But I'm your ex-boyfriend. All i want to do is go back to the way it was.

Going back before when I was your boyfriend is a possibility.

I thought it would be better to let you go.

Because I wasn't confident that I could make you happy.

I tried to ignore you, I was clod to you but that wasn't my true feelings.

So why am I having a hard time over my memories with you.

Back to when we were happy.

A tall figure was dressed according to his style. Arrange your clothes as neatly as possible. Today I planned to go out to run some errands. After finishing it, I walked back and looked at the things on his table. It wasn't much, but it wasn't just a small bag or crate that would hold enough. He looked at the things he put in here.

How cold his eyes were, he probably didn't know himself. before closing the lid of the crate and lifting the box away together

a period of time Walked to the skytrain station. Waiting for the car in no hurry The air, which was so hot that he was covered in sweat, didn't feel as hot to his heart. Now I hardly feel anything. Or possibly, he probably 'didn't feel' anything at all until the electric train arrived.

He walked into the car. Crowded with people who both go to work Teenagers meeting up with friends to hang out. It was a time when people followed their own responsibilities and ways of life.

When coming down from the subway station, when arriving at the station where he wants to get off The tall figure had to stand and wait for the bus again. Which if you don't miss the shift Recently, the bus that I used to ride coming soon So he hurriedly walked to the bus stop.

Not long after standing and waiting The bus he remembered exactly where he was taking him had arrived. A tall figure walked into the car, tapped his card and looked for a seat. Near the door there was a place to sit, so he sat down there. Look away In a way that you know what's there based on your familiarity. He likes to get in his car and look at what's outside.

There are traffic jams at some points. But he didn't care. Just think How much time and how long will it take to reach his intended destination? The car keeps coming along on its way. He stood up and signaled for the car to stop at the stop ahead. After the car stopped, a tall figure got out of the car. Keep walking until you reach an alley ahead, not far from the bus stop. He hurriedly walked into that alley.

He is a fairly fast walker. For others, walking this far may be far. But I don't feel tired at all. Keep walking until you reach an alley, continue walking into it. The tall figure walked straight ahead. until reaching a house small blue gate He stood and looked for a while. Before putting the crate down, he rang the doorbell for the owner of the house to come out. Then he walked away from that place.

          Ding dong Ding dong ~

The little man got up to wash his face and wash his hands before going out to look at the window to see who was coming. He looked and saw no one in front of the house. I'm not sure if the people standing there were hiding from the sun or not. The little man decided to walk out and look in front of his own house.

He opened the door and looked around, not seeing anyone around. He looked around and looked down to go back into the house but found that there was a box on the floor. So he went out and picked it up to look at it.

          'Kihyun'

That box had his name written in English on the lid. Kihyun took it back into the house to see what was inside.

He set the box on the table before opening it and looking at it. Inside was a small notebook and some A4 drawing notebooks. one teddy bear Kihyun began to know who it was. Two shirts one photograph And there was a clear CD case inside. He took it out and looked at it. It didn't have anything written on it like a blank disc.

But if you want to know what it is He had to go and look.

He managed to take out the disc from the clear box. Open it and look in his notebook. It already has autoplay when inserted. But Kihyun chose to open it in case there was more than one file, and there was only one video file. He opened the file and looked at it.

An image was projected. What he saw was nothing but the person he was familiar with and knew well, Son Hyunwoo.

'Hello, Kihyun, today I brought something back to you,' the first sentence came out immediately. He continued to sit and watch. Even though Kihyun himself didn't want to see it.

'I'm sorry I didn't give it myself. You must let your master take these items into the house. The doll may be a little rotten. I've used both hugging and supporting it, but after washing it, it's still as ragged as before. I really like it. But I think I'd better give it back to you.' Kihyun himself doesn't really want to watch it until the end, but what can he do? He's opened it and he'll watch it until the end.

'Two clothes that you let me wear Because it's big. When you don't have any clothes Had to stay over at your house after you picked me up from work. I gave it back to you, and you saw that, right? A4 paper.' Kihyun turned around and looked at the A4 paper inside the crate. He took it out and looked at it. which is a picture of him His picture was drawn.

'Those A-4s are for me to practice when I want to draw a beautiful picture. How can I do it? You told me yourself that if you want to draw, Draw a picture of you.' Kihyun also didn't think he remembered saying this to Hyunwoo. Yes, he did, but he didn't think he'd actually choose to do it.

'I'm not very good at drawing pictures. But I can draw better than you, haha.' The people's voices sounded like they were having fun teasing him. But he noticed. The people there didn't feel that way.

'But I like it when you try drawing. When the expression on your face, what are you intending to do? It looks really good, too.' The people's voices turned normal and indifferent. Kihyun was quite confused. With things that he still doesn't know what else to talk about.

'That little book. I honestly said that I wrote it to you, but it was only when we 'We have to break up' really isn't as important as other things. Skip it and watch it later. Otherwise, you don't have to open it. I just want you to read it. The first book I ever made for you.'

Kihyun picked up a small notebook and read it. He knew exactly why and what had happened. It was written there, some good, some bad. He turned it around until he opened it all the way to the back. There are song lyrics Probably referring to his feelings.

Even though Hyunwoo 'cheated' on Kihyun first, why did you have to write these things? There's a lot everywhere. Kihyun still doesn't understand what Hyunwoo did.

'And next, a black drawing book. I drew a picture of the band you like. There is one too. Try opening it and taking a look. Actually, it's my hobby. But I want you to Let's look at the last page.' The people in the clip sat silently.

Kihyun kept opening it. Hyunwoo isn't good at portraiture. But if you look at it, you know who it is. It's just not accurate. Did he have enough concentration to draw like this? Kihyun himself wondered.

Until I opened the last page. What is written on this page? Notice that it's similar to a ring. Whatever Hyun Woo does, it's usually dated. But this isn't said. Just tell me the month. He knew what Hyunwoo had done to him that month. In the same moment, suddenly, the sound in the clip sounded louder.

'I intend to make a new ring myself. By designing it myself and ordering new ones. Immediately after you graduated, but now I haven't had a chance to do it. So I want you to know what I do, because I don't like to tell you anything. I don't like things being revealed. I like to do good things for you quietly, and I'm satisfied.'

Kihyun didn't look up at the screen. His hand rested on her face, stroking the tips of his fingers across it slowly. He looked at this face. Kihyun is a little nearsighted. He could only faintly see Hyun Woo's handwriting. But I know what that is. Kihyun didn't know that Hyunwoo had done it. He didn't want to think about how long Hyunwoo had put things away.

Am I really that important to you?

A tall figure stood hidden in the nearby bushes. Standing and watching as the little man put the boxes in. Hyunwoo stood and watched silently until the door was closed. A tall figure began to walk out of his hiding place. before turning and walking out of that area. Follow the entrance to travel back to his home.

Hyunwoo himself couldn't answer his feelings at this time. He had always wanted to escape his feelings ever since Kihyun broke up with him. In his heart he was still thinking. One day he might be good enough to win Kihyun's heart. But all the past events Making himself feel the word impossible like Kihyun said.

Hyun Woo walked to the bus stop at just the right time. The bus he had to take to return had just arrived. A tall figure walked up to the car and sat down in the empty seat. He felt himself There is no energy to do anything. His small eyes looked outside the car as if he didn't feel anything. A thick hand picked up the headphones and plugged them into the phone. Then put on headphones and turn on the music you like.

each event Slowly coming back to Hyunwoo He looked at the empty space next to him. The place where Kihyun used to be beside him is here. Hyunwoo closed his eyes and rested his head against the window sill of the car. I just want to rest and suppress the symptoms I have at this time. Every time there is something that affects your heart. He would feel uncomfortable breathing every time. Heart palpitations make you unable to think.

What you're thinking 'The incident with Kihyun present It was one of Hyunwoo's happiest moments in Hyunwoo's life. But now, Hyunwoo has to endure his own suffering. He couldn't be Kihyun's happiness anymore. The more he thought about it, the tears that he rarely had to overflow from the corners of his eyes flowed down.

Have you ever wanted to be happy like this? The kind that would have Kihyun for the rest of his life. But why is the time given To be this short

'I didn't cheat on you, Kihyun. The whole thing, I might predict and not trust you. But I'm a person who keeps promises. I've never had anyone except you. I can tell you what happened that day. You decide for yourself what you don't like. I don't want to see anything, I just put it away. But I always have confidence in front of you.

You have given me the courage to speak the truth. But if you knew that this event would happen I wouldn't let this happen to ruin the time we had with each other. It's only this short'

Hyun Woo's voice in the clip talks about an event that Ki Hyun doesn't want to remember. It wasn't that he didn't know Hyunwoo's personality. But Hyun Woo's actions created mistrust with Ki Hyun even though "that day" Hyun Woo explained himself. Can dare to show everything to Kihyun. But the negative feelings that arise inside can never be erased.

No matter how much you want to believe in Hyun Woo Everything cannot Going back again for Kihyun

Kihyun stops Hyunwoo's video. Walk to a zone in the room and take out a stack of books. He looked at a book that didn't have a picture of a cat. The little spotted tiger wasn't quite right. But Kihyun doesn't like cats so he thinks he's a little tiger. The background is mint green. It was the first book that Hyunwoo wrote for Kihyun.

He remembered Hyun Woo saying that I've never done this for anyone. Want to record the story that happened as much as possible Hyunwoo often told him, ‘My memory is not good, so I made this book.’ Kihyun didn't want to open it and read it. It will make him cry in vain. The other one is brown. And it's definitely not a book that can be bought generally. Even if I search for my whole life

There is only this one book. The book that Hyunwoo 'made' himself to apologize to Kihyun, but now this book is not good at all right now. He tore it because of his unstoppable emotions.

Hyunwoo was once able to stop himself. But as the day progresses, it cannot always be the same. Everything made Kihyun feel like Hyunwoo was changing every day. From the time that I used to indulge, it seems that he, from not complaining, has complained to him a lot. Every day more He couldn't help but think that Hyunwoo had changed for him.

He decided to break up with Hyun Woo. But that person will still be with Kihyun. Trying again and again, Kihyun realized it.

I'm sorry, but I chose my path..

          Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Kihyun's phone vibrates because someone is calling. A chubby little hand picked up his own cell phone and looked at it. Before he furrowed his eyebrows together slightly because of the person who called him. I hardly ever reach out to him if I don't have anything. Asking or talking only about Hyunwoo.

Hyunwoo hyung?

"Hello, Hoseok."

[Kihyun, where are you now?]

"I'm at home. Is there something wrong?” Kihyun replied to the person on the other end of the line in a voice that shocked the person on the other end from the tone he heard. It was as if the party over there were quite shocked by some force.

[I'm at the hospital. Hyun Woo faints at the bus stop. Someone helped me deliver it and then looked up my phone number. Now at the hospital

xxx]

"Yes, sir. I will leave immediately."

Kihyun immediately hung up the phone and hurried to change clothes to go see Hyunwoo who was now in the hospital. The little man was flustered. Completely confused by the situation, he only took his phone and wallet. and immediately left the house

Kihyun rushes to the emergency room. Right now, the people waiting at the front of the room had tense expressions and expressions. In front of the door is Hoseok. Hoseok is Hyun Woo's best friend since high school. Hyunwoo once shared that the two of them were very close even though they didn't like each other at first.

“Hoseok, has the doctor come out and said anything yet?”

"Not yet. I don't know what happened or if it was because of the weather. I'm not sure. I don't know where it came from."

"He came to see me."

"He went to see you? So why don't you know what it is?"

“He just brought things. which I haven't seen him yet He left before I even opened the door.”

After Kihyun and Hoseok were talking. The doctor who was inside the emergency room walked out. But I guessed it from the doctor's eyes. Hyun Woo's condition probably isn't good.

"How is my friend, doctor?" The doctor was silent, looking at the group of people waiting.

“Doctor.. I'm sorry. We did our best and to the best of our ability.” Everything seemed like it wouldn't continue. There's only silence.

The little man's body trembled before he collapsed onto the cold floor from the cold air conditioning in the hospital. Tears slowly overflowed. He couldn't stop sobbing. Hoseok walked over and sat down and hugged Kihyun who was crying before helping Kihyun to his feet. From there, the door to the room opened and a patient's bed was carted out.

The figure lying on the bed was motionless. Not even the slightest movement of her stomach.

Kihyun gripped onto the railing of the hospital bed. A small chubby hand caressed the breathless figure's face. The cold skin his hand was touching. He couldn't stop his tears any longer. Clear water overflowed from the little man's eyes. His sobs were loud in that area.

The person next to me was crying as well. Grabbing his shoulder, he pulled Kihyun out. Have the nurse push the bed away. Kihyun turned around and hugged Hoseok tightly and cried harder.

“It's okay, Hyunwoo. He's fine.” Hoseok could only hug Kihyun in comfort.

There are only living people left who are still suffering.

The little man arrived home after Hoseok dropped him off. He had no idea that Hyun Woo was suffering from heart disease. When it was, he never knew before. He walked back into the room as soon as he arrived. He sat down on his own bed and cried out. After talking with Hoseok It's possible that Hyun Woo hardly ever told anyone what was wrong with him.

Kihyun saw his laptop's light blinking. He realized that before leaving he had left it open. Before getting up to sit in the chair and moving the mouse to stop taking a break.

The video image appeared again. Hyun Woo's picture was in the square frame in front of him. It made Kihyun cry. There are only a few minutes left in length. This clip will end. He decided to let it continue.

'Kihyun...' A voice in the video sounded before the people in the clip's expressions and expressions changed.

'Can't we really love each other anymore?' Kihyun tightly covered his mouth with his hand and sobbed after he heard Hyunwoo's words.

'Do you really hate me, Kihyun?' For Kihyun, Hyunwoo used to be the person he loved the most, but now he hates Hyunwoo. He himself didn't understand why he was sitting and watching. But right now, he only thought that he had to watch it to the end.

'I'm sorry that the way I am has made you hate me. But I never didn't love you, no matter what you were like. But can't I just ask that you be the kind of person that you should see one more time? I always ask myself why it is like this. I couldn't answer. But the fact that I'm living without you It's like there aren't any answers left.

I want you to not hate me for once. Will I get it..?'

Kihyun couldn't say anything. The words he heard, his body was quite fluttery. Crying after listening, I don't know why. It was playing out in Kihyun's head. Now he began to cry until he sobbed a little.

'I'm not a good speaker. But I said what I was thinking. And how do you feel at this time? I'm sorry I couldn't do it. There are many things that I have tried to do. But it didn't turn out well for us. I didn't want it to come out like that. But I can't say anything, Kihyun. Even though you're spoiled, irrational, and emotional, I love you very much.

Maybe I'll warn you too harshly. But I have a reason for what I said. I'm trying not to hurt you like you must be feeling. From what you said Words can hurt people. That doesn't mean you'll be the only one talking. I spoke to hurt you. But in what I say, I have a reason that I'm always ready to tell you. I want you to stop for once and talk with each other for a reason.

Would you mind if I told you that I love you very much? Would you mind if I told you that? I miss you very much. Can we try to find each other again sometime? There are many things that I want to do with you and not with anyone else. Can I please have a real opportunity for once?'

Finishing his sentence, the person in the clip burst into tears even though he was still staring at the camera. This made Kihyun cry even harder. It wasn't that he didn't miss Hyunwoo. But Hyun Woo himself always made him upset. Kihyun didn't really intend to do this, but what could he do? He was already a temperamental person.

'I'll wait for the day you come back to answer.' Hyunwoo smiled at the camera before he got up and closed the photo.

"You woke up and listened to my answer.." Kihyun buried his face in tears at his computer desk. He sobbed nonstop until his body began to tremble. He couldn't say the answer to Hyunwoo anymore. The one who promised not to leave him. In the end, he left him. The kind that he himself would never be able to find again either.

The End.

Every minute is valuable for everyone. Use your own conscience before deciding what to say or do.

Because sometimes No matter how much you want to fix it. It cannot be fixed anymore.

Thank you for reading until the end.