It must be sad.

If one day we

turned to look around us

And I didn't find anyone.

So-called 'friends' -

Talk to me -

Nothing much, just pickled and ran away to compose a new story // hide from the soles of your feet

Actually, the series ended, but people didn't finish it, so I'm very itchy haha.

Go. Bye.

Twitter : @BL_bromine

- Thank you to the kind adults -

? themybutter

Hormones 3 The Final Season

[ Boss x Oil ]

Beside

Thank you for being beside me.

...The first time I encountered bread...

...The first time that bread invited me to talk with the phrase, "Let's sit together"...

...The first time bread saw me as a close friend...

...The first time I felt love for bread...

...and also the first time that I hate bread...

I don't understand why, why, why, why did I do this to her even though she was so good to us? But we and I were only malicious because she stood out to me and made me feel invisible. Because you're prettier than me? Because she was too close to First. Or because what the boss said was all true?

So true that I don't want to accept the truth.

So true that I had to spread bad rumours. To the friend I love the most

In the end, I became the person who betrayed the friend I loved. But at the same time, she was the one who broke my face as well, in the middle of the cafeteria, among many students.

But this world isn't fair to me. Because when she was slandered You're still me, even if you're unwilling. Non, former student council president. or even family waiting beside you But I don't have anyone, First, my parents, everyone, no one ever understands me.

Even the people I thought would understand me the most were angry at what I was doing.

Boss

But he always thought that what he thought was right. No matter what other people thought, he never cared about anything. But to me it is considered emotional abuse. Unbeknownst to him, I lost patience with him and said what I had been thinking in my head all along.

And then I didn't have anything to do with him anymore.

When life reaches its limit, stupid thoughts pop into one's head.

commit suicide

There is no better solution for me. If I stay here, how will others view me? It's uncomfortable when people look at me in a negative way. It's better to fight and die and disappear from this world. My parents won't be tired because of me. First might be able to start over with someone better than me. Bread might have better friends than me. And you won't have to be pressured to look inferior because of him again.

Before I knew it, I was holding the medicine tightly in my hand. Think and think about what is going to happen from now on. What will it be like? Will it be painful? And how will other people feel about what I did tonight?

...Enough with this kind of life...

...I can't take it anymore. Can't stay any longer...

...I want to open my eyes and disappear into this world...

...excuse me...

...goodbye...

It was a split second before the last straw was broken. Images from the past kept replaying in my head and one image came back to me again.

The motorcycle that I used to ride with my parents.

I never thought about how happy I was back then. I miss and miss the happiness of being together. I miss the warm air. From a mother who embraced I miss the wind in my face when my father was driving. I miss the thing we call "family".

Do we really want to die?

Or do we just want to escape problems that we ourselves caused?

Are you sure we don't want to stay here from now on?

Immediately, he grabbed the water bottle next to him and smashed the glass medicine cabinet. But there was not enough strength for it to break at all. And the world is getting darker little by little.

There's no time, oh

If it's later than this, we won't have the chance to come back again.

The last bit of strength I had slammed into the glass medicine cabinet, and after that I don't know what happened. And the world I saw faded.

I woke up again and now I'm in the hospital. Beside me are my father and mother, but their expressions are no less worried. After a while, Bread himself suddenly burst into the room and started yelling at me. Until Non herself came in to stop the bread.

Please get some rest.

After 4-5 days, my symptoms improved somewhat. First himself got back together with me again. I go to school normally, but when people look at me, they give me strange looks. Until I have to walk away from here as quickly as possible. As for Bread himself, he came to talk in the coolest mood and we both ended our fake relationship.

...sorry and thank you...

But with First, I'm starting to be unsure if First still feels as good as before. Even though we did something so bad, First was never angry at us. And during this time, I saw First become especially close to our parents. I also left the running club and stopped playing games for the reason that I would have more time to watch and watch.

Until finally, when love makes the person we love go crazy.

Because of us

From thinking that we once had a red thread tying us together It became a chain of bitterness between the two of us. Instead of being together because we love each other, it turns out that we have to be together because it is his duty that he has wronged us. And will compensate by taking care of us to make us happy.

But he had to sacrifice his own happiness for ours.

Is it right that we made him unhappy?

...That's enough, First, that's enough...

...We didn't want First to be like this...

...All the time we were very happy to be with First...

...but don't worry about us...

...We can be alone...

...Thank you for standing beside me...

...We love First...

...Let's break up...

In the end, the love I wanted became a sacrifice in exchange for making him happy again without us. and returned to the center again. Solitude

But he was relieved and fragile. The feeling that it's open Inside his chest it became lighter for no reason. Here we spoke with sincere feelings and good feelings.

And will he ever speak like this to anyone? Speak kindly with good feelings. No prejudice against anyone

Who said we won't mess with him? So why did you think of it?

Ding Tong~

Suddenly, the doorbell sounded. This is truly New Year's time. There's a sign in front of the store. And who else can find me? There aren't any relatives around here. Even if there were, they would probably all go home for New Year's. If it's First, it shouldn't be because First comes home for New Year's. Bread? Bread said he wouldn't have anything to do with us anymore?

Unless there is something to really help with.

And who will it be?

Not waiting, I hurriedly got up and opened the door to see who it was who was ringing the doorbell in front of the house. But when I came out to look, I didn't see anyone. Even the shadows can't be seen.

Are they swindlers?

As soon as the door was about to close. He was startled when he heard the sound of another person rushing in unexpectedly. People that he doesn't want to have anything to do with anymore.

Boss

When he arrived, he yelled at me loudly about the fact that I had blocked him on Facebook. When the boss stopped talking, I chose not to answer and turned around to enter the house and closed the door.

I don't want to have anything to do with him.

But I still didn't do anything when he put his hand against the door and threw me. His expression looked even more serious than usual. Until finally I had to come clean with him, right? before sighing tiredly

Even though I really don't want to be bothered.

“What do you want, Boss?”

“I just want An to block my Facebook first.”

The more we talked, the more I felt a headache. But if we don't clear things up, let's end here. Of course, the boss must be harassing him.

Well, Boss is always a serious person.

“We are not that important. If you don't see one of us, you won't feel anything.”

“I feel it.”

Hm, I feel. So what does a person like Boss feel?

As we talked and talked, I noticed that this time Boss looked unusually flustered. He also said that we were going to go see Boss's mother because Boss's mother is a psychiatrist. And then all of a sudden, she was going to eat at her house.

I think the boss should discuss himself with his mother first.

Then it turned out that I was dragged to eat, but I didn't go to eat at the boss's house. That was a bit sudden for us. But what we're not okay with is Going out with clothes on at home. My hair was not combed to make it smooth. The door of the house is closed. Mom and Dad left home a long time ago, and when they came back they were probably shocked that they didn't see us at home.

Then I thought I was going to commit suicide again. Plus the mobile phone is at home.

Well, if you're not shocked, let it be known. And if anything happens, blame the boss completely.

Oil isn't wrong.

It's really time for the New Year festival. It was lonely too. The others looked like they were having fun. But we sat stuck in the house listening to the sounds of celebration. Look out for the bright colors of the fireworks.

It makes me think of old times too.

But it's over. Ended with something bad In the past year and will start over by counting one again.

As time passed, a new day arrived. It is now midnight and one minute later. But I was surprised or there was one message. When I clicked to open it, I was even more surprised than before because the person who sent the message happened to be him. Take us out to eat.

HNY Oil

-Boss-

The 6 characters sent with the sender's name Causing him to secretly smile without realizing it. Even he himself was not interested in such nonsense festivals at all. But they can still send it to us and send it via

sms

Also

At least he probably understands us a bit.

If you get hit like that, you'll probably be depressed for a while.

No matter what, he still sees us as friends.

But if after this we ourselves will be sure.

That at least the person next to us is the boss.

Thank you for never abandoning me.

...I never knew what the reason I was living for was...

...I should just die and disappear from this world...

...but actually my idea is stupid...

...In the end, I lied to myself all along...

...until he tried to pull me up from the black hole...

...He is very good to me. But I made him feel bad...

...but in the end it seemed like he was next to me...

...And it's like I'm more myself when I'm with him...

...Thank you, Boss, for allowing me to live in the truth of this world...

-Oil-

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"Oh Boss, why do you suddenly know the address of our house?" I almost forgot.

"Uh...." Boss paused for a long time. For a long time until I was dying, he finally refused to tell me. And then he said indifferently, saying, "Let it be."

"If you don't tell me, it's okay." I just didn't mean much. But the worst thing is “But later, can you please let me go back in and change clothes first?”

“I told you not to,” Boss said, but it felt like Boss's tone sounded flustered. Plus, the last sentence couldn't be heard. “This is so cute.”

“Huh, what did the boss say just now?” I asked.

"No...no, I didn't say anything." Definitely a lie, so flustered. Plus he stutters when speaking. Anyone who believes this is crazy.

But why is Boss' face red? Are you sick?

Oil suddenly stopped walking. Boss turned to look before wondering if he had stopped doing it. When he asked, he was stopped when Oil tiptoed himself because there was a bicycle blocking him. He brought his face closer before raising his hand to touch the boss's forehead and the other hand raising it to touch his own forehead.

No, the temperature is normal.

“Oh...Oi, what are you doing?” Boss said in a trembling voice. Quickly brushed off Oil's hand. Continue to live like this and there will be hope...

“Well, we saw the boss blushing. I thought the boss was sick.” There was still a face that said with a blank expression.

"We're okay, everything is normal. I understand...and don't do anything like this again. It's shocking." The boss finished speaking and walked ahead. Let Oil stand dazed for a moment. before hurrying to catch up with the other person

What else is wrong with him? I'm just hoping that if I get sick I'll take him into the house...

Oh my...it's not like that. Just take him into the house to get some medicine for Boss to take.

It's not the way you think.

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