Hey honey..      I'll show ya some... 

During a certain time in our lives..

Everyone goes through different stories.

We went through both good things.

And through all the bad things

We meet people who make us so happy that it's like a dream.

We meet people who make the word life.

It's full of meaning.

I've encountered everything.

But believe me...

You won't want to be like me.

Come closer.

What will I tell you?

                'Cause he's ma ex-dear.  

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Day 07 / Month 12 / Year 20

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- Buy ramyun to stock up at the dorm.

- do

Model

Next group project

- Submit work to teachers

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Day 10 / Month 04/ Year 20

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- Make an appointment to pick up items at a store in Hongdae.

- **Go pick up Areum and take her to the dentist.

Day 23 / Month 09/ Year 20

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- Discussing work with Ajarn Chaewon

- Don't forget to check out the newly released sketch pencils.

- !! Do the laundry, hey!!

- Make an appointment with Jackson (same place)

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“Yugyeom”

".....um?"

“When we talked this morning, we were joking, haha.”

"..Oh, I know, hehe."

“This is Yugyeom. We burned it again!”

“Hmm? What's burning?”

“Well, how about chocolate cookies! That we promised to make Yugyeom eat before this summer ends. ..Don't tell me this."

"Ah, I remember, I remember."

“I'm going to be upset.....”

"Ah...don't be anon. Please don't be anon."

"Don't beg me...darling..."

“....Ki”

“Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha, now you're smiling.”

"Ugh? What are you smiling at? Who smiles?”

“Just now I heard a sound ..ki …”

“..Hahaha”

“Kekeke ... keke …” My tall body lay down on the bed. holding a phone in hand

The dark lips of a man who normally never used to say anything cute... was now filling the phone with what he thought was the cutest thing in the world.

“Hahahaha, enough is enough.”

“Keke... Oh, I thought you liked this?”

“That's enough. Where do you like it?”

“Have you thought of it yet? Where will you go sketching tomorrow?”

“Hmm.. That's it. Where should I choose? Ah! I know, you have to ask the Jongins about these things.”

“........ Jongin?”

“Yes, Jongin, Yugyeom, don't you remember? Our university and Jongin's will be able to go sketch outside together.”

“Plus, we were drawn into the same group as Jongin! Hehe, I'm so happy, we'll be able to talk easily about work a bit...Oh.

Yugyeom didn't come that day, do you remember? Why is Nong Areum not feeling well? So I had to take myself to see a doctor.”

I was silent for a very long time...and probably because it took the wrong time. My girlfriend spoke up again.

“Yugyeom...why are you so quiet?”

“....Uh, um, that's good.... go with Jongin.”

“Jonggin's girlfriend is going too. So lucky! We are in the same group. Does Yugyeom remember Jongin's girlfriend?”

“Remember.”

"What's your name? Pa..Pam??"

“Bambam”

“Ah, yes, BamBam is such a cute name. It's a foreigner."

“Hara”

“Huh? yes?"

“....We're already sleepy. I'll call and wake you up tomorrow at the same time."

“Oh, yes, Yugyeom is the cutest person in the world!”

Forget-Me -Not.

[YG thought  = Blue]

[BB thought  = Pink]

day

sketch

Outside pictures

“Whoa, Kim Yu!” His voice was hoarse and he slammed his palm on my shoulder.

“Hi?”

“Okay! Hey!!!!” My brother's voice was even louder than before when I turned to look.

“What is this? All the shouting and shouting in the morning has made my ears numb."

“What the fuck are you…. Why are your eyes so big?” Jackson, my older brother, looked at me, stunned.

“I slept a little too little.” After saying that, I turned to deal with the luggage that was piled up on the floor. There is a bag for holding a board for drawing, a bag for sketching equipment. with small personal items

....Of course, I didn't get to sleep last night.

I studied in the Faculty of Architecture in my 3rd year. My friend group and seniors who knew each other in the drinking circle were all studying in my faculty.

Today is the day that my senior year had to go out of school to do a sketch for the teacher.

This project exists 4 universities that require you to go outside to work together

My girlfriend is studying architecture at the same place…..

“Here it is, tan ta la lan! Ticklish!!” A voice sounded behind me again. I remember this sweet voice

“Hahaha” I was unexpectedly tickled by Hara on the waist. She always likes to do this when I'm not paying attention.

I didn't take her hand away. I let her continue tickling my waist until I was satisfied. When I finished tickling, she would come and hug my back again.

We like to do this regularly until we get used to it…

Brother Jackson, when he saw my girlfriend coming, he gave me a bright smile. Open your mouth, about to tease something else. But I raised my hand to stop him.

Because today I really don't have the mood to play anything.

He must have seen my expression so he walked away and looked for someone else instead.

“Hmmm, today I will be able to go outside. My hands are starting to itch and want to draw a lot of designs, right? Yugyeom.”

"Oh, I'm really happy." I reached out my hand and ruffled Hara's hair that was nestled in the back.

Goo Hara... is a bright person. She always looks optimistic, likes to please me, and is good at giving me encouragement. She is very lively.

I was the one who flirted with her first. Hara is a cheerful and kind-hearted girl. Everyone who gets close to her must like her. She had many options but in the end she chose me.

On the day she agreed to date me, she told me that she was impressed by my care for her. And it has been consistent to this day.

I've finished packing. So he picked up all his belongings and turned back to her.

“Eh..is Yugyeom sick?”

About to answer and refuse again. But a voice shouted out to Hara from behind me first.

“Yoohoo!” Hara immediately waved her hand to the people behind me. She raised her hand to cover her mouth and shouted back.

“Jongin, Jongin-ah! This way.”

“Hey Yugyeom, Jongin is here. Let's go join the group.” Hara looked at me with a wide smile before walking towards the source of the sound behind.

If I could choose...I wouldn't want to move in any direction.

……. But because I still have to move forward.

Kim Yugyeom turned around and looked.

Goo Hara's back was towards a group of people on the other side of the road in front of the university.

One of the men in the group was quite tall. He has short gray hair the color of cigarette smoke. Kim Jongin smiled at Hara and walked out of the group towards her.

And that made me see

Standing behind Jongin….

“Hello Hara,” Jongin palms his friend. Hara and Jongin have been friends since childhood. The pair became close to each other. Even though they separated and went to study at different universities, they still kept in touch and talked.

And this is what has always given me a dilemma7. Month of dating her….

“Hi Hara,” another voice said from behind Jongin.

It was a voice that I didn't just recognize....but I remembered it by heart.

Both thin shapes And the tiny waist in those pants. I remember it by heart.

Slender legs, round arms, and a clear face.

I can't take it.

.........I'll probably have to find something else to look at first.

"oh? Yugyeom, why are you still standing there? Hurry over. The car is almost ready to leave."

While traveling on the university bus to reach the destination The sound of guitar strumming and out-of-tune singing could be heard from the back row of the bus. There, a group of my friends were sitting and dancing in crazy poses.

I really want to walk in and sit in a group with those guys....

So that you don't have to sit near this place.

“Hara, do you still have this keychain? It's so old it's been eaten away by rust.” Jongin sat in the seat next to the aisle in the car. He turned around and talked to Hara who was sitting next to me. Hara and I were seated in the row directly behind the Jongin couple.

I turned around to look at something outside the car window. Let Hara continue to sit and talk with Jongin..

.....Then my eyes stumbled upon the shadow of a face. that was faintly reflected in the bus window in front of me

That's right.. if Jongin sat in front of Hara. Right now, the person sitting in front of me was

He looked again....

BamBam was trying to avoid someone.

.....Why does it have to be drawn like this?

“How are you, Goo Hara, little one?”

".....oh"

“Little one, don't you remember? Hara, the person with long hair My friend from childhood."

I remember.

But I don't want to meet you.

I think I'm much better now. If you have to meet him face to face

….but then I realized today that it wasn't the case.

From the first minute I knew who Jongin's friend Hara's boyfriend was. I feel like this round world is playing a cruel joke.

Our world is strange, right? ... There is a chance that hundreds of thousands or millions of people will meet each other. But we met someone we shouldn't have met, all alone.

Throughout the 7 months I just started to open my heart to Jongin into my life. Every time he started to invite his friend Hara to go anywhere. ...I always avoid asking not to go.

Apart from this secret matter that makes me feel uneasy inside. Kim Jongin is a very good man. He was the one who came and invited me to talk first on the day our group had an activity to start the new semester. And confessed to me after that day that he had been secretly looking at me since the first year. Until we are in year 3

Jongin is a warm person. Keep calm and have patience. He has proven to me that he is ready to take care of me. Even though in the beginning I don't think I'll open up to anyone.

During the period of dating Jongin for a while I always hear compliments coming out of Jongin's mouth that Goo Hara's boyfriend is a good person. Attentive and good at taking care of you He understands women's feelings very well.

It's good to be like this...

As soon as I thought of it, I came to this place. I realized what situation I was in, who I was with, and what I had to do next.

Bambam stopped paying attention to the part of his sharp face that was now reflected in the car window. and turned to look at the seat in front of himself without any focus instead

But everything would be great… If the heart inside wouldn't twitch like this

After a short period of sitting on the bus, But for me it's been a long time... Finally the car stopped at its destination.

I carried my backpack and equipment bag and stood in front of the bus door. Waiting for Hara who hasn't finished packing yet. Other people were starting to get out of the car.

I turned to look at the view of the large park in front of me.

Seosol Lake

When we found out in the car where we were going today I thought I was really bad. But now that I stood and looked at it with my own eyes, it was even worse.

Because I really don't know.. That the other person still misses it?

Yugyeom couldn't help but turn around and look for someone in the group of students who were getting out of the car.

And all I saw was light brown hair that stood out. with the back of that shirt

...I didn't even think to turn around and look.

Time can still pass. People's hearts have probably forgotten everything. Is it like that?

Are you going to think like a bully like this for a long time, Kim Yu?

Let's keep it like this, that's good.

“Today our team's job was to find a spot to sketch on the topic '

Publicpark’

This round is freestyle. You can have fun in every zone here. We will meet again at 1:00 p.m. to eat lunch. The work is due at 4:00 p.m. OK, everyone. We can separate.”

I didn't see that person again for most of the morning.

Right now I'm sitting sketching in a corner of the park some distance from the lake.

This morning while everyone was splitting up to find a sketching spot as a group. Jongin suddenly walked in and told me and Hara.

that he would like to request that the group split up and draw a line along the lake instead, rather than the park side as originally agreed upon.

Which I know very well why....

Meanwhile, Hara and I were sitting together sketching the model. Hara told me that she couldn't find one of her bags. I helped look at every spot in this area but there was none. It was her spare equipment bag.

In that bag there were items needed for this painting.

If you can't find this area It means you didn't pick it up from the car in the first place.

“Do you want to go get it?”

No, ours is more than half finished. But Yugyeom's stuff hasn't gone anywhere yet. I already told you not to sit blankly while working. How are you?” Hara smiled and stuck out her tongue at me. So I reached out and pretended to squeeze her nose.

“Just teasing... Be careful when you come back. I'll finish it before you show me.”

And then I sat alone..

Holding a pencil, he sat looking at the glossy drawing board. On the board, I was less than halfway through drawing the scenery in front of me.

I can't concentrate at all..

want to smoke

My hand reached into the pocket of my pants. He took the cigarette out of the pack and prepared to light it.

“Why does Kyom want to try it? Did you know that it makes your mouth black?”

“You can forgive. But next time, please don't show me secretly taking it out to smoke again.”

“Oh! This means don't smoke in front of me. Is that enough??”

“Yes… Don't worry, Kyom will never be able to touch it again. Because we will stay and watch over Kyom day and night forever, watching and watching.”

This word is forever. How many words actually exist in this world?

dripping..

Yugyeom raised his hand to cup his cheek.

No, who would sit and cry so easily? Especially with the stories that we have been singing about for a long time.

Drip, drip

I lifted myself up from the grass where I was drawing. Quickly put away the two drawing boards and take out all the bags.

Jeek..Jeek……

Yugyeom's tall, lean figure ran around the field and came under a nearby building. His shirt was now slightly wet. But it's good that you didn't forget to bring your drawing board and put all of your things away.

...but will I be able to finish drawing in time today? Is there anything that can be more frustrating than this?

Yugyeom set the pile of luggage aside before taking out a fresh cigarette and lighting it again.

“Damn..”

When he turned to look at the voice from behind him,

Yugyeom locked eyes with the owner of the face. It's still stuck in my mind for the past 3 years.

“...Is something wrong with this?!” He didn't have long to look at that face and had to immediately run towards it.

BamBam was kneeling on the ground. In front of him was a pile of various sketch pencils rolling around.

“…… It's okay, it's just a pencil falling.” BamBam avoided the tall figure's eyes. Lower your head and collect your things faster.

"Come here. I'll help you pick it up."

“You don't have to.”

“Say you want to help,” Yugyeom said, now kneeling in front of him.

His loud, clear voice made Bambam look up and meet his eyes again.

“I just want to help..”

"thank"

A palm that's thicker than Bambam's hand. Sweep up the pencil and put it in the box until it's neat.

“Nothing has disappeared, right?”

"um"

Yugyeom got up from the ground. Then I just realized that I was holding something in my other hand.

“Uh, sorry.” He hurriedly walked over and crushed the cigarette in his hand first.

The rain continued to fall harder. Raindrops splashed and wet the floor beneath the building.

Two figures sat sheltering from the rain in front of the entrance to a building deep inside.

BamBam and Yugyeom sat not too far apart. not too little

It probably looks like people who aren't close yet. But we had to sit and hide from the rain together.

“…Jonggin?” He decided to break the silence first.

“Why did you let me come here to shelter from the rain alone?”

“Before the rain started, he had just walked out to the gathering point. I was called by Teacher Jung Soo.”

"oh"

“Still smoking?”

“Huh?”

“Cigarettes.”

"...Only when I want to, just to relieve stress, not get addicted."

“Oh, so.. why are you alone? Where did Hara go?”

“I see you forgot something. I just went back to get the car when it wasn't raining yet.”

“Too thin”

“Very thin. It seems to be higher. But it's thinner than before.”

“…Should be happy, right?”

"happy?"

“Well, who wants to be as fat as a pig?”

“Hahaha.” After laughing a little. The atmosphere seemed a little more relaxed than at the beginning.

"Too skinny. Normally I'm always skinny and I'm afraid something won't make sense."

During this quiet conversation Yugyeom kept turning his head to look at the small figure sitting beside him.

He secretly observed every detail of the person next to him.

What was your face like before? Right now it's still the same and hasn't changed. The only thing that seems to change is the color of the hair.

In the past, BamBam also dyed his hair bright blonde and golden. ...and it's really cute and suits him very much.

But today, Yugyeom saw the person in front of him again. When hairstyles and hair colors change with time

He just realized. that these external things had no effect on him at all

No matter what, he still misses you..

Even before

both present

And even now

No matter what, he can't erase Bambam from his heart. No matter how much I try

“We haven't seen each other in a long time. Are you still okay?” While BamBam was asking me questions.

That cute face that still looked out from the building ever since I came to sit with him. He spread out a smile.

It was the first smile. Since that day 3 years ago... that I saw it again.

So what should I answer?

“I haven't been to this lake in a long time,” BamBam continued without looking at me.

“Has Yugyeom stopped by to visit?”

"No.. Since that day, I haven't come again."

“That day? It means when we are going up. High school? It's already been 6 years.”

“Yes, a lot of time has passed.”

“But I don't know why. It can't be forgotten.”

“Bam asked if I was still okay. We would like to say that we are fine.”

“Always tried to be fine. But why is it so difficult? I don't know.”

I stared at Bambam.

BamBam finally turned around and looked at me.

“If you want to forget, you can't forget. Everything.”

We both made eye contact.

Looking at each other like that

Memories that I have been trying to bury for almost 3 years. It appeared as if it had just happened yesterday.

Picture of us walking hand in hand

The picture of me treating his wound when he fell.

Funny pictures of our first date

A picture of him walking and holding a box of birthday gifts.

The picture of his smile while watching a movie is in my room.

The picture of me hugging him on the bed

…..Even the pictures of me being mischievous towards him

Picture of the two of us arguing

I may have been rude to him. …but I never really intended it once.

I stared deep into those eyes.

If this was 3-4 years ago, I would probably know what thoughts were hidden within those clear eyes.

But today, I don't even dare to think about it.

That there's still me in those eyes?

Just a fraction is enough.

BamBam and I started dating when we were just in high school.

He is my first love

We are each other's first love.

I want it to be like this forever.

But life sometimes doesn't go as we want.

3 years ago when we were about to start university. In the end, he and I broke up.

“But Yugyeom has to do it.”

BamBam continued to smile at the tall figure.

It was the same smile as the rain that was hitting the ground right now...

"You'll forget it, believe me."

Every word that Bambam was saying made Yugyeom listen.

He will keep it to remind himself as well.

“Hara said you took really good care of her. Pay attention and understand her in everything. We are very happy to hear this.”

“Because at least we know. That Yugyeom is now truly able to take care of his loved ones.”

While speaking I don't want to think about myself at all..

But right now, I can only see Yugyeom's eyes filled with nostalgia.

Shouldn't I be happy?

who had just received what he had been waiting for for so long...when the time to receive it was over.

“That you took care of her so well. You're very good at being able to do this, Yugyeom ^ ^”

"We're not good at it, Bam."

“If we were really good from the beginning... Can we make Bam abandon us like this?”

"But we never thought of leaving Kyom at all. Kyom knows that."

“Here it is, tan tan tannn, jukka-jee.”

"Bam!....don't"

"....What's the matter, Kyom?"

“Let go! Don't bother me with anything right now, it's annoying."

yes

“This is Kyom.”

"what?"

“Chocolate pie that Bam made. Haven't you eaten yet?”

“Just asking. What's going on? If you want to eat, just eat it yourself."

"Here, Bam, please ask nicely."

“So what are you going to ask so many times? I asked yesterday. It's in the refrigerator! If you're hungry, you'll eat it yourself. Do you understand!?”

“The reason Bam asked was because I was afraid it wouldn't be delicious. Bam, I just want you to eat it when it's freshly made, that's all."

“Next time, if it's such a big deal, don't do it. I want to make it myself and I'll force you to eat it again.”

"oh? Is this our fault?? That makes me want to do something that will make me want to eat it myself.”

“...Huh.”

“We were wrong for knowing what Kyom likes. Then he stubbornly went and learned to do it himself. Is it wrong of me to want you to eat what I cook instead of going out to buy food?”

"Don't start looking for trouble now!"

"Then why did you raise your voice just now? Bam, if you ask nicely, speak nicely, why do you have to yell at each other?"

"Hoy!! So what are you going to do? People don't want to eat right now.”

I'm the one who ruined everything.

“How long has it been?”

“Why did Kyom skip school??”

"....Ask another nonsense question."

"nonsense? In another 3-4 days, the final exam will take place, but Kyom is still skipping classes. Did you know that this morning Bam had to sneak out of school to follow her at home? But Auntie said she wasn't there."

"Go outside"

"Where are you going? Did you go with the Jungkooks?"

"Can you please don't bother me about something annoying? Wherever I go, do I have to report every day?”

"Why?? Bam, can't you just want to know? ....Are you here to secretly smoke again?"

"Well, if so, then why?!"

"Well, why not? But I'll make you stop! Why?? Something as small as this won't make you Bam, right?"

“How many more times are we going to talk about this? I'm bored!!!!"

At that time, I was very mean to him. As much as the love he has for you

Then the day when we last argued came..

“Just forget about this matter!!”

“Do you really want me to forget you? Fine!! We will definitely forget.”

small figure in front of me At that time, his mouth trembled, his face was red, his hair, forehead, and eyes were wet with sweat from arguing or whatever.

...At that time I couldn't tell if it was sweat or tears.

“It's because you never did!!”

“I never thought I'd remember. Never cared about anything between us..”

“From now on, we'll forget all about it too!”

I still remember the image of him crying and running out of my house that day.

And after that day

He really left me.

Go in a way that doesn't come back to you. Just like every time we've ever argued.

I tried every method I could think of at the time. to make him come back

I called hundreds of times.

I followed him home, but he wouldn't come out.

That day, I sat and watched him in front of the door for several hours, refusing to go to class.

To find out... how callous he is.

I sat and waited for him to come out. Sitting in the rain until being admitted to the hospital...

I went everywhere I thought I would meet him.

Been trying like this for several months... Before BamBam's family moved house

And in the end, he chose to study at a different university from me. I don't even know where I studied.

I made up my mind for about 3 years until I started to realize that I still had to move on.

When I dated Hara Everything he did for me

It made me unable to stop thinking about the old stories between me and BamBam.

In the past, I must have been a very bad man.

.....I want him to come back and teach me how to cherish those I love.

Give me a chance to do good things with him. The way I now do it with other people every day.

But it's no longer possible.

The rain has subsided a lot now.

Two figures sat looking at each other for a long time.

At this time, everyone turned to look in other directions.

Yugyeom looked down at the ground. Hold down all the feelings you have.

BamBam looked up at the sky outside the building.

..in order to drive the tears that were about to flow back into the eyes again.

Because the two of them still have things to do once the rain stops.

Our lives must move forward every day.

BamBam has Jongin. Yugyeom also has Hara.

Those people are too good for them to do selfish and hurtful things..

When the rain has completely stopped

The two bodies had to separate.

and walk back the same way...where we came from

Yugyeom's tall, slender figure had already stepped far away from the building.

Meanwhile, Bambam was gathering his own and Jongin's belongings.

Some figures followed behind.

BamBam looked up at the sky. The afternoon sunshine after the heavy rain made the sky very clear.

“Little girl?”

"...I'm confused."

“Ah, so cute... Where did you come from, little girl? And what about Mom and Dad?”

“Nghmmmm ya u... u!”

“What do you say? Hmmm, can I please hold you for a bit? Hmmm.”

“Ngh, Pi!”

“The little one is so cute. Who brought you here to travel?”

“You you!”

“Yu?? … And where have all the father and mother gone? Why would you let a small child walk around alone like this?”

“Areum! Areum, are you here? You've been looking for us for a long time, you know… Ah, I'm sorry.”

“…..Uh.”

"Sorry, that's my niece."

“Yu!! Yo!”

“..Oh, this is my niece.”

“What, that troublesome one, sneaked out when Uncle wasn't paying attention again? ...Come quickly and let me carry you."

“I'm sorry I picked you up. I didn't ask your permission first."

"Oh, it's okay. You don't know. ...Um, can I hold you for a bit?"

“...Huh?”

“Uh, you mean grandchild.. Please hold my grandchild."

“Oh, okay.”

“Come on, you little rascal!”

“My grandchild is so cute. ..Calling your name all the time. I think so.”

“We are Yugyeom, Kim Yugyeom.”

“We Bambam”

“BamBam.. cute name.”

“Uh, that is.. You study near us. This uniform looks familiar.”

The first day we met This is where it started.

…at this Seosol Lake…

"Kyom is forgetful."

“Huh???”

“When will I buy it?

Memo

To write down work? Bam told me to use the app but he wouldn't download it. If you don't download it, you have to carry a notebook.

Memo

Keep it with you, if you're forgetful like this, in the future if---"

“What if?”

“If Bam isn't there anymore. ..and then someone will come and warn Kyom.”

"Bam, don't say anything bad like this again, do you understand?"

= Memo it! =

Day 30 / Month 01 / Year 20

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- meet

project

final round

- Faculty basketball practice

- Submit work to teachers

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- I will never forget.

You,  my Dear.

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Wow, how are you? It's finally over.

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This story 5555

is

Short fic

It's so long(?) Why don't you divide it up into multiple episodes?!-- Reed said 55

First of all, I would like to say my feelings at coming up.

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this..

1. It started with a Yukbam fic that I got dumped on.

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The content is very good, but it's not finished. It's an old story. It is expected that he will not continue the marriage. So let's continue. Haha.

2. We read another fic. Even though we're not our couple But he managed to touch our hearts until we cried. We wanted that kind of atmosphere in our fic (even though I'm not as skilled as you are, haha), so I wanted to take only the main themes of the story and compose them in my own style. ((If Wright comes by and read I would like to say that you are the inspiration for this story. Hroll))

3. We get off

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This is to atone for Reed's fic "Raeng Pray" / > < Sorry for uploading so late. I can't do it again. Haha. I want you to take it easy. During this time, I'm writing work.

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But I promise it will continue. And it ended beautifully (really?) haha.

4. I want to say that I love Reed everyone > <

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