2 years of secret love 2 years of waiting..................................

Don't wait, I don't have a future.

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Do you believe in true love?.....I myself believe in true love. I have received it from one person....and I have given it to another person as well.........

I never thought that one day I would fall in love with someone this much.....most importantly, he turned out to be the same person that I hated him for too, haha. I myself have encountered many forms of love... But the one that comes across most often is probably..... To secretly like him.

..............Hello, my name is "Nam". I'm an ordinary student. Secretly in love with a senior at school. I think everyone has probably been in this situation.

me too From the moment I found out I liked him....it was the same moment I felt heartbroken from the start....... Why do you ask?? Well, he already has a girlfriend. But what can I do? Go and love him. "I feel that I have to take responsibility for myself." Do you want to know who he is?? ..............

His name is "Aem", real name is "Sathida Pinsinchai". He is in Mathayom 6 and has a girlfriend named "Ness". Actually, my group and his group are quite similar.

Let's take a look. Where do we go? What activities does the school have? He always has to study in my group -,- doing activities is tiring. But it's good to be close to him............. And this is another day that I came to organize an activity with them.... Let me tell you, I want this activity to be completely destroyed. Why? It's me.

I have to come and organize a booth for activities on the final day. I used to like this day in the past. But when it came to this year, it was his senior year that he had to graduate...... I feel hate again

Today very..................

Aim :

Hey, that bear-faced guy can stand and act like a bear. Just a little more and I'll be a pig. Haha.

Nam :

Oh, P'Aem!!! Is this your mouth? I'll slap you............

After that, both he and I stood silently, neither of them saying a single word..........just stood and watched the others set up the activity booth..... .....Maybe both he and I want to think or reconsider things. that ever happened in This school.....

And it was he who spoke out to break the silence...

Aim :

water !!! (He spoke without looking at me)

Nam :

yes ??

Aim :

I broke up with Ness.

Nam :

elder sibling

ok

Or not? Is there anything you can tell me? Don't be disappointed. No matter what, I'm always beside you.

His face and eyes were smooth. Along with those cold words It makes it difficult for me to predict.... How does he feel now? Definitely........ It's very rare for him to act like this in front of me.......

Aim :

elder sibling

ok

I found out that Ness had someone else, so I broke up. Actually, I'm asking if I'm sorry. It must be there. But I think I'm very happy that I'm sorry that I lost someone who didn't love me...........Since we've been together, I'm not sure if I really love Ness or just want Ness. Come deceive yourself so that you really want to block love from someone...........

AIM PART

As I spoke, I also looked at Little Bear's face.......Did Little Bear know that all this time had passed? I've secretly loved you all along. I've always secretly looked at you. And all this time I know enough that she secretly looks at me too. Because there were times when we accidentally made eye contact...you know, at that time, I was really embarrassed by you.

But he could only keep a calm face. Showing no symptoms........ But even though I know that you feel the same way as me...... I can't do anything except let our hearts feel like this........It hurts so much that I can't take care of you...... I just kept saying bad things. Teasing her to be upset every day because after graduating from Mathayom 6

Then I have to go to study in America for 5-6 years. When that time comes, both of us won't have to be in so much pain. Having to be far away from the person I love for this long.............

NAM PART 

Actually, I kind of knew that Pee Ness had someone else. But I didn't come and tell P'Em not because I wanted P'Em to regret it later. But I think that this kind of thing is more about two people. An outsider like me doesn't want to go in and cause problems between the two of them. Just secretly loving like this makes me very happy.

Even though it's more suffering, hahaha, but!!!! What's wrong with P'Em? When you speak, suddenly turn and look at me like this........You're looking at my face like this. What do you want to convey?.............What do you want to say? I............The matter that is in my heart must be very sad to cause my eyes to become sharp.

Mine has clear water in it. As time passed, it turned into tears and sobs............

Nam :

When I saw P'Em like this, I immediately went to hug and comfort him. "It's okay, P'Em. Please don't cry. I still have you. Is there anything you can explain to me? Don't keep it to yourself. I may not be able to give good advice. But I promise. No matter what happens, I will always be by your side.

Aim :

Auntie, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I wasn't able to take care of you in the past. I love you. Thank you for standing by my side on the day I was sad. I have time left in This school is only a few days away. We have to leave each other. We won't meet again. It's only been a few days, can I have the remaining time?

Let us spend as much time together as possible. Live together as much as possible From now on, don't leave me anywhere.

Nam :

Yes, he promised. He will do everything you request. But even though I don't ask He already made it for me. You don't have to cry anymore, you lazy dolphin.......

The rest of the time, he and I were stuck together all the time. In the morning, he came and waited for me in front of the school to wait to enter the school together every morning. Before lining up in front of the flagpole, Brother Khae would come and sit. With me, when it's time to rest, we come and wait for lunch together every day. If there is free time, I will come and sit with you. Come wait for me to study in front of the room.

After school, we went home together. Let's go find something to eat together. All this time Both he and I are very happy. He's always done this................................................ .until 3 On the last day before the final day, he suddenly disappeared. Without being able to contact him at all...........................

NAM PART

Let's do good things to make us feel better. And then it disappeared like this.........What did your mind do to you??

Right now I don't know. What mood should I be in? I feel completely irritated and don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to meet anyone. No matter what I do There will always be stories about him floating around in my head......... It's so funny that I feel like I'm the wrong person. Haha. But when I think about it, it's funny. Suddenly it will come.

It's gone, it's gone, we don't care about each other's feelings. I must have lost. No, I've lost for a long time. Lost since I accidentally had feelings for him. Or you could call it a loss from the start. But that's it. All this time What state am I in? I don't know yet. If he disappears, it's not wrong. Because we aren't anything to each other anymore.

AIM PART

Sorry...... I'm sorry, right now there's only this one word. I want to tell you. Sorry for disappearing like this. I'm sorry I left you again. I'm sorry I wasn't able to take care of you as I promised. But I'm missing something like this. Just because I'm afraid, afraid that one day The day we have to be apart

The day we really had to separate I'm afraid that I will be the one who can't accept it. I'm afraid that I'll feel more in my mouth. Nam, what will happen to you? Will you cry because I'm here? Will you still be a crybaby? I'm worried about you. I'm sorry that I must have made you cry again.................

1 day before final day (school entrance)

"Oh, it's heavy."

Today I have to prepare equipment. In making the final arch tomorrow......... And where is my clothes bag? Because I guess It definitely won't be finished today. It's been too long tonight. Wow, it's heavy. If it was before then it would have been good, right? In the past, I had my older brother beside me. If it were in the past, you would have rushed to help me.

But now things are no longer the same. He's gone. We choose to disappear. From my life.................................. but !!! That's Brother Em. What are you doing standing here? But it has nothing to do with me. It's better to go to school so I can put things away.

"Water...... Water, wait a minute. Come, I'll help you."

Today I came to stand and wait for water in front of the school. It's here. What have I brought with me? Haha. And then I'm still standing like a dizzy bear. It's really cute. Because the water is cute like this, where can I go? Not far No matter how far you walk away In the end, I had to come back to get water. No, I called and still walked away. I'm definitely angry. What should I do? Better go help.

After saying that, he immediately snatched the item in Nam's hand, haha.

"Where do you put it?"

"Council room."

"Huh, then I'll put it here."

"water ....... "

"What do you want? Come back and do it. You chose to disappear, didn't you? Then why did you come back? Why did you come back? When you thought of going, you went. When you thought of coming, you came. What are you doing with your heart? Don't you feel sorry for the water? Water has feelings. It's so fun. It's so funny. The feeling of water. Why? Sometimes you act like you're worried about water. Act like water is important, but really

Water is more like your toy. That which I wanted to play, I came and picked it up. When I got bored, I left P'Eem..... Why did you do this? Huh, Huh?"

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I was wrong. I'm sorry I did that. I'm sorry for hurting Nam's feelings. I love you. I love you like a lover. I love you...... I've always loved you.

All this time, I tried to block out my feelings. Try to date this person. So that I can take my mind off the water. Tried to walk out But in the end, I walked back to find water anyway. I love water very much. Don't cry. Don't cry. You're wrong."

"Huh. Don't do it again. Huh.......... Let's tell you where we're going first. He doesn't want to live without me anymore. Haha.

"I won't do it anymore. I won't cry. Please stop crying. I cried a lot, the bags under my eyes were swollen, I didn't know. Why not show your face to me? I can't see a hug like this."

"Put it on, no need to tease me and drive me crazy. Because I'm the only one. Make the water like this"

"Haha. Okay. I'm sorry. Be good."

"Oh, but I'll tell you where I'm going first. Do you understand? You don't have to wait during the day. In the evening, the water hasn't returned yet."

"I'll meet you tomorrow at Building 1, Floor 4, Room 3. I have something to tell you."

"Alright, see you later."

last day

"And now today has arrived. Hey, the school has activities for you. Each senior walked in a line. to receive flowers and gifts from the children But it's already at the end of the line. Why hasn't it appeared yet? I guess it's hot. Where are you being surrounded by girls? Chi........... That's it, here it is."

"congratulations  

It's over, brother Em. Don't forget me. Let's come back to each other sometimes. Here are flowers and gifts. Please take a photo too ><"

"Thank you, uh, Nam. Don't forget."

"yes "

"After giving gifts to each other There will be various activities to do together throughout the day. Whether it be a farewell concert, various games for seniors and juniors to do together for the last time.......................... "

Appointment time

"I told you to come and it didn't come."

"Waiting long?"

"Very much."

"Very cool, bear. Uh....... Nam....... I have something to tell you."

" yes?? "

"Well, Brother...... Brother........ I love water. As you said before, I love water. I love you like a lover. I have always loved you. Thank you Nam for doing many things for me. Always taking care of you. I'm worried about you. Keep making me feel good. Make me understand In the word love more All the time, I knew that Nam felt the same as me. Thank you, thank you.

There were many times when the brothers tried to disappear from the water life. Do you know why? Because I don't want either of us to get hurt. I'm afraid that if we let both of our hearts go further than this. The one who gets hurt will be both of us. elder sibling............... I have to study in America for 2-3 years. Because of this, I don't have the courage to tell Nam how I feel. I told you everything. You can be angry at me."

"Oh, why did you just tell me? Why don't you give Nam time to come to terms with it? Nam loves you. I love you very much too. Haha. Nam has never been angry with you. Nam loves you very much. It's okay. No matter how many years it takes, he will wait. He will wait for you. Wait for you to come back. He can wait."

"Don't wait. If you meet someone better than you, The person who can make you smile, go. Don't wait."

"No, there's only you. No matter what, he will wait. He loves you, do you understand? I love you very much."

"Huh, I understand. I love you a lot too. Promise me you'll wait. Don't fall in love with anyone. Wait for me."

" Promise "

" water....... "

" yes??"

"I'm your boyfriend."

"Oh, I thought I wasn't going to ask, you idiot."

"So do you agree?"

"Okay."

"Don't cheat. You must love only me."

"Me too. Don't cheat on him. And you have to love and think about water alone."

"In real life, there is no such thing as disappearing and then returning.

then will be in the status and the same feelings again"

THE END