'Unnecessary people, no matter how hard they try, they still aren't necessary.'
"Because people don't need it. must walk away
Even though inside my heart How much will I love you?
Because people don't need it. It shouldn't be here.
Well, I understand that well. that she doesn't want it"
The sound of someone's tall phone ringing. In the darkness of the living room There was no sound in the room except the sobbing of the tall figure himself, 'Yuri', a sharp-faced girl with a perfect appearance. She is a friendly person. Be considerate and most importantly have a rich home. Everything seemed to be perfect for those who looked and tried to approach her.
But there seems to be one thing that isn't perfect for her and probably no one knows except those close to her and herself. This matter was something that she also did not understand. Why is the 'love' you have for that person not enough for her? Even though he cared about everything the same, was consistent and never cheated once.
But you're consistent too, so how? Huh! Because for you I'm still an unnecessary person for you. Whether before dating or after dating. Will there be happiness or suffering? I'm not the person you need at all. Sometimes I'm discouraged. Both discouraged and tired But I couldn't do anything when I loved her with all my heart and never thought of giving it to anyone else.
I tried everything to make her love me without complaining a single word. 'But today I'm starting to get tired. My heart is completely tired.'
1 year ago..
"This is Yul! How long are you going to secretly look at Jessica?!” Her short friend Sooyoung said angrily while I was secretly looking at Jessica like every day.
“This Yul...has been watching over him for many years. Wouldn't it be better if Taewa Yul went to greet him? We'll get to know each other.." Taeyeon, a friend who has been with me since childhood, our house is close to each other. So we're very close. We understand each other and most importantly, we have never quarreled even once.
"I..don't dare." I turned to look at my two friends before replying softly and walking away. I didn't have the courage to walk up and greet this woman. You're too good for me She has everything good, including looks, figure, complexion, knowledge, charm, and status at home. Everyone likes her and expects her to like her back.
But there is only one lucky person, 'Taecyeon', a good-looking young man who has everything as good as her, and most importantly, is a baseball player at school. These two just started dating a few months ago. Taecyeon does his duty as a good boyfriend without fail. Until his luck seemed to fall a little. When news came out that
This handsome young man dated many women. Everyone who knew the news was gossiping, some were shocked, some were sad. And the person who leaked the news was none other than 'Gyuri', one of Taecyeon's lovers. When she returned from studying abroad and found out that Taecyeon was dating another woman besides himself. Therefore, this news was released in order to keep people who would like to meet Taecyeon and new people away.
When Jessica found out She immediately broke up with him. But it's not like this is fake news. Taecyeon is a flirt. She knew this and wanted to warn Jessica. She once sent a letter to her signed from a well-wisher. But she doesn't seem to believe it and continues to date Taecyeon.
After Jessica broke up with Taecyeon There were many men and women who came to flirt with me but were all rejected. Her two friends continued to support and find ways for me to be with Jessica often. They often tease me and push me closer to Jessica. When I returned home, she pretended to hurry and drag me back to catch up with her.
There were times when I talked to her because she said hello. But we weren't close. You don't know my name, only I know you. Although there were some greetings, it was only a little compared to the way I secretly looked at her.
One day, I mustered up the courage to confess my love to you. The woman I love and have secretly watched for a long time. That day, I walked up to her at the lunch table in the school cafeteria. I carried one rose with me as a friend suggested. I walked in tensely. I've never been this close to you.
I turned slightly to look at my friend behind me. before receiving smiles from both of them in return Taeyeon mouthed the word Fighting, while Sooyoung clenched her fists to accompany the small friend next to her. I'm back again. Taking a deep breath, he nodded to himself, holding the rose and walking in.
"Jessica," I called her name in a trembling voice.
She stopped talking and turned to look at me with neutral eyes. Just like I usually do when people I'm not close to come in and say hello. I hold the rose tightly
"K..Date me!" Gathered his courage once more before stretching out the thing in his hand. Closed his eyes, he lowered his head and waited for what the woman would answer. So scared Even though I thought that she would have to reject it and chase me back like everyone else.
"Um.." Wrong! She didn't reject me, she didn't chase me back. He even took the flowers from me and held them in his hand. I immediately raised my head to look at her as if I couldn't believe my ears. Everything around me was silent as if they couldn't believe what the bride was saying either.
“W..What do you mean?” I asked again to be sure.
"Um.." But she still answered the same. I couldn't hold back my smile. My two friends immediately ran over and jumped on my neck.
Everything would be happy, right? The person you secretly love and have watched for a long time responds to you. You think so, right? Haha, I thought so too. But it's not! Huh! You're all wrong! All this time I seemed to be happy alone. I take care of her act as a good girlfriend
and never looked at anyone but her. No matter how many people come to me I am steadfast and faithful to you. But you're still a person. I'm just air, never paying attention, never caring about my feelings. Many times I had to accommodate her emotions. Many times I had to shed tears over trivial matters.
No matter how hard I try, it's not enough. There were only cursing and shouting back that they were annoyed. I feel completely discouraged and tired.
“Here I am, wanting to be the person you want, trying to change myself for the better.
I want you to know. The truth inside
How much I love you
But in the end, how long has it been?
Still waiting, still trying every method.
She never saw me in my eyes.
It's just the wind, it doesn't exist."
The ringtone continued to ring loudly. The owner of the phone didn't even think about answering it. Right now, she wants to be alone and quiet.
"Makes you know what to do She never cared
Making it known is meaningless."
“Huh!” The sharp-faced girl grinned with self-pity. Too much self-pity Being an ordinary person might take an angel as a mate.
The lyrics of the ringtone are so true to her current love life. Smiling at his own stupidity for holding on. Smile at the love that will never come back. Smile at the days when you have to live in pain. Taeyeon had called her many times before to warn her to break up with Jessica.
A reminder to get out of the dark place. There is no one. There is only anguish and regret. But she continued to be stubborn. This time, I'll probably call and ask how things are going. This friend always cares about you. Whether suffering or happiness Including Sooyoung. That person went to study abroad but still called with concern.
Because she had already moved into a condo with two brides. She must be having fun with him outside right now. It's only me who has to endure being here alone. Even though my body wanted to go, my heart wanted to keep waiting. So when you tell me to wait, I will wait. Even if she was outside having fun with many people.
"Because people don't need it. must walk away Even though inside my heart How much will I love you?
Because people don't need it. It shouldn't be here.
Well, I understand that well. that she doesn't want
I'm willing to leave with tears. I'm a worthless person.
because it is necessary of people who are not necessary"
After listening to the ringtone and sitting and hugging my knees and crying for a while, The tall girl decided to stand up and immediately went to pack her clothes and belongings into the large suitcase she had bought a while ago. Before looking up at the clock, it said '2:30 a.m.'
"Huh!.." Smiling to himself again. A smile that looked like he was filled with self-pity. Before the slender hand picked up the phone and immediately said what he wanted.
“Hello..I'll go home and sleep tonight. Um..see you later." He looked around his room for a while then dragged his bag and walked out.
"Just enough to know that I'm not that good. Compared to you, I'm not worthy.
What remains to be done is
Must disappear from your life."
'Our patience has limits. No matter how much I love you, you never appreciate it. I'm tired Jessica. I'm tired enough. It's time for me to go back to my old life. Thank you for everything you've ever given me. I don't know if I've ever made you happy. I don't know how you feel.
I've never seen her smile once after dating me. But on the other hand, when she's with him, she smiles, she laughs, she's happy, she looks so happy that I'm ashamed. I don't know what that person is to you. I don't know if they're very close. But when he can make you smile, I never can.
Should I let you go? All this time, I've been so happy to have had you by my side. Even though it was a long time ago, thank you. From now on, I hope you are happy with your choice. Goodbye Jessica my darling...
Yuri, people are not necessary for you.'
Come in a short time 55