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The sound of the clock ticking again indicates the passage of time. Successfully causing the person lying on the bed to come out of his trance and look at the life-saving watch. I found that it was already 3:00 a.m. When I thought about it, I felt like I shouldn't be like this after lying down all the time thinking about what I should have done, not lying down and letting things around me go by in a cycle that would come back again one more time.

I couldn't sleep so I thought of going outside and looking for something to relax my heavy brain, even though I knew that I had been sleep deprived for many nights. My mouth was dull, my eyes were blurry, my hair was messy, and I was dizzy. He couldn't get up from the bed, but thought that he would continue to lie stupidly on the bed like a corpse. Soon he would really be a corpse.

Thinking of that, the tall and slender figure immediately got up from the bed and walked out slowly. I think the bar is called a beam, but I think it's more appropriate than using the word "walking around and looking around the room to see if it's empty" or not. The room that I thought was small Now it was very spacious and cold. The atmosphere outside looked out onto the balcony.

There was a large mirror separating the noise and beauty of the outside world from the room where I spent my days sleeping. If you call the mirror a bar and my room a prison cell, you will see me more clearly as a lonely cell. There was no light of any kind. There was only the light of the moonlight at night. The only sounds that reverberated in the room were the sound of the air conditioner and the sound of my heartbeat as it echoed, reminding me that I had not yet died. Where does this world go?

I would have to start adjusting to life again. If I continue like this, I will really disappear from the world. Bad conditions like this go outside. Someone must have called the police to report that a walking corpse had been found wandering around. So I had to wash my face and eyes. Organizing your clothes neatly again may not make you look more like an angel.

Just asking to be able to go outside is enough. To see only a few leaves of trees It would probably help me feel better. The place I planned to go was a quiet place and a place close to my condo. There was a park nearby and not far enough away. So I chose to go there. Because it's the quietest part of the place.

It's not my room. In comparison, there are only two places in the world for me that are so quiet that I can't hear anything: There's a public park near the condo and my room. Plus, at this time, no one would come to sit and enjoy the view. I almost forgot. How can anyone be crazy about me?

Come out and sit and enjoy the view. When I was supposed to rest, I made a promise to myself. After I get out of bed and stop hurting myself, I will be a new person, like a bright day in the future. Looking around, I stumbled upon a newly opened mini mart that had recently opened. To be honest, I had never been able to go in and admire the things in the store once before it went bankrupt.

Asking to go in and take a walk in the air conditioning is still good. In case there is anything, go talk to Uncle. Who can be a condo security officer? It's been years since I've ever been able to talk to you. Please wait, wait for me to be the new Sehun first. I will try to brighten everything around me now that I'm in front of the minimart.

Is the air conditioner so cold that it reaches my heart's core? Or is my heart weak and fragile? Stepping in, I saw an employee who was on duty on the night shift at the store. In a half-asleep, half-wake state, he gave a small smile.

Ah..I must have been the first customer at 3:00 a.m. Walking around in case I was hungry. Even though I wasn't hungry and hadn't eaten anything for several days, But I must not harm my own body any more than this. Now I walk and stop myself in front of the freezer where there are milk, rice balls, all kinds of sweet drinks, many different colors, worth trying. But I would like to ask, please choose. Milk instead Even though I like sweet water How much carbonated water is there?

Now that I drank it, I would definitely bite my stomach to death. Standing there, selecting each box, each bottle, looking at the labels without rushing until I didn't even notice that someone was walking and standing nearby, I didn't think anything of it. Because this is public. There will always be someone who will come in. Once you can choose what you want. Prepare to turn around and pay at the cash register. But I had to stop.

like dying I was so shocked that I forgot that a person I never wanted to see again appeared in front of me. When I want to see you, I don't see you. When I want you to disappear, I can go far away and come back to see you all the time. Not at all what I wanted in my life.

It's been a while but nothing has happened between us. He didn't say anything and I didn't say anything either. He just stared at me. As for me, I bowed my head. Why? Because that person is him. He is a person I never want to meet, never want to miss, but his story is involved in every matter in my life because he has been half my life throughout every memory of my life in the past 25 years.

I've had him for almost my entire life. Let's just say that since I started learning to remember what was and what was, I've had him as an early memory. I have to love this person very much. He is my best friend, older brother, and maybe even my father until it turns into love. In the form of feelings of love for him, the way two people love each other and cannot stop their own feelings. Love until you forget to love yourself.

I'm the only one who thinks about things like this all the time, the person I can't say the word love to as I want. A person who was afraid that he would disappear from the life of an idiot like me until one day he felt what I was feeling, what kind of thing, and chose to walk away from me. The two of us stood in the same place and didn't go anywhere for ten years. After a minute, no one started to say anything. It's like a game where whoever starts first will be the one who loses forever.

Suddenly the person who came in after me came in before me and hugged me. He didn't show anything on his face, not even a single emotion. Even though the outside is still, it is as hard as a rock. Coupled with that, a cold look spread out but the feelings between the two of us inside were not as hard as sand and stone.

It's fragile and ready to be shattered into pieces at any moment. Only the two of us know that hug between us. On the outside, the face is plain and calm. Without feeling, they stood stiffly, hugging each other. It's like putting two iron bars together and tying a rope inside. It's not solid at all. There is only weakness and defeat in one's own feelings.

Only the two of us know The feelings inside each other and how he was the one who withdrew from that hug before walking away from me. It was as if the incident had never happened before.

Even though another person had walked out of the store as far as the eye could see. But I still haven't gone anywhere, still standing stuck in the same place, confused until completely dizzy. Thinking of various reasons for things that happened recently and what they were until finally understanding.. probably coming to say goodbye. A parting hug like this, how can I forget you?

This Kim Jongin has always had an influence on my heart. But I'm going to have to delete you from my life, goodbye. Oh Sehun's beloved Kim Jongin, tomorrow we will erase each other's history forever. We will become strangers to each other. Even if we cross paths, don't say hello, no matter how important it is.

If it doesn't cause anyone harm or suffering to the point of death. Don't come into each other's lives again.

You are mean, Kim Jong In, very mean.

THE END 

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This is Nong Hoon's balcony.

The freezer where Nong Hoon chooses milk to drink /^^

A public park where Nong Hoon comes to enjoy the breeze and admire the view...

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