It's been two years since I turned my back on them…

Since that day Many other things have happened in my life. So do they. Even though we live in different places, we all still have to work so hard that we hardly have time to think about it. Today I just came back from work at around 2:00 AM. After taking a shower, I still didn't feel too sleepy, so I took out some old watches.

A house that comes out to sit and clean alone and have fun. Just like I used to do. A long time ago at that time someone once said to me,

“Hyung… when are you going to stop paying attention to the clock?”

“Why, what's the matter?” I asked while still keeping my head down and polishing the watch.

“It's when we're together like this. I want my hyung to pay more attention to me.”

At that time I just thought there was still more time to be together. I didn't pay much attention to the boy's words until everything in my body slowly changed. I knew that I didn't have much time left to spend with them. And even though it's so hard I want to make the most of my remaining time as meaningful as possible.

I knew that the brat might not forgive me for this decision. But no matter how hard I try to be strong My body keeps screaming that I can't take it anymore. I had to walk away and give myself time to rest. Because if we don't do that, at some point he and I may never see each other again!

Oh Sehun...

He always cared about me but didn't talk much. On the day I made a decision and let everyone know. That kid didn't say a word. He only remained silent. Wouldn't even look at my face. And that made me feel frightened. When the time for parting has arrived We both know the deep reason. Inside each other's hearts but we can't talk because it might bring tears to our eyes.

I know and understand his feelings just as well as he probably understands mine, but we still can't look into each other's eyes behind the veil of tears. I can't do that. It was too painful when my watch and his had to stop.

I thought... and picked out an important piece that I rarely wear. Rarely used for anyone to see, come out and scrub gently. with care Its needle has remained perfectly still since the day we parted.

It's been two years since my watch stopped...

My life under the light continues. same with him There are many people who are watching and expecting us. I need to show strength. and cannot make those people disappointed I think Hyung thinks the same way too. Since the day he left He probably rested until his body was much better and then immediately resumed his work in that far away place.

I've always seen Luhan hyung give his best in his work. I'm glad... at least I can still see his performance, hear his voice, and listen to his songs whenever I feel nostalgic.

But I didn't know that two years ago. Luhan hyung will still miss me. Thinking about the old times of us and still looking at the old watch like I am doing now? The watch we bought in exchange at that time…

My time is still in his hands. And his time is always mine. Even though its needle had been completely silent for more than two years,

I will never forget that Luhan hyung is a person who really likes watches. A long time ago, I used to wonder which Luhan hyung would like more between the watch and me. I didn't dare ask him directly. I could only say to him,

“Hyung… when are you going to stop paying attention to the clock?”

“Why, what's the matter?” he asked as he continued to polish his newly bought watch.

“It's when we're together like this. I want my hyung to pay more attention to me.”

I think he heard it. Just pretend not to care At that time, I didn't know why I was angry. I didn't talk to Luhan hyung again until he invited me to buy this watch. It's a couple watch. And the one in my hand right now is his watch. When Luhan hyung placed it on my wrist for the first time, he only emphasized it.

“Take good care of it, so we can use it together for a long time.”

Luhan hyung means our time. And it's my own fault for not taking care of him well enough. As the hands of the clock on our wrists slowly turned, I began to notice Luhan hyung's abnormality, but I couldn't help him. I still have to do my duty. Likewise, he had to perform his duties continuously and not take a break, no matter how much his physical condition deteriorated.

Sometimes I think of leaving... means to leave us That might have been the best solution for him at that time. So I never thought of being angry at him for this matter. If there is anyone who deserves my wrath, it should be me. I was more angry at myself for not being able to help Luhan hyung.

Even on the day he was about to leave, knowing that that stage was the last stage that we would stand together, I still wasn't able to fully spend the little time that was left with him because I couldn't. strong enough

Amidst the lights and so many people How can I express that I'm frightened? And there's so much pain On our last stage I saw my older brothers all gather around Luhan hyung as if saying goodbye. I really wanted to be close to him like everyone else.

But I'm stuck because I'm not that good at keeping my feelings hidden. Really on the final stage I couldn't take it anymore just looking at his face. And that makes me sad to this day.

Maybe if I meet him in person again, I'll hug him as tightly as possible. And our clock may start to run again, it's not certain. But where in the world can Sehun and Luhan meet?

I'm still waiting... the day my watch will start working again.

I'm still waiting to meet him. I'm still waiting to hear his voice no matter what. And I still keep the memories of him. Even though millions of clocks in this world keep turning and forcing me to move forward But for these two pairs of watches It means our time even though it has stopped since that day.

But I still hope that one day it will be raised again whenever I get to spend precious time with him in the future…