His Affection

Chapter 1

“Go far, Ten.” I stopped, but still smiled as if nothing had happened.

I looked at Doyoung who was laughing. He didn't think anything of what he said. In fact, those words I heard from his mouth often. We're probably close to the point where we can say things without thinking too much. But I don't see him talking like this to other people. I don't see that while he has to pretend to distance himself from me by not really wanting to touch me, he can hug someone's neck or hold someone else's hand without being embarrassed. I don't know when I started getting annoyed with those actions of him.

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“Ten, come here,” Doyoung's voice called out as I just opened the refrigerator, poured water into a glass and drank it on a day when the whole dorm was just the two of us and everyone else was out on business.

I followed his orders easily, placed the glass of water on the table next to the sofa, and sat down on the floor next to Doyoung, who was stretched out and reading a book. He looked at my face and placed the book on his chest. Gently pulling my upper arm before kissing me on the mouth. I complied without resistance. In fact, this was not the first time. He and I have been doing more than just kissing for a long time.

He pulled my arm closer before slipping his hand into my sweater. His cold hand slowly trailed down my back as I began to thrust my tongue into his mouth. I loved him so much. Love. Passionate, without knowing what the other person thinks. He probably likes that I let him do something like this. But other feelings arose from his attitude. I thought it only happened to me.

Doyoung lifted me up so that I could lie on top of him before we continued to fuck like that. If anyone had returned to the dorm earlier than the two of us had planned, they would have been shocked to open the door and see something like this. But Doyoung wouldn't let that happen. He wouldn't have dared to kiss me, lift up my shirt, and almost crush me with his hand in the middle of the living room like this if anyone else was there, even though I really wanted the whole world to know that we were both very close. How big?

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Lipstick Prince

A program that I knew he had filmed but didn't know when it would air until one morning when I saw Jaehyun sitting at the dining room table watching a rerun with Taeyong Jaehyun who saw me just waking up and walking out. The room beckoned for everyone to come and have a look.

“You look so determined,” Taeyong commented admiringly as Doyoung was applying eyeliner to a female star. “You look like a very warm man.”

Jaehyun laughed and seemed more amused by the sight than his fellow group members at this angle.

While the two of them seemed to be having fun while sitting and watching, my hands trembled even more. I watched as Doyoung gently touched the faces of the models on the show with his hands. I accidentally clenched my jaw and got up and walked into the room. water before swearing obscene words in the middle of the dining table

That evening, I didn't eat dinner and counted the seconds waiting for him to come back from outside filming. Jaehyun tried three times to invite me, who was watching TV on the couch, to come eat fried chicken with him and Taeyong. Ordered, I declined with a smile and said I wasn't hungry yet. Jaehyun furrowed his brows. He probably thought I was hungry because I hadn't eaten anything since morning and kept walking in and out of my bedroom and living room.

In the older children's dormitory Jaehyun and I are roommates, Taeyong hyung and Johnny hyung. Hansol hyung and Doyoung got a small single room because of a lottery that I'm telling you. I think Jaehyun knew that I was behaving strangely. From the way he looked at me, it showed that he knew. Every time I come back from Doyoung's room Jaehyun, who is usually still lying on the bed reading a book, would give me blank stares. The smell of sex must have permeated the air. I think I actually wanted Jaehyun to ask out loud. I would have answered that

Yes, Doyoung and I secretly have sex almost every night, so I can explain that Doyoung looking so warm like in the crazy make-up show doesn't really exist. Jaehyun did the right thing by laughing. The women who gave those ecstatic glances would get it. Stop doing that. Sometimes I want to vent my jealous frustration. I feel like I'm pitying myself for acting like the stupid high school boyfriend that Doyoung never said he loved or liked. Or even notify me of my status.

With someone like him, I wouldn't be surprised if I asked and he would answer that I'm just a bandmate even though we do a lot of things that friends don't. Since I already know the answer, I won't ask. To lose your temper

Doyoung opened the door with a slightly weary expression on his face. I turned to look at him, who greeted everyone as he took off his shoes.

“Doyoung, come eat fried chicken. I ordered a lot,” Taeyong shouted.

“Okay, let me take a shower first.” Doyoung walked over and looked at the fried chicken that was all over the table before taking his things and putting them away in his room.

I followed and ignored Jaehyun who was silently watching.

I closed the door

“Ten, what's the matter?” Doyoung asked me, who also walked into his room. Doyoung took off his jacket and laid it on the chair and sat down on the bed before turning to look at me. “Come on, you look like you have something. Aren't you going to ask? I'm tired and I want to take a shower too."

"Nothing, just thinking about it," I said bluntly.

Doyoung just laughed.

“I'm going to take a shower.”

“The show I was filming was fun. With makeup on.” Doyoung, who was opening the closet, turned to look at me again.

“Who do you like?” I asked, tilting my head.

He frowned.

“What the hell are you asking?”

“Then answer me, Seohyun or Bora?”

“Ten, stop,” Doyoung said in a low voice, “I'm going to take a shower.”

“Doyoung has never said anything nice to me. Do you see what's wrong with Ten?

The only time you would be nice to me is only whenyou’re asking me to f uck? Really?”

"I didn't understand what I was saying. I said I was going to take a shower."

“You understand English so don’t pretend that you didn’tknow what I mean”

Doyoung rolled his eyes.

“I have feelings for you and don’t pretend that youdon’t know it too”

Doyoung sighed. "Let's not talk about this today, okay? I'm going to take a shower."

“I open my legs for you and only you even if Jaehyunseems like he wants it so bad too. But I choose to do itwith only you, you should know that…”

"Whatever you want to do, do it Ten."

Doyoung said before opening the door to go take a shower as he wanted without me having finished speaking.

I stood there clenching my teeth. Everyone will think I'm cute. It's easy, but I'm not. Not this time, not with Kim Doyoung.

He should know that my feelings of love, if they are not beautiful, can also be destroyed.

To be continued...

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