TEARS

VALENTINE

Dang....

Mobile phone vibrates The chubby-cheeked person hurriedly grabbed the mobile phone at his side and pressed accept and turned on the speaker before placing it next to his cheek as usual in the prone position, resting his legs on his favorite pillow.

"Hello." A muffled voice was emitted with effort. He had only slept for a few hours after returning from the club last night. “BamBam..are you free today? Do you have time to come and see me?” The person on the other end of the line said as if he were impatient.

"Okay, but where are you?" BamBam lifted his lazy body to take a shower and then went as planned. He didn't care much. But he just thought he should do everything to make it clear.

A red rose was sent to the recipient as soon as it arrived along with a letter. BamBam didn't pay much attention to the surprise that Kim Yugyeom gave him. It was placed on the table. Next to the coffee mug with that letter

"BamBam, I have to go study. I..." Yugyeom's voice didn't stop. BamBam turned his head in another direction. “I never liked you. Thank you for today's roses. You know that I only think of you as a friend. If there's nothing else I'll excuse myself first, Yugyeom.” BamBam's words were simple but like putting out a fire in the entire city.

A city where there is only Kim Yugyeom The city that once had a little light shone in was now completely extinguished. Yugyeom understands well. He knew it had to end like this. Just think to yourself that for once BamBam will turn around and look.

"Can I ask for one thing, BamBam?"

"yeah.."

"Don't throw away my letter."

BamBam didn't say anything. Just took Kim Yugyeom's letter back. The back moves slowly. like a dream image It faded away from Kim Yugyeom's sight.

BamBam left his body, lying on the sofa with his arms crossed, thinking about what he had done. What he did to Kim Yugyeom Does it seem mean?

Dang, Dang, Dang, Dang, Dang, the cell phone rang. BamBam quickly pulled it out of his pants pocket, "Yes, Mark." The conversation proceeded lively. The atmosphere wouldn't be this good if the person on the line wasn't Mark Tuan, BamBam's ideal type. The person that BamBam had a hard time reaching for. It's been a year since the relationship has moved up step by step. Today is a good day for BamBam to gather all his courage and tell Mark about his inner feelings.

Mark brushed aside the sweater that had been carefully stored in the closet. Wear it for Valentine's Day The sweater that Bambam bought me last year. He likes it but hasn't had a chance to show it to BamBam. It seems like Bambam might have forgotten about it. Pick up a bottle of Blu de Chanel perfume. Spray and spin around before fitting clothes then walked out of the room

In Bambam's room It was decorated with many types of flowers arranged in bouquets and placed in beautiful groups along the walkway. With dim light from a cute little flower-shaped lamp. neatly placed Everything was arranged deliberately. The room was filled with the scent of fragrant sticks placed in the corners of the room. He was sure Mark would like it.

Ok, the door isn't locked. Mark twisted the bolt slightly. The door opened easily. "BamBam, please come in." There was no response. Mark walked along the path that BamBam had arranged. Inside, only the light from a small lantern led him inside. At the end of the corridor, he saw a small person standing in front of him. Mark Tuan was surprised by BamBam's surprise today.

Mark's heart swelled bigger than before. The more he knows and is confident in how much he loves Bambam.

“Happy Valentine's Day, Mark. ..That's the sweater I bought for you. I thought I couldn't see it anymore. I shouldn't have stacked it up like that.”

"I've seen it since Bam walked into your room. Thank you, BamBam."

"Brother Mark....I..."

"I love BamBam."

Mark sent a big bouquet of red roses to BamBam. BamBam smiled so hard that he forgot to express everything on his mind.

Mark grabbed BamBam's waist and tightened his grip on himself. Curly lips pressed a kiss to his forehead. "I love Bambam very much," Mark repeated this sentence. Not sure if he's just saying he loves me. Or is he begging for something more than that? The warm steam from his soft mouth moved all over his face. soft kisses BamBam placed the bouquet of flowers he just received on the table next to the bed.

Pulling both of Mark's thick hands around his waist. Touch the top of the person's chin with those small lips before licking them. Bring your breath to your collarbone. Sucking at the tempting veins in your neck. Small fingers held Mark's slender face to look at his round eyes. Reflections of each other's eyes BamBam gave Mark Tuan a sweet kiss.

Tongues in harmony Taking turns letting their breath hit each other's skin. The sound of heavy breathing caused the pair to scatter. The conversation has ended. There were only moans of happiness on the bed strewn with red roses.

Mark fell asleep as he grabbed his thin waist and hugged him. BamBam feels good about having Mark Tuan as his possession. but also aware of the overflowing feeling of being embarrassed He could only think about the person he had just cut off ties with.

Why do I feel cold under Mark's warm chest?

What exactly is this feeling? BamBam tries to find an answer to it.

BamBam slowly got up from the bed and handed Mark a pillow to embrace instead. His heartbeat began to sound louder. The last words that Yuk said "Don't throw away my letter."

Yugyeom knows this no matter how hard he tries. No matter how close you get to BamBam, it's like pushing yourself further away. The last time he asked to meet BamBam It was a decision knowing that this was the only time I would be close to Bambam in the year. And it was this proximity that immediately gave way to distance as he tried to express his true feelings.

BamBam bent down to pick up an envelope in the trash can where he had left it. It was as Yugyeom thought. If he gets close to BamBam He will be thrown away then.

To BamBam...

I didn't think you'd open it and read it. It may have been discarded before being picked up and read out of curiosity. //BamBam smiled at the corner of his mouth that Yugyeom knew. Kim Yugyeom knows him best.

I'm Kim Yugyeom, your friend. A friend who loves you with all his heart. Thank you very much for coming into my life. Thank you for making someone's life come alive. I knew BamBam would refuse. Thank you for rejecting me. Because if you didn't reject me, it would be more painful. The pain of not being able to stay to take care of the person you love. It hurts that I had to make Bambam suffer because of me.

I'm sorry for making you think too much and be confused. This friend had the opportunity to write a letter for you for the first time. and the last time I don't know when BamBam will open it and read it. If we have a chance to meet again I may not remember Bambam anymore. Because the doctor told me.......I have a brain tumor... It's just a brain tumor, right?

A sentence that made Bambam's hands tremble. Clear tears automatically began to flow from his round eyes. He never knew that his closest friend had the disease.

Bambam, don't worry about me or feel guilty. Physical pain makes me feel better. Everything about us will fade away with me. I don't have much time left. Ah, I forgot to tell you. I'm not going to continue studying. Just go find a comfortable home. Spend the rest of your life

Today what I intend to say is "I love BamBam very much." My only and last person.

Kim Yugyeom

BamBam wiped away the tears that overflowed. A hand picks up a coat that hangs loosely. next to the wardrobe He only knew that he had to find Yugyeom. Look for the heart that he abandoned

Mark could only secretly look at his lover. Walk out to the kitchen. He pretended to close his eyes while BamBam tried to twist the door latch as lightly as possible. He could only sigh and let his little feet slip away. then walked away Leaving only the scent that clung to every nook and cranny of his body. BamBam's scent still lingers and spreads everywhere on this love bed.

When BamBam left the room Mark understands everything. I've always understood. But I didn't expect it to be this fast. His mouth began to tremble, his teeth clenched tightly, his brows furrowed together. He tried his hardest not to let any tears fall. But tears suddenly seeped out and covered the sweet pink post-it that Mark picked up to read. Clear water overflowed his eyes, hiding the letters until they were blurry.

'Brother Mark. I'm sorry about everything Now I know I know my heart. I'm sorry.'

From the first time we met Mark may start from scratch. Mark's feelings for Bambam grew more and more, from zero to one, two, three... it multiplied. until it's full It never diminishes. Probably different from what BamBam had for Mark starting at a hundred. and currently there is only zero remaining But no matter how much Bam still has Mark left in his heart or whether he still remains in his eyes or not. Mark is always ready to start over with Bambam.

I must bring you back, Kim Yugyeom.

BamBam walks limply. Half running, half walking around the airport. My heart begs to meet Yugyeom. The person who takes care of Bambam from afar. The person who understands Bambam the most The person who cheers BamBam in every situation. The person who always supports Bambam and the person who carelessly throws away his pure heart.

He already knows why. Why has there never been love for Kim Yugyeom? It was because he had always received and never lacked the love that Kim Yugyeom gave. Yugyeom is there to fulfill it. Until the recipient gets used to it and overlooks it. Today he knows why his heart withered.

“Kim Yugyeom!” BamBam shouted to the person standing less than a meter in front of him. His weak body ran to embrace Yugyeom. Small arms hugged the tall man tightly. It was as if the person in front of him would dissipate into thin air.

Yugyeom stood still and didn't say anything. Besides sobbing and crying His pink lips began to tremble, his nose reddened, tears flowing when he realized that the person in front of him was really BamBam who was holding him, someone who had never even hugged him before. Today it seems like everything was just a dream. Kim Yugyeom's Dream

"You once told me that no matter what, You won't leave me."

“I have to tell the truth. I'm sorry I left the letter behind. I'm afraid that one day I'll disappear. Bambam will be angry that I didn't tell the truth."

“You tell me it's a joke. All of that is just a lie.”

"I'm sorry"..... "I'm sorry."

BamBam stretched out a slender finger to cover the trembling chubby mouth. “You don't have to say anything. From now on, I will be the one taking care of you.”

Yugyeom's teardrops fell down his cheeks. He could only blame himself. That always causes Bambam chaos and embarrassment.

"I would like to..."

Bambam used both thin hands to grab the tall man's thick neck and press a kiss to the chubby lips that were still trembling. Sucking slowly and smoothly. Yugyeom could only stand and tense. He answered those lips with joy and his heart fluttered. His small thumb gently spread the teardrops on his left and right cheeks.

"Bambam"

"Ah..oh."

"Can you smile for me?"

Kim Yugyeom's single heart lit up with a familiar smile. He was satisfied.

"I love you too, Kim Yugyeom."

Even if this Kim Yugyeom died the second he heard this sentence, it would have been worth it.

It's really worth it.

BamBam will be my only one forever and ever.

1 year later

It's Valentine's Day when everyone holds a bouquet of flowers. Chocolate or other special gifts It didn't make people like BamBam tremble or feel jealous at all. If today Kim Yugyeom were around

Five strong fingers intertwined with the small fingers of BamBam Mark Tuan, who has never lost his love. He is also the only one who is hurting to see the truth of it all. Mark tried to suppress his feelings and supported BamBam's heartless body. He always believed that he was the one who could heal. and ready to stay by BamBam's side forever

Mark squeezed his finger for BamBam to continue walking until he arrived....

Kim Yugyeom's grave

It was decorated with beautiful flowers. BamBam placed the chocolate shake that Yugyeom liked to drink in front of the grave. Clear water began to flow out. "Yugyeom, I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Kim Yugyeom. Did you hear that?!" Phaha..haha"

Mark pulled his small body around and wrapped him in both arms. A strong hand supported his head so that it was close to his warm chest. The cold February wind made the couple's hearts even colder. It's like there's only numbness left.

“Yugyeom, you don't have to worry. I will keep the promise you made before writing that letter. From now on, I will take care of your BamBam. Don't worry about people this way. Thank you for trusting me. Thank you for taking care of BamBam so well."

Mark tightened his fingers. Hold a small person so that he or she can stand even though they are exhausted. BamBam could only tremble under Mark's warm chest.

If love comes with pain then it's worth experiencing -

MarkBamYug-

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