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Many times ... he made me feel good by coming close ... pampering like he wouldn't do to anyone ... caring and protecting ... providing intimacy.

But many times as well... I have to face neglect... Ignoring myself and being distant like it's not important... Words that hurt my feelings... make me feel like I'm far away from people like him. How much...

It wouldn't have much of an effect...if I wasn't in love with him.

Many times, I tried to bring myself close to him... take care of him more than I've ever done for anyone else... take care of him and protect him by his side... give him intimacy and trust as much as myself.

But there were also many times...that I had to endure watching him give more importance to others...ignoring what I was trying to do for him...cold words that I didn't want to hear...made me... I feel that no matter how hard I try, I can't go any further than this.

It affected me greatly ... because I was in love with him.

To Be Con...