"I believe in God Believe that Santa is real

I pray every day

Please… please listen to my request for once.”

Fiction GOT7 : Markjae (

Papa Coco)

It's a short fic with emotional reactions to yourself, haha.

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Jingle bells, jingle bells

Jingle all the way…..

The sound of music floating on the wind It indicates that it is entering the Christmas season or the birth of Jesus.

Many shops are beautifully lit up. Tonight, with the romantic atmosphere, many couples come out to walk together.

And the young male couple Mark Tuan and Choi Young Jae have different goals.

"Mark, let's cross the road quickly. The light is green."

The little man next to me said when he saw that the light was ready to be crossed. which is the voice of the person I love with all my heart The voice of the person I thought I would be with for the rest of my life. But then why is God playing tricks on me like this?

“Youngjae!! Be careful!!”

Bang!!

“No!!”

Some figures ran just a few steps ahead of me. Instead, a car ran a red light and crashed into me right in front of my eyes. I couldn't catch him in time. No…..please!

“Youngjae, Youngjae, open your eyes!!”

The thick liquid flowed slowly. Dying his cream colored coat to the color of blood. My call for help was heard everywhere.

Youngjae! Please… open your eyes and look at me, Youngjaejjj….

December 21, 2016 -

Cheerful……bang

room door sound

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of hospitals in Seoul were opened. There was a sign in front of the room with the patient's name written as "Choi Young Jae".

“Mark has arrived?”

A middle-aged woman's voice greeted me. That is the mother of the person I love the most.

“Hello, Mom. Please go back and rest. I will take care of it myself.”

It has become my routine. On which days there is no school? I would spend the day tending to the sick people who had been lying in bed since that day.

“It's almost a year already.” Just thinking about it makes my heart hurt. I pray every night To hope for miracles to happen all the time

But have you ever listened to it?

“Mom, go first. Leave your little one with me.”

Youngjae's mother put on her coat before opening the door. Without forgetting to bow and say goodbye every time.

“Okay…. Where did you tutor us yesterday?”

I picked up an English book. to open and find the page I left off reading the day before

Everyone told me that it was sentenceless to read. Or how much do you talk? It couldn't make Youngjae revive. If I don't do it I must be crazy It's definitely more than I can take. My mind kept thinking about that day. The day Youngjae's blood was all over my hands.

“Did you know that Teacher Kim and Teacher Yu announced they were married? Invite you and Youngjae to join in the event as well. I really want us to be able to go too.”

“And this, white lily. You brought it for us to see, isn't it beautiful?”

I showed him the beautiful bouquet of flowers I bought along the way. Even though I couldn't hear the sound of the people on the bed But if some body wakes up and sees it, it will definitely be very happy.

A beautiful yellow vase that previously held roses. I put them away before ordering a new bouquet of lilies to decorate instead.

“Let's continue tutoring.”

After I finished arranging everything He returned to the chair next to the bed as usual. Without forgetting to hold your other lover's hand at all times.

“Where do you sit and study like this? Makes me think about that every time.”

Two years ago -

"Brother Mark, huh... Brother Mark?"

“What do you say, good person?” I looked up from the mobile phone that I was pressing and holding to enter the game. I smiled at the figure running from far away.

"Too bad, Mark." It's really gripping. Stuck in a university leak, hehe...

“Mark has to help Youngjae. Otherwise, Youngjae will definitely die.”

“What can I help you with?”

I replied, running my hand through my soft hair like I was used to.

“Tomorrow Master Kim will make an appointment.

quiz

Ah, I still don't remember anything."

Youngjae's answer left me a little stunned. I thought what was wrong? In fact, the teacher scheduled the quiz itself.

“Brother Mark, can you tutor me? Brother Mark is good at English. This comes from

LA

at all"

“In a place like this, it's good to speak. Last semester break, I invited you to go home to

LA

together and refuse to go Otherwise, you can practice your language, hehe.”

I didn't say anything, I wanted to tease the person in front of me. So I deliberately whispered in his ear while laughing softly.

“Brother Mark, it tickles.”

Just seeing some figures with pinkish cheeks twisting and turning. Until I don't know where to put my hand. Just this makes me happy.

“Stop staring. It's embarrassing~”

"Hahaha... No more teasing. Come on, what do you want me to teach you?"

After teasing Youngjae to the point of anger I saw that I had to hurry and get to the point before I got hit by that soft hand.

“This is it.”

Youngjae reveals to him the topic that the teacher will have on the quiz tomorrow. It's true.

z,

It was clear, but I wanted to get closer, so I rested my chin on my shoulder instead.

It smells so good~…

“I hate cucumbers”

"Oh... Brother Mark, are you going to tutor me?"

Damn it!

December 22, 2016 -

“Hey...Mark, where are you going on Christmas Eve?” my best friend's voice said. The name Jackson was mentioned in the middle of the classroom where the teacher had just finished class.

“I'm not going anywhere, but I'm busy.”

"Oh... Is there something wrong?"

This time it was my friend, a chic young man named Jaebum, who greeted me instead.

“I have to go see Youngjae.”

“You go watch every day like this. His younger brother did not recover….. Ouch! Why did you punch me?”

It's good that Jaebum and Jinyoung It stopped me in time. Otherwise, I would have tricked the dog out of its mouth. I understand what Jackson wanted to convey. But he couldn't help but be angry.

“Mark…. I think Mark should let go sometimes. Whatever will happen will happen. The matter that happened was not your fault at all.”

“No, Jinyoung… if that day I could grab Youngjae's hand in time. Things probably wouldn't be…..like this.”

It's like there's a lump in your chest. When I think of the events of that day Blood all over my hands It's always clear. I took a deep breath before looking up at Jinyoung.

Jinyoung reached out and patted my shoulder comfortingly. And Jaebum came and sat next to him and spoke.

“We understand you. But we want you to be happy. I think Youngjae won't like it. If you keep suffering like this.”

“Yes, I agree with Jaebum.”

I squinted and looked at Jackson who had gotten up and sat in the chair across from me. There are a few red marks on the mouth. I suspect that at some point he might have gotten his face slashed. I don't think I punched hard, huh.

“So where do you guys want to go?”

“Blind date…. Ouch!!”

This time it's not me. But it was Jinyoung instead, slamming his palm squarely into his back. Penalty for speaking inappropriately to the situation

“Until I was able to calm Mark down. Are you still thinking of inviting me out to see another girl?”

“It hurts, Jinyoung-ah….. Well, that's the thing. I'm single. Times like this have to be on a blind date to fit into the festival.”

Look at Jackson's dreamy face. It left me speechless.

“You can go…”

“Hmmm, really?!”

“Anyway, I'm free, but just sit here. I don't plan on cheating on Youngjae.”

“Wow, just having you there, girls are already flocking here. A degree from the past month of the faculty, hahaha.” I just said I would go along. Jackson's face is bigger than a satellite dish.

“Jaebeom and Jinyoung also go together. Many people went and it was fun.”

A big, muscular person. Pretend to beg, cling to your thigh, cling to your leg, hoping that your best friend will go with you. And it's very creepy.

December 22, 2016, evening -

“Thank you very much, doctor.”

Every evening the doctor goes out to check on the round ward. or visit inpatients I often hear the same words every day. And today is no different.

I sat and watched the nurse change the saline bottle. and injecting vitamins into some bodies lying in front of them The pulse and brain waves have been smooth for a full year. Until I almost remember Youngjae How much pressure is there? How many times per minute does the heart beat?

“Youngjae-ah~ Do you want to eat the cake? I bought it for you.”

I sat and arranged cakes from Youngjae's favorite shop on a plate. He brought it and set it next to the bed while pouring water and waiting. Actually, I know in my heart. I think I bought it and the person who will eat it must be me, but... walking past any place, you have to walk in with familiarity.

I really like this shop.

Going back six months from the date of our relationship-

under the maple tree garden behind university It has become a regular place where Youngjae and I meet every day. And today is the same.

“Brother Mark, look at this,” Youngjae, who was sitting with his back to me, said. While playing on your smartphone

I replied silently. because he was concentrating on the level he was playing

“Brother Mark!” I felt some of my body writhing and displeased behind me.

“Hmm, what?” I responded, but my eyes were still glued to the mobile screen.

The voices behind him were quiet. Or are you already sulking?

Phew~

“Hm…..Yongjaejjjjjjjjjj.”

I immediately covered my ears with my hands. Some people were playing a prank and got up and hugged my back. while blowing into his ear from behind again Then finish with a gentle nibble on the earlobe.

Hmmmm.... Thrilling. Who did you learn this from?!

“Who taught you to do this?!”

“Brother Jackson told me. If Brother Mark isn't interested, do this.”

Damn Jackson!

Clear eyes, he knelt and stared at me. With the shirt's hem lifted up to reveal a white waist. Hm...seeing something like this makes my mood even more intense.

"Don't do that again," I hurriedly protested. without thinking of explaining any reason

“Well Mark doesn't care about Youngjae.”

He looked like he was entering. Some people stood up and sat cross-legged and stared at me. The slender mouth is raised according to the level of pique. Whichever way I look at it, it's more cute than scary.

"I'm interested, but what do you want me to see?" I quickly replied with a smile. One of my methods

“Here, there is a review of a cake shop. It's close to our university, so let's go eat."

"Who told you to lose weight..."

"It looks delicious. Let's go eat. Tomorrow we'll reduce the price. Promise."

It's always like this. Let's see...when he's had enough, he'll cry out and feel guilty, hitting me on the back every time. But I can only sigh Because this isn't the first time.

At the cake shop

“Wow, this looks delicious.”

I couldn't help but smile at the actions of some figures who were clinging to the cake cabinet until their cheeks were pressed against the glass floor. Who is this happy expression? Who would dare to displease me?~

“Youngjae, I want to eat these three pieces.” Someone turned and said to me. He pointed his index finger at the flavor of cake he wanted to eat.

"Are you going to eat all of it? Three pieces."

“Comfortable~” He proudly placed his hand on his chest. Look at my soft body. I'll forget about being fat.

“Okay, if you don't eat all of it. I'll punish you so I'll see.”

“Whoa, Youngjae isn't afraid. Mark is so kind that he'll die."

Look at this mischievous creature, where has he ever been afraid of me? I'm many years older. Please take a look... if you really can't eat it all. I will fight until I lose my cool. Then he looked at that and when he finished pointing, he immediately went to sit at the table. Ok, do I have a boyfriend or have children? I'm beginning to not be sure how much.

I turned and smiled at the employee at the counter. before ordering three cakes that Youngjae wanted to eat with extra water for the two of us

“Total 28,000 won.”

I took out my credit card and handed it to him. After a while, the same employee swiped it and returned it with a receipt and some kind of card.

“Loyalty card. Come eat at our restaurant according to the amount on your card. You will receive the prize as shown in the picture.” The employee explained how to use it to me.

“Please wait at the table. We will serve it to your table.” The young female employee is still on duty and recommending various services to new customers like me.

“Yes, thank you.”

After payment has been completed I walked over and sat at the table with Youngjae. Now he just sits and takes selfies of himself enjoying the atmosphere of the store.

“Please allow me to serve the cake.” Soon the shop staff brought the items we ordered and served them to the table.

I arranged to place the cake at an angle that I thought would be beautiful when photographed. Why? Just ask the person in front of me.

“The cake looks delicious. The strawberries are very big. Brother Mard, don't just eat it. Let Youngjae take the photo first.”

After speaking, the shutter sounded loud and could be heard in dozens of pictures. This is just a photo of a single cake. Not including the fact that he told me to take a photo of him with those three cakes.

“I'm going to eat it~” Youngjae made a small noise before cutting a large bite of cheesecake into his mouth.

“Hmmmm, very delicious, Mark.”

A cheerful attitude with sparkling eyes I can guess how delighted he was. After seeing the people in front of me eating happily It's my turn to try some.

I immediately scooped a big bite of chocolate cake into my mouth and chewed it. It's not too sweet and has a clear cocoa bitterness. No wonder he really liked the person in front of him.

Like this, you can see that you probably have your favorite shops added to the list.

list

Again…

“Mark…. Mark….”

Huh? It sounded like someone was calling me.

“Mark, wake up.”

I opened my eyes and was a little sleepy. Oh...I guess I fell asleep.

“Oh, Mom, are you here?”

After Youngjae's mother woke me up, who was lying down next to my younger brother's bed. It made me know that it was time for my mother to continue taking care of me.

"I saw you lying down with a big smile on your face. Good night." I quickly put my hand up and scratched the back of my neck to relieve my embarrassment. Volunteer to take care of the sick person. But I fell asleep on my own.

“Haha, probably because I dreamed about Youngjae just now.”

“Yes, hurry and go back and rest. It's already very late.”

"Yes, I'll be back first. Hello."

December 23, 2016 -

On a Sunday morning like this After completing activities within the church according to Christian practices The other people went their separate ways. Except for me, who continued to sit and pray in the church.

The priest turned and looked at me. and smiles to encourage me like every time Since the incident with Youngjae that time I tried everything to get Youngjae to wake up. I even prayed for God's blessing.

I held my hands up to my chest, closed my eyes and concentrated on praying with the priest before Jesus.

I hope Youngjae wakes up again.

Amen…

“Hello, Mom.” After returning from church I went straight to the hospital as usual.

“Yes, have you eaten yet?” Mother Youngjae asked me. While peeling a large apple in his hand

“I ate it from the church,” I replied before putting the cloth bag on the table.

"It's really bothering us" because Mother was sick all night. And today in the afternoon, my mother arranged to meet with a friend but forgot to bring the things she wanted to give to her friend. So I volunteered to stop by and bring that item from Youngjae's house instead. You have to come anyway.

"It's okay, I'm free."

Knock knock….

A knock sounded at the door before it slid open to reveal the sick visitor. Which are BamBam and Yugyeom, Youngjae's close friends.

“Hello, Mom and Brother Mark,” the two young men said in unison, greeting as if they had made an appointment.

“Hello,” Youngjae's mother answered.

“We came to visit Youngjae. And this. A souvenir for the sick person.” Yugyeom handed the fruit basket to his mother. So I got up and volunteered to take his place.

“When you guys came, it was loud.”

“Oh… Brother Mark still isn't used to it? Normally, just Youngjae's voice is louder than the two of us combined.”

“Hahaha, that's true.” BamBam's answer immediately reminded me of the angry voice of the person lying on the bed.

Ah...I really want to hear that sound again.

“Mom, how are you? How are you?”

“I'm fine. Haven't seen you in a long time. How are you?”

“Wow…. I don't feel well, Mom. When entering the second year, activities must be organized to welcome the younger siblings in place of the older, third, and fourth years. We are very sorry for those first years.”

Yugyeom hurriedly said with an irritated expression. When thinking about past welcoming activities

“Do you understand me here? That I came to meet a naughty younger generation like you guys. How headache-inducing is that?”

Last year, I often heard the bravery of this gang of mischievous kids from the second-year juniors. And it looks like my girlfriend is also the leader of the gang…. But why are you so cute when you're with me? To this day, I still picture Gang Leader Choi. Youngjae couldn't come out at all.

“Yes, teenagers are like this.”

“Yes~”

“Mom, please excuse me. Just made an appointment with a friend. Probably come back late at night.”

“Sure, don't worry,” I answered, ready to stay and take care of the patient instead of offering.

“Uh… Mother, I might not come to see you tomorrow.” I just remembered. Tomorrow I have an appointment with the Jacksons.

“Yes, don't worry, tomorrow Youngjae's older sister's family will be coming to visit her sick. The grandchildren also came. The room would be full of people.”

“Oh, yes.”

“Then Mom, go first.”

"Yes, have a safe trip." Me and two other naughty kids He quickly stood up and bowed goodbye to his mother. Before you walk out of the room

“Where is Brother Mark going?”

“Why do you ask?” I asked BamBam. These mischievous children suddenly became interested in my business.

“I saw it since the Youngjae incident. Brother Mark almost never leaves his bed.”

“It means there must be something important.” Yugyeom narrowed his eyes at me. It's like watching out for the culprit.

“That! You're not secretly cheating on my friend, are you? Tomorrow is Christmas Eve too.”

“You guys are all fantasizing. I have a date with Jackson.”

“Alright, don't let me know that you secretly have an affair. We won't let you go!”

From my answer Looks like Bambam and Yugyeom still don't trust him much. But I saw that I went with Jackson who is my close friend. They were not distracted as they looked for answers. I wonder if Jackson and I went on a blind date. These two naughty bastards will definitely break my heart. The more we are jealous of each other's friends.

“Youngjae-ah, hurry up and wake up. Brother Mark will soon have a girlfriend. Don't say that Bambam didn't warn you, Brae." I sat and looked at Bambam who had turned to sit and talk with his friend in a good mood.

When new things happen I still remember well these two people. Running, crying, crying to the front of the operating room. I have to call the Jacksons to come take me home first. Just having to sit and wait for an answer from the doctor for 8 hours makes me nervous. Came across the sound of crying and shouting non-stop again. The more we go

“Youngjae, did you know that this year's faculty members are very handsome?”

I squinted at Yugyeom, who pretended to speak loudly for me to hear.

“If Youngjae wakes up, we will introduce him.”

What are these two people so angry at me for? Look, they're talking.

“Here, we took a photo. This is just a preview. If you want to see the version

HD

I'll bring it for you to look at next time.” BamBam handed the phone over to the thin figure on the bed to see. before turning around and laughing with Yugyeom, the two of them

I let Bambam and Yugyeom sit with Youngjae alone. Patient room

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This hospital is wide. and there is a zone divided into patient beds and living room zone Now I'm sitting here watching a time-traveling movie for a while.

“Brother Mark, we will go back first.”

After more than an hour had passed BamBam and Yugyeom also came to say goodbye to me. I see that the two of them are going to watch a movie together.

“Um, bye.”

The BamBams returned to making the room quiet again. I turned off the TV that was on and walked back to sit next to Youngjae's bed.

“Are you tired?”

I asked the figure on the bed. The doctor had told me that if I had free time, I could massage or hold my arms and legs up and down. It is considered a kind of physical activity.

My hand gently caressed Youngjae's arm. The touch is still soft and smooth as before. I squeezed gently. While humming a song From squeezing the left arm all over I moved to the right side. Then slowly raise your arms above your head. Youngjae's muscles were very weak right now. If you do something drastic, it probably won't be good.

What can you do for someone you love like this? Sitting looking at each other all the time like this Take care of each other forever It is my happiness. But it would be nice if the person in front of me would turn around and respond….

Smile sometime….

Let's laugh together….

Or get up and hit me one more time….

December 24, 2016 -

Jingle…..

I opened the door and entered an Italian-style restaurant in Gangnam. The atmosphere inside the shop looks quiet and no less luxurious.

No wonder...Jackson always insists on dressing well. No sweatpants. I think sweatpants are comfortable to wear. Plus it's warm too. Suitable for the weather during this period. You will die.

“Mark, this way!”

I turned to look at the source of the sound. Seeing Jackson sitting among four other girls, I nodded in response and walked over to join the table.

The four girls looked to be a year or two younger than me. But look at the clothes and luxury brand bags. Probably the son of a person with status. How did Jackson get to know each other?

“This is Mark. My friend.” Jackson quickly introduced himself to me. When I sat down

“Geeee~ Yes, Brother Mark is a member of the group. Really?” One of the girls hurriedly turned to gossip with a friend sitting next to her.

“If you think about it, it's not wrong to come here,” another girl hurriedly replied.

“And that fat second-year kid? I wonder if they've broken up."

“Ahem...!!”

Jaebum who just arrived with Jinyoung Pretend to make loud noises to catch the gossiping girls.

“Hello,” Jinyoung greeted with a smile. which I feel is not very friendly

"Are you all here? Come sit."

Jackson saw that they had all arrived. He hurriedly got up and pulled the couple's arms to get them to sit quickly. Ready to start this blind date immediately.

“Okay, we're all here. The new person's name is…”

“Uncle Jaebeom and unnie Jinyoung, nice to meet you. My name is Gongju. Second year, Faculty of Marketing Management.”

A young woman with curly hair pinned with beautiful gems interrupted Jackson immediately. before reaching out to get to know

“Yes, nice to meet you.” I saw Jinyoung smile sweetly in response. Then he turned away and sat next to me instead. causing the girl to stretch out her hand awkwardly

“Let's order food,” said Jackson, who was trying to make the atmosphere better. Quickly turn around and call the service staff to ask for menus for everyone.

After ordering food The atmosphere at the table began to relax. Probably because Jackson is good at talking and often tells funny stories.

Soon the food was all over the place. And one of the girls stood up and raised a glass in front of us.

"Oh, Chanon!"

We looked at each other. To my shock, the staff suddenly brought out a glass of wine for each person.

“Who ordered this?” Jaebum, who was quietly eating spaghetti, said.

“Sung Eun gave orders to everyone. How do you celebrate Christmas Eve?"

I turned to look at the young woman sitting at the corner of the table. A long-sleeved pink dress with a neatly braided hairstyle and light makeup on the face. He doesn't seem likely to be the person who ordered these things.

"What are you waiting for? Crash~" Jackson was the first to raise his wine glass and clink before calling for us to clink along.

When alcoholic beverages began to be introduced Each person began to become more lively according to the degree to which they drank.

“One Shot... One Shot…”  

The voices of the girls cheering for Jackson to drink. Because I lost a guessing game a while ago.

The fragrant grape wine was quickly downed. If I'm counting correctly, Jackson seems to have started having 3 drinks in a row.

“Hey...take it easy. I can't drag you home.” I whispered in his ear to warn him. But Jackson nodded and patted my shoulder. Let me know if it's still okay.

“Next round, it's Mark and Gong Joo's turn.”

The same girl with curly hair sat in front of me. He immediately turned to look at me. She seemed prepared to play a lot of games with me.

“Wow... Brother Mark's turn now? There must be something special,” a girl wearing black leather pants sitting next to her said slyly.

“This is better. Play staring at each other If anyone blinks first, they lose. And the winner can ask for one thing,” the same girl continued. And no one seemed to interrupt anything.

"Let's start!"

Actually, I didn't really have the mood to play the game. I came to this blind date only because Jackson invited me. But in order not to be rude, I let it go.

Are you staring?... Can I change from the person in front of me to the soft person lying on the bed instead?

“Ah, Brother Mark blinked!” I didn't intend to play seriously. So I let my eyelids blink on their own. according to normal body mechanisms

“Gongju, you're asking for it.” Her friends who were cheering beside her immediately nudged her.

The young woman in front of me looked a little embarrassed. His shy expression twisted and turned, which I thought was cute. But it probably won't work for me.

“Gongju, please.

Love Shot

Can you?” The red face of the opposite party was evident.

“Yes,” I replied simply, wanting to end quickly so I could go back to Youngjae.

The young woman stood up and smiled at me and handed me a glass.

She held her face and arms closer. To prepare for the pose

Love Shot

Between you and me To which I stood up as well. The right hand that received the glass immediately reached out to shake the opposite arm. along with a soft whistle from her group of friends.

Duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~

Duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~

“Mark, the phone is ringing.”

Jinyoung sat next to me. He nudged me to turn around and look at the phone that was ringing on the table.

“Mother Youngjae”

I hurriedly pulled my arm back and quickly accepted. If it's not important Mother never called me once.

"hello"

“Mark! This is Youngjae's sister. Where is Mark?” The voice on the phone was not Mom. But it's Youngjae's older sister. Right now my heart is skipping a beat. Please, please don't have anything to do with it.

“Mark, come to….the hospital right now…can you?” The voice was intermittently punctuated. It's like people are blocking their sobs. It made me decide to immediately put on the coach's shirt.

“What is wrong with Youngjae?”

“Little Youngjae, Youngjae, huh….”

“Yongjae, what's wrong?!” I yelled at the top of my lungs, begging. Even though it wasn't good, But please tell me quickly.

"Huh... Nong is in shock and her heart stops beating. Huh.. The doctor is giving CPR right now."

At the end of the answer, I rushed out of the store without thinking for my life. I heard Jackson ask what happened behind me. But whatever it is, I don't have time to care right now.

I just want to see his face again. Please, Youngjae, don't worry about anything. I'm coming to see you.

God….please let me be there in time.

Patient room -

“200 Joules!” shouted the doctor on duty. Loud throughout the room

The image of a thin young man lying bare-chested on a bed. While being shocked by a pacemaker

“Huh…..”

Mother's helpless voice And the grandchildren are equally famous. They watched the doctors and nurses resuscitate Choi Youngjae.

“Check your pulse,” said the same doctor who was astride Young Tae. His palms clasped together, he massaged his heart in his chest from the outside while he weakly shouted to the nurse.

“I haven't come back yet.”

The nurse's answer made him curse softly before putting his hands together to massage his heart.

“How many minutes ago?”

“Two minutes,” the same nurse replied after checking the time on her wrist.

“Again, 200 joules,” the doctor turned to another nurse who was manning the heart pump. She quickly took the order and sent it to the doctor when the equipment was ready.

“Clear!”   

Puk!

After pumping the heart Some bodies were slightly stimulated by the force of the shock. Until his right arm hung off the bed. At that moment, everyone prayed that this heart would beat again.

Tid…….. Tid………

“Doctor, my pulse has come back!”

The nurse who was checking his pulse said excitedly.

"okay! Take him to the ICU.”

“I understand, sir.” Both the male nurse and the nurse hurriedly responded. and immediately push the bed as ordered

“Please wait here.”

The same doctor turned to stop the Youngjae family who were preparing to run after them. And he hurriedly followed out as well.

2 hours have passed -

Bang!!

I immediately opened the door to Youngjae's room. Anyone who says it's bad manners doesn't care anymore. The feet that rushed towards the girl immediately stopped. When I saw that the bed was empty

“Yongjaejjjjjjjjjjj!” I immediately shouted at the top of my voice, as if my heart was broken. My strength was all gone.

“Mark is here?” I hurriedly turned towards the sound. Mother resting on the sofa With Youngjae's sister's family sitting next to each other.

“What happened?”

I hurriedly calmed down. before asking back

“I don't know either. Youngjae suddenly had a seizure. Then my heart stopped,” Youngjae's older sister answered me.

“Right now. Where is Youngjae now?”

“The doctor took me to the emergency room. We are waiting for the test results.”

"yes"

I was stunned by this unexpected event. Now everyone can only pray.

After the doctor took Youngjae out Time fell until overnight and arrived at 6 a.m. the next day. Until finally the door that everyone was watching opened. A picture of Youngjae lying still on the bed. with a ventilator and IV line on his wrist Was carted into the room

Everyone rushed over and surrounded the bed. while waiting for an answer from Youngjae's regular doctor

“How is Youngjae, doctor?” Youngjae's mother asked. Everyone had prepared themselves with the answer. which includes me

“Now I'm out of danger, but….”

“But what?” I hurriedly asked, following the doctor's sentence immediately.

“Because Youngjae's brain was deprived of oxygen for a while. affect the order Causing the respiratory system to fail, in other words Now I can't breathe on my own.”

From the doctor's answer causing the mother to let out a loud gasp Youngjae's older sister rushed to support him. and I hurriedly moved the chair for him instead.

“Then what will happen to you?” Youngjae's older sister asked in a trembling voice.

“If within 24 hours from now, Mr. Youngjae is still unable to breathe on his own. There is a very high chance of becoming the Sleeping Prince.”

End of the doctor's answer My heart immediately sank. A feeling of numbness took its place. I don't even have the strength to say a word...

“Thank you very much, doctor.” I sat and watched Youngjae's older sister bow and thank the doctor. and walked to the door As for Mother, she sat and sobbed next to Youngjae's bed. with grandchildren standing next to each other

“It's... me.”

I stood up in an atmosphere where everyone was sad.

“I would like to excuse myself for a moment.”

I hurriedly walked out. After the door closed I ran as fast as I could while the tears still flowed. Until now, I can't see anything.

The feet that don't stop moving are like my sinking heart. I realized that I was already standing in front of the church. With both hands, I slowly pushed the door open. Inside the church now there was no reliance on people. Actually, it's not strange because it's not even 7 a.m. yet.

I sat down on the long chair. Sitting here makes me feel calmer.

Why?

Sentences that popped into my head

Youngjae, I'm sorry. It's my own fault.

Image of the incident where a body was hit by a car. The image where I couldn't reach out and grab the body in time. This episode played out over and over again in my head.

My tears flowed again.

I tried to hold back my sobs.

taste of blood

I put my hand over my lips. which now had blood oozing out From the time I tried to hold it back

God…….

Santa Claus……

Or someone please help Youngjae.

I began to pray before the cross again. The more you pray, the deeper the feelings within your heart become clearer.

“Whoa!”

I slammed my palm against the wall, leaning on the chair in front of me. to vent emotions

Smashed once….

Time after time….

Repeat the same place....

It's like the doctor's words repeating in my head.

My palms are starting to turn red, but I don't care, I won't die just yet. If compared to Youngjae's condition now

Tears flowed in my eyes. Until my jeans are wet I sat there and let my thoughts flow along with my tears. Until the phone's incoming message sounded.

“How is Youngjae?”

I opened it and read it and saw that There is a message from the Jacksons. And BamBam sent almost 50 messages and almost 20 missed calls.

I typed a message to reply to everyone until it was complete. Before scrolling, I came across a message from my mother.

“Mark… are you okay?”

I sat and read this message for a long time. Until I can decide and dial the phone back to you

“Mom, I'm Mark.”

I heard Mom's voice reply, but it was muffled. You're still crying.

“Tonight, I want to watch over Youngjae instead.”

I've decided If tonight might be the night of the last hope Can I be that person who waits until the last second?

December 25, 2016 night -

I carried the stuffed doll that he really liked. From home to lay on the bed

“Youngjae... Ryan misses Youngjae. Let's wake up and play tonight." I picked up the round mite and placed it next to him.

"Tonight, you'll be staying with us all night. Are you happy?"

I raised my hand to brush away the hair on my face, gently caressing that smooth cheek. Youngjae's hair has grown a lot longer. I don't know what he would say if he woke up and saw this.

I looked at the clock on the mobile phone screen and it was only 9:00 p.m. This time is usually the time when the two of us usually play games together. I moved the screen back and forth for a moment. before pressing to enter the game that we both play regularly Actually, since Youngjae was sick I didn't enter this game again. It's hard to accept having to play the game without him.

The screen prompts me to press

Update

Games after the new version has been upgraded I waited for a long time until I was able to enter the game.

“Youngjae, look at this. There are a lot of new characters.” I turned my phone screen towards him. To show off new game characters

“Wow… there are new levels that are really fun to play.” I continued to scroll the screen for him to see.

I got up and sat on the bed, leaning back against the headboard like when Youngjae came to play in my room. Then click to play the game that has been missing for a long time.

YOU WIN

"Youngjae, look, you won again. Haha. Your skills haven't dropped at all."

Time and again I played the game and won. I would turn towards him and hold up the screen, hoping to share it with him. and share my loneliness too

Now I keep playing. Until the time had passed and it was close to midnight. Which was the same time as the events at that time…..

I closed the game and turned to the side so I could clearly see the face of the person I loved with all my heart.

“Youngjae-ah…..”

My voice felt like it had been sucked away.

“It's already been one year since we slept here.”

Silence fell between the two of us.

“Santa, today is Christmas. Can I ask for something?”

I raised my head and turned to look outside the window instead.

“Can Youngjae be revived please?”

My tears slowly flowed.

“Lord, every action that I have prayed Can I please grant you a miracle now?”

Tid……

“My heart hurts so much.”

Tid……..

“It was very painful.”

Tid……..

“If Youngjae doesn't recover tomorrow. I don't know if I can bear that situation or not.”

Tid……..

“Please. I won't ask for anything else.”

Tid………

“Please help Youngjae.”

Thuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!

Suddenly, the sound of the heart rate monitor sounded. I hurriedly turned around to look at him with hope. But it turned out to be a picture that I didn't want to see, a picture that…..

Youngjae's heart stopped beating!!

“Doctor!!!!!”

I quickly ran out of the room. while shouting at the top of his voice for help

No, please, stay with me.

“Nurse!!! Youngjae!! Youngjae's heart stopped!!”

I ran barefoot to the counter of the nurse on duty. All the officials immediately rushed into Youngjae's room.

Tidddddddddddddddddddddddd!

The sound of that crazy machine still echoed throughout the room.

I cried loudly Why…..didn't God help me?

The doctor on duty immediately checked his symptoms and gave a heart massage. Over and over, those little breasts rippled with the pressure.

My legs were almost exhausted. With a heart that's lost

It hurts so much…..

It was a painful Christmas for me….

God or Santa Claus? These are just things to trick children. What miracles will be created? Now you are taking my loved ones away from me.

Tick…..Tick…..Tick……

“Doctor, the patient's pulse has returned.”

Is that the voice of an angel?

I quickly turned to look at the heart rate monitor in disbelief. Now Youngjae's heart is back to beating.

Youngjae is still with me.

My tears flowed again. Happiness overflows

I got up and walked over to thank the countless doctors. Curve and curve again without fear of ruining the waist

“Now things are normal. But my heart stopped beating a moment ago. It may make symptoms worse than before. Don't trust it.” The doctor turned and ordered all the nurses to prepare for the emergency. Before leaving the room

I walked around and circled Youngjae's head. With the other hand, he held the little hand and refused to let go. I want to give the smile that I think is the happiest to the person in front of me. But just thinking about smiling The tears didn't stop flowing.

Or is this a signal for me to prepare myself?

Should I stop hoping?

Why….Can't I hope until the last second?

My heartbreaking cry echoed throughout the room. I'm sure it's louder than ever since its birth.

I can't accept it! Why does it have to be with us?

“Yongjae-ah!”

I shouted as loud as I could, venting my emotions. Today, let me release it. Now I'm going to do something embarrassing and cry for his life.

Before even his body I will never see you again……

Morning of December 26 -

“Sip…”

The sound of birds chirping and the sunlight shining from the window. Instead, wake me up. Last night I cried all night until I fell asleep.

My eyes hurt so much…..

My eyes are probably seriously swollen right now. I blinked quickly to chase away sleepiness before turning to look at the face of the person I loved.

But that made me rub my eyes again. in disbelief

“Youngjae!!”

“Good morning…… Brother Mark.”

A thin figure in front of me He was sitting and leaning on Diao's head while replying to me. With the smile that I've been waiting for so long

Youngjae has woken up!

I didn't dream this, right?

The long-awaited moment was about to end.

next christmas Will we be happy now?......

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It's finished. Thank you for reading.

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If I have free time, I'll come decorate again -3-

Finally...I hope you have fun this Christmas.

" Merry Christmas "

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PS 3. It's a long story, I'll continue after the new year. Let's go on a fun trip first, haha.