It's a short novel that I wrote for a friend (who is also a novel enthusiast) as a birthday present.

Love without desire

...hurt

That's what I'm feeling right now. The feeling of pain throughout my entire body made me almost unbearable... But the pain that felt like my heart was being squeezed was much more painful.

The source of my pain was standing looking at me inhumanly. There was not even the slightest trace of guilt on that handsome face.

Ah... Why does this little heart feel so much pain that it's almost unbearable?

“Didn't I tell you not to mess with Rose!”

The soft voice that was always gentle to me At this time, he shouted so badly that it cut my eardrum.

Why? “Was it my fault to mess with that girl just because I did it for him?

“You have no right to do this to me!”

I still shouted back without giving up. Slender legs tried hard to get up without falling. My slender hand touched my head before I was stopped again.

...This is blood. Did my head explode like that?” I'm sure it was because I was pushed and hit my head on the edge of the table just now.

I glanced over and saw a look of shock and guilt on his face for an instant. before it disappeared as if he had never felt anything before.

That's right... What else do I expect a heartless demon like him to feel?

Just thinking about this, my eyes began to feel hot. I could hardly hold back the tears from falling pathetically in front of his face.

“Anyway... Hurry and go treat the wound on her head first.”

L said in a softer tone than before. He walked over and wanted to grab my wrist.

“Don't mess with me! Well, since today's matter will accuse me of doing something wrong, I will accept it. And I'm telling you right now that since I was in the wrong I will be the one to walk away and will never have anything to do with you again!”

I never thought that someone like me would one day exist. Someone like 'Linda' that many close friends nicknamed her. The 'Undefeated Queen' who didn't know the word losing had to lose to this man in front of her! The man I have loved the most from my heart since childhood. The person who had promised me that in the future he would take me as his bride.

Heh... this is the way a man breathes. I never thought he could be like this. I really misjudged him.

“La... Linda.”

L said in a soft voice. Coupled with a shocked expression that he had never seen before in his life. I myself have different feelings. When I realized something was running down my smooth face, Warm tears flowed from his large eyes like a broken dam.

It's been over ten years now that I haven't cried... Today, I shed tears just because of one man...

It's so pitiful...

I managed to gently wipe away the tears. Walking past him, he walked out the door.

“Wait!”

L said hurriedly, grabbing my smooth white wrist... I'm so glad that just now I was swinging the arm with the watch in front of me so he couldn't catch it. With this much force, if you touch it, you'll probably break my watch.

"Let go of me, Pisit. We have nothing to deal with anymore."

Our 18 year relationship ended when a woman named 'Rose' walked in between us.

I could see how much he liked that girl. The eyes that had been given to me have all belonged to Rose since she walked into my life. In turn, our relationship became more and more estranged. He treated me even more coldly, like we'd never met...

I really don't understand what I did wrong...

“Don't talk too nicely! It's not because of you. Now she had to be in this situation! Even when she pushed Rose into the pool and almost lost her life. Even when she pretended to leave the gas on at Rose's dorm. Even when she planned to get her drunk on rosé and hire someone to rape her!

Isn't all of this your work?!”

He's gone crazy! Pushed into a pool, “turned on the gas,” drugged and then hired someone to rape her, “Where have I ever done something like this?!”

“Up to now, I still insist on my previous words. That I've never done something like that even once. Whether you believe it or not I confirm that I am innocent! I have enough dignity not to do such a degrading thing!”

“Ever since that woman came into my life. You act as if I am a murder suspect. Please tell me what I did wrong.”

“You never listened to a single word of my explanation. You only listened to one side of her story and decided that I was at fault. May I ask where is the justice?”

“Although I have always done everything for you. Even if the whole world turns their backs on you, I want to be the only one who stands by your side. I've always trusted you. But now you don't trust me because of those slanderous words! I really want to know if there is ever a word of trust in your heart for me.”

The more I spoke, the more I cried. In the same way, L's expression was shocked again, as if he couldn't believe it.

“Even though I used to believe that even if no one believed my slanderous words, But at least it's not you, haha. But it seems like I'm thinking of this alone."

I forced a smile through my tears. and seized the opportunity for his hand to loosen its strength and flicked his wrist until it was free from his grasp.

“As soon as I stepped out of this room Please assume that we have never known each other..."

I spoke as my slender legs took turns walking towards the door. My slender hand gripped the doorknob firmly. The physical and mental pain that I have endured today cannot be vented to the room owner. At least it would be good to vent with the room doorknob.

“Thank you for the good feelings throughout 18 years and the bad feelings since that woman came in the middle of our relationship. Thank you for your disbelief. Thank you for showing me your cool attitude. Thank you for always treating me like I'm a piece of trash.

Thank you for the love that I only thought about myself. Thank you, thank you..."

I turned my head to look at Jia again with a smile on my face. His eyes filled with various emotions stared at me in awe. But there was no indication that he would hold me back at all...

...It's time for us to make up our minds.

That was all I could think before I turned the doorknob.

Clack clack

Eh... Why doesn't it spin?

“Sir Staff, the doorknob won't turn.”

I said in a slightly disappointed tone before turning to look at the director on the side of the room.

“Cut!! Staff, go look at the doorknob. Okay, let's take a break. This scene, you did a great job. It went through in just one take.”

The director said, smiling softly at both of us. Before both of our managers walked out carrying water Carrying a towel

Eh “Haven't you told me that we're both actors? And just now he was performing a scene in a famous drama. 'Love without desire' is here.

Playing a strong woman in a time of weakness was very challenging for me. Because it completely goes against my personality. But I think I did it well to a certain extent.

“Uh... Late, are you free this evening?” “I just got two movie tickets.”

This tall, slender young man named 'Wit' is the drama hero who has the best chemistry with me. Until they were made the greatest couple of the century. But everyone was not disappointed when after that I decided to agree to date him and they became a couple both off-screen and on-screen.

“What occasion is this?”

I just pretended to ask. But as soon as he finished speaking, he looked at me with very disappointed eyes.

“You really don't remember this?”

Wit said, lowering his hand holding two movie tickets. His eyes looked so sad that I couldn't help but feel a little guilty.

“Just kidding, why can't Lai remember Wit's birthday? Come on! Happy birthday.”

I said with a smile. while showing off the small gift box he had hidden behind him. It made his face look much better than before. before being shocked when he saw what was inside that blue box

“For now, let's put on the engagement ring. Just wait to change it into a wedding ring.”

I said, picking up a silver engraved ring.

V&P 

It was elegantly placed on the left ring finger of the young man in front of him. who was blushing like a gourd

"Whoa~ The princess of the channel went and asked the man for her engagement."

The voice of the staff member who knew each other so well that he was teasing was loud. Before there were many others joining the group as well

“Oh, not easy, little sister. I feel like I'm going to be quiet. Take the man and go eat.”

“Too bad, she. My boyfriend is handsome too.”

I just smiled at each person's words. Before the thin hand was tightened tightly by a warm palm...

“They say people with warm hands are flirtatious... Confess, where did you have an affair?!!”

“Hey! Please take it easy. It's only been a minute since we got engaged."

“This girl must have been a widow before she got married…”

It's really finished.

Phruek's first short story has finally been released. As for the novel in this episode, it's an episode that Pruek wrote for a female friend who is also a novel enthusiast as a birthday present (this one was secretly uploaded, haha), so the names of the characters were slightly changed. Because at first the names of Phruek and friends were used instead. If there are any scenes with strange names that have been leaked, please let me know.

For those who are confused about the content The content of this episode is the drama performance of two actors named "Wit" and "Plai" who acted as "L" and "Linda" in the drama scene of the drama called "Love without desire"

For the content of "Love without desire" does not exist before or after this. The novel is now a single chapter. (The main reason is laziness) For those who hope for a long story of "Love without desire"...well, hope is so faint...

With love

Phruek