[S F M E Y O U]

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B E R L I N ?

- S F ME Y O U –

I am an ordinary boy. They live like normal children. I have parents but it's like I don't have them. .....The two of them separated when I was a child and each had a new family. And I had a new child, so I had to live with my grandparents. But my parents still send me money every month.

But it wasn't enough for three people to survive for a month, so I had to work part-time after school every Monday-Friday. And full time on Saturday, the money received is the minimum income as specified by the government. Although it is enough for three people, it must be used sparingly.

But it still wasn't enough no matter how much I saved because Grandma always stole my money to play cards and bet on the lottery. I've told him to cut back, quit, but he scolded me and accused me of holding back my money. I don't care about it if I use it to buy things for the house. Buy necessary equipment, but if you take it like this, I think it's useless.

We should rely on ourselves more than luck that doesn't know when it will come. Maybe it won't come at all.

Since I was still breathing, I had to help myself.

I don't expect to depend on anyone.

"Grandma took my money again, right?" I walked up to my grandma who was sitting in front of the house pounding betel nuts yesterday. My salary just came out today. I think I'm going to use it to pay last year's tuition that I'm holding on to right now. It's no longer there, it's gone.

"It's only a few thousand baht. Don't worry about it, okay? How many years has Grandma raised you? How many baht have you spent? Have you ever asked for it?" Whenever I talk about me, he always brings me up to this point. I know that he raised me until I grew up. But I also have a need for money. The more you grow, the more burden you have, including group work, individual work, and tuition fees that keep getting higher and higher.

"But I will use that money to pay tuition."

"What is this crazy tuition fee? Grandma told you to stop studying after Mathayom 3. Do you believe me, Grandma? Do you see how much of a burden studying is? Your brain isn't any good. Quit studying and find a rich husband to take care of you. It's better that Grandma and the old grandpa will be comfortable too." Eh, just quit. learn I won't quit studying. No matter what, I have to finish my studies according to my dreams and then do a job that I like to follow my dreams.

It's not that I've never had a boyfriend, I've had some but I haven't been with them for long. I have many responsibilities to do, what's wrong? There's a lot of studying and school work, and there's work at the restaurant that I go to. I don't have time or money to spend extravagantly on trips with him.

People like me may have been created by God to be alone.

"Baekhyun," I shouted out the name of my best friend, the top one in the class. Baekhyun is a very good student and receives scholarships every year. His boyfriend is really cute and has been together for over a year now. I'm really envious of him. Baek's family had a decent amount of status. Baek's mother and father both served as government officials. As for his girlfriend, he sees that he's the son of a rich man and he's probably called Park Chanyeol.

I don't really see my boyfriend's face much and don't know much about relationships. Because Baek didn't tell me about it, I didn't say anything. I didn't care much. Because I know what kind of person it is.

"Are you going to copy your homework? What subjects do you have left this time?" I really understood my friend's heart.

"Every subject. Yesterday there were a lot of customers so I came back late and didn't do anything." Yesterday a company came to hold a party at my shop, so I worked extra hard, but it was worth the labor and trip this time. It was enough for me to pay almost half of my tuition.

Right now I'm walking to the bus stop with Baekhyun and I see that his girlfriend is coming to pick him up right away, so I'm going to walk him a bit and then go to work.

“Kyungsoo, are you really not going together?” Baek turned to me and asked before stepping into his girlfriend's luxury sports car. Today is Chanyeol's friend's birthday. I have no involvement whatsoever, so why do I have to go?

"No, I don't know him at all. Besides, today I thought I'd hurry and do my homework." Today the shop is closed for 1 day, so I don't have to work part time. I plan to clear up all the outstanding work.

"Is it really your old friend's birthday that you're not going to go?" That voice

"Ja..Jong-in" Kim Jongin, an old friend of mine from middle school. We haven't seen each other since Jongin moved out in 3rd grade. It wouldn't really be considered old friends. We used to be friends with Mathayom 3 students. But when I found out that Jongin was moving out because my parents moved for work, I broke up with him. Some people thought I was an idiot. But I don't think I should hold him back.

If you go to another place, you will find someone you like more than a better person. The person who makes him happier will be able to open up to that person fully, not having to worry about what I will be like the person says. Love loses distance Allergic to intimacy

“I'm glad you still remember me.” Jongin walked out of the tall car's back door and smiled at me. It feels like the old days when we were together.

"Ah, ah, ah, ah," I couldn't speak as my front hand came up and pulled my cheek, acting like a child.

“Your cheeks are still as soft as before. "Fat" is the pronoun Jongin uses to refer to me when we're together.

"This still calls me fat bastard."

"Look, it's still as round as ever." He smiled again. Did that make the old fire sparkle again?

"So you really won't come to my birthday?" Actually today, January 14th, is Jongin's birthday.

"Ah .. yes today is your birthday."

"Forgetful fat bastard, you still forget. Even when we were lovers, you forgot my birthday."

"I only do work all day, I don't remember much, you know. ..I'm a terrible boyfriend, right?"

"No.. for you are the best boyfriend ever."

"What about Mom and Dad?" I turned to ask Jongin. We were now eating food and eating together. It was a small birthday party, inviting only close friends and I knew most of them so I didn't feel uncomfortable.

"My daughter-in-law is so cute. She came and asked for her parents." Even though it was a joke, if I looked into his eyes I knew what he wanted to convey.

Now Jongin and I separated ourselves from the event because the tall man said there was something he wanted to talk to us about. The two of us sat on the edge of the swimming pool. Jongin is a swimmer and I'm not into sports. Something When we were dating, Jongin would teach me how to swim every Sunday and that was my first kiss.

“What were you thinking when you saw him sitting alone smiling?” Jongin asked.

"I miss when Jongin taught us how to swim. Back then we were like piglets falling into the water."

“Do you still remember?” Jongin asked, raising his eyebrows, wondering how strange it was that I just remembered.

"Why do you have to make a face like that? What's strange about it when I remember it?"

"Usually you're a forgetful person. You forget your homework, you forget your notebooks and leave them at school. We have to go get them all the time." It's true what Jongin said. In was the one who reminded me, but when we broke up, I had to remind myself of everything.

"That's right. But why are things related to you never forgotten?"

"...." Silence. Did I make him uncomfortable?

"Excuse me... I think we should go to the event," I said, preparing to get up and leave.

"Wait, we haven't said anything we wanted to say yet."

"What's the matter?" I sat back down in the same place, my feet still swinging in the pool, my eyes looking at the tall figure, waiting to hear what he wanted to say.

"Do you have a girlfriend yet?"

"Why do you ask? Are you going to flirt?" I furrowed my eyebrows and asked the tall figure next to me. Even though they were words that sounded like nothing was being thought of, right now my heart was pounding out of rhythm.

"No, I'm not going to flirt.." I don't know how I feel right now. I felt a strange delay when I heard Jongin's words just now. 'I'm hoping we can go back to the way things were, right?'

"I don't have a boyfriend yet.. We only dated for no more than 2 months and then we broke up. No one can stand a workaholic like us." Since we've been together, it's only Jongin who understands me the most.

"Kyungsoo"

“Huh?” I turned to face the tall figure again to listen to what he said next, but now Jongin's face was no longer in the same place. Our faces were now just an eye's distance away. Of two people looking at each other and conveying all their feelings, it lets them know without using any words, that they miss each other so much.

"I'm a lover."

"Jongin .."

"What do you say? Hmm... I agree to be your boyfriend." Right now my brain isn't doing any work, there's just a feeling that it's telling me to nod in agreement.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhm I can say that I have never kissed any boyfriend in the past, Jongin was the first. and my second The person in front of him's tongue inserted into the mouth of the little person after he grabbed the air. The kiss was not very violent, but it was full of feelings that the two of them conveyed to each other. A thin hand rose to embrace his neck. The person in front who was unable to support his own body fell limp and the thick hand that was originally hugged her thin waist.

Now he slowly slipped into the placket of his shirt and fondled Kyungsoo's smooth back.

Jongin couldn't stop himself and his Kyungsoo was so sweet.

“Jonggin, that's enough..” The little man said after pulling his lips away from the person who was only taking advantage of him because if he didn't stop now, I think it would definitely go too far.

“You're so tempting,” Jongin said, touching the same part of his head with his own cock.

"Just a little bit."

"Jongin, I love Kyungsoo."

"Um, I know.. we love you too."

Now my daily life has only Kim Jongin. And then Kim Jongin Jongin transferred to the same school as me to study in 11th grade and we ended up in the same class. It wasn't a coincidence or fate, but because Jongin's father had connections within him, it made things easier.

We've been together for 6 months now, so fast, right? But I feel like we're just getting along. Jongin is always consistent with me. When I come to school in the morning, I wait for Jongin to meet me at the entrance of the alley. During lunch, Jongin sits beside me. When studying, there is a sleepy bear who sleeps with his eyes closed. When going to work, there is Jongin who delivers to the storefront.

Now, no matter what I do, wherever I go, I always have Jongin by my side. I'm the happiest. I can consult Jongin about everything, whether it's friends, work, or problems at home. Jongin's house is considered rich to a certain extent. As for me, nothing can compare with him. I've told Jongin about this since high school.

To begin with, I didn't live with my parents. My grandparents are old and they don't seem to care much. Their status at home is not good. But what I got from Jongin is like a part that complemented my life that was missing before. I could live without them, but now

I'm not sure if I can survive. If you don't have Jongin

The weather is quite unstable these days. It will rain and then the sun will come out. Look at this now. In the evening the sky was still bright but after only two hours it was completely covered by clouds and it looked like it was about to rain. In just over an hour the shop will close. 'Don't fall down now, please. Please let me go home first.'

Sooooooooo….

It's raining heavily like a storm. Now how do we get home? I only have a small umbrella with me, but if it rains like this, it will still get wet. If I wait for it to stop or subside, it will probably take a long time...

'Come on! Let's go.'

I took a deep breath and was about to prepare to run through the raindrops to get to the bus stop as quickly as possible, but was stopped by someone's call.

“Fat.” I turned around and looked at the second man who had called out to me.

“How did Jongin come?” I myself was quite shocked to see Jongin here. He should be home right now.

"Come to pick you up. If I don't come, you'll probably end up in the rain again."

“If it's not raining, I won't be able to return.”

"It's always like this. How many times have I told you not to stay in the rain?"

“...Kyung isn't in the rain anymore.” I tried to sound as pleading as possible because if I looked at Jongin, I could tell that he was definitely dissatisfied with me. So what should I do? When it rains, I have to stay in the rain. What's wrong with me?

“You don't have to sound like this. I've told you many times, have you ever believed me? You'll get sick again."

“If you're sick, take care of us.” I turned my eyes back to the person driving. Jongin shakes his head a little like he's really fed up with me. How can we not take care of each other?!

"no"

“…..” Quiet, is Jongin really going to ignore me?

"If you don't take care of your boyfriend, who else will you take care of?" As soon as the tall one saw the reaction of the little guy beside him, he secretly smiled. He's the only one who doesn't get a boyfriend, no one doesn't think too much. Being petulant is number one. But it's very cute to me.

“Crazy bastard.” Even though he said it like that, he was secretly smiling a little. Even though it wasn't a wonderful word, it made me extremely happy because at least it made me feel like I still had him.

“Jonggin, this isn't the way home.” I turned to ask the person next to me.

“Who told you to take me home?” Jongin turned around and smiled mischievously. He's not going to do anything to me, right? Even though we've been together for six months, we still, oh, I mean, we haven't talked like that once before, it's just been a kiss.

“Where are you taking me?”

“Why do you have to look so scared? Aren't I going to take you to sell it?”

“I'm not afraid of being taken away to sell!” Who said that he was afraid of being taken away to sell his house? Jongin is so rich, why would he sell his hair?

“Or...are you afraid I'll wrestle you?” Damn it! Even if it wasn't enough, Jongin still parked his car on the side of the road. Now the road ahead is very lonely, I'm really afraid.

“Oh!” My breath was quickly snatched away by the person next to me. Is Jongin really going to wrestle me? Even though we're really lovers, I never have and I'm not ready right now. We made a promise to each other that we would. There's nothing. that Jongin will not disobey me If I'm not ready yet

But what is this? Jongin broke his promise.

“Huh.” I pulled my lips away from the person beneath me as soon as I heard Kyungsoo's sobbing. I didn't intend it to be like this. At first I just wanted to tease him but I didn't think Kyungsoo was so attracted to me that I couldn't back away.

“Kyungsoo, I'm sorry.” The tall man immediately entered into a hug. He spoke from his heart. I'm sorry I couldn't stop myself.

"Hurry, don't do this again."

"Yes, if Kyung isn't ready, we won't do it...sorry."

After the incident, both parties were silent, no one started talking or saying anything until they arrived at the house. Today, Jongin intends to pick up Kyungsoo at the store because he knows the small person's personality well that he will definitely have to run home through the rain and intends to bring Kyungsoo home to sleep with him. Today mom and dad are not here.... Convenient way (

But if Kyung refuses, what can I do?) From Jongin's heart, the matter in the car was too emotional to stop and now it seems like it hasn't gone away because it hasn't been released yet. If I had to force my little girlfriend to do it, I wouldn't be able to do it either.

“Fat, come sit here and I'll dry your hair,” Jongin called out to his petite boyfriend who had just walked out of the bathroom with a white t-shirt that fit him well, but the petite guy wearing it looked bulky and it even slid down. Next, I saw Kyungsoo's white shoulders... Is this a little fish?

“Are you flirting?” Jongin asked.

“What are you flirting with? I'm just here.” What did Jongin say? I'm in my own house and just came looking for me to flirt.

"If you don't want to be seen like that in the car, then lift up your shirt collar." Even if you say to the other person, get it up. But the other hand that left the little man's hair grabbed the collar of his shirt that fell to his shoulders.

"Oh...you weren't in the mood just now, right?" I asked to be sure.

“……” Silence, why didn't you answer? Can I trust Jongin?

“When you're done, go to sleep. I'll go take a shower first.” After I asked, Jongin didn't say anything else until he dried his hair.

And where would you go? There's a bathroom in the room..

“Where are you going Jongin? The bathroom is here.” I pointed out to the room owner that the bathroom was next to the closet, which is... He's already the owner of the room, so he forgot?

“Go to sleep.” Is Jongin angry at me? Did the fact that I asked him earlier make him unhappy or not? Did he not wait too long? I hurriedly followed Jongin downstairs because I was afraid that my girlfriend would be angry at me. I don't like it when we're angry at each other because Jongin would say no more than 3 words to me at most, which made me feel really bad.

“Uh-oh, Youngsoo, um, good. Ah.” Wait a minute! It's like you'll hear someone calling your name. I slowly walked closer to the bathroom on the first floor that had the door closed and it made me realize that What sound is it?

"Um, Kyung, Aeww." Jongin is helping yourself and calling my name again. I know what the man has emotions. How tortured is it that I asked Jongin like that and Jongin didn't answer because of this, right?

Why do you feel so guilty?

“Kyung, since when?” Jongin's voice brought me out of my thoughts. Jongin's expression now looked equally shocked to see me.

“Well...since you came down.” Ha! So.... Holy shit, does Kyungsoo think I'm a pervert for using his name to moan while masturbating?

“It's me... Ugh.” I don't know if it was my subconscious that felt guilty or my heart that deep down wanted to join in as well, which made me grab the neck of the person in front of me and kiss him.

"Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. That they have the same emotions, right?

“Are you ready?” Jongin asked the person below. He could hardly control himself right now. If Kyungsoo said no, he would rush to the bathroom to clean up himself. But if Kyungsoo said yes, he would eat the person in front of him until there was nothing left.

“Jongin won't leave us, right?” I asked to make sure that if I gave in, Jongin wouldn't leave me.

“I love you. I will never leave you. Do you hear that? Kyungsoo.” Their eyes met to convey the other's feelings that he really wasn't lying. Ready to be Jongin's only.

“Then... let me taste some sweets.” After speaking, the tall figure pressed his lips to the same area. It was heavy, like he wanted to release himself after being stuck for a long time. It made even the naive person dazed and choke on the full joy. Kyungsoo didn't. Have you ever known before that having sex with the person you love can be this happy?

"Do you want to go up to your room? Right here or you'll hurt your back."

“Oh, right here. I can't take it anymore. Please continue.” Now Kyungsoo's brain is all blurry and he just feels like he wants Jongin to finish. He doesn't want to miss any time, even though he's on the kitchen floor right now.

As I said, my parents are not in a convenient place.

“Ugh,” Kyungsoo moaned in his throat when he was disturbed by the sunlight. What time is it? Normally, I never wake up late, but... last night, I don't know where Jongin was so excited. He fixed his hair three times. Each place is not an obstacle to our love at all, including the kitchen, the stairs, and finally the bedroom.

“Are you awake?” Jongin was lying on the bed next to me. The tall man was sitting with his back against the head of the bed above, naked and still smiling. Am I the only one crazy?>///<

“What a smile! .... Ah.” I kept a calm face and lifted my body up to sit in the same position as Jongin, but had to cry out because of the pain in my hips and waist. Happiness came with suffering. I never knew that after having sex it would hurt me this much.

'If it doesn't hurt, it's crazy. Last night I stabbed my little girlfriend without holding back.... I couldn't help it. My girlfriend is cute and looks delicious.'

“Slowly get up.” Jongin slowly reached out his arm to gently help the person who looked like he was about to cry. Kyungsoo must have stayed still or his condition would have gotten worse.

“Where are you going?” Jongin held onto his little girlfriend's small forearm as Kyungsoo made to get out of bed.

“It's already 10:00 a.m. I'm going to take a shower and go home. Grandma will complain.” Normally, Grandma doesn't pay any attention to me about what time I come home, but I'm a complainer and I sit and listen to her complain. She won't complain to me right now, but will collect it. In the future, whenever we quarrel with each other, we bring up issues from the past to scold.

“I'm not complaining, I already called you.” Did Jongin call my grandma? Seriously, it's not strange, Grandma, I love Jongin even more than me. Why? Just one word: Rich!

"And you don't even have to shower. Just moving around still hurts. How can I walk?"

"So are you going to be crippled in bed? Today is Saturday too. Work will start in just over an hour." I shouldn't have missed it, so I'm willing to give in and then I'll go to work. If he sees the way I walk, I probably know for sure.

"I called you goodbye." Wait a minute! My grandmother's story is okay, but what about work?

"Why are you doing this, Jongin? You know how worried I am about my work. So why didn't you call me goodbye and discuss it first? If you want to do something, do it as you please! ..." My family's status is not good, Jongin said. I know that these days it's still not nearly enough, and now he's here for work and today I'm working a full day. My income has disappeared. I don't like it when Jongin interferes in my work like this.

“Because I'm worried about you. Even though I know you're more worried about your job than yourself. And if I tell you, you won't stop anyway. Besides, I'm not doing my own thing, I'm doing the duty of a lover."

“Even if you can't see it!” Jongin got up from the bed and walked out as soon as he finished speaking. I knew he was worried about me, but that was my job. Sigh! In short, do I have to reconcile with him?

We are now in our first year and time has flown by so quickly. During the first semester, Jongin and I hardly saw each other because we were all accepting freshmen from different faculties and universities. Jongin and I both got into different exams. We're at university, even though we're not very far from each other, but the times we don't agree with each other cause us to be a little distant from each other. But I believe that after this period, things will fall into place.

“You little one, can't you go?” Jongin made a face pleading with his lover. Lately, I'm feeling very tired from first year. It's been a while since we met. Luckily, during this time all the activities at my university were over so I was able to meet the little guy. I thought we'd have time to spend together, but Kyungsoo I had to go to some crazy camp for a week.

"No, it's a group activity." That's not where I want to go. It's been a long time since I've seen Jongin and I've thought about dying already.

The little man said and tilted his head on the shoulder of the person next to him. Now Jongin brought me to the Han River. This place is like a place in the memories of the two of us because when Jongin came to me in high school, I came here. Almost every time I have free time, no matter how often I come, I never get bored. Probably because he was next to me ^^

Having Jongin is something very special.

I want there to be only today, no tomorrow, no future because the future for me is uncertainty.

"Little brothers, listen to this. This camp is a group unity camp, so these guys are asking to confiscate the cell phones and will return them the next day." After the sound of the seniors' voice ended, everyone cheered in unison. I understand why he did this. He was probably afraid that he would be so focused on his cell phone that he wouldn't join in the activity. I spent time in a group where everyone was in chaos and immediately dialed my lover.

"Hello, I've missed you so much. Are you here yet?" After waiting a short time, the voice on the other end of the line immediately spoke up.

“Well, it's here. Jongin.”

“Hmm?”

“Well, if the seniors are going to confiscate the phone, we probably won't talk to each other all week.”

"What? No, little one, don't give it to me...I'll die of loneliness."

"No, the rules have to be the rules. Please wait for us... Love yourself. That's all I called."

“Little one, wait!”

Toot......

Before I could say anything, the voice on the other end of the line was instantly cut off by my lover. Hmm. What should I do next? My new friends at university aren't that close, and my old friends have all dispersed. Plus, their university has a long list of activities. .....Just hang up the phone for a moment and I miss you already.

J-URA

Brother Jongin, where are you free today?

KS-Jongin

I'm free. I don't have any activities at university. Do we have anything?

Do you want me to tutor you for the exam?

J-URA

No, Yura wants to invite Jongin hyung to watch a movie.

Please go be Yura's friend.

KS-Jongin

Yes, then I'll go pick you up at the dorm.

J-URA

Okay, see you later.

Yura was my sibling when I was in high school. The two of us were close to a certain level. I know that he thought of me more than an older sibling, but I didn't think anything of him because I also had Kyungsoo. But lately, when Kyungsoo and I were quite far apart because of work at university, sometimes I was really lonely, but I couldn't do anything.

There was also Yura who was there to talk to. When I talk or go anywhere with him, I feel like he has filled me in, making my loneliness disappear.

“Jonggin hyung has a mess on his mouth. Yura will wipe it for you.” Yura took out a pink handkerchief with a cute pattern from his pocket and gently wiped the corner of his mouth. I watched his action. Looking at his pretty face that was tinted red because of shyness, looking at his younger sibling was really cute.

“Thank you.”

“Yes, Yura, we should go watch a movie.”

That whole day, Yura and I wandered around until we forgot about our tiredness. The first time, I just wanted to watch a movie, but he invited me to go there and I didn't object because I wasn't in a hurry to go anywhere. Anyway, I haven't traveled like this in a long time. Because Kyungsoo doesn't have much free time for me, at most it's only once a week.

“Sweet dreams Jongin.” Yura didn't say anything but Yura lowered her head to my cheek and touched her little nose to say goodnight. I don't know why my heart was beating so fast.

“Yes,” is all Jongin replies before getting out of the car and heading home. Today's time has passed so quickly. So fast that he forgot someone.

.... aweek ago

“Jonggin, what is this?” I handed the chat that popped up on the screen to Jongin to look at. Today I borrowed Jongin's phone to search the internet for work, but then my heart sank when an anonymous person's chat message came through. come in

“I really miss Jongin-hyung.”

“When are we going to travel together again?”

“Even if your girlfriend comes back, don't forget Yura.”

I don't want to invade his privacy like mobile phone passwords, Facebook or Line passwords. Because I trust, I believe that Jongin will not betray our love, but what is this?

“It's just you,” Jongin replied with a straight face. Don't care at all about how I feel.

“Younger? Younger? Are siblings talking like this?” I tried to control my nerves so as not to let go. Jongin and I hardly ever fought because whenever I was angry at him, he would come and hug me or do something. Makes me feel better, but Jongin has changed. He didn't care one bit about how I felt.

“Did you know that you have changed yourself? ” After returning from school, I felt that he had changed from normal. He would be the one who called me after school, but now I had to call at least 3 times before he answered and said less than 5 sentences and then hung up as usual. I typed a message for a while and then replied, but now that I've read it, he still hasn't answered me. When I invite him to go somewhere, he always refuses...

I always tried to think that maybe he studied hard and was stressed, but he didn't.

Jongin has changed because his heart has changed.

“Can you please not start a fight, Kyungsoo?”

“We study and we are tired enough.”

“… Sorry.” Maybe it was nothing. I trusted him.

“I'm back.” Jongin finished speaking and walked away, not even turning to look at me. I was left by him to go home by myself again, right?

"Energetic, huh?" Now I can't put my tears anymore. I feel so tired. In the latter, Jongin almost didn't speak well to me. Each word that came out, it looked annoyed.

People are lovers. Even if you don't say it, you can tell.

If it were someone else's boyfriend, I would probably break up and leave on good terms.

But this is Jongin, he is like the other half of my life.

Now I have the answer for myself that without him I cannot survive either.

“Goodbye Jongin.” I closed my eyes and walked one foot at a time towards the main road where traffic was now the most important part of my departure.

So pleased!!!

The sound of a car's horn blaring loudly echoed throughout the street. Because of his desire, someone from nowhere walked in front of the car.

Phew!

The small figure was immediately pulled out of the area. Luckily, Jongin hadn't gone anywhere yet. He planned to come back and talk to Kyungsoo about the matter because he thought that if he left it like this, it wouldn't end at all.

“Jongin,” the small figure slowly opened his eyes. He's not dead yet, right? Jongin came to help him, right?

“What the hell are you doing!.. Do you really want to die?!”

"Huh.. yes, we want to die..huhu"

“If you really want to die, go use another method. Don't make other people give you hot warnings like this.” What did Jongin say when he did this? He didn't care about me at all, right? He drove me to die, right?

“Huh, Jongin.. are you really no longer in love with each other?” I asked to make sure that in just 1 week of being apart, he really no longer loved me.

“I'm sorry,” Jongin finished, turning to walk away from me.

“Hi, Jongin, we won't let you go. Hee hee, stay.” I hugged him from behind in order to hold him for as long as possible.

“Even if I stay here, it won't be the same as before... I think we can end things on good terms.”

“Good luck, Kyungsoo.”

“Will..Jongin is so excited. Haha.” My body fell to the floor immediately after the tall figure removed my arms. I didn't even have the strength to support my body to stand. I couldn't take it anymore. Is it over? It's really over, isn't it? Is it?

              KS-Kyungsoo

Thank you for making us know the word love.

Thank you for walking into my life.

Thank you for taking care of every matter.

Thank you for everything in the past.

We don't know if Jongin knows or not that Jongin is our only kiss, our only one...

We love Jongin too much to see Jongin be with someone else. If you think he is the right person, stay with him for a long time. Love him very much and don't do this to him again. ....It's a pity, in another month or so it will be 3 years. Anyway, it's an early birthday because on that day we probably won't be able to work together and don't go drunk anywhere to the point of making the new person uncomfortable. From now on, there is no one to save the room for you, so I'm doing it myself.

The work that we have has to be completed. Do you know that we won't stay stuck until we're stuck at 0 or we'll take the rod and hit us haha ​​...

Anyway, good luck, dear Kyungsoo <3

I wrote one last message to Jongin before deciding to make a mistake that I couldn't turn back in time to fix. I took all the medicines I had in the house and poured them together into handfuls before slowly stuffing them in. in my mouth with tears streaming down my cheeks. Normally I hate medicine like anything, but today I was able to swallow it without even a drop of water.

“Huh!” The sound of choking as the pills sank into my throat made me feel like I was suffocating. like a person dying

And the last image that floated was the image of him, the person I loved with all my heart.

“Kyungsoo, wake up, wake up.” A loud voice entered my nerves. I slowly opened my eyes to see the picture in front of me that was now completely blurred. The picture of my dear friend crying and the picture of my grandmother who looked worried about me like I didn't. I've seen before that I tried to picture the people who were all chaotic right now, but I couldn't see the person I wanted to see the most.

Even though I'm like this, he still doesn't care at all.

I slowly opened my eyes, and now I felt pain in all the rubber hoses around me. I'm in a factory right? ..Images from yesterday come back into my mind, images of the person I love walking away. Picture of many types of pills stacked in a handful........ What have I done? Am I going to end my life because of one person? I'm the stupidest!

“Baek..” I call my close friend who sleeps next to my bed in a hoarse voice. When I have a problem, Baek is always on my side. As for Jongin, I hardly tell him anything because I'm afraid he'll worry... Baek is a person who thinks a lot. I get stressed easily because of this, so I choose to keep everything to myself.

“Kyungsoo, have you been awake for just a moment? ... Nurse, the patient in Room 105 has recovered.”

"How are you? Are you hurt anywhere?" Beck asked me. His eyes looked very concerned for me.

Thank you. Thank you for not abandoning a stupid friend like me.

“Huh.” I shook my head lightly because right now I didn't even have the strength to speak.

"I don't know what you're thinking.." Back said after the doctor walked out.

“Anyway, I'm your friend, Kyungsoo. My friend, a strong person, a person who doesn't give up in the face of any obstacle, that person can disappear. Why don't you fight? Why do you have to exchange your own life for the love of one person, you think. Do you think that if you do this to Jongin it will be the same as before? The person has given up all his heart and no matter what he does, he doesn't care. You look at it now, I told you that yesterday.

He hasn't shown his face yet.” Even though I can't say anything, it doesn't mean I can't hear it. Baekhyun's words were so accurate that I felt hurt. The tears that were now slowly building up couldn't be stopped. ...When did Kyungsoo become so weak?

“Why are you crying? Don't cry. Kyungsoo doesn't cry easily like this.” Even though he stopped me, Baek's tears were flowing more than mine right now.

"You still have me. From now on, don't do this again." I nodded. From now on, I won't be short-sighted again. The old Kyungsoo will come back. The person who can live without Kim Jong-in will come back.

As I said

People like me may have been created by God to be alone.

“Hello Jongin, this is Baekhyun.”

“Um, what?”

“Well.. Kyungsoo is currently in the hospital.”

“Huh, how are you trying to get attention this time?”

“Jongin! Why do you say that?”

“I'm telling the truth, last evening I walked over and got hit by a car. Now what else did he do? What more will you demand?!”

“Isn't it like this because of you!?”

(Jong In hyung, please continue quickly. Yura can't take it anymore.)

“That's it, I'm busy. If I'm free, I won't visit.”

“Kyungsoo, can we go back to the way we used to be?”

No, Ja Kyung has a new one. That's me. Haha. Hide.

END

I don't know if the readers will like it or not, but we put our best effort into this story. We don't know how well we can convey Kyungsoo's emotions. Our language may not be that good...but it's written. Go cry. I feel very sorry for the fact that we don't have to devote that much to one person because the future is uncertain. A person's mind can change every second. Think about it, even 3 years has lost 1 week.

Anyway, if anyone has a partner, please take good care of each other. They will be together until they get married until they are old.

Anyone who talks to each other, talk mindfully, don't be fascinated by the words because we ourselves don't know if they are talking to only us or not.

Anyone who is heartbroken should live a happy single life like us, haha. Anyway, happy Valentine's Day soon.

May everyone find beautiful love. Amen. Amen.

Thank you for following.”) I love you.

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