Darling, I Know you’re taken

But something ’bout this just feels so right

(Baby I know you're owned

But something about it It feels really good.)

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Darling, I know you’re taken

Something ’bout this. Just don’t feel right

Every time, one of us, tries to leave here

Oh the other one Holds on tight.

(Baby, I know you're owned.

But something about it It's not right at all.

Every time someone tries to leave

The other person will hold on with all his might.)

'Our story It should end once and for all'

'I can't bear to live like this any longer.'

'I don't want to endure it.. You don't have to endure it.'

'You probably won't forget that we're not together, right? And I have my own people.'

If you ask how can everything be like this? You have to go back to that day. It happened on the last day of freshman year. Honestly I can tell you that our story happened because of alcohol. But to be honest again. It's not because of the alcohol. It probably happened anyway.

The party was not very large. Held at a famous liquor store in the area. The shop is decorated with dim orange lights. The shop is now filled with engineering students from almost every year.

“I am Kim Ji Won, president of the second year class. I would like to announce that today, if anyone is not drunk, It's a dog!!!" Jiwon announced loudly. Followed by the cheers of all the engineering students in the shop.

"Oh, I'm out of glass!"

Time has passed and it's almost a new day. The saying that anyone who isn't drunk is a dog doesn't really exist. It's just that everyone who's drunk is a dog. You can see it from Jinhwan, his close friend. He got so drunk that he danced on the table. Or is it Yunhyung, another dear friend who is now speechless? Not counting the president of the 3rd year class, Nam Tae Hyun, who was sitting in the corner of the store vomiting.

“Hey!” Jiwon turned to look at the person who had walked up to him and bumped into him.

"Please..sorry..please.."

Fuck... Nong Han Bin, first year engineering student. I just saw a face up close like this...

"cute"

“What do you say?” Hanbin leaned closer and leaned in to listen.

"I asked if I was drunk or not."

"I'm a complete widow."

I burst out laughing. Look at the person in front of you who says he's not drunk. I want to believe what the person in front of me says. If you don't, you'll fall just by standing. Plus his face was that red. The smell of alcohol that wafted out when he spoke just now.

"Come, help me." I walked over and tightened my body so that I could walk in my arms. to be brought to the table

He walked over, examining the faces of the people next to him. Big, black, sparkling eyes. His face is more cute than handsome. The nose is high and ridged. White and smooth facial skin The raven black hair that is now messy is cute... not including that heart-shaped mouth. Cute.. so cute.

"Nong Han Ben. Don't mess with IGwon. This thing is evil."

"Don't believe it. He was drunk and kept talking,” Jiwon said quietly.

"So you're playing and staring at his younger sibling like he's going to eat that much."

So cute You have to look.

Me, Hanbin, and Yunhyung sat and talked for a while. Before Yunhyung asked to go dance with the 3rd year seniors. Address at another table It gives the reason that 'Well, Little Hanbin doesn't care about you at all. Just looking at Jiwon.' But before getting up and leaving. He walked over and whispered something to Hanbin. If I were to guess, it must be about me.

"Jiwon hyung, are you going to flirt with me?" That's it. Ai Yoon, when he's drunk, he always likes to say that this person likes this person.

But...she's so cute like this. Yoon's friend already made it for me. Just a little bit of oil.

"And if you flirt with me..is that okay?" I said, looking at the person in front of me. But Hanbin avoided his eyes.

“Wow, that's terrible. I already have a boyfriend....but"

"That's really bad," Jiwon answered in a dejected voice.

"But...if...hyung....don't mind...." Hanbin trailed off, speaking slowly. Plus she smiled seductively at him. Ahh, you're so drunk and flirtatious, Kim Han Bin.

"I don't mind. I like you. I don't like my boyfriend at all."

That you can’t do this anymore

But you kiss me again

So go ahead and draw the blinds and,

Lock all the doors

(She told me there was someone waiting for her.

She said she couldn't do this anymore.

But she came and kissed me again.

Go ahead, close the curtains and lock all the doors.)

Ji-won wakes up because his arm hurts. It wasn't because he fell drunk last night or did something prankish. The cause of the pain in his arm was because of the small body that was propped up on his arm. -- Jiwon looked at the clock, which now had the long hand pointing at 9. It wasn't like he was a morning person. But he is more of a person who has to eat breakfast every day.

It wasn't long before Ji-won heard the sound of his own bedroom door opening. The person who opened the bedroom door didn't appear to be fully awake yet.

''Are you awake? Oh, you made it for us.'' Jiwon said as she moved a chair for Hanbin to sit on.

"Thank you, bro. But I'll be back."

"Where are you going in such a hurry?" He started making porridge for me. I won't be able to eat it. With my dear friend Aiyoon He's never made it.

"Well, uh..."

“Say something,” Jiwon said, walking towards Hanbin. Before embracing loosely

"It's about last night," Hanbin said, pulling his hand away.

"I mean... you know I have a boyfriend."

"Is this the case? Don't worry, I won't tell anyone."

"Thank you, brother. Then I'd better get ready."

Hanbin walked out of the room. He looked at the porridge he had intended to make for another person.

''Heh, you can cook it yourself and eat it yourself''

It's good to end like this. He's not a gullible person who wants to end up with someone just because the other person is cute. I like him, but not that much.

Yes, it was my first time with Hanbin. But it's not the last time.

'Uncle Jiwon, who are you with?'

'You're coming with your friends. What about us? Are you coming with your girlfriend?'

'I'm coming with my friend.'

'Oh, we meet again, little Hanbin.'

'How do you go back? I'll send you away'

'Why are you so drunk?'

No matter where you start In the end, we always end up at Jiwon's condo. And every time it ends with these words as well.

''You won't forget that we aren't anything together, right?''

A sentence that the other person always reminds him not to overthink. Hmm.. but unfortunately, feelings aren't something that can be forbidden at all.

Darling, I Know you’re taken

But something ’bout this just feels so right

(Baby I know you're owned

But something about it It feels really good.)

It's strange that it's been 2 years since we've had this secret relationship. We embrace each other, exchange kisses, sleep together, cook breakfast for each other. Do everything like you're lovers. But just no one knows. And the worst thing is that I can't tell anyone.

We don't sleep together because we're drunk anymore.

They weren't together until the morning of the next day. Because of hangover from alcohol

We just slept together until late the next day. Then wake up to go to the kitchen and cook something for each other to eat.

Jiwon liked it all. But he knew all he was getting. There was another person who also received the same, no, even more than him. At least he used the word boyfriend correctly. As for him, it must be this word..

'Far from the word friend But I can't reach the word 'girlfriend'

When they are together in the room That time belonged almost entirely to Jiwon. But not all There are times when another person has to talk on the phone. He therefore needed to be quiet. But the opposite happened if Hanbin walked out of the room. He doesn't have the right to call. I don't have the right to call when I miss you. He could only wait for the other party to call. The chats that Jiwon had never deleted.

But it's different from another person who never kept it.

 If you want me

Like I want you

I won’t judge you

This could be our little secret

Our secret 

(If you want me

Like I need you

I won't mind her.

This will be a secret between us.

Only the two of us know)

'Kimbap, I won't be here next week.'

'Ah, where are you going?'

'Well..'

'forget it'

'Kimbab, today you don't have to wait to eat with me.'

'Do you want to go see this movie? You saw me tell you that you wanted to see it, didn't you?'

'I have already seen this movie.'

'...' with it

'Is Kimbap angry? Hanbin, I'm sorry. Let's go see it together.'

'Ah, let it be' because the story never actually happened. Hanbin would never agree to go out and watch a movie with him. The most we could do is just lie down and watch together in the room. Jiwon knew exactly why. Because he's not another man. He's not that person. Not the real Hanbin

What can he do?

He's just dead. Just a backup It can only be

Every time he acted like he was okay with Han flying out with another person.

Every time the little person buys something, it's a surprise for that person.

Every time he acted like he didn't feel anything. When another person is talking on the phone, you can hear it.

Every time Hanbin laughed with the people in that line.

He's hurt.

He could only live with Hanbin in his own condo. He had never been to Hanbin's condo. Never went out together I've never taken another person to see a movie. We have never been to a good restaurant together. The best way is to just call and order and eat together in the room. A festival where couples must be together. He never gets a yes.

He had to wait for the festival to end. Hanbin will come back to you. Then celebrate together later.

Jiwon knew that the whole feeling was different from the beginning. It went further than it should have. At first, he didn't even think of taking it this seriously. And he knew that Hanbin thought differently of him. Only Hanbin has another person who loves him more. and give more importance..

Who can be blamed for everything? It was that person who came before him. Hanbin who never chooses anyone Or maybe it was Yunhyung's fault who had created this crazy thing in the first place. No, if he was to blame, it would have to be blamed on himself. The selected one will be here. Then slowly allow yourself to fall deeper into it.

Because every time 

One of us, tries to justify the situation

We just hold on tighter

(Because every time

That someone is trying to make it right

The more we hold each other back more than before)

It's already the 3rd year that Jiwon is trying to endure what he has encountered. The feeling started to increase. Both feelings of love and includes feelings of hate as well He hates himself for being like this, for giving in like this, he hates Hanbin for never giving him more importance than this. Hanbin always tells him he loves him. But I never thought of choosing him.

“I've been acting strange lately. Are you bored with me already?"

It's true that after a while I started to change. Being a reserve and wanting to be the real one is really tiring. No matter how much you do your best, how much you give with all your heart, it doesn't mean anything. Jiwon didn't answer. Maybe it's better to just leave it like this. Let everything continue to get worse.

It's probably like being in a dark room where you can't see anything. Waiting for the time when the eyes will see more things. It won't be long. If we feel like it's not our place We'll start looking for a way out. That's what he probably is.

He admits that at first he didn't even care what to call their relationship. He just wants to be with another person, regardless of his status. But in the end, everyone wants clarity.

"I love you," Hanbin said, squeezing his hand.

"I love Hanbin, but.." It's time for him to love himself.

''But it's about us. It should end once and for all.''

''I can't bear to live like this any longer.''

''If you don't want to endure it.. then you don't have to endure it.'' Hanbin shook off the hand that had just reached out to hold him just now.

''Hanbin..''

''It's true, I never told you to be patient with me.'' Hanbin's voice sounded like he was saying, I know very well.

Yes.. Hanbin never told him to endure it. Hanbin is always ready to go. And it wasn't that he had never thought about going. But he's never been able to do it. He tried to tell himself to hate Hanbin. I hate selfish people who don't choose anyone.

But no matter how much he tells himself He still loves Hanbin.

''What are you doing to Hanbin? Do you love me too?” Jiwon grinned. Tears began to fall. He laughed at his own defeat.

''You won't forget that we're not together, right?'' Hanbin said quietly.

''...'' Jiwon pursed her lips tightly to capture her emotions.

"And I already have my own people."

Every time I ask about our relationship Hanbin's answer is always clear.

A small man walked and stopped in front of him. before putting her arms around him again

''But Hanbin loves you, Jiwon unni.''

If that's the answer I get every time I ask about relationships. Every time Hanbin spoke to keep me alive I probably won't miss this word either.

"Are you really going to leave me?"

In the end he lost. He lost to Kim Han Bin. and will never win..

Because the word love is one word.

That makes us still secretly in secret relationships. This abyss has been preserved for up to 3 years.

Even though it's not correct

Because if no one knows then

It ain’t really cheating

(Because if no one knows

So that means we haven't cheated on anyone.)

END ♡

#OS

A backup.

It's our first story. And it's also a fleeting mood. I listen to the song and I fall in. 55555555 I recommend listening to the song while reading.

Really, we want you to understand Jiwon's perspective. Why don't you just stop messing with Hanbin? Or why not let Hanbin choose one person? If Jiwon can do it Hanbin probably already chose Jiwon. It probably won't be complicated until 3 years, right? There really are people like Jiwon who are willing to accept someone like this. Even though they're not in a relationship. But just being together is enough.

And it really does exist, people like Hanbin. It's not that Hanbin doesn't love Jiwon. But Hanbin loves his real girlfriend too. We actually have a plot in our heads. I'd like to tell Hanbin's point of view. But I don't know if I'll get married. Because right now I don't know if anyone will read it or not haha.

P.S. This is our first fic. The language may not be very pretty, but please give your feedback and encouragement.