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Feeling used

But I'm

Still missing you

And I can't

See the end of this

"Congratulations."

"Um, thank you."

Just wanna feel your kiss

Against my lips

"Sorry for calling you out on a day like this."

The owner of the low voice that I had always heard in my memory stood up and bowed his head in apology, to which I just shook my head and said that it was okay.

"So you don't have class today so you can come see me?"

"Today I only study in the morning."

Sweet eyes staring at the vanilla latte glass in front of you that the other person ordered for you. It's also impressive that three years have passed and the person in front of us still remembers what we liked.

"Then what happened to Yongguk hyung that made me come out?"

And now all this time

Is passing by

But I still can't seem to tell you why

It hurts me every time I see you

Realize how much I need you

Three months have passed since the day Yongguk hyung met with me with a request.

After that day, we met often, not because of coincidence, but because of the desire of the owner of the low voice that was now moaning my name.

The feeling of guilt didn't help me reject the man in front of me.

"It's been three years since we broke up."

"Yes, you were the one who broke up with me."

"Hahaha, you're so cruel to say that."

"Is there something I can help you with? You don't have to be subtle."

Slender, beautiful hands lifted my face before kissing me without haste. In the past three months, the number of times we've kissed has been more than when we were dating.

"You mean let me be your emotional support?"

"I'm sorry for making such a selfish request, but I already agreed with my lover. That we won't have anything until we get married but I... "

"You can buy services here. Or masturbate."

"I think so too, but you'll definitely misunderstand me if you buy it. I don't want to—"

"Yes, I agree. I will do as you ask."

My answer at that time shocked Yongguk hyung a little.

And I don't regret my choice. Even though I know it's not the right thing to do.

“Ugh.. hyung— Yongguk hyung..”

But I can't deny that I also want the person in front of me.

Deep down, I still hope.

I still want this person's body and heart.

I hate you I love you

I hate that I love you

Slender fingers caressed my back and sharp teeth lightly bit my neck.

Our rhythms change every time we meet.

Each stroke depends on the level of desire.

Yongguk's wish

towards his lover

Thin lips pulled away from the kiss, our foreheads pressed together. His slender hand still held my face and we both closed our eyes.

"Two more weeks.. ' A low voice said softly.

I removed my face from Ryo's hands and hugged Yongguk hyung.

The two of us hugged each other as if this would be the last time we did. Our naked bodies close together were now warmer than ever before.

If there is someone who can hurt me until it hurts to the point of death in this life.

That person would probably be me.

" ..I'm getting married."

Don't want to, but I can't put

Nobody else above you

I hate you I love you

I hate that I want you

You want her, you need her

And I'll never be her

Three days after that day, I received Yongguk hyung's wedding invitation card.

When the wedding day arrives Everything looks bright and beautiful.

Both Yongguk hyung and hyung's bride

"Congratulations, Brother Yongguk."

I feel happy from my heart to see both of them happy.

is beautiful It's appropriate that I couldn't bring myself to intervene.

"Um, thank you, Daehyun."

We both made eye contact and smiled at each other.

We didn't say anything more than this.

Right now is the time when I'm the happiest.

I hate myself with all my heart for never stopping loving you.

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And then I felt like I was in awe. Haha. Thank you for coming to read.

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