[FanFic : K.A.R.D : BM x J.seph]

By Hong.sk

I forgot how we used to get along so well...forgot how happy we were together...forget everything. forget it all All I remember is regret...and suffering...the time when our hearts were pounding hard and gradually getting louder.

...I completely forgot about it...

Thank you for the beautiful theme from

O W E N TM.

[J.seph]

I looked at the tall figure dancing in the practice room. His unique height and personality can make anyone recognize him in just a split second. Sweat poured out and covered his muscular body.

I continued to look at him like that...until the final beat ended and he stopped moving.

Small eyes flickered to look at me outside the practice room before smiling as if in greeting. Instead, he smiled weakly as I looked at him with blank eyes and turned my head to greet Somin and Jiwoo, the other two sitting in the practice room.

I opened the door with a smile on my face. Greeting the two youngsters who were sitting together before sitting down in front of them and looking for something to talk about with them.

Somin smiled and laughed at my stupid joke. Ji-woo, on the other hand, had a bored expression on her face, glancing upwards before sighing in amusement, wondering what the hell I was playing.

I leave it to Matthew...or what everyone calls him, BMW. I let him stand there. Didn't even pay attention to him even when he sat next to him and tried to play with him.

I really don't want to get involved with Matthew...but I have to because Jiwoo's eyes are looking at me like she's finding fault with me...it makes me feel a little worried that she might find out. Which is definitely not good.

...Ji Woo is scaring me...

Until she called me out to talk to her...only one person...

Somin looked after me and asked curiously, to which I just shrugged and pretended to be confused in my own way. As for Matthew...he just followed me and I avoided his eyes and followed Jiwoo instead.

..Don't look at me with those eyes, Matt....please...

"Can I ask you directly, Taehyung?"

Ji Woo spoke in a serious tone. The fact that she called me by my real name showed that she probably wasn't joking. I just raised my eyebrows and made a face as if I couldn't keep up and made a loud sound in my throat. Made her irritated for fun...

“Taehyung hyung, can you please be serious?”

"Oh, I'm serious...is something wrong?"

"Between you and BMW, you guys.."

"It's not something you need to know."

I said softly before smiling slightly. And I felt that my eyes weren't smiling at all. On the contrary, it seemed tiring to talk about this problem...talking about what happened between me and him.

Jiwoo pursed his lips and lowered his eyes as if he was thinking before looking at me again with a slightly dissatisfied expression.

“Why are you like this? Is there anything that we don't tell each other? I want to help you."

...No, Jiwoo...you can't help me...

"You can vent it out a bit. Don't keep it to yourself like this."

...It wouldn't be good for me to say it...

"We're worried about you. Me, Somin...BM hyung too."

...No...He's not worried about you. Jiwoo...the last person you said...you were wrong...

"Don't just keep quiet."

Ji Woo said in a trembling voice. The small hand holding my right arm gently shook my arm as if urging me to answer her. But all I did was smile at her. It was a smile that I thought was the most pitiful I had ever seen.

I grabbed Jiwoo into a hug and buried my face on her shoulder before my hand slowly slid down from her back to weakly hold her arm...I'm tired...I...feel tired. ..I just feel like I want to rest for a bit.

A small hand stroked my back as if to soothe me. But it wasn't long before I felt the person in my arms slowly push me away before a familiar touch replaced it. It was someone's arms...a faint scent of cologne floated into his nose as a larger body slowly approached from behind.

“Jiwoo...you went in with Somin first. It seems like Joseph doesn't feel well."

"Eh...but..."

“Let the men talk to each other, it would be better. That's why let me talk."

When Matthew said that, Jiwoo nodded his head obediently and walked into the practice room again. It's just me and Matt out here.

I feel that the atmosphere between the two of us is uncomfortable...not good at all...even bad.

I hate him

I hate...whether he's a BMW or Kim Matthew....

I hate him...

"Jiwoo's gone. Let me go."

I spoke sluggishly, like someone who didn't really want to talk much before pushing myself away from the other person. But of course he wouldn't let me go. Instead, he hugged me tighter.

"Why are you acting so distant from me.."

BM spoke softly and rested his head on the back of my neck. His voice sounded quite hurtful...but asked if I cared..no...he's already done enough to me. I absolutely shouldn't have feelings for him again....I thought so...but it seems like he doesn't.

“What makes you like this, Taehyung?”

"Do you still not know what you've done?"

I turned to him with a smile before pushing him away. His completely black eyes were empty and no longer showing any emotion. My attitude was only calm and still.

"Don't look at me with those eyes..."

"Then why can't I look? These are my eyes."

"Just leave me alone, Matt."

My hand clenched into a fist and it slipped into the pocket of my dark jeans before I lowered my head. He pressed his tongue against his cheek a bit before deciding to speak.

"And don't come near me...don't bother me if it's not necessary."

"this..."

"I don't want to go back again."

I said that before walking past him to return to the practice room. But it's not that easy. He grabbed the hem of my oversized sweater like he was holding it back.

“Stop pushing me out of your life, Taehyung. I gave you all my body...all my heart...I gave it all to you, but you treat me like this?”

He kept his voice low, as if he was dissatisfied, until I could feel it. I turned my head to look at him slightly before taking off my sweater and leaving him holding it as I walked out.

"Since you can give it to me You must take it back as well.”

I heard his tongue click. Of course he became angry. I know very well...all his actions I know very well...

Why?

Simple things...he and I used to be lovers, that's all.

We used to have good memories together. Used to smile, used to laugh, used to be happy But that was before he started having feelings for one of the two people I consider to be our sisters... I won't tell you which one.

But for sure...even though his feelings for her are slight, But that was enough to destroy us.

...It's that simple...

And I probably wouldn't be stupid enough to go back again and hurt myself again... I don't want to go back again... I've hurt him just enough.

“Just go back and act like we first met. We were friends on the first day Matt...that's all."

"Act like we've never been together. It's just that."

"Act like we just met."

END