Love and infatuation are similar things, for example. When we walk in a crowd of many people And there was a handsome young man walking past each other at that very second. Passion will show. Until when we walked in and talked to that young man, a little thing called love. It will gradually show up. The two things called love and infatuation follow the same path but cannot be predetermined to occur.

It's like I'm so fascinated by the happiness that comes from being loved that you could even call it an addiction. However, I still can't escape the word slut.

“Well...I've secretly liked you for a long time. Please date me.”

Behind the school building filled with tall trees, far from the view of others. It's a very boring place for me. If I'm not mistaken, this month is... the third person. Never mind, I don't dislike this guy either, and he's really handsome.

Keep quiet and act embarrassed. Averting your eyes from his face, he raised both hands to hold his heart. Act like you're being told you love us for the first time.

“And..and what is the answer?”

After seeing my attitude, I began to have more courage. Why do you like women like this?

“Wha..would it be good for me? I'm full of bad news if we get together.”

You have to drag out your words to make yourself look pitiful. Make him want to protect us.

“I don't care about those rumors. I've always dreamed of you. Every time I see you my love increases. The more I secretly look from afar I want you by my side even more because of that. Please date me.”

Oh, I must have read the novel. I seem to remember what it's from. But, wouldn't it be better to just give the answer? Or should I ask for time to think about it first...but at this time, we can just do it like this.

“Can you give me time until this evening?”

I'd like to take some time off. I have to deal with other matters first.

"Alright, I'll wait."

Smiling, smiling and this expression waiting for an answer. Every time I see it, I can't help but smile.

“Then let's meet here this evening after school.”

"Alright, I'll wait."

It's gone. You'll probably be very happy. What's that doctor's name? Never mind, you can ask in the evening.

I've lived like this since middle school and have been with 49 guys. Including this person, everyone I date has one goal. It's my body, and of course I'm willing to give it to them, maybe not everyone I give it to. But things like that are fun too, you could call it a kind of happiness.

"Oi, what's the deal? Are we dating?"

Roommates who are involved in everything we do, ask us about various things and tell other people about them.

It's a two-headed bird, but it's not that strange to meet a friend like this.

"I haven't given him an answer yet."

“Why do you have to think about it? Looks good and studies well. He is also the student vice president. Everyone wants one.”

Is it that much? So what's the deal? Can it even be boasted about? I really don't understand the mentality of a high school student.

"I'll give him the answer this evening. Will you come back with me?"

"Is it good? But I'm afraid I'll be the same as the two of you."

It's really a big deal, even though I really want to know about us until I'm trembling.

"It's okay. I didn't think much of it anyway."

I don't think of anything anymore.

"Alright, then let's quit school and go together."

"um"

After that we started taking afternoon lessons. The subject taught is Society, where students are called upon to stand up and answer questions as usual. And I was called upon to answer questions that, of course, could easily be answered. My classmates clapped their hands and I smiled naturally. After answering the questions

"Teacher, I feel a headache coming on. I'd like to go to the infirmary."

“Is something a big deal? Do you want your friend to take you?”

"nevermind Please excuse me.”

The voices of my friends in the room rang out softly as I took only four steps out of the room, both sounding worried. And the voice said I skipped school. But whatever it is, it's not an issue, I don't care. I excused myself because I was bored with Social Studies. Where should I go next?

There was a sound of the phone vibrating from his pocket. Messages from social media

"Come over, please. I just saw you walking out of the classroom in the school building over there."

Should I reply? But looking at us from this distance, do you agree? That guy studies in the building across from us...after all, he's free too.

“Did you secretly watch me all this time?”

“Well, she's fascinating.”

"Using pretty words won't help anything. You just want me."

"...You too, right? This kind of thing is a happiness for both sides."

“And where are you now?”

"Let's meet in the basement storage room. How about this time? There aren't any people around."

This guy probably thinks I'm easy. If we reply now, this guy will get a big heart.

“Here, do you agree?”

“Hey, hey, what do you say?”

"Don't be quiet, I'm worried."

Please answer.

"I'm going, but there won't be anything."

“Okay, I won't do anything, I just want to meet you.”

Again, how many times have we read this kind of message? In the end, it ended up being the same. All men are the same.

When we arrived at the storage room that had been arranged, he was already standing in the room. After I closed the door This guy rushed towards us and hugged us fiercely. The two people's faces were very close. Breathing air that could easily be felt, lips began to come closer. until unable to escape So the kiss happened. If it was a love kiss, it would be happy. But this isn't it.

If we want to be happier, it must be more. Our tongues touched each other. There is a sound of liquids in the mouth colliding. What's even more enticing than kissing is doing it like this. Even though we ourselves had actually done this before, we couldn't stop ourselves from being so happy. The deeper his tongue thrusts in, the more I can't think of anything. The hands that were hugged at first

Move to the bottom from shoulder to shoulder.

"What do you say you won't do?"

“Sorry, I really couldn't restrain myself. She's so cute."

“What about condoms?”

“There's no need to use something like that the last time we used it. I think it takes away a lot of the touch.”

His hand slowly went under her skirt, it was a really fun moment.

“If you don't have a condom, it's strictly forbidden.”

"Fine, but you have to give it to me."

In the end, we have nothing in common. But there was nothing preventing us from leaving the storage room and walking our separate ways without saying anything. It's probably normal for people who do this often. We are really bad. But so be it.

It's time for the next lesson. Let's go to the bathroom first.

We returned to our regular classrooms and continued studying as if nothing had happened. There was a little chatting with friends about skipping class.

Study time will be very fast if it is a subject that you like and now you are no longer studying. As we arranged

“Aoi, are you going yet?”

"Um, go. I don't want to keep him waiting too long."

I probably don't have to put on any makeup.

The two of us walked until we almost reached our destination and my friend said, I'll secretly watch from afar. Because I don't want to get close. But I actually know the man I'm going for. It's the person she secretly likes. What should I do?

“Then wait.”

"...um"

How do you feel now? Your friends are hurting you. If I go and tell the guy that we're not dating, will she be happy? But in a mutual way The person you like will suffer. But if we say yes to her seeing the person we like happy Will she be happy or not? I really want to know. What will she do?

“Keep an eye on me.”

I told my waiting friend with words that sounded like they could be hidden if she had the courage and the courage. She would grab me right away. But if she doesn't, then she'll just have to stand and watch her defeat, unable to do anything about it.

Walking away and saying something that stings, you still remain silent. Blame it on your own weakness.

"dear friend"

In the end I said yes to this guy. As we kissed in front of my friend. Of course, the next day we invited each other to watch a movie. Before closing the date by going to the hotel, everything ended like last time. Last time it wasn't this guy.

Can I change myself? It's hard. If you think there's someone who can change me I probably found it a long time ago because of what I'm doing here. is to find love in my own way