's counter. A man was signing documents or doing something else. Jongin felt a familiar face...but couldn't remember where he'd seen it before.

“Are you a relative of the person who donated the heart?” Yunho's voice caused the man to look up at the face of the person who had spoken. Those eyes were swollen and red, as if they had just cried a lot...

The person asked nodded lightly. Even though I tried to wipe away the tears, the clear water came up again.

“Thank you, Mr.…” Yunho trailed off because he didn't know the other person's name.

“Jaejoong...I'm Kim Jaejoong...I'm Luhan's relative.” The last name made the hearts of the listeners flutter...

Jongin looked at Yunho before looking at Jaejoong again...

That's right...Jongin had seen this man when he went to eat with Minseok and Luhan in their room. If that was months ago...he only saw him for a moment because Jaejoong just dropped by to see Luhan and it was like he had business to go somewhere else.

“Luhan?” Yunho repeated the name. Of course he knew the name well… but he didn't know if it was the Luhan he knew or not.

"yes..."

“Wait a minute...Who donated the heart...Luhan?” Jongin started to feel frightened...Didn't Yunho say the donor was a brain-dead patient?

Jaejoong nodded as tears fell down...

“Please give this to Minseok...tell him to take good care of Luhan's heart.” Jaejoong handed a small cardboard box to Yunho. before using the back of his hand to wipe away tears

“What happened? It means... Luhan...” Jongin felt like someone was hitting his head with a stick. It felt completely numb.

“He got hit by a car…” Jaejoong tried to hold back his sobs. The scene from that time still lingers in his mind.

It was very painful to see my younger relative get hit by a car in front of my eyes like that...

He planned to stop by the shop to see Luhan. Another female employee said that Luhan went shopping across the street. So he came out and stood in front of the store... He saw his younger brother crossing the road... In his cell phone, newspaper or something, he's not sure... Luhan saw him and waved hello. Jaejoong smiled widely before waving his hand in response.

Luhan waited until the crossing light turned green and crossed over... already in the middle of the road... just a few more steps... but a car crashed into Luhan's body right in front of his eyes. he... Jaejoong felt like the world stopped turning... He heard screams of fright all around. Jaejoong hurriedly ran towards his younger brother who was lying in a pool of blood.

There was so much blood that the white shirt Luhan was wearing was completely red...

“Sir, don't touch him yet. I'll call an ambulance first.” A good citizen came up and held Jaejoong back, preventing him from reaching out to touch his younger brother.

“Luhan...can you hear me? Luhan” Jaejoong felt like his heart was about to break. When he saw the blood flowing from the wound on his younger brother's head,

Luhan slowly opened his eyes. His hand moved gently. It seems like Jaejoong turned his attention to what was in his hand... Jaejoong looked down before pulling the newspaper out of Luhan's hand.

“Minseok...Minseok...” The voice was barely above a whisper, so Jaejoong had to tilt his ear down to listen.

“Minseok...my heart goes out to Minseok...” That was the last voice Jaejoong heard.

Luhan's bloodied body was taken to the hospital... Jaejoong sat crying in front of the emergency room. His hand tightened on the newspaper he took from Luhan before he looked down... He saw a square area in the corner that said they needed a heart donor... along with the name of the hospital and the names of the patient's relatives...

Jaejoong just understood the sentence that Luhan was trying to say...

The doctor came out and said that Luhan's condition was getting worse... Luhan's brain was dead. But he's still alive only because the doctor used a ventilator... Jaejoong felt like his heart would break when he heard it... He collapsed and sat there crying...

As soon as I finished listening to Jaejoong's story, Yunho nearly collapsed until Jongin had to hold him up. Even though Jongin himself almost fell to his feet.

What kind of person is Luhan?

"I'll beg you first..."

“Wait a minute...I want to repay you,” Yunho said with gratitude.

"No need to, I'm just following my brother's wishes," he said before walking away.

Yunho had tears in his eyes... the person he was supposed to thank... didn't get a chance to hear these words from his mouth.

Jongin helped Yunho to sit on a nearby chair. Yunho looked down at the cardboard box in his hand before tears began to flow. He felt guilty...guilty that he had misjudged Luhan.

“You break up with Minseok...how much money do you want?” He had gone to Luhan at a convenience store and offered him this.

"I don't need money..."

“Then what do you want?...Minseok can't be in a condition like this.” Yunho said before looking at the clean white employee uniform that Luhan was wearing with disdain.

“I don't need anything...I love Minseok.”

“Love can't be eaten...Minseok is sick and he has to take care of himself. He hasn't gone to the doctor for a long time. Your monthly salary isn't even enough to pay for Minseok's medicine.”

“If you don't believe me, just look at this,” Yunho said as he handed a piece of paper to Luhan...

After work, Luhan returned to his room... and saw Minseok resting on the sofa... looking pale as if he'd fainted...

“What's wrong with you, Minseok?” Luhan hurriedly walked towards him. The small figure shook his head before sitting up...

“No...it's nothing. Oh...Luhan, look at this.” Minseok smiled widely before picking up a drawing paper and showing it to Luhan.

“Art class...I got the highest score in the class...” He folded his arms proudly. Luhan smiled when he saw his picture on the piece of paper.

"It's probably because the teacher admires your cuteness," he said, reaching out to touch Luhan's cheek and rubbing his nose against Luhan's nose like it was fangs.

Luhan felt a sharp pain in his heart... He loves Minseok so much...so much that he doesn't want to let Minseok go. But after seeing Minseok's medical diagnosis, he hesitated. Luhan pressed a kiss on Minseok's full lips before pulling him into a hug...He wanted to hold Minseok like this. Hold it for as long as possible...I want to hug you like this forever.

'I love you, Minseok. But I can't hold you like this anymore...I'm sorry.' Luhan could only whisper to himself...

After that...Luhan began to distance himself from Minseok...before deciding to break up...

“Let's break up…” Luhan said in a tone he never expected to use with Minseok.

“You love me, don't you?...You said you love me.”

“You should go put things in your room as well.”

Said before turning his back on Minseok...he didn't want to see the pain in those eyes. But he felt a hug from behind...Minseok hugged him tightly.

“Luhan...are you kidding me? I'm sorry...if I bothered you too much. I won't be spoiled anymore...but please don't tease me like this...na...Luhan.” The question mixed with Luhan's heart-wrenching sobs. He didn't want to hear Minseok's cries...

Luhan absorbed the warmth from the last hug...before pulling the arm around his waist away...if those small arms still held him back and wouldn't let go...

“Luhan...I'm hurt.” Luhan wanted to tell Minseok that at this moment he was a hundred times more hurt than Minseok... He tightened his grip on the other's arm before pulling until the embrace broke.

Luhan hurriedly walked away from the sound of Minseok's cries...the sound gradually became fainter with every step he took...if the ache in his heart didn't subside at all...no. at all...

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“Are you sure you want to do this?” asked Eunji, Luhan's only friend. Looking at the handsome face that was now coated with sadness...the sharp, beautiful eyes that had once shone brightly were now darkened to the point of frightening.

"um..."

“Is there no other way, Luhan?”

"No more..." Luhan replied in a low voice... The sound of the outside room door opening made us know that Minseok had probably returned to collect his things as he had told him. Luhan turned and nodded to Eunji. It's an indication that we should start following the plan like we talked about... Eunji sighed before complying even though she didn't agree.

“Luhan, come on, Minseok will see him soon.”

"I told you we broke up...you don't believe me?"

“Really...why? I suddenly saw them dating each other.”

“Um...that's true. I'm done with it... well, there's no more money. The money he had with him was almost gone. His uncle hadn't given him any money for a while. If you continue this relationship, I will definitely have to spend more money raising him. Just these past few months I have had almost nothing to eat.”

"So you're dating me because of the money?"

“No...I love you Na Eun Ji. I've always loved you.”

The conversation drew Minseok to open the bedroom door, just as Luhan had thought...

“Hurry up and pack your things and get out.” Luhan tried to maintain a cool expression and gaze.

"Are you really dating me because of the money?...When you said you loved me it was never true, right?"

“You don't even know?” Luhan really hates his own tone right now...hates...

Even though those round eyes no longer reflected pain... Luhan could feel the pain in his voice. ...The bag that the small figure was carrying was pulled out and thrown at his face with full force... If the pain he received couldn't be compared to the pain in his heart... it couldn't even be compared to one bit. ..

“If you want a lot of money Just take my stuff and sell it. Consider it an expense for me coming to live in your room.”

Luhan looked at the figure running away in pain...he bent down to pick up Minseok's bag and hugged him before crying out... Without another word, Eunji reached out and gently touched Luhan's arm...

Luhan stood and looked at the small figure in Jongin's embrace... until Minseok was left alone on the bench in front of the school building... his small hand raised to wipe away his tears several times. ...The more I saw Minseok crying Luhan's heart ached even more.

He knew how much Minseok loved him. 'Knew'...but chose to hurt Minseok...make Minseok suffer in order to have a better life.

“Why...hug...why do you hurt my heart this much...hug? Why...Luhan?" His words and sobs still resound in his mind over and over again... No matter how much he wanted to stop his depraved actions, Luhan had to decide to continue doing it.

The more Minseok hates him, the better...so Minseok can stop thinking about him...stop thinking about this worthless, unworthy person..

Jongin sits and looks at the unconscious body...he looks at Minseok's left breast and is shocked...

'Luhan's heart'

Thinking about it, I still felt guilty for punching Luhan in the face like that. Now he really wanted to punch himself in the face… But how much do you want to apologize? Now he didn't have the chance to do that again...

Minseok slept for another full day before he woke up... Doctors stop by regularly to check on symptoms. The results were satisfactory because Minseok's body responded well to the transplanted heart...

“Who donated my heart?…” Minseok reached out and touched his left chest… His tears suddenly flowed for no reason.

Jongin looked at Yunho's face... Just by looking at the clothes you can tell where Minseok's uncle has gone... Probably going to send Luhan here...

Yunho shook his head lightly. It was forbidden… Minseok was too weak to know this right now. It's not that he won't tell. Just waiting for time...for Minseok to be a little stronger. Jongin nodded in understanding. He himself thought differently than Yunho.

...It's not time yet...

"I'll take you to see his family for another day."

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Minseok's condition has greatly improved. Doctors made sure that his body was not resisting the new heart's function and allowed him to be discharged from the hospital... Jongin felt that Minseok was stronger than before...

“Jongin...you said you were going to take me to the family of the person who donated the heart...I want to go thank him.”

“Minseok...I” Jongin really couldn't think of a sentence. How should he begin...how should he tell Minseok?

"I'll take you there..."

The speaker walked over and sat next to his nephew before handing him a cardboard box... Jongin was grateful that this voice pulled him out of his troubles.

“What is it?” Minseok accepted it before opening it and looking at a small notebook. Having only seen it once, he remembered it well.

“What is it, Luhan…” Minseok looked up at the things Luhan had hidden behind his back. He only saw that it was a notebook...

“No, nothing.”

“I want to see this...bring it now,” he said, trying to snatch the item Luhan was hiding.

“I'll show it to you first when I'm done...nice. Don't look at it now.”

"Alright...promise."

"um"

A drop of clear water fell on the notebook cover... Why does he want to cry like this? His heart fluttered strangely. Minseok slowly opened the notebook... Each page was a drawing of him and Luhan. The caption of the picture shows what they did, where, when... The smiles in the drawing tell how happy the couple is...

Minseok remembered it without reading the captions. The event felt as if it had just happened yesterday...no...those happiness was as evident as if it had just happened a few minutes ago...

The last page of the journal had some banknotes inserted... A small heart fluttered as if wanting to explain something... Minseok picked it up and saw Luhan's handwriting written on the last page...

I love you, but I'm sorry, I can't love you anymore.

I don't have the right to stand next to you...don't love me.

My heart couldn't be any more broken than this.

With living a difficult life and having to cry every day

Oh, there's nothing I can give you. But I still miss you

Comforting words still cannot be given. But I miss you

Even if I hope, I still can't do it. I just miss you

So I have to push you away.

Because I am a worthless person who only has a heart...

Even though it hurts and there are tears But it was worth it for me.

I have no right to look at you. You don't even look at me.

I know my heart is with you.

Close to the breath that we can touch. It's always there.

Oh, there's nothing I can give you. But I still miss you

Comforting words still cannot be given. But I miss you

Even if I hope, I still can't do it. I just miss you

So I have to push you away.

Because I love you more than anyone in this world.

Oh... There's nothing I can give you. But I still miss you

I'm afraid I'll just have tears. But I miss you

Even if I hope, I still can't do it. I just miss you

It's because of this..

Because I am a worthless person who only has a heart..

“Where are you going, Minseok?” Jongin held Minseok's arm.

“I'm going to see Luhan.” Minseok wiped away tears...

This message made him realize that actually....Luhan still loves him...

“Luhan is always with you...right here,” Jongin said, placing his hand on Minseok's left breast.

“What do you mean...what are you telling me, Jongin?”

“Come on, Minseok...I'll take you to see Luhan.” Yunho wiped away tears that were in his eyes. before getting up and taking his grandson's hand out

Minseok looked weakly at the picture stuck in front of the marble sign...he sat down and cried loudly...he didn't need any explanation. Because what he saw now, he couldn't believe it... couldn't believe it at all.

"Luhan had an accident...he donated his heart to you," Jongin said before wiping away his own tears... Luhan's love is so deep that he himself can feel it...

Minseok clutched his left chest before burying his face in the marble plaque. Jongin turned his head away from the sight in front of him before silently walking away.

Minseok's thin back trembled with the force of his sobs... Yunho looked at that picture with equal pain. Asking Luhan to walk away from his grandson's life was the biggest mistake in his life...

A hand reached out and gently touched his nephew's shoulder in a comforting way before following Jongin... Minseok probably wants to be alone and quiet...no...Minseok probably wants to be alone with Luhan...

Yunho and Jongin knew that any kind of consolation would be theirs. It couldn't make Minseok feel better right now...only tears could help Minseok...they were the only way to relieve the pain...even knowing that this pain would never go away. Anyway...at least it's better than having Minseok keep it inside...

Cry it out, Minseok... Cry it out...

END’

This story was adapted from our own Infinite fanfic...

I've secretly chipped in this pair for a while so I wanted to try transforming into this pair.

Anyway, please try reading it too...

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B E R L I N ❀

Paul Lojut, thank you, Thai translation, lyrics

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