It hurts beyond heartbreak. But I will continue to endure.......

Karma

“Pee!” A slap in the face rang out in the silence. Two people's hearts are breaking apart....... No! It was the sound of my heart breaking into pieces.

Have you ever believed in fate or love at first sight? No matter how you answer......I have done something wrong.

One year ago, I was still an employee of a company who lived a simple and comfortable life. The waves of my life hardly move every day like that. until......

“I'm sorry,” the soft voice of a young woman reached my ears. I was in a trance.......building building......building building....... My heart was beating fast. Incredible But it's already happened.

I bent down to pick up documents that were scattered all over the floor while some were floating in the air. It was such a beautiful scene.....

I reached out and picked up the last piece of paper that had fallen to the floor. It was a new employee's application. Even though I don't know what position she is applying for, my younger sister knows her name.

"Kumphanrudee" is a strange name, right? I say so, but every time I think of this name, my heart aches like Cupid's arrow piercing the heart.

One week later.....

I met her in a public relations position. As you know, she is desired by almost every department of single men because of her beautiful looks. But.......I'm not a person who likes to look at people on the inside, at least I am. I think people love each other because of their compatible personalities. So I decided to join in the battle for her in order to see her true inner personality.

One month later.......

I was finally able to talk to her like a special person after all the persistent bullying. She became much cuter and spoke naturally. His demeanor seemed polite and gentle, but I still wasn't convinced of the deception. Because I thought that she must definitely have a dark corner hidden.

We talked continuously until now it has turned out to be me who has fallen so deeply in love with her that it has been buried deep for a long time and cannot be removed.......

Five months later......

The things we did for each other started to go beyond being close friends. She seemed to like me. It's wrong for me to like her from the first day. Then my trial was over, I decided to date her as my boyfriend and of course she replied.....

"agree"

Time flies by so quickly like a lie. The moments when we were happy passed so quickly.......

Someone once said that men go from 100 to 0 and women go from 0 to 100. “That's not true!” For me

The number of days we've been together has been 100, 120, 130, 140, 150......so many.

Her part is 50 40 30 20 10 0 Tae Tae Tae Tae............ It was like the sound of a pulse stopping.

You hurt my heart every day, many times a day. It was finely crushed into powder. But strangely....

"I never thought of leaving you" every time. I could only endure heartbreak for no reason. Or maybe it's the word love that still holds me back and has to endure, endure, endure, and then....Boom!!!!!!

“Where are you going?!” I yelled at her with anger, this time I won't tolerate it.

“Hang out with friends,” she raised her voice.

“Yesterday we went and we didn't see each other anymore, right?!”

“I can see that I can have some alone time!” Our emotions clashed harder and harder until the end.

“Phew!” A slap in the face rang out in the silence. Two people's hearts are breaking apart....... No! It was the sound of my heart breaking into pieces.......

Tears flowed from my eyes as she drifted away from me. While I ran until my legs got tired, I was so tired, I couldn't take it anymore. Why didn't I break up with her? She's just the one person who doesn't love me. Just give up and it's over.

"We...." let's break up. Why don't you say it? Say it.

I couldn't speak, it was like something was stuck in my throat. Don't just say I broke up. Just being apart for so long makes my heart almost break into pieces.

"We'll wait for you to come back," I said with tears streaming down my cheeks.

“Deserves it,” she said, stinging her heart and walking away. I'm so hurt I can't speak. What did I do to her that made me want to go crazy?

This morning I woke up early to make merit at the temple. People tend to turn to the temple when they are in distress. And that night, she still didn't come home.

“Don't go, big brother, don't go,” the young woman's voice cried out in agony. I don't see anyone. Everything is dark.

"Don't go, big brother, don't go." The screams sounded again. I don't see anything. The cries became louder and louder. until it pulled me out of my trance My body was covered in sweat. Damn it, what was this dream?

My life is still as sad as before. Now it's been two years since we've been together. No, it was probably the two years that she hurt my heart more. And today it will all end.

“Let's break up!” These words should have come out of my mouth more than hers. I looked up and saw a face that was beautiful on beautiful days and nights but coated with poison with tears that kept flowing out. It was crazy. I became weak like that.

“Can I not go?” I asked, even though I knew the answer.

"no!"

“Did we do something wrong? We gave it to her all this time. I've always loved you.” I stopped sobbing.

“Have you ever loved each other in the past?” I asked with extreme pain.

“I used to.” This word makes me happy.

“But it was a long time ago, don't blame me. Blame yourself. That made the matter have to end like this,” and it hurt again.

“Don't go, please.” Silence.

“Please don't go,” I repeated, but it made no sense. The words seemed to disappear into the air.

We looked at each other for a moment.......then she turned and left the room with her bag of clothes.

I lay in the middle of the room in tears, not in the mood to go anywhere, not eating, not moving anywhere at all. I just understood the word crying tears of blood today.

My breath became fainter and fainter, then fainted.

A faint mist appeared in front of me. Surrounding me was a vast ocean filled with the dark magic of rain clouds. I saw a very large woman. Or what we know by the name of "Yakshini"

On the other side, not too far away, there was a man sitting on an island playing a bagpipe. The sound of the bagpipes was loud and beautiful and captured my heart. But it caused pain to the woman who had always given him love.

In the end, it had to come to an end because my love was too much to compare with any pain.

I opened my eyes again and swept my limp hand across the floor to grab the bottle of water next to me. I swallowed it down with difficulty. Even though it's a real liquid.

My physical fatigue has improved a lot, but my heart is deteriorating everywhere. In my heart I could only think It was deserved, it was deserved, as she said. because my name is

“Apaimanee”