28 - Mar. - 52

Hello, my name is Do Kyung Soo. A man who has nothing good No matter how it looks or study What I did was not good at all. Never accomplished anything He's just an ordinary guy that no one cares about. Just like that. There's nothing good about me. There isn't any at all.

I secretly like one of my seniors. He's cute, charming, and good at sports. I sing because There are many people who like it. Almost the entire school. Let's just say that he is completely different from me. I've secretly liked this senior since I was in Mathayom 3. At that time, he was in 5th grade.

And most importantly, he already has a girlfriend....

What can I do? Even though he already has a girlfriend. I like him as always. I like to look when he smiles. When he laughs It makes me happy. Just him walking past the front of the room. My heart was pounding so much that I almost walked up and shouted in his face how much I liked him. But how can I do that?

If I say that, it's like I'm hurting myself for nothing. It's just a guy with a bad face like me. To secretly like him is more than enough.

Do you know that love makes many things change? and made me not be myself at all I used to really hate physical education. But I always come to this class early. Why? Because of the person I secretly like He studies physical education like me.

"Can you pick up some basketballs for me?"

"Here." I walked over and picked up the basketball and returned it to the owner. With an expression and posture that I think is the most normal.

"Thank you, little one?"

"Do Kyungsoo, my name is Do Kyungsoo."

“My name is Baekhyun. Thank you again for picking up the basketball for me." Baekhyun hyung thanked me and ran back onto the field. I looked at Baekhyun's broad back. And I stood there smiling all alone. This is the little happiness that I was able to experience. From Baekhyun The person I secretly like

6 - May - 52

Have you guys ever been together? It's time for the important day of the person you secretly like. You will need to find some snacks. or a gift to give to him I myself am one of them. Today is Baekhyun's birthday. I made a huge bag of chocolate cookies that Baekhyun hyung really liked. to put it in Baekhyun hyung's locker

If you're asking why I didn't give it to myself, I'm afraid. I'm afraid that people will think that a guy with a bad face like me dares to give Baekhyun a birthday present. Just like I said. That there are a lot of people who like Baekhyun. And each person I'm the face of the school. And what about me? What's good about me? So what will I bring to fight?

I stopped in front of the locker of the person I wanted to give the cookies to. I opened the locker door. Then I grabbed a bag of cookies and stuffed him inside. without writing a greeting Or even my name, I just think that the fact that I secretly like Baekhyun hyung like this is a good thing.

4 - September - 52

Today is another day. All I could do was watch Baekhyun quietly beside the basketball court. Because Baekhyun is a basketball player at school. So he has to come practice here every day. And for sure I come here every day as well.

9 - September - 52

Baekhyun has a basketball game today. So is there anything that I won't come and see? I walked to the seat I normally sit every day. From here, I could clearly see Baekhyun hyung on the field. I'm secretly cheering for Baekhyun. I don't dare shout to compete with those cute girls. They'll think I'm not modest.

16 - Oct. - 52

During lunch, I sat and ate in the cafeteria with a friend. And today I am in a particularly good mood. Because Baekhyun hyung was eating with his friends just one table away from me. I tried to keep a happy expression. and try not to look at Baekhyun often As soon as Baekhyun hyung knows that I like him, he'll be busy.

7 - Dec. - 52

In two weeks I'm about to graduate from Mathayom 3, and the one thing I want to do most right now is... That is, I took the franchise and had Baekhyun hyung write it for me. Although I don't know if Baekhyun hyung would like to write it for me or not. Will you remember me? But I want to keep something related to Baekhyun hyung.

9 - Dec. - 52

Now it's physical education. I took out a friendship book from my bag to give to Baekhyun. I walked to see Baekhyun at the basketball court. Then he stopped beside the field for a while. I'll tell Baekhyun hyung what to do. I'm afraid Baekhyun hyung won't write it for me. Do I think I should turn around and walk back?

I thought to myself for a moment. and shouted to Baekhyun to come out of the stadium. Baekhyun hyung walked over and smiled. It's the smile that I like. And am I wrong? If I were to say that I want to keep Baekhyun hyung's smile for myself. I don't want other people to see.

"Do you have any business with me?"

"That is another two weeks. I'm about to graduate. I want Baekhyun hyung to write a friendship for me, will you please?" I lowered my head and spoke with a trembling voice. Then he passed the notebook in his hand. Baekhyun hyung picked it up and held it. Then he stood and gave me a small smile.

"Would you like to hurry and get it back? There were a lot of young people who brought it for me to write about.” That's right. I forgot to think that Baekhyun hyung has a lot of people who like him.

"No hurry, no hurry. Thank you very much." I bowed my head in thanks and quickly walked out of the basketball court. I don't know why I keep standing. I just yelled and called out. and dared to bring friendship to Baekhyun The people around the stadium were all looking at me with sexist eyes.

11 - Dec. - 52

Today, Baekhyun hyung made an appointment for me to come get the franchise because he had finished writing it. Last night I called him and asked about friendship. His brother seemed confused. How did I know his number? I was stunned. I don't dare answer that it is me. I've had his number for a long time. Ever since I secretly liked him from the beginning.

Haven't you guys ever been like this? When you like someone, you want to have their phone number to keep, even if you don't call them.

I walked and stopped next to the basketball court. Then I saw Baekhyun hyung running over. He handed the notebook to me. Then I quickly ran back because Baekhyun's friend yelled. I walked over and sat on the side of the field. Then slowly opened the book. Because I want to know if Baekhyun hyung will remember me. And what did you write down?

"I wish little Kyungsoo good luck in continuing his studies in every aspect of life. Whatever you think, I hope it's like that. Whatever you do, think carefully first.

If one day Little Kyungsoo opens this book. I don't know if I will forget you or not. Anyway, I wish little Kyungsoo good luck."

21 - Dec. - 52

I've decided. that I will continue studying at the same school There aren't many reasons for me. I just want to stay in the same school as Baekhyun hyung for a longer time.

19 - Jan. - 53

Today is a school break day. I have nothing to do and just lie down and play here and there. Then I went to look at Baekhyun's tweets like I usually do. I saw Baekhyun hyung tweet a sad song. And Baekhyun hyung deleted all the photos he had taken together with his girlfriend. Baekhyun probably broke up with his girlfriend.

I feel sorry for Baekhyun.

27 - Jan. - 53

Now I'm in 4th grade. While Baekhyun himself is in 6th grade. It's my last year. That I will be studying at the same school as Baekhyun. I think time passes very quickly. You could say I'm selfish. But I don't want Baekhyun to graduate. I still want to be with him for a long time. Even if it is to live like this.

29 - Jan. - 53

Today is another day. that I live life like other students That is, go eat lunch at the cafeteria. By the way to the cafeteria Had to walk past the school building where Baekhyun was studying. I stopped right there. Then he looked up at the classroom window. And I had to bow my head immediately.

When Baekhyun pops out the window along with shouting my name

"Little Kyungsoo"

" yes "

"Are you free on Saturday?"

"Yes, I'm free on Saturday."

"I'm going to invite you to go to camp together. This camp is organized by my room. So I want to invite Kyungsoo as well."

"Yes, I will go."

"See you later."

5 - Feb. - 53

And then it was time for me to go to the camp that Baekhyun hyung's room was holding. But I don't want to go anymore. Why? That was two days ago. Baekhyun hyung just revealed his new girlfriend. Even though I just broke up with my old man not long ago. I don't want to see Baekhyun hyung's face right now. I'm not strong enough

Even though I myself have no right to be upset with Baekhyun. But I hope you guys can understand me.

8 - Feb. - 53

three days ago I decided not to go to camp. But whether I go or not Baekhyun hyung probably doesn't know anyway. Like I told you, I'm not strong enough. Even though I was at home, I went to look at Baekhyun's Twitter and IG. I'm still going to cry. Baekhyun has posted a lot of photos with his new girlfriend. I'm bored with myself. I want to stop liking you, I'm tired, I want to stop, but I can't.

14 - Feb. - 53

Today is a day of love. My school is especially lively. I stood and looked at the many students who were bringing flowers and heart-shaped stickers to Baekhyun. I stood and looked for a while. Then I walked and stopped at Baekhyun's locker. Then stuffed chocolate cookies inside like on my last birthday.

“Oh, Kyungsoo, what are you doing here?”

"So why didn't you come to camp that day?"

"I just don't have any friends. So I don't want to go alone."

"Yes, Nong Jongin. I see you walking with us often."

"Ah, I'll wait first."

24 - Mar. - 53

I came to sit and do my homework at the stone horse table under the school building. I was doing my homework and had to sit tensely. Because a few minutes ago Baekhyun hyung came and asked me to sit with him. Because all the tables were full. I am very excited Because I have never sat this close to Baekhyun. It felt so good. But what's really bad is that I don't dare to look at Baekhyun's face like I always do.

Because this time we were too close Baekhyun hyung sitting across from me, will he be able to hear my heartbeat? Because my heart is beating very fast

6 - May - 53

And now it's Baekhyun's birthday again. And I did the same as last time. That is, take a big bag of chocolate cookies and put them in the locker as usual. But this time it was different from the previous times. Because I had put something in there as well.

Baek hyun Say

Today is my 19th birthday. I received so many gifts from both my juniors and friends that I couldn't handle them. So I had to take it and put it in my locker. When I opened I found chocolate cookies. The same as last birthday and Valentine's Day. And it's still the same.

The person who gave it to him didn't write a greeting. Or even his name at all. And how do I know? Who is the owner of this bag of delicious cookies? But when I took out the bag of cookies I saw a small book lying there. So I opened it because I wanted to know what was inside. I slowly opened it.

Then I found out that it was a diary. who wrote various stories of a boy From March 28 - 2009 until today, my birthday, I felt both good and bad at the same time. Even though there are people who like me this much But I never knew. His younger brother is different from other people I have ever met.

He said he had nothing good. Even though what he was doing made me smile like a crazy person. He said he was just an ordinary, bad-looking boy. But I still think he's cute.

I kept opening the diary. In case his younger sibling will write something else. Then I opened it and found it on the last page. His younger brother wrote that

"Baekhyun hyung probably knows by now, right? That I like you. I secretly look at you and smile at you silently. Do you know that until I had the courage to bring this diary to you? I spent many nights thinking about it. I'm afraid that if I give it to you, you won't talk to me, you'll hate me. I don't want it to be like that. Because it's very small

The fact that I secretly like you like this You still talk to me sometimes.

Baekhyun hyung, do you think I'm crazy? I am. I know that he has a boyfriend. And there is no possible way that you will ever like someone like me. But I still like you. Haha.

If Baek Heon has finished reading Please don't throw my diary into the trash. I want it back. I want to keep the memories I have of you. You don't have to bother me. I'm not going to interfere with your life. You don't have to worry. And you don't have to stop me from liking you either.

Because if I run after you until I'm tired, I'll stop myself."

After I finished reading I walked over and took the diary back to his younger brother. Because his younger brother himself said that he went to watch me play basketball every day. Therefore today Anyway, his younger brother must come.

That's it. His younger brother is sitting over there. In the same place where he sits and looks at me every day. I walked over and stopped in front of him. Then handed the diary back to him. His younger brother took it and immediately stuffed it into his shoulder bag.

"Thank you for the good feelings you have always given me."

"Do you know? I never knew before. That there are people who really like you like a younger sibling."

"You probably think that I have a lot of people who like you. But those people don't like you the way you like me."

“Those people said they liked you. But he never did anything for me."

"But it's not with my younger sister. My younger sibling never told me that she liked me. I never even said that the gift I gave to you belonged to you.”

"You did everything to make me stay quiet. Come sit and watch me play basketball every day. He brought snacks and refused to tell me his name. and many things Like other people who say they like older siblings like younger siblings have never done anything like this.”

"Oh, and you're misunderstanding me. That woman is not your boyfriend. Because since I broke up with someone before I've always looked up to the little man who came to watch me play basketball every day."

"What about the matter of the older brother inviting the younger sibling to come to the camp? I really want you to come. And you can stop thinking that you are not important. Because if you don't look for your younger sibling How will you know that your younger sibling isn't coming? Is it true? "

"Can I keep liking you?"

"Don't stop liking me just yet."

"Don't get tired yet."

"But what if little Kyungsoo gets tired of running after you?"

"Little Kyungsoo can just stand still."

"Because I will be the one who walks in to find you."

 END

Secret crush fic

BD

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From start to finish Baekhyun is the one who tells the whole story. Because I read it from the diary that Kyungsoo gave me, I'm not confused.

After that day The day I fell in love through the diary that I put in Baekhyun hyung's locker along with a bag of delicious chocolate cookies on his last birthday. I feel like my life is no longer boring. No need to secretly smile at the back of the person I secretly like. Now my life seems to be the happiest since I started studying at this school.

The reason is probably because...........

“Kyungsoo, if you're done with school, please wait. Brother Baek will come to pick you up." You heard that right. That's Baekhyun's voice. Every day after school He will always wait to come home with me.

"Yes, Baekhyun."

"How many times have you told me? that he should represent himself as Kyung And I just called him Baek." Ah, that's true. Baekhyun hyung once said to me, Let me represent myself as Kyung. And let's call Baekhyun hyung Baek, but I've been calling him like this for many years. There are some things that are forgotten.

“Yes, Baekhyun hyung, oops…” I immediately put my hand over my mouth. When I accidentally called out Baek's full name.

"Kyungsoo" Baek looked at me and gave me a fierce look.

"I don't have to look fierce," I murmured softly, like I thought Baek wouldn't hear, but I was wrong.

"Hmmm, who has a fierce face?" Baek slowly brought his face towards me. Then put both hands and feet on my study table.

" Kyung said that the dog in front of the school is fierce. Yes.

"Hahaha, really cute." Baek reached out his hand and lightly pinched my cheek, annoyed or not.

Ouch!

The bell sounded indicating the end of class. The students were given rooms and hurriedly packed up their things and prepared to go home. Then they slowly walked out of the classroom. As a result, now there were only a few people left in the classroom.

“Ko Yong Soo, do you want to go eat ice cream today?” Jongin, one of my few close friends, walked over and gently nudged me and asked.

"Well.... I mean, today we're going to wait to go home with Baekhyun hyung. Heh heh," I lowered my head and spoke. Even though my mind right now is thinking about big scoops of chocolate ice cream. Sprinkle with lots of toppings. And there was a big dollop of whipped cream. Topped with caramel, oh my, I want to eat it just thinking about it.

"Ever since I had a boyfriend You don't go out with us often." Jongin said with a smile.

"What is it? We haven't had anything to do with it yet." I lowered my head in embarrassment. But it's true just like what I said. Baekhyun and I The two of us aren't lovers yet. But every day today I'm happy enough. I have people waiting to come home with me every day. There are people who care. Someone called to wake me up in the morning.

And I have someone telling me good night every night. I don't need anything else.

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