Wait For ... 

Seokmin   x   Seungkwan

[#seokboo]

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Don't use time as a tool to break another person's trust. Don't waste your time waiting for someone you don't appreciate. Don't use time as an excuse for leaving. Don't let time go to waste because of carelessness.

One person spends so much time having fun that he forgets the person waiting.

Another person spends so much time waiting that he forgets to take care of himself.

A fic to pass the time while waiting for the writer to write a long fic. You can criticize each other no matter what.

“……There are many people in the world who are happy because of love. There are many people in the world who have suffered greatly because of love. But how many people are willing to endure it because of love?

Love is a beautiful thing But at the same time, it is something that makes us suffer. Like a double-edged knife Some people love so much that they won't let go. Some people love so little that they don't care. Some people love it enough but are still bored. Many people often blame love for being good or not, but you know what? Love isn't wrong. It's our fault that we don't use the word love ourselves."

Applause echoed throughout the auditorium. After the little talker summed it up beautifully. Seungkwan walked off the stage with his usual smile on his face. He greeted the people around him who walked up to him after the debate. Some asked to take pictures. Some asked for an autograph. Some walked and teased. But he's used to it.

'Meet the readers'

Seungkwan silently reread the job title in his mind before smiling. It's his own work. A job that gives opportunities to people who like his writing. I came to listen to him talk about aspects of love that have not yet been written down in any book. Seungkwan is both a speaker and a writer. He often writes stories in his articles. Some stories are written. Some things are true.

Until he got to where he is today, it wasn't easy. Each passing day was full of obstacles. But he made it through with the help of those around him.

“Brother, is what you said today true?” A familiar face of a fifteen-year-old boy walked up and asked. She has been following and reading Seungkwan's stories since no one knew him. Until we had a chance to talk via email. You can say that you are a fan of his books.

“It's true that some things are the same.”

“If it's all true. It must be very sad. My face when I said that was so sweet. Anyway, I'm looking forward to reading it.” A small bit of encouragement was conveyed by the smile on his face. Seungkwan smiled in response before recalling the other's words. How can you not let me in? Well, it's true..

And then the day the book was published arrived. As expected The book sold out so quickly that a second and third printing had to be ordered.

'Wait for time..'

Some people wait for the time to love..

Some people wait for time to quit..

Until that time Can you please make me happy first? Then I'll be the one to go myself..

He sat quietly reading the blurb of his new book. before letting out a sigh

“If you knew that all of this is really my feeling. Will you feel anything?”

The more I look, the more I miss it. A good boyfriend who disappeared from sight for a week. I can understand that he is boring. But acting like he doesn't exist like this isn't right. It's not that Seungkwan doesn't know where his girlfriend has gone. But he chose not to pursue it himself. If you follow it, you must see a painful picture. He would rather just keep his eyes and ears closed like this forever.

The scent of expensive perfume floated to his nose as he touched his soft cheeks. Seungkwan turned his head to look at the newcomer before raising his hand to hug the other person tightly.

“Where have you been? Do you know that I miss you?”

“Working, I have a lot of work these days.” Seokmin rested his head on his soft lap. before rubbing his face back and forth around his thighs

“So much work that you don't have time to call?”

“Oh, I'm sorry, Seungkwan.”

“So..”

“I want you to lie on my lap for a while. I didn't sleep at all last night. I'm so sleepy.” Seokmin wrapped his arms around her small waist loosely. before burying his face in his little belly Seungkwan let the other sleep as requested. Hands caressing soft hair. until he felt the other person's steady breathing So he left his hand and placed it on the other person's face instead. along with leaning back

Knowing that this is a lie But what can he do? When he already loves this person

A pair of beautiful eyes closed tiredly. The corners of his mouth lifted into a self-pitying smile. Knowing that his good girlfriend is a flirt like a gentleman. But he still hoped that this person would stop at him.

“If real life could be written I will write it so that you love only me, Seokmin hyung.”

Seungkwan blinked his eyes away from sleepiness. How long had he been asleep? He bent down to look for the person on his lap who he thought was sleeping. But his lap was empty. It was as if another person hadn't been here. Or will he think about it himself? The sound of running water came from the bathroom. Seungkwan breathed a sigh of relief. I thought it would be like the previous times.

I woke up and didn't see anyone. He quietly walked to the front of the bathroom. But the bathroom door opened first.

"So, are we awake?"

"Oh, I'm awake. Why didn't you wake me up?"

“I saw you sleeping with saliva dripping on your face so I didn't dare wake you up, haha.” The first laugh that hadn't been heard in weeks sounded out. The little heart swelled as if it had gained additional strength.

“Where is the saliva? Not at all!” Seungkwan Yu raised his head. before being pulled into a hug

“Oh, you're just kidding. I thought I was going to wake up when I finished taking a shower. But we just woke up.”

“Get out, I'm all wet.” Seungkwan writhed in ceremony before looking up at the person in front of him with a displeased expression.

“If you move like this, it's probably going to come off. It's already wet. Let's take a shower together." Seokmin smiled before carrying the other person inside.

"Don't do anything to me!"

“Um, I won't do it. Let's do it tonight.”

“Seokmin hyung!!”

“Come sit here and let me dry your hair.” Seokmin slapped his hand on the empty space next to him.

“Why are you so kind today?” Seungkwan asked, walking over and sitting down. He let the other party dry his hair as he said. How long has it been? That he didn't feel good like this.

“We haven't seen each other for a long time. Is it wrong to want to please my girlfriend? Hmmm.”

Fod~

Seokmin leaned forward and kissed his white cheek. Before the other party turned around and lightly slapped him on the shoulder to relieve his embarrassment.

"crazy people"

“We're crazy too.”

“Where the hell am I?”

"That's why I came to love a crazy person like you."

“Oh my, Seokmin hyung.”

The two of them teased each other back and forth like lovers don't often do. The sounds of the two of them laughing in unison. Help make Seungkwan's feelings that were shattered complete. But it didn't last as long as hoped..

The sun is about to set on the horizon. Today the couple spent the whole day together. Until Seungkwan thought it was a dream Memories of our new love have surfaced. Thinking back, I feel happy. Seungkwan sat and looked at the chef in front of him before smiling.

“What are you smiling at?”

"Nothing. Just thinking that today I am happier than every day in the past, that's all."

“So, were you not happy every day that passed?”

“How can I be happy? Since you're not here, you're my happiness, Seokmin hyung.” And you're my sorrow as well. Of course, the last sentence Seungkwan only said in his heart.

Seokmin placed his hand from the pot in front of him. before walking straight to where he was sitting His hand lifted up and placed on the small's head before shaking it around.

“In the future, will you find time to be with us more often?”

“Don't waste your work time. I don't want to cause any trouble for you.” Seungkwan looked up and looked into his eyes before giving him a small smile.

"Where's the waste of time? For you, I can lose everything but you."

“So, can I ask you something?”

"Okay, what do you want to ask?"

“Yoon Jeonghan, Hong Jisoo, Lee Jihoon, Kwon Soonyoung, Jeon Wonwoo, Seo Myungho, who are these people? Why do you have to sleep with these people?” Seungkwan finally forced himself to ask. It wasn't like he didn't know that these were the partners that Seokmin secretly slept with. However, he also wanted to hear from the other party's mouth that he had not misunderstood.

“Seungkwan, where did we get these names?”

“I'm not stupid. Please answer me, why did you sleep with them?” Seungkwan shook the other's arm back and forth with tears in his eyes.

"I'm sorry." A man has made a mistake and must admit it. Seokmin knelt down and bowed his head in remorse. Even though I don't want to make the other party sad. But it probably won't fix anything. This isn't the first time Seungkwan has asked him like this. In the past, the person in front of him knew that he had been lying all along. But I still had to believe his lies. Guilt of right and wrong flows together in my chest.

The sobbing started to get louder. My heart is like being crushed in the middle of a sea of ​​tears.

"I can't be angry at you."

“Then let me ask you a few more things.”

Seokmin nodded in response before opening his arms to welcome the thin body that came in for a hug.

“Do you still love me?” His pretty face rested on his broad shoulder. The force of the hug from the other party became tighter until it was uncomfortable.

“I love you.”

“Then why are you doing this?”

There was no answer from the person asked. There was only the sound of crying and apologizing to him from the other side from time to time. Saying you don't love him will hurt even less.

“Are you going to break up?” A breakup word that was thrown out from a heart that was used to it. It's true that Seungkwan loves the person in front of him very much. But because the person in front of him hurt him a lot as well.

“We probably knew this all along. But we still believe your lies. I'm sorry.”

“Please answer me directly. Do we break up?”

"I don't want to lose you. I'm sorry. It was my fault."

“Then why are you doing this? Why are you doing this?!” A small hand grabbed the other's shoulders and shook them back and forth.

“I love you very much. That's why I'm willing to tolerate my brothers hurting each other's feelings like this. But I have endured you many times. I'm still doing it. Do you see what's wrong with me? You did this to the person you said you loved, Lee Seokmin!” The exhaustion of my heart that had accumulated for a long time began to show. Both hands dropped to the side of the body. before moving down to sit on the floor

Tears dripped down all over his lap until it was soaked. Tears flowed out without any chance of stopping the mouth that was trying to hold back the sobs, shaking until they couldn't control it.

“Our words of love may not be translated correctly. My love is hurt. But my love is trust. I'm tired. I don't want to know anything like this again."

Seokmin, whose tears had begun to dry up, looked at the person in front of him crying hysterically. This time was truly too much for his little girlfriend. He was a bad person for doing this to someone who trusted him.

“Choose that you will make me suffer because you are gone. Or make me suffer because you slept with someone else.”

The smell of burning smoke wafted into his nose. The pot on the stove was full of black burnt marks. The fire was spreading furiously in that pot. The two looked at each other before quickly helping each other before the fire spread to the gas stove.

“Let our story end like this pot.” The burnt pot was thrown into a large garbage bag. Seokmin looked at the pot for a moment before nodding in understanding.

“I understand. I'm sorry that you made us have to put up with people like you, Seungkwan.”

“No need to apologize. I choose to tolerate it myself. Thank you for being with me all day today. I'm very happy. But there probably won't be any more tomorrow.” Seungkwan forced out a small smile to the person in front of him. Until now, he still loves this person. But maybe it's time for him to stop hurting himself..

“Please stay like this for a while.”

Seungkwan was pulled into an embrace. He himself hugged the other person tightly. This will probably be the last hug between us..

Seokmin buried his face on his small head, feeling just as tired. He wanted to keep this feeling for as long as he could remember. In my heart I blamed myself non-stop. He tightened his hold before pulling away. The thick hand slowly scooped up the small hand and held it before meeting the other's eyes.

“Seokmin hyung. I want you to read it.” Seungkwan took out one of his hands and reached out to pick up his own book that was lying nearby and handed it to Seokmin. He took it and flipped the cover over to look at it. The cover image is a picture of one of the watches in new condition. But the other side was broken. The book's title 'Wait for Time' was inserted in place of the two clock hands.

He carefully looked at the outside details of the book, not understanding what the other party wanted to convey. before stumbling upon the back cover with a blurb written on it

'Wait for time..'

Some people wait for the time to love..

Some people wait for time to quit..

Until that time Can you please make me happy first? Then I'll be the one to go...

You must have been waiting for this moment for a long time, Seungkwan.

Now he understood the meaning the other party wanted to convey. He gave a forced smile to the person in front of him and sent his hand to rub the smaller man's head before saying the last sentence to the other person.

Seungkwan also resisted. After Seokmin spoke to him, he turned and walked away. The strength that had been withstood had collapsed. The small body collapsed and sat on the ground, exhausted.

“I'm sorry for everything that happened in the past. I hope we find someone better than you, Seungkwan.”

THE END?