Broken

is the sequel to

The word i don't want to hear

Story and summary of love

One person who wants to leave With one person who is helpless to hold it back

:-Daisy ✿

Broken

Luhan fell asleep after Kris took him to get dressed. The owner of the sweet face closed his eyes in bed after he and Chris gave him sleeping pills. He knew how much this dear friend loved Minseok. And I know that Minseok also loves Luhan no less.

It's just that Luhan's love is too selfish.

If it were him, if Kris did what Luhan did. He himself probably wouldn't forgive Chris either.

“What's wrong?”

Chris, who came out of the bathroom with a new outfit, asked. while using his free hand to rub his hair until it was unruly Yixing reached out and picked up the outfit Chris had just used. before folding it into a paper bag

“I brought some clothes from the room to change into. It's in Luhan's closet.”

“Thank you.”

“You go get some sleep. Your eyes look like pandas every day. I'll just look at Luhan myself."

Chris raised his eyebrows. before using your hand to touch under your eyes

“That's good too. If that doctor were to sleepwalk You must go nearby. That deer likes to get frightened when there's no one next to him,” Chris said before slipping the sleeping pills he asked for from the doctor into his mouth and drinking some water. Pick up the blanket that was on the table. Then lay down on the sofa

The tall figure moved. Let your head rest on the back of the chair while your arms remain loosely folded across your chest. Both of their eyes were closed. The steady breathing rate told him that Yixing was probably asleep.

Luhan gently moved to sit up. for fear of disturbing those who are sleeping Sad eyes looked out the window at the still dark sky. Before moving, he slowly stepped off the bed, relying on familiarity and the dim light that shone in to lead the way to the bathroom. Reaching out to turn the knob, he struggled because of the bandage on his hand. before inserting yourself after closing the door

He sank down and hugged his knees on the cool floor. Some lips trembled. Luhan buried his face in his knees. Let the stored up tears flow out.

Why did my mother never love me? Why does everyone have to abandon me? Why? Why does no one love me? Am I so bad that I'm not worthy of anyone's love?

A pair of hands left his own legs before slamming them down onto the bathroom floor. Red blood seeps from the bandage. As soon as it hit the bathroom floor

Why does everything have to start and then fall apart right in front of me?

A picture of three people, parents and children, hugging each other on a big bed. Little Luhan lay in his father's arms. A light touch on the forehead causing the boy to smile slightly. And had to laugh at Father's stubby whiskers on his cheeks. Laughter that was like a mother's melodious song that sounded close to my ears. Luhan couldn't remember when he fell asleep.

But every day he would fall asleep in his father's embrace and his mother's sweet voice. Who would have thought that those happiness were just a faint memory?

A warm family ended with a mother's screams. Along with an expensive vase that had been thrown aside, it fell next to the boy who was sitting trembling next to the closet. A shard of porcelain hit his left arm, cutting a wound into his delicate skin.

The little boy only held his arm tightly. His other hand covered his ears but he prayed that what was happening in front of him was just a dream. But this dream has been so long.

A dream that haunted him all his life. Pictures of terrible events that never end Even though I tried to forget it But why does he still dream about it every night?

A dream that I want to erase

It's like wanting to forget that man.

Kim Minseok

The person who chose to walk away from him without even looking back.

Like a mother who never cared about what he would be like after that.

The day Minseok left He didn't have a father to hug and comfort him, only himself to bring his torn heart back up to the room. Lock yourself away from everything. Trying to forget it and act like he never knew Kim Minseok.

But every time I close my eyes Every time, there was still an image of that man that appeared.

I could only fool myself that it was just a bad dream. Pain was probably the only thing that would wake him up from this nightmare.

You can't disappear like this.

“Luhan, you're inside, right?” A loud knock on the door along with Yixing's sultry voice made Luhan conscious. eyes full of tears Looking at both his hands in the dark Feel the blood dripping onto the floor.

Why hasn't he woken up yet?

“Huh, why, Yixing? Why must everyone abandon me?”

The sobbing sound in response made Yixing shake his head. Use your hand to move the door knob back and forth. to make it open

When he woke up and didn't see Luhan lying on the bed. He almost cried. Even though he intended not to fall asleep. He almost ran out of the room to find Luhan. If you can't hear something from the bathroom

“Come out before Luhan. Open the door first.”

The click of the knob sounded faintly, but Yixing felt like he was startled by the sound. He pushed the door open to face another person standing trembling behind the door. Yixing saw Luhan's face reflecting the dim light. before immediately pulling another person into a hug

Luhan could only rest his face on his best friend's shoulder and let the tears fall. Meanwhile, Yixing rubbed his back to comfort him like he was a child.

“If you want to cry, just cry, Luhan. Don't keep it. If there's anything, just vent to me."

“Why, Yixing? Why does everyone have to leave me? Why doesn't anyone love me? Even mom and dad Why doesn't Minseok listen to me? Why, Yixing? I'm really bad, right?”

Yixing felt that the man he was hugging was a six year old child who was haunted by the past. It made Luhan even smaller. The thin shoulders trembled because of the force of her sobs, causing Yixing to tighten his arms around him. Both had to support Luhan who seemed to be throwing his weight on him.

“Luhan, I wouldn't say that what you did was right. But you must accept the consequences of your actions. There's no point in being upset like this.” Yixing grabbed Luhan's shoulder and pushed the other person away from his shoulder. He looked at his face, which was dull and stained with tears.

“But I really love Minseok. I don't want to lose him, I.. I.”

“You have to be strong, Luhan. You still have me, Kris, and Kris' family. We all love you.”

Luhan kept his head down. before glancing over to see Chris standing not far away Chris' face was filled with worry. and worried about him Just like when I was a kid. No matter when Chris is still worried about him as usual. And just like that, this Luhan is still a weak person. that always takes no action

The more I looked into the eyes of Chris, who looked at me with such concern in his eyes. It made him feel even more guilty. A sob rose up in his throat. Until unable to utter any words

Luhan sat down on the floor. It was then that Yixing noticed the blood flowing from the bandages on both Luhan's hands. Yixing reached out and gently held the couple's hands. Tears welled up and couldn't be stopped.

“Why is it like this, Luhan? Don't do this again.” He gently placed his hand on the bandage. Chris stepped closer to his two best friends. before collapsing and sitting next to Luhan Then he pulled his best friend into a tight hug.

“Let's go home, Luhan. Even though you want to forget the past, if being here makes you weak like this Let's go back to our home.”

Luhan could only shake his head like a child. In the arms of Chris

Sorry, Chris, but I want to stay here.

Where I can still feel him

*******  Broken   *******

“Luhan has just been released from the hospital. He hurt himself again.”

Yixing said to the person sitting across from him.

“So what?”

The emotionless reply made Yixing sigh. He glanced at the other person sitting next to Minseok, asking for help.

“Minseok, you are too callous.”

The owner of small eyes Reach out your hand and grab your best friend's hand.

“And what did he do to me? What is it called, Baekhyun? He allowed someone else to take my place. How many times must I endure this?”

Minseok's almost yelling voice made Baekhyun sit in silence once again.

“Didn't I already explain? That Luhan can't be alone That guy is still thinking about the past.” Yixing said tiredly, what he had said was wasted the past hour. Does it not enter the ears of the person in front of you at all?

“So, is that an excuse to make Luhan go out with anyone behind my back?” Minseok's hard eyes and that reason left Yixing speechless. “You too, Baekhyun. Why does everyone feel sorry for Luhan? Since the person who has been hurt all this time is me.” A pair of beautiful eyes were bloodshot. Trying to hold back tears of disappointment

“It's not like that,” Baekhyun argued, although at first he was angry at Luhan. But after listening to the story that Yixing told He himself felt sorry for Luhan.

“Can't you just give Luhan another chance, Minseok? Consider me begging.” Yixing tried to plead with the callous person in front of him. But Minseok, the person who loved Luhan, must have died. Because Minseok's cold gaze made him feel numb all over.

“How many times have I given you a chance? How many times had he thrown it away himself? How many times? That he trampled on my heart

It's over, Yixing. I have already made up my mind.”

"Are you going to leave him so easily?" So I could only ask in desperation.

"If I go, they'll forget me."

Minseok could only look out the window. Feel a gentle squeeze on your hand. before turning to make eye contact with Baekhyun who was sitting next to him with tears in his eyes.

“No, Luhan will never forget you. You know how much Luhan loves you, so why can't you understand him?”

“Is this what people who love each other do? If he loved me, he would never have allowed that child to step in. There must be no place for anyone else.”

“So, how much room do you have for Luhan?”

Yi Qing clenched his fists. Both of their eyes were filled with tears.

“Did you ever know that Luhan wakes up in the middle of the night to secretly cry alone in the bathroom? When Luhan had a nightmare He needs someone to comfort him, but why does he have to hide in the bathroom? Because Luhan was afraid you would hear him cry. When he smiles at you and wishes you safe travels.

Did you ever know that that night Luhan wouldn't sleep all night because every time he was alone he thought about his mother who never loved him? Have you ever asked him how he got the scar on his chest?” Yixing glanced at the person sitting silently in front of him before continuing.

“Even if you asked, he wouldn't dare tell me that his father almost killed him with a broken liquor bottle. Because Luhan couldn't speak and didn't want you to worry. I don't want you to suffer. Luhan was afraid that you couldn't accept him and left. I'm afraid that you will see him as a burden. Therefore, every night he had to secretly cry alone.

You have no way of knowing that a six-year-old child would have to go through something terrible like that. How much must he bear? A mother who left her carelessly His only refuge was his father. But he almost died at the hands of his own father. Have you ever known about these things? Have you ever paid attention to Luhan? Do you know why Sehun came into your place?

Because Luhan committed suicide."

The little man's eyes widened at the sentence in front of him. As Baekhyun exclaimed, his voice shook.

“When you went to Canada Chris and I were in Beijing. Luhan doesn't have anyone. Then he took the pills and committed suicide. Luckily, Sehun brought something that Luhan forgot at the office. Sehun takes Luhan to the hospital. Luhan agrees to tell Sehun the whole story. That kid knew that he could only be your representative. He agreed to stay there. Living in your shadow

It was Sehun who told me this when he found out that Luhan had hurt himself. That's why he agreed to tell me this story. Luha-"

“That's enough, Yixing.”

Minseok raised his voice to the person in front of him. “It's over. I have something to do. Please excuse me.” Minseok moved to get up. before pulling his hand away from Baekhyun's hand, who could only stare at him wistfully.

He just didn't want to know anything else about that man.

Everything is in the past.

No matter what reason it is

Now he has made up his mind.

“You asked me about Minseok going to L.A. I'll go investigate first. I'll call and tell you,” Baekhyun hurriedly said when he saw his best friend walk out of the store. He picked up a large handful of tissues and handed them to the taller man. “Then I'll help you talk to Minseok one more time.”

“Thank you, Baekhyun.”

“I need to go first, or Minseok will get mad at me too.”

Smiling back at the person who quickly grabbed his baggage and ran out of the store.

He saw Baekhyun rushing into Minseok's waiting car. before the car drove away quickly.

Minseok, you're too heartless.

******* Broken *******

“Sit with me.”

Minseok smiled at the thin man in front of him as he placed the plate on the table. But the other person only gave him a faint smile.

The same sad look in his eyes that had mesmerized him since the first time they met. What exactly is a man who can smile while looking so sad? Minseok wasn't sure.

I knew that I was secretly looking at this sad-faced man.

“I'm Kim Minseok, second year architecture student. Nice to meet you, Luhan.” Minseok gave a wide smile to the person in front of him who was looking at him with suspicious eyes. before bursting out laughing

It seemed to be the first time that the person in front of him had a strange expression on his face.

“Do you know me?” A soft voice from the other end made Minseok feel relieved. At least the person in front of me agreed to talk to him.

“Um, I often see you with Chris and Yixing. Yixing is a friend of my friend.”

“Really?”

“Yes,” another person made a mocking sound before revealing a wider smile as he made eye contact with Luhan, who raised his eyes to look at him. “Don't be polite to me. You're Chinese, right? Luhan, what does this mean..."

Minseok doesn't know why he keeps secretly looking at Luhan.

All I know is that wherever he went on campus, he would always bump into Luhan. Maybe by chance or his own intentions.

But he likes it like this.

He wanted to get to know Luhan even more.

I want to know as much as I want to know why his heart beats so fast when Luhan smiles at him.

“Luhan, what do you think of me?”

I don't know why that question suddenly popped out of my mouth. His chin looked at the other person who was focused on the book in front of him.

Luhan raised his head and looked slightly. before giving you a smile With sparkling eyes

“I ask,” said the other man, his head lowered into his book again.

Luhan closed the book before leaning closer until their noses touched. Minseok flinched away, but another hand grabbed his shoulder and pulled him closer.

“Think like Minseok thinks.”

The clear Korean accent from the person in front of him made Minseok wrinkle his nose.

An expression of disappointment was evident on Nian's face. Soft cheeks that other people like to pull. puffed out like a loving face

I don't know since when that deer was so depressed. Turned into a wolf full of such cunning.

And I don't know what he was hoping for.

Move your eyes down to look at the model you left behind. Before his eyes widened when he heard the other party's next sentence.

“ 我爱你 (wo ai ni )”

Luhan whispered against those red lips before pressing a soft kiss.

Crack~ Crack~

The vibrations from the thin phone in the pocket of his dark coat brought Minseok back to his lost consciousness. He took his hand off his boarding pass and pulled out his phone.

You sighed tiredly when you saw the number displayed on the screen.

“Is there something wrong, Yixing?”

“Yi Qing?”

“Minseok, it's me.. It's me.” The loud voice on the other end of the line made Minseok sit stiffly. His small hand held the phone tightly. When you feel like you're just running out of energy.

“La Luhan..”

“Are you really going to leave without saying goodbye to me?” came a voice on the other end of the line that sounded like a nearby voice. This caused Minseok to close his eyes tightly.

His white teeth clenched onto his lower lip until it turned bright red.

It's not.

No, right?

“Minseok”

The hand that reached out and touched his shoulder made his little body flinch. Not sure if it's because I'm shocked. Or is it because of deep fear in your heart?

A trembling hand lowered the phone to his side before putting it in his coat pocket. I can only pray that everything is just a dream. before turning to face the truth he had been trying to avoid all along

A familiar face appears in the field of view. Before it started to blur because of the tears in my eyes.

“You.... come do...” Even though I tried to control my voice so as not to tremble, the end of the sentence trailed off as tears flowed down.

Once again, he was weak like this again.

No matter how hard you try to be strong in front of others But he couldn't fool himself.

This Kim Minseok, no matter how much he resists, will always cry because of one person.

“You will go at all costs. I should come and send you away, right?”

Minseok stared at the other person whose face was filled with tears. I felt a hand reach out and hold both of my hands. before glancing down Both hands were wrapped in bandages. Even though I want to hold hands with that couple I want to help relieve that pain. But all Minseok could do was twist his own wrist. Stepping away from the other person

“Don't do this to me, Luhan,” Minseok shouted. Even without making eye contact with the other party And I don't know where I should stop staring.

Luhan's appearance was not what he expected.

No, whoever it is. He didn't want to meet. Even though I really wanted to leave quietly

Why is Luhan still standing here?

“I'm sorry, Minseok. I'm really sorry. What must I do? You'll have to change your mind." His pleading voice and the pleading look in his eyes, he could feel the pain from the person in front of him.

Because he felt the same way.

Stop it, Luhan.

Please stop now.

Then let me walk away.

“I - I won't change my mind. It's over, Luhan. You should accept the truth.” His hands clenched tightly at his sides. Try not to shake it. He didn't want to be weak anymore. I really don't want this.

“I love you, Minseok. I love only you, do you hear that? Minseok, I love you. How many more times will I have to say it before you'll realize it?"

Minseok looked at Luhan, who was looking at him with pain in his eyes. The person in front of him's shoulders trembled from the force of his sobs.

“I love you too, Luhan. I love you so much that I let you fool me over and over again.

I'm willing to be sad again and again like this because I love you. You probably don't know, I've loved you since the first time I saw you.

But for you it's not. At that time, you even looked at me as a stranger.

I've always tried

Always trying to break the wall that you've kept.

But why is it that the more time goes on, the more I feel that the wall is getting thicker? Until I can't break it

Even though I tried to climb over But it's like you're blocking it up even higher.

I'm not afraid of heights, Luhan.

But I'm afraid that the more I climb Then I'll find that there's no way for me to get off on the other side.

I might be stuck up there forever.

There's no way to go on.

And there was no way to return.

I'm really tired right now, Luhan.

I'm running out of energy. and may fall So I had to back out.”

“I.. I love you. I really love you, Minseok. We shouldn't be like this. We still love each other, don't we?"

“Yes, I still love you. I love you so much that I don't think anyone will ever be able to take your place. Things between us may not have started with love. But I hope it ends with love, Luhan.”

Minseok took a step closer to Luhan. He smelled a familiar soft scent from the other party. A thin pair of hands moved to grip the taller man's neck, bringing him down closer. before planting a kiss on the other person's dry lips Tears from the other party fell down his face.

Luhan felt a light touch on his lips. The touch he craved But all he could do was stand still and let the tears flow from his eyes.

Remember every detail of your touch Fragrance that sticks to the nose The face of the person he loves A pair of big eyes that once looked at him with love and concern.

Even though there were many people in the airport, it was like time had stopped in a place where there were just the two of them.

Remember every touch and feeling at that time as much as possible.

A kiss that would probably be the last kiss he would receive. Goodbye kiss from Minseok

“I have to go.”

The force on Luhan's neck slowly loosened. Tear-filled eyes continued to watch the other person's face slowly drift away.

Even though I wanted to reach out and grab it.

But all he could do was stand and watch the image of the person he loved with all his heart slowly drift away until he was out of sight.

Once again, Minseok walked away from him and never looked back.

Once again, he could only watch here.

Once again, all he could do was cry, being like this, in a crowded place.

This Luhan is still a weak person. Cry like you did when you were a child.

At that time, Luhan never knew the reason his mother left. But he tried his best to hold back his mother.

Even if you have to hurt yourself

But today, even though I know the reason in my heart

Even though I don't want you to go.

But he was too weak to hold Minseok down.

“Thank you, Luhan. That taught me how to love You will always be my first and last love.”

Kim Minseok

“I never thought I could live without you. But I will be strong From now on, my life will be to miss you. I love you, Minseok.”

Luhan

THE END

Long torque

The last 20% is the most difficult part of the story until it's finished and then re-deleted many times.

I want to convey the emotions of both Minseok and Luhan more, but Really incompetent.

Personally, I think this ending would be best for both sides.

Each person still loves each other but because of the conditions of love they cannot be together.

Like Minseok said

It didn't start with love between the two of them, but it ended with love.

Many people may be disappointed with the ending. I'm sorry.

truth

Broken

Just wanted to convey Luhan's feelings after the break up.

But I think the ending of

The word

It's like there's something missing. So I put it in this story.

This short fic, these 2 episodes are really tiring. It's like pulling in a lot of life energy to use in advance.

Thank you for all the comments.

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P.S. Please follow the next story as well. I wrote a lot but didn't finish any of them haha.

P.S. 2 songs. I secretly saw that someone said they were appropriate for this story so I borrowed them to include.

I don't know which fic this is from. I don't mind if I borrow it. If you know the owner, please show yourself.