Almost lost her because we didn't understand each other.

'Zen...... We have known each other for a long time..' The tall figure spoke to the person in front of him. While the two of them were having dinner at a Japanese restaurant in a famous department store.

'Yes, it's been a long time,' Zen replied with a smile.

'I want to tell Zen that...' Keng trailed off... causing Zen, who was concentrating on eating the sushi in front of him, to freeze as he waited to hear his next sentence.

'I like Zen'

..Crunch.. The chopsticks in the thin man's hand suddenly fell down. Keng lost his face for a moment. He had already made up his mind that no matter what, the person in front of him would probably just think of him as his older brother..

'Hyung, I just wanted to tell Zen, that is..' Keng hurriedly corrected himself when he saw that Zen was still sitting in the same position (the one holding the chopsticks) and not responding. But those words were half swallowed in his throat..

'Almost there...' Zen shifted slightly. before picking up his chopsticks and pretending to continue eating sushi.

'What do you mean, Asen? What is almost gone?'

'Zen thinks he'll never hear those words from you again,' Zen replied, smiling at the person in front of him. Before he himself was the one who looked away in embarrassment.

'Don't tell me...that in the past Zen liked you too' Keng asked back with his heart pounding.

'Ah...yes... It's been since the first time we met. But Zen sees that Brother Keng doesn't seem to like Zen. Zen plans to go out with Film because he has always been good to Zen. Yesterday he just came and asked for a relationship. But Zen said he would give the answer today.'

'Are you still on time??'

'Maybe not... because I just confessed that I like Zen... I didn't ask Zen to be my girlfriend...' The last sentence Zen said came out in a low voice, like a whisper. But Keng heard it clearly. He reached out and grabbed Zen's hand and held it loosely before..

'So....I'm your girlfriend ^^'

'Just listen to this sentence.. OK >///<'

[Zen’part]

Sigh... I sighed for the millionth time. Until my younger brother Ice, who was sitting busy playing the game, had to turn and stare. That is, you don't have to look, Ice... Looking at your face, you're not as handsome as mine -..-

“Brother Zen, you've been sitting here sighing for three hours now. Because of people like you, the world is really hot. Doing nothing all day and sitting and emitting carbon dioxide.”

Damn it! I managed to give him the Arahant's Palm. Where can I use this guy?

"Oh, why did you hit me on the head?" Ice held his head where he had been hit. before turning around and giving me a look of extreme pain

“My brother, his stress is about to go away. Do you still have the mood to sit and play games?”

"stressed? Oh..... He's really good again..." He said that's all and then turned to press the game in his hand. You always know, my friend.

"yeah"

“I think you can step back first. If I knew that the path ahead would be a gaping hole.”

“What are you talking about, Ice?”

It's not that I don't understand what it's saying. I understand... I understand very well.. Since I've been with P'Keng For the first three or four months we were very sweet. Raise the intimacy to the next level But lately, Keng hasn't called often. Don't stop by to see me like before. When we eat together, we eat quickly.

And he was always the first to go, telling me only that friends from the faculty had called to follow up. There is some outstanding work that needs to be cleared up quickly. Until now, I'm not sure...are we really lovers or not??

“I know you know. If you still don't want to retreat I think you should talk to Brother Keng to find out.”

“What do you want to talk about? For the past three days, he hasn't called me at all, Ice."

“I'll take care of it for you.”

After saying that, he got up and went out to call someone. I myself looked down at the phone in my hand. Waiting for when Pee Keng will call. Waiting to see when he will read and reply to the line I sent...since two days ago.. Soon Ice walked back in. With a raised eyebrow at me that said 'all right'

before continuing to sit and play the game in such a relaxed manner that I couldn't help but wonder who he was talking to.

About two hours had passed. There was a loud sound of the doorbell ringing in front of my room. I was about to get up and open the door but was blocked by the ice. Then he went to open the door himself.

“Zen!!” came a deep voice that I was familiar with. Before he could run, he came towards me and grabbed me and turned me around.

“How did you get here, Brother Keng?”

“What's wrong with Zen?? Is there something wrong??” Brother Keng asked in an anxious tone. Wait? Who is what? There isn't this..

“Who is the matter, P'Keng?” P'Keng was stunned. Then he turned and looked at me with eyes that were harsher than at first.

“Brother No said that Zen fainted in the middle of the mall. Currently staying in the room..”

“Uh.. not this.. Zen has been in the room since morning.” I tried to open my mouth and make out as much noise as possible. Because right now I feel like a child who is doing something wrong. Then you can't make excuses to continue.

“Zain lied to you?! Zen, do you think this is funny?!!” P'Keng scolded, exerting pressure on my upper arm until it hurt.

“Oh, Brother Keng, Zen is hurt. Let go first.. Zen isn't lying. Zen doesn't know about this matter."

“If Zen wasn't the one who thought of it, who would do these crazy things? I see how you're having fun too! Don't you understand that you have work to do and things to be done? Why don't people understand this matter!!”

“Huh... Don't yell at Zen like this... If you don't want to come to Zen that much, then just go back. Huh..” The clear water flowed out uncontrollably. You see, Zen... He didn't want to come see us at all..

“Huh, I wanted you to come, so I came. Are you still dissatisfied!?” His voice was mocking again.. Do people who are lovers and people who love each other talk like this?? Or is it true that we never really loved each other...

“Brother Keng..”

“Do we really love each other?”

“In the past, was it really called love? We...let's try to stay apart.." I said it... I can't take it anymore.. I can't stand this pain..

"Zen, there's someone else, right!?" P'Keng said, arguing. His eyes still stared at me.

“That should be Zen asking you more.”

“Then why did Zen break up with you?!” The pressure on his upper arm increased to another level. until I frowned in pain

“Zain didn't tell us to quit. But Zen asks us to try to be apart. Maybe we will find out..whether we really loved each other in the past or not..”

“Alright, if Zen wants it like that... I'll do it for you!!” P'Keng released the hand that was holding my arm in the beginning. before walking out of the room and slamming the door shut. I fell to the ground and cried helplessly... I said it already.. If from now on, P'Keng and I really have to be separated from each other. How will I live?

If it turns out that we really broke up... What shall I do?

"P'Zen.. I'm sorry Ice."

"It's not your fault, Ice... I made the choice."

[geng’part]

...about an hour earlier. Brother No called to tell me that Zen had fainted. It made me, who was busy chatting with juniors, have to leave work immediately to drive the car to the condo. Are you annoyed? Just a little bit. I don't want to leave my work behind. Because the work I'm talking about is a big project.

Three or four months ago, I still hardly had time to fart. So this time is as everyone understands.. I've drifted away from Zen a lot..

“Uh.. not here.. Zen has been in the room since morning.” This was the sentence I heard. From the mouth of the person I had made the effort to leave everything behind because I was worried about him. I couldn't help but feel angry. Accidentally got too violent with Zen... But it's even more serious. Well, Zen asked the two of us to try being apart...

“Brother Keng..”

“Do we really love each other?”

“In the past, was it really called love? Let's...let's try to stay apart..”

Why?.. Why does Zen think I don't love him? Because of this work? Because during this time I don't have time, right?? I thought Zen would understand me. I think he will understand me the most. Hasn't it shown enough in the past how much I love him? Fine... if that's what Zen wants.

I probably wouldn't be able to polish anything. Zen is a strong person. If you make a decision, you will definitely not go back easily...

The last picture I saw before walking out of the room. That is, Zen was collapsing on the ground and crying. Not different from me.. When the door closed, I sat there exhausted as well. My tears that I have never shed for anyone. Today it flows easily. It's a pain in my chest.. It's like I'm about to suffocate...

“Brother Keng, why did you come back and your eyes were so swollen?” one of the juniors asked. When he saw me walking back into the office After disappearing for almost three hours

"Uh." I didn't answer. But he put his hand on the younger man's shoulder gently and squeezed it. Little Man nodded because he understood my meaning well.

“It's okay, brother. Once this work is finished everything will be fine,” another female junior said with a smile. Most people here know everything about me and Zen. Because they have to work together most of the time. So these things will always be seen when Zen calls and I have to disconnect the call. or the line sound that rings several times in a row

But I had to choose to turn off roaming. Because work is more important.

Two weeks have passed...

It's been a long time now. That I had no contact with Zen at all, no! It's been much longer than this.. But this time was different from every other time. Because even though I keep my phone on all the time But Zen's personal ringtone never came. There isn't even a LINE notification sound. I'm lonely.. I miss Zen...

I want to go back and hug him to relieve his tiredness from work. I really miss Zen.

....I looked at the message on Line that I had left in response to Zen from about three months ago.. But I haven't pressed send yet. 'Wait for Brother Keng first. I'll go back and look for it this evening. I miss Zen' ..I probably won't have the chance to send it again..

....I looked at the bags of more than twenty bakery snacks on the kitchen table. I got it from the teacher. Each of these things is delicious. I intend to take it back to Zen. But there was no chance Because I have to rush in to continue talking about work. Until today...it's all gone moldy and expired..

....I looked at more than fifty roses in a vase... it withers Many flowers have withered.. I buy it every day because I intend to give it to Zen.. But that's another thing.. I will always be busy.

..... I looked at the plane ticket to go to the Maldives for 4 days, 3 nights, 2 seats in my own hand.. Award from the organization where a group of medical students like ourselves completed the project for him ahead of time. I had intended earlier that if this work passed.. I will take Zen on a trip.. But when Zen asked us to be apart Zen probably doesn't want to see me.

I probably won't have the chance to take Zen away...

[zen’part]

It's been a long time since I've had any contact with P'Keng... I went to university and couldn't find it. I went to the regular store and couldn't find it.. It's true..He's busy with some important business. How can you have time to wander around like me? I also forgot...

"P'Zen... P'Zen!!"

“Huh!? Why are you yelling, Ice?” It stings my eardrums so hard. How can you shout, you idiot!

“Meh again....”

"I miss you...." P'Keng.. I almost said these words out of my mouth..

“Wow!” Ice sighed like a person who was bored with the world. Then he turned to playing the game he brought with him.

“Why are you sighing?” I asked, but before I could answer, a group of juniors walked past and called out to me.

“That's Zennie!!”

“Hello, Zen ^^” One of the younger women in the group greeted me with a smile. Why does this group of kids seem to know me? While I could only look at them back and forth because I didn't know anyone here -3-

“Hi.”

“Really cute,” said another boy.

Huh? What do you say?? Cute... uh, did I misunderstand something??

“How do you guys know me? I'm sorry you have to ask like this."

“Wow, all of your girlfriends are talented. How can I not know you? Well, P'Keng showed me pictures and told us how cute you were in the morning and evening."

“Brother Keng, are you telling me this?” I asked, confused.

“Yes, at first the two brothers were lovers. Brother Keng is very happy. I'm talking about P'Taengwan."

“But four or five months later we had to do a big project. Brother Keng is very busy,” another young woman added.

“So, has P'Zen gone to celebrate with P'Keng yet?” asked the same young man.

"celebrate? I don't know anything about it. What are you celebrating?” The truth is that we've been apart for a while now..

“Well, Brother Keng has already completed the project. The boss is very pleased. It's fitting that he put so much effort into it. Even though I told them to go to sleep, they still didn't go. They said they would just work and get up to two hours of sleep a day or not. My boyfriend is really cool.”

I haven't slept yet.... Do you really have to work that hard?

"Hey, it's almost time for class. Let's go. I'll get ready first, Sen."

“I hope you have fun celebrating with Brother Keng.”

"yes"

Then he walked back to the group.. Leaving me lost in my own thoughts In the past, I was too suspicious, right? I think Brother Keng is bored with me. I think I'm good at it and I'm with someone else. But in reality, Brother Keng had to bear such a heavy burden... I must be a terrible fan for not understanding this.

I don't trust my lover at all..

“Do you want to go back and talk to him again?” Ice, who had been playing the game for a long time, spoke up. He must have heard me talking with Keng's junior..

“What do you mean?”

“If you think you still love each other. Let's go back and talk again. Let's go adjust our understanding.”

"I don't dare... Keng has been chased away... How can we face each other?”

“Try it, if you still love each other. You don't have to say anything, you can feel it..."

evening..

I told Ice to go back to the room first. As for me, I ducked out and took a walk at the riverside park behind the university.. it was another place. That Keng and I like to sit together often. But when I'm apart from P'Keng..that means including the period when P'Keng went to work on that project as well. It looks very quiet here. It's probably because of the time I came here...

It doesn't have a talented older brother coming with it..

I keep walking. Before my eyes stumbled upon someone I was familiar with The tall figure was dressed in a sky blue polo shirt and black jeans. Looking good as always.. His eyes looked far away at the water in front of him. A face that looks from the side I can still sense that this person definitely has a lot of things going on in their head. Uh...

I've been standing here staring at him for too long... I should go back before they know..

"Zen"

[writer’part]

“Zen,” a deep voice called from behind. Zen didn't hesitate at all whether to turn around or not...

“Yes.” But Zen chose to turn around. This was the first time in weeks since the incident at the condo that Zen had looked directly at Keng. Keng's face remained neutral. Doesn't show any emotion on his face.

“Are you alright?” Keng asked, his voice sounding cold and distant, much to Zen's heart.

"Just keep going. It's normal. If Brother Keng doesn't have anything else..Zen, please excuse me." Zen cut him off before turning around and preparing to walk away. But Keng's words made Zen's legs stop.

"Zayn probably doesn't really love you anymore.."

"..." Zen seemed to be mesmerized and stood still. Keng's words could tell how disappointed the person behind him was.

“It's funny... I miss Zen every day to death."

"..." Zen didn't answer again as usual.. But now my sweet face is already wet with tears that have flowed out..

"I'm sorry that I couldn't support our love...." Keng's voice began to tremble..

"I tried to do my best...I'm sorry." Keng's tears flowed slowly. Before turning around to walk out...

“Zen, I'm sorry..” Zen said as if he knew that Keng hadn't gone far. Keng, who didn't even have time to walk away, turned around and looked at the figure in front of him. who turned around with a tear-stained face

“Zen is sorry that Zen doesn't understand you. I'm sorry that Zen doesn't trust you. Sorry for being stupid Zen.. Until it makes us like this.”

"..." Everyone stood there with tears streaming down their cheeks...

“We still love each other, right? Brother Keng, you don't hate Zen, right?" Finishing his sentence, the tall figure stepped forward and immediately pulled the thin body into a hug. Zen himself hugged back with nostalgia..

“There has never been a day that I haven't loved Zen. And there will never be a day where I will hate Zen too.” Keng gently stroked the hair of the person in his arms.

"Zen is sorry, Brother Keng...Zen is sorry."

“Don't cry, please don't.. My talented Zen must not cry. Zen doesn't have to apologize. Because Zen is not wrong at all.”

“We're back to being the same as before, Brother Keng..na... Don't leave Zen.." Zen raised his head and spoke to the tall figure with pleading eyes.

"I'm not going anywhere... I have such a cute and adorable boyfriend. Where are you going to run to? Hmm,” Keng teased. It caused quite a bit of blood on Zen's face.

“That's funny..” Zen lightly smacked his arm. Before breaking the hug and turning to hold hands instead.. Keng rubbed the head of the person in front of him with affection. The two of them took a walk along the waterfront. As we had walked together before..

“P'Keng, can you tell Zen what project P'Keng has been working on? I saw that the juniors said it was a very big project,” Zen asked with curiosity.

“Oh, there's a foreign organization that has asked you to develop a new medicine formula that can combat serious diseases in their country. But this disease is very difficult to treat. So we had to have a big meeting together. Working together every day.”

“Then why don't they let famous researchers do it? Why does it have to be the smart ones?”

“I sent him some research before. And then it passed So they saw that our university had quality, so they trusted us to do this work. My teacher also chose me to be the project leader. It's a heavy burden,” Keng explained truthfully. But the little person next to him and his thoughts had gone too far.

“What's the matter, Zen? What are you thinking?”

“Zane is just angry at himself. Brother Keng works this hard, but Zen still.."

“Here we go again, overthinking it again, darling. It's tiring, but it's worth the reward.” Keng tightened his grip on his hand. along with sending a warm smile to the person next to you

"reward? Did you get a prize? What? Money? Is it a free ice cream card?”

“Haha, Zen, I think you haven't been able to sleep while working on a project for months. In exchange for a card to eat free ice cream, is that all?”

"Oh, well Brother Keng, if you don't tell me, will Zen know?" The small figure pouted at the person next to him. Until Keng couldn't help but put his finger on Zane's soft cheek.

“Maldives 4 days 3 nights Is that enough, darling?”

“Maldives!! You're so good!!" Zen shouted in happiness. Before jumping and hugging Keng and turning around

“I'm so happy,” Keng said, laughing.

"I'm glad. Brother Keng is really going to take Zen. I won't lie."

“Haha, not gonna lie. I'll continue the trip for you as well. If Zen wants it.”

"yay!! I love you the most. Damn it.” Zenqing kissed his cheek first. Played well and was stunned.

"Oh, play like that. Be careful, I won't be able to resist you, Senn." The tall man teased.

"If you can't resist, let Zen stay in the Maldives for a long time." Zen himself was right. Pretending to reach closer Until Keng snatched him away and kissed him on the mouth once. Before bending over and whispering a sentence that made Zen feel so embarrassed that he couldn't do anything..

"Alright... If I don't have 'Nong', I won't go back, okay??"

“No!” Zen was so embarrassed that he had to run away. Leaving Keng Borrow to smile all alone.

"Wait, Zen, wait for me."

Then the two of them laughed happily. It was loud throughout the area. The smiles that had disappeared for many months appeared on both of their faces again... And I'm sure that from now on..it will never fade away again :)

It's finished.

SF

His first story Let's start with the Mum and Dad couple.

(This is the first Father and Mother fic that I've written>< )

Let's just say that the titles and descriptions are various. It's not involved in the story. (I can't think of anything.)

After reading it, are you confused?? 5555555 This story is just written according to the mood. (Is this a dramatic mood??)

Anyway, please comment and share your opinions.

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