"excuse me"

You keep saying the same old words, don't you get bored?

Can you stop for a moment?

We want to have enough of it.

I'm out of this game.

A little statement

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This story is purely based on imagination and is not based on any true story.

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Maybe I'm not very good at writing yet. Please give feedback in the comments section.

CR.SQW

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@ An entertainment venue in the Gangnam area

Junhoe part

“Junhoe, isn't that your wife?” Bobby whispered, nodding his head towards the people who had just entered.

in the club

I separated myself from the woman next to me and focused my eyes through the colored light on a thin figure.

"..."Natural dark brown hair and a sweet face that you can recognize with just one look. 'Kim Donghyuk', the man who is known as

Be my own lover

“Come with Seunghun hyungs,” Hanbin beckoned to his senior comrade 'Ee. Seunghoon and those who came with him

Come sit at the same table as me.

“Hello Hanbin Bobby,” a sweet voice greeted my friends. Donghyuck didn't seem surprised to see me.

Here, without yelling or saying a word when you see me sitting with another woman, you just sit down next to me and raise your glass.

drink alcohol

Donghyuk part

‘To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven’

I know it's coming to an end....

I love a man named Gu Junhoe, and I thought he loved me too...but it seems I was wrong.

Many things are starting to get worse. We never really argued with each other. In fact, we refused to talk about anything at all.

It's a war of nerves, as if whoever can't stand it first is the loser.

“That's enough, you'll get drunk soon, Dong.” Chanwoo pulled the wine glass out of my hand. This big friend was taking care of me.

Instead of the man next to me

“I'm not crazy,” I said, laughing.

“Listen to what Chanwoo said…” I turned to meet the calm gaze of my close senior, Song Minho. The words that I will do

It was a show-off that immediately disappeared back into my throat. He comes to help me every time, no matter the situation.

Many times I questioned myself.

Why couldn't it be this person who came into my heart?

Love is cruel and hard to reason with.

“Come on, I'll take you home,” Minho hyung offered.

“..." I was about to agree, but Junhoe interrupted me... He didn't say anything, just got up and pulled me to follow.

go to his car

“Why didn't you come and tell me?” He was the one who started to break the silence in the car. We haven't been back together very often lately.

A few months later because I didn't like the uncomfortable atmosphere like now.

“Is it you who doesn't read Line?” I closed my eyes in case the throbbing headache would subside somewhat. Body

I don't tolerate alcohol very well. It doesn't make me drunk, but it often makes me cold.

I sent a message to the guy next to me about three or four hours ago, but he seemed to have something more 'interesting'.

You have to act like the beautiful woman in the black dress sitting next to him.

Like women must be better than men.

Rrrr~~ [Mom] 

The phone in my pants pocket vibrated.

“What do you say, Mom?” I adjusted my voice to be as natural as possible before answering the phone.

“(How is Dong Dong?)”

“....I'm fine.”

“(So, are you free next Friday?)”

“Next Friday?”

"(Yes, it's Dongdong's birthday on Saturday, so mom and dad decided to take him to the sea to celebrate)"

"I forgot. I'm free." I can't believe that I forgot the day and night until I forgot my birthday.

“(So Junhoe is free or not? Please bring him with you.)”

"Then...I'll ask for you."

“(Then Mommy, don't bother me and go to bed quickly. Dongdong)”

“Mom invited me to go to the beach next Friday...will you come with me?” I asked him immediately after hanging up the phone.

“And do you want me to go?”

Answering questions with questions is his personality.

“..." We didn't say another word until we reached the condo. Junhoe held my hand very tightly even though we had already reached the room.

“Let us go now.”

“Do you really want me to let you go?”

I met his sharp eyes...I don't know what exactly letting go of his hand meant.

"..." I pursed my lips tightly, feeling the heat in both of my eyes to the point that I had to close them to suppress my emotions.

"You go take a shower. It stinks from both alcohol and cigarettes," I said in a calm voice before pulling my hand away from my body.

His embrace

Cigarettes...I don't know when he started breaking his promise and started using this stuff.

“Sorry.” I could only listen to his apology with an empty feeling.

I didn't think to say a single word after his apology.

It ends by apologizing for repeated mistakes...apologizing for selfish actions like every day.

“I already warned you not to eat if you have a fever, so you deserve it.” Chanwoo looked at me pitifully as this morning began.

With heavy eyelids, a headache as if there were lead balls embedded in them suddenly attacked.

I was sick from alcohol last night but was still able to drag myself to university without the person sleeping on the bed next to me.

I don't even realize it.

"I'm so hot, Dong. Go back to sleep. I'll take your lectures in the afternoon." I brushed Yunhyung's hand away from his forehead.

"No need to, it's nothing like that." The voice that rejected his close friend was hoarse. Okay, sometimes.

I'd rather go back to the condo and find a comfortable bed than stay and listen to the teacher in the afternoon class.

“Alright, you can go back.” I shoveled everything into my backpack, but when I tried to get up, Yunhyung pulled my hand back.

again

"Go back to sleep. I'm not letting you go back to working on your report."

"Oh, I know." I said goodbye to my two close friends and walked towards the university gate.

Junhoe Part

I drove my nice car and parked it at the Faculty of Architecture. I didn't know why I wanted to come take the little guy home.

The kind that hasn't been done in months. Those Hanbin guys are busy with work to send to teachers and there's only me who has free time to go out with other people.

It just wouldn't be that much fun.

I sat and waited in the car for almost an hour until I started to get upset.

The image of me leaving Donghyuk waiting for me every time we had a meeting flashed in my head.

Donghyuck waited several hours for me, many times more than I did.

.......but he never complained to me at all.

“Why aren't you answering the phone?” I tried calling the little person but no one answered the phone even though it was probably this time.

I actually dropped out of another person's class.

Knock, someone knocks on my car window. When I remembered that I was Donghyuk's close friend, I quickly pressed postpone.

The window immediately went down.

“It's really your car, Junhoe.”

“Did Dong not feel well, he went home at noon and he didn't tell you?”

"Um...didn't say."

Donghyuk Part

0.27 Am

This was the time displayed on the alarm screen when I fell asleep immediately after returning to my room. Woke up again and the sky

The color had changed and a loose t-shirt and shorts had been washed. Someone had already taken care of changing the clothes for me.

It couldn't be anyone other than the other room owner.

My heart swelled when I received Junhoe's attention, even if it was just a small matter.

"Are you hungry? I bought you porridge." I nodded my head to the person watching football on the sofa. I walked over and picked it up.

The cup came out from the shelf, unwrapped the bag of rice porridge and sat down to eat quietly at the dining table.

“How did you come back today?” Junhoe turned his attention away from the TV and walked over and sat down in the chair next to me.

“Subway” Damn it, I really hate my own ducky voice right now.

“Why didn't you call me to pick you up?”

"Well, you have class at noon forty-five. If I send you off, I'm afraid you'll be late for class," I replied, scooping rice into my mouth.

“So where are you?” I asked because I was genuinely curious, not looking for a problem. Junhoe was not there.

I'm a homebody, fun-loving, and friend-loving person, which is something I've known since before we even started dating.

"Aren't you sick? Where do you want me to go?" He stood up and took the bowl of porridge I had just eaten and disappeared into the kitchen.

Tuk Tak Tuk Tak

And how can I hate the man in front of me when my heart is pounding with his every word like this?

Because I love him so much that it hurts every time I see him with another woman.

“What time is class tomorrow?”

"Why do you ask?"

“I'll send you.” I raised my eyebrows in confusion....He acted so nice that I couldn't help but wonder.

“No need to, I don't have class tomorrow, I'll just send Minohyung to you.”

“Mino?”

“You mean Song Minho?”

“Wha...What are you going to do now?!” I shouted as my own body was lifted off the ground in that bridal pose that they talked about.

He put me on the bed and lay down next to me.

Those arms hugging my waist so tightly that I couldn't breathe.

He hugged me tightly....very tightly. Junhoe hasn't shown any signs of wanting my attention like this in a long time.

He's making me go nowhere.

His single hug made the warnings of my friends fade from my mind.

'Ku Junhoe' is like a drug to 'Kim Donghyuk'.

Even though he knew it was dangerous and caused a lot of pain, he couldn't stop it.

Gu Junhoe liked Kim Donghyuk from the first time he saw him.

He likes sweet smiles. The bright laughter, the sweet face that matched the light brown hair were not enough.

combined with the same tastes

Until now, he still liked Donghyuk's sweet smile, but he also liked the color of his lips with makeup.

He still liked Donghyuk's bright laugh, but he also liked the small, seductive voice that challenged him to approach him.

He has concern, jealousy, and good feelings for Donghyuk, but he also has them for someone else.

He really likes Donghyuck....

But it's not so much that it can be truly called love.

“Junhoe, how did you agree with Donghyuk? At first you said it was a joke. It's been several months now.”

Bobby brings up the name of his best friend as an issue, causing Hanbin and Kang to Seungyoon was interested in the report.

in front of him and turned his attention to his own cruel-faced best friend instead.

“I shouldn't have introduced Donghyuck to you. If you weren't serious, I think you'd break up.” Hanbin felt sorry for his friend.

Being a small person from another group, he doesn't really want to get involved in other people's love affairs. But Junhoe's actions

It really bothered his eyes.

If you don't love him then let him go and be happy. Why act like a possessive dog?

“Hey, what now?.....Are you still a fan of Donghyuk? And what was my code when you talked to Hanna?"

Seungyoon furrowed his brows in curiosity. When seeing Junhoe with 'Jang Hanna', his beautiful older sister.

Living together is definitely not the action of people who are just friends.

“Well...with Donghyuk it's true, but I feel like it's true with Hanna too.”

"I'm just not sure yet."

“Do you know what a selfish thing you are doing?”

“I know.” Junhoe acted as if he didn't know how hot or cold Hanbin's words were. He picked up his things and stood up to his full height.

“Where are you going?”

Junhoe squinted before answering Bobby's question in a low voice.

“I have a date with Hanna.”

If I were to compare my feelings right now with something, it would probably be Kaew...

Glass that is shattered to the point of being unable to put it back together.

Yoonhyung and I were walking around the mall when we both saw a picture of a man and woman walking.

Arm in arm, they walked into the restaurant.

“Don't make that face. Junhoe didn't think anything of it.” I forced a smile as a thank you for the words.

Yunhyung's comfort

“…” That man is Gu. Junhoe definitely wasn't wrong. He was dating another girl who I'm sure was a senior at university.

Same with me and him.

It's true that this isn't the first time I've seen him with another woman...but this time was different.

Both his eyes and the smile that adorned his face…

The smile that he used to have, only I saw, he gave to someone else.

The sharp eyes that only reflected my image were now superimposed on another person.

This time Junhoe wasn't just 'cheating', I'm sure he was 'cheating' on me too.

“Yun...I really don't know what to do.” I said in a trembling voice.

It hurt everywhere and there was a numbness all over my face like I had been splashed with cold water.

"I'll take you back to the condo."

Neither Yunhyung nor I said anything on the way back to the condo until we walked into the room.

“It's okay, I'm here.” Tears overflowed in my eyes as soon as Yunhyung embraced me.

“It hurts...it hurts.”

“Why is it like this? What did I do wrong?” I let out what was in my heart.

“If it hurts, then why endure it?”

I cried for hours without realizing it until I felt like I had almost no more tears to shed.

“I'm sure you'll let me back. You can definitely be alone. You can stay at my house.”

“You can stay...go back. Don't worry about me. I can really live here.” I smiled at my best friend like it was nothing.

occur

“I'm not worried about you, who am I worried about?” Yunhyung muttered under his breath, but he believed my words and agreed to go back.

I went into the bathroom to wash my face, hoping to use some water to refresh myself, but everything stopped when I saw it.

Your reflection in the mirror

My eyes were red and bruised from crying so hard.

My body has shrunk so that my collarbones can clearly be seen. When did I become this thin?

The sadness ate away the happiness and smile on this face without me noticing.

I'm starting to believe what other people say about love being like poison....

Junhoepart

I arrived back at the condo at 10:00 p.m. after taking Hanna home. The bright lights throughout the room made me realize that

Donghyuck hasn't gone to bed yet. I was confused to see a large suitcase in the middle of the room.

“Where are you going?” I asked as the little man carried his clothes out of the bedroom.

“When...when did you come back? We couldn't see or hear anything.” Donghyuck's face turned pale.

I'm not getting better.

“Just now, where did you take your things?”

“Tomorrow is Friday...we will go on a trip with you at home.”

“How many days are there? Why did you take so much?” I walked around and hugged the little person from behind.

“..." Donghyuck's body was shaking.

“Is something wrong?” I asked out of concern.

“Where have you been?” Donghyuk's expression and tone made it clear that he knew about me and Hanna.

“...went on a trip,” I answered, feeling guilty like I'd never felt with anyone before.

“We love you.”

"But we're tired...we're hurt that you never appreciated our love."

“Do you...do you love me?”

“..."I'm quiet. Is it love with Donghyuk? I still can't answer.

“We shouldn't have asked. If you really loved us, you wouldn't do this to us.” His voice was cut off with a hint of trembling.

I felt a pain in my chest, like someone was squeezing my heart.

“Sorry,” I said with difficulty. Right now all I can think of is a stupid apology.

"We're tired of hearing your apologies."

“Don't do this. I'm sorry.” Now just imagining Donghyuk walking out of the room was driving me crazy.

“Let go now,” a sweet voice said softly. I didn't do as he said and hugged him tightly.

More than before

“Do you really want me to let you go?”

“Yes...we want you to release us.”

“Nae…”

"Please let Dong go."

Donghyuck removed my hands from his waist before turning his tear-stained face towards me.

“Dong begs.”

Donghyuck had already left....with a large suitcase.

Why didn't you hold him back? Besides this question, there is another question that is stuck in my head.

How can these tears stop flowing?

It's been two days since Donghyuck disappeared. It's only been two days, but it already feels like death.

No matter if I called or sent a message, there was no sign that Donghyuk was interested.

Kim Donghyuck is driving me crazy.

“Don't be so stupid.” Han flew to my condo as soon as I called and told him everything.

“What are you going to say?” I asked, not understanding what he wanted to convey.

“Can't you just think about this? If it was anyone else and not Donghyuck, would you cry like this?”

“…” I kept quiet and tried to think.

“You like Donghyuck...no. How do you love Donghyuck?”

Actually, I know that I love you, but it's hard to accept that I'm a person who only has one-night stands.

I don't dare to have a serious relationship with anyone because I'm afraid...

Afraid that one day I will be left alone.

"I know what you're thinking. You won't find someone like Donghyuck anywhere."

“Can you please stop being so stupid?”

Donghyuk Part

The sound of the waves and the wind didn't help me feel better in the slightest. Both my parents knew I was upset, but they

He didn't say anything and let me have the alone time I wanted. I couldn't help but feel guilty.

The reason for this family trip to the beach was so bad that Mom and Dad didn't mind it.

I sat on the fine sandy beach and stared at the sea waves crashing on the shore alternating with the screen of my mobile phone.

Next to me, with a feeling of emptiness, messages from Yunhyung and Chanwoo sent over and over about me and

Junhoe didn't hide anything, just asked that I have some quiet time to think alone.

Rrrr~ [Junhoe]

Junhoe called me for the hundredth time already....I'm not being sarcastic, he called me more than the number of times when we were together.

Let's get together again.

“Stop calling us.” I answered his phone in a hushed tone. Wouldn't we be annoyed? Can't we just part ways?

“(Do you want to see me go crazy? Come back to me, Kim Donghyuk!)” Junhoe's sobbing sound broke my heart.

I feel hollow. He's crying?

That Gu Junhoe was crying.

“Enough, Junhoe.”

“(I'm sorry, please)”

“We don't want to hear an apology!!” I shouted, my eyes burning again even though the tears had just stopped.

It actually flowed a few hours ago.

“We're tired of your excuses. We're tired of your apologies. We're bored, did you hear that?!”

“Even if you have to cry, even if you have to starve and say you're going to commit suicide. We won't go back.”

My hair began to break from the sound of my sobs. How many times must I cry for this cruel person?

“What if I told you I love you?” I was startled when I heard a familiar deep voice coming from.

behind it instead of coming from a phone held to your ear.

“Junhoe...” What did he say just now? Did I deafen you? This is the first time I heard it from him.

My heart swelled until I felt a pain in my chest.

“If Ne says that Ne loves Dong.”

“Will Dong come back to Nae?”

It was like everything was blurry because of the tears and I realized that my body was being held tightly in my arms.

I gave up and just one word could make me forget all the stories with the fool.

“Heek, ne, heek,” I called him repeatedly, letting the tears wet his shoulder.

“Yes,” he answered me gently.

"You're telling the truth, right?"

“Well, I won't regret it. Promise.” He smiled and extended his pinky finger like a child.

“I don't believe it. Huh,” I said, but agreed to the promise.

“You don't have to believe it.”

“Just knowing that is enough.”

I could smile again, I was ready to trust this man again.

Even though in the future he may break the promise he made today, I will believe it.

Because..........Kim Donghyuk loves me. Junhoe...........

 Fin

If you like it or not, please leave a comment. Will improve according to recommendations.

I will continue to come.

19/12/16 There is a lot of drama haha. I want to continue the marriage but I have exams and there is so little time.

Promise to finish the marriage. There was a lot of confusion and I still couldn't make up any words at all. After the exam, I will come back and edit it to make it look better.

Let me tell you first that Wright likes Zhang. Hannana doesn't have any prejudices, afraid that all readers will misunderstand, haha.

Finally, thank you for all the comments.

27/12/16 There is a slight decrease. Definitely won't go anywhere. This story is definitely finished.

Thank you for all the comments :)

#7/1/60 Happy new year

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