It's a drabble that gives the most complete feeling. Too bad, haha.

He didn't know where it started.

Myungsoo placed a soft kiss on her shoulder, still panting slightly from the activity that just ended a moment ago. But for a moment, the other man shifted as if annoyed before reaching out and pulling away his hand that was on his hip and pushing himself up. Sungyeol said that he was going to take a short shower, so he accepted it in his throat and turned over to lie on his back. He glanced at the slender figure who grabbed a tissue to wipe between his legs, then picked up a pair of pants that were lying on the floor nearby and casually put them on before striding away with a towel in hand.

He raised his arm to his forehead, not bothering to deal with the stickiness on his body. Brush off the empty feeling that makes your chest flutter like it doesn't matter. It might be because of his personal preference that he still wants the warmth of his skin and doesn't want everything to end so quickly even after he's freed himself. But what could he ask for when aside from the friendship they shared, this physical relationship had no deeper meaning for him and Sungyeol?

A few years ago, if someone told them they were forced to be friends with someone they didn't like, they would probably laugh because it sounded ridiculous. Especially with one person who is completely bored. He wasn't the type to pick a fight with anyone first, but the sarcastic words and contemptuous glances that the tall, slender young man named Sungyeol had given him without concealment were like igniting a fire for someone who wasn't very calm in his experience. It made teenagers like him even more hot like a fire that was ready to explode all the time.

Because they were confident that in the group of trainees they were not inferior to anyone else, why did they have to endure being trampled by others? They also did not understand when they accidentally did something bad to the other party.

Back then, Sungyeol was just a stranger. It's just another person who is not important, not worth liking, and doing things that make you look displeased. At that time they were just starting to step onto the path that seemed like a dream. Myungsoo could only feel his way like a blind man. Being forced to act as intimate as if they had been in love for a hundred years with someone who had been repulsed for months, they could only bow their heads and accept the order without question.

He could only wonder how long his life in front of the camera would be bitter. Until their arguments reached the point where they seemed to break apart. A small incident turned everything around as easily as the palm of a hand.

He still remembers the feeling of cold slender fingers reaching out and holding his hand tightly, before he discovered how much sincerity lay beneath the arrogant and rebellious mask. The lips that were drawing a defiant smile were unable to hide the trembling clammy palms. Myungsoo's accidental discovery of this identity shattered all his prejudices.

Myungsoo was a soft-hearted person, so he wondered why he had never noticed his hidden sensitivity before. And Sungyeol, who insists on doing things that people around him denounce as a dark path, makes him start to silently admire the other person.

From having collided head-on, he changed his perspective and compared what the other party did to a knot that had to be learned how to untie with care, even though he didn't know how it was tied together. The sweet, sullen expression on his face faded and was replaced by a sincere smile as the knot began to loosen. He never thought that his slightly high-pitched voice, without a tinge of irritation, would be more audible than anyone else's.

'Myungsoo, Myungsoo, you have to do that. I'll take it like this'

Even though sometimes he slams his head and tail like he's the maknae himself. I'm upset just because I lost a game. Or beg to please when you're in a particularly good mood after getting what you want. Even though they were still arguing about it, he would completely relent until Sunggyu even spoke out to dissuade each other, but it was like he was going through his left ear and through his right ear.

Sungyeol is his to do as he pleases. Who can stop it?

Moreover, It makes playing in front of the camera a lot more fun. Catching up on physical contact to make people suspicious of their relationship wasn't as awkward as it used to be, and he also found that his own skinship was second only to Dongwoo. So when I was at the dorm, even though I was clinging a bit more than necessary, no one even looked twice as it was normal behavior.

Only that night the blood alcohol level seemed to be higher than normal. It was like he didn't want to let go of touching another person's smooth skin more than ever. It seems like they want to be close to each other for a little longer. It's like a strange feeling in my chest that's harder to ignore than ever. It's like everything will make you forget and accidentally do something inappropriate.

That night, Myungsoo sat slenderly on the floor with various kinds of food and colorful glass bottles strewn around him. He rested his head on the dark hair and commented that it needed a treatment due to the dryness from the latest dyeing, but the owner just shook his head back and forth nonchalantly.

Sunggyu had fallen asleep on the sofa behind him while Dongwoo was laughing heartily at Deep Sea Fish from a television documentary, with Sungjong slumped on the floor, hugging an empty water bottle close to him. After drinking three bottles of soju, at that point he had no memories of Hoya or Woohyun. I thought that if I couldn't turn and not see, I wasn't there (

In the morning, someone found the body of Mr. Nam in the bathroom and the elder brother of the group's Lee family on a pile of shoes on the floor of the entrance door.)

After complaining about his dry hair three times out of fear that it wouldn't reach the other person's ears, Sungyeol pushed his face away in annoyance. He shook his head away, stubbornly trying to hide into the crook of the other person's neck. In the end, he ducked his palm and kissed her cheek with a big puff, teasing him to get revenge. This time, it was Sungyeol who turned around almost all over to slap his skull to the side.

Myung Soo had to try his best to subdue the naughty boy (who he had bullied first) and grabbed both arms that tried to hit him without opening his eyes and ears in distress because the strength of the other party was not too small. The slender figure, who still didn't give up easily, took the opportunity when he accidentally bit down on the shoulder with such force that he almost cried out.

So he turned to scold, but it happened at the exact moment Sungyeol was raising his head. The dry lips accidentally collided with the corner of his mouth. The second they made contact, Myungsoo felt a rush of heat spread to his entire face and embarrassingly rushed downwards.

He stared at the round eyes that widened in shock before he stumbled back and laughed dryly, helplessly. The next moment, Sungyeol stood up so quickly that Myungsoo couldn't catch the other man's wrist, so he had to hurry to his feet and follow the person who wanted to escape into the bedroom. He stepped over Dongwoo, who was sprawled across the walkway because he was asleep without anyone noticing and threw himself at the door that was about to close before he could insert himself. After just a few words of arguing, everything around them ceased to matter as the two pressed their lips together as if they had been longing for a long time.

Everything doesn't happen so fast that your head will spin, but it's slow enough to stop you from thinking. When he regained consciousness, he seemed to be in so much trouble that he couldn't find a way out.

Growing up in an all-boys school, Myung-soo is used to relationships that deviate from what society accepts. The surprising thing was Sung Yeol. People who declare themselves to be very manly. Someone who is normally as possessive as Sungjong and doesn't like skinship even among the members (not counting Dongwoo who makes everyone get used to it).

Either way, I couldn't imagine the reason why that stubborn person would surrender to him, who was also a man.

The night when a playful child complained of being especially homesick. Keeping myself in bed Or did a rough practice turn out to be a sign that the couple would end up together at the end of the day? Lust soon stretched his patience to the limit, and what Myungsoo's lips touched didn't just rest on Sungyeol's anymore.

(Thinking back, who could resist a slender, alluring body?)

He then walked to the point where he felt like he had fallen into the middle of a quicksand pit of endless desire. The desire that only increased, pulling him deeper and deeper until it was frightening and frightening that it would cause the 'friends' who had become too close to each other to start having difficulty breathing as well. He tried to grab the 'vine' that had been dropped in front of him, hoping that it might help him get out of this awkward situation.

She is cute and sweet, completely different from Sungyeol who is mischievous and irritable. Big eyes decorated a slender face that matched with long, flowing, wavy hair. A gentle scent and a nurturing smile make you want to please. Even so, Myungsoo had to keep telling himself to hold it tight because deep down he still felt a gap in his heart that had always been left for someone, which he didn't dare admit for sure.

It is Sungyeol's area that is more special than anyone else.

However, not long after that, that 'vine' suddenly swung around and strangled him until he almost lost his breath.

The chaos that came crashing down on him later was not as upsetting as the fake smiles and empty words of comfort from Sungyeol, who was as open and honest as he could have ever imagined. He tried to find a reason for the people he cared about to turn knives on each other, but he never succeeded. Until the whole thing was forgotten, leaving only a scar that never faded, reminding of what happened.

After countless mistakes Efforts that seem ineffective A misunderstanding that cannot find its starting point And shedding tears again and again Myungsoo finds that the gap for space still hasn't disappeared. Even though he had both experience and no longer felt his way in the dark, In the end, he still had to lie to himself over and over about feelings that were so deeply rooted that they had merged with his heart a long time ago.

He didn't know where the empty space in his heart started or what caused it. Counting the days, I can only pray that it will decrease instead of increasing in size like this.

Sungyeol drags his feet hurriedly towards the door when he hears the doorbell and unlocks it, pulling it open when he sees a familiar face on the intercom.

“Who are you looking for? There is no one here today.”

“Then you don't have to eat this rice. You starve to death, I'll be right back."

“Wow, Brother Gyu, I'm joking. I'm just kidding. Come in.” He rushed to hug the other person's arm when he heard the word food. Half-pull, half-drag the person who turned away as if he really wanted to go back, into the room together, then hurriedly closed the door behind him.

"Why do you say there's no one there?"

“Sung Yeolli, your cute little brother is here, huh!” Sunggyu pouted at Sung Yeol, who tried to beg him before stuffing all the plastic bags he was carrying into his hands.

“Take it and set it on the table. Hurry, I'm hungry."

“Come and use it.” He couldn't help but grumble before walking into the kitchen to do as he was told. For the sake of bringing food when he was bored with ramen, it would be bad. Fortunately, everything was in a microwaveable food container, so without hesitation I opened the lid and stuffed it into the cabinet.

“Did Dongwoo hyung bring you food?” he shouted to the unsuspecting person who was probably already reclining on the sofa watching television. The elder shouted a short, careless response. Sungyeol smiled as he opened the lid and found a few of his favorite dishes. As you can see, you can immediately tell that it's from a kind-hearted older brother who definitely thinks of the members like real family.

“If you stop by, you should invite me along.”

"Would you like to know that you want to go?"

"If you don't know, just ask."

"I'm not telling you to ask."

He slowly carried the food out and set it on the small table in front of the sofa. Don't forget to grab the soju that is one of the souvenirs and open the bottle and pour it into the glass for the other person who comes up and waits to finish. It's been a while since the band leader was kind like this, so he kept quiet and didn't ask about dieting.

The two of them watched a variety show while talking about miscellaneous things. Criticizing the plot of the series in each channel that Sungyeol kept changing every five minutes, it wasn't until two and a half bottles of soju were gone that Sunggyu broke through the middle.

“By the way, Lee Sung Yeol, I don't want to interfere in your relationship with Myung Soo. We've all grown up.”

Sungyeol glanced at the other person who was pointing at him with his chopsticks without any politeness (he would save this to sue Dongwoo, who, although polite to the group's eldest, would scold him for manners without exception) before grabbing the kimchi. into the mouth I suspected that bringing food and knocking on a room in the middle of the night must have an ulterior motive, but I didn't expect it to be like this.

“What?”

“Don't make a mistake. Do you think no one notices when you guys try to avoid talking to each other?”

“Uh… do you think?”

Sunggyu couldn't help but wave his hand over the head of the shallow-thinking person. Raise your chopsticks and point again (you'll definitely get sued) when the younger brother who complains rubs the sore part.

“If it wasn't that clear, I wouldn't say anything.”

"It's not--"

“Ah! Ah!!” Sungyeol was in front of him when his older brother loudly interrupted him. “It can be seen from Mars with the naked eye and you still argue? Damn it, I alone don't really care about it, but other people, even though I haven't met them often, still complain to me. And I don't see it for anyone's sake. Choosing to talk to you first doesn't mean I'm siding with Myungsoo, but that guy has disappeared somewhere and can't be found.”

Even though it was the wrong place at the wrong time, Sungyeol was still a little amused because he suddenly remembered that the person who complained more than anyone had accused him of being a complainer on a show himself.

"Brother, slow down, or you won't be able to catch your breath."

“A defendant like you cannot be allowed to be cooler than me.”

The other party probably thought that this time would be like the previous times, a long time ago, when he and Myungsoo had quarreled in the beginning. When each side wanted to bleed the other's head just for the sake of satisfaction. At that time, he even annoyed Dongwoo, who tried to understand him on behalf of the other party because he thought about why he was viewed as a child instead of talking to another person who was younger than Sungyeol to soften the blow first.

“At that time, I never saw or said anything. It's not that different right now, we just don't fight anymore.” Even though Dongwoo and Sungjong had asked the leader to do something, Sungkyu never once stopped the group until it escalated to the point where they both shed blood. tire out Moreover, it also caused an important face for the profession to be injured, but Sunggyu still insisted that it was the only way to deal with hot-headed children like them.

“No... It's not the same right now, is it?” The elder looked at him steadily, as if wanting to convey a meaning. “In many ways, especially… Your relationship with Myungsoo.”

Sungyeol's spine tingled like a person eating cement with a hot stomach until he accidentally asked instead of denying.

“You know?”

“Do you think I got the nickname ‘Genius Kyu’ just for fun?”

“No, brother, but… is it… really?”

“Just because I don't say it doesn't mean that other people don't know, Lee Sung Yeol. Sometimes even though I don't say it, it doesn't mean I don't care.”

Hearing this, he could only raise both hands to rub his face vigorously because it was so unexpected that he was almost sober in that instant. Even though he thought they were both very careful, damn it. “But… but whatever you think, It's not like that.”

“Not what? That it had gone to that point? You know it's very risky.”

He sighed, “Me and that guy... We're not serious. So it's not a big deal. You don't have to worry.”

“But what everyone saw was more serious than you thought.”

“How?”

Sunggyu frowned. “If Myungsoo following you around like a puppy isn't enough, I don't know what else to say. No matter what, I think of you first. Aren't you the same too?"

“Being close friends, it's not strange if we care about each other. Brother Kyu himself should understand? Also, don't act like you don't know the rules of skinship on camera. Whether it's the show cameras or the fan cameras." The thin figure just smiled at the half-liquid glass in front of him before gulping it down into his mouth in one go.

Sunggyu squinted his eyes in annoyance. They raised their fingers and pointed at each other as if expecting punishment. “Don't talk like you don't have a life behind the camera.”

“That's right. Otherwise, how could something like this happen, right?”

"I'm not asking you to break up with--"

“That's wrong,” Sungyeol interrupted. “If you say you're not serious, how can you get together? If it's going to end then it's over and that guy has nothing to lose. It wasn't as difficult as I thought.”

Sunggyu frowned. It was clear that he had deliberately let the younger man deny this and that, but he was beginning to dislike the direction of the conversation. “What do you mean there is nothing to lose?”

The lips were shaped into a slight smile. Raising the empty glass as a gesture, he asked the other person to pour the liquid from the emerald green bottle until it was almost brimming to the rim before moving back and placing it on the table so that he could reach up and take a sip instead of using his hands. “In the end, that guy and I are still friends, nothing has changed. With things that have gone too far, if that guy doesn't like it, just find someone new who is better than me. It's easy."

What's difficult? Because someone like Lee Sung Young can be replaced at any time.

What's so difficult when your partner can change at any time?

A person with a clean face proportional figure Suitable height, good natured, comfortable to live with. or the excitement you want overnight Just by seeing a glimpse of their face or making eye contact Everyone is ready to offer their heads to Kim Myung Soo.

What could he demand when he was fully aware of his own situation and could only do as he had always done? Swallowing a single word that would make the foundation of the solid but fragile wall stand still.

“This guy is…” Sunggyu held his head with both hands. This kid sometimes said things that were completely unexpected. “Lee Sung Yeol! You stupid kid!”

“Thank you for watching.” He raised his small glass in appreciation. spread out a wide smile Then he downed all the liquid into his mouth again.

Since Myungsoo never said that they wanted each other more than bedfellows. It was clear that it was his own fault for accidentally giving his heart to that person inappropriately.

End.