[OS (OneShot)] Late Autumn

Couple:JunSeob ( Junhyung x Yoseob )

Even though you're gone But you still make me suffer like this.

When did I become so unhappy?

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Dry leaves that range from orange to light brown. To the dark brown one, I walked past and stepped on it until it made a loud noise. I looked down at the fallen leaves as I walked along the path. It was a sign that the seasons were changing. Soon winter would be here again. For me, this winter might be It will be colder than last year...

This might be the first time I've walked along this road alone, lonely and lonely because in the fall of last year I didn't walk alone like this year. But this year, people who have walked Next to me, he's not with me anymore...he's already left me...

I ordered a dark brown scarf with my name on it.”

Yang Yoseob “

A small one is pinned at one end to cover it up when a cool breeze blows past. This scarf was given to me by him. And now I miss him so much...

“I miss you...Yong Jun hyung...”

Junhyung and I walked side by side on a path with almost leafless trees on both sides. A sudden cold wind made me shiver all over. Junhyung looked at me and laughed.

“What are you laughing at?”

He didn't answer, just reached out and grabbed one of my hands and shoved it into the pocket of his jacket along with his own.

“Is it warm yet?”

“Um.”

Even if it's a short conversation But it easily brought smiles from both of us. To be honest, just warming one hand didn't help warm my body. But when he says something, I tend to agree with everything.

I shoved both my hands into the pockets of my jacket and couldn't help but smile. Sometimes I thought that the events back then would seem like a dream when I woke up. Instead, he found that the warmth he had previously received from Junhyung had disappeared, leaving only the coldness of the air around him like now.

..It's a reality that's like a dream...

The warm sunlight shining down on the path I was walking on might make couples feel romantic. It makes the family feel warm, but for me it makes the atmosphere even more sad than before...

Even though you're gone But you still make me suffer like this.

When did I become so unhappy?

I looked up at the vast sky and thought that Junhyung might be somewhere without me knowing...I really want him to be next to me...

Walking further for a while, the smell of fragrant coffee that floated past made me turn around to look at the smell that was floating from the coffee shop on the way. I decided to turn into this coffee shop.

This coffee shop is full of memories as well..

The temperature inside the store was completely different from outside, while outside there was only cold air. Inside, however, it was filled with warmth and fragrant aroma.

I stopped at the counter and looked up at the menu posted on the wall. Even though I already knew what I was going to order, I still looked at the menu...maybe it was a way to relieve my nervousness. I guess it's me...

“Hello...I haven't been here in a long time. Did you come alone today?”

A young employee around my age greeted me politely. I met this employee regularly every time I came to this store with Junhyung. The name tag 'Lee Kikwang' on his shirt made me know his name easily. that he didn't know my name

"...Yes." I answered him only briefly. Because it wouldn't be anything for me to tell him everything. We weren't close to that level.

“What do you want, or is it the same?”

“Do you remember?” I asked him with a smile. I would be shocked if he actually remembered what I had ordered. He didn't have time to say it yet so I ordered, "One hot latte, please."

“Yes, and two more cans of cola...ah, I'm sorry..” When Mr. Kikwang accidentally said it, his expression looked really guilty. How could I be angry? He probably just forgot that This time I came alone.

“It's okay.”

It shows that this employee named Lee Kikwang really remembers me and my menu every time I come with Junhyung. I will send one hot latte to myself and two cans of cola to Junhyung..Junhyung likes to drink cola very much. While sitting and watching me sip coffee, he would also drink cola. Sometimes 2 cans may not be enough for him.

After paying, I walked over and sat at a table in the innermost corner of the restaurant where there were two soft sofas, each sized for one person, placed across from each other. As soon as I sat here, I was reminded even more of the past. Maybe I walked around so much that I was dizzy and saw the image of Junhyung sitting across from me like he did that day...

“You're like caffeine.” Junhyung's words left me confused and unable to interpret the meaning.

“What does that mean?”

“Just thinking about the name Yang Yoseob. I miss it to the point where I can't sleep and it makes my heart race too.”

Even though it may sound greasy But my heart is beating fast It was very strong because of the coffee he was drinking or because of Junhyung's sentence, I'm not sure...

“Yong Jun hyung...you're the one who's like caffeine. I miss you like crazy..” I quietly murmured to myself and couldn't help but sigh out my tears. It seems to flow out but it doesn't. It's only in the background.

...I don't want to cry anymore...

“Coffee has arrived.” The employee's voice made me jump slightly but I turned to take the coffee from him.

Mr. Kikwang still stopped looking at me after I took the coffee and I looked back at him as well. He seemed to say something but hesitated until finally speaking.

"I'll pretend I didn't see or hear you, don't worry." Mr. Kikwang smiled at me in a friendly way and quickly walked away, as if he'd seen and heard me just now when I was complaining and said that when he saw the marks. Smiling like that, I felt that he was sincere and that Mr. Kikwang seemed like a nice person.

I just remembered something and turned to look across from me again. The image of Junhyung sitting there had disappeared. There were no traces left at all... Of course, how could he really be sitting here... Such a cruel illusion to me, an illusion that almost made me cry...

After finishing my cup of coffee, I got up from the sofa. I walked all the way to the door and pushed it open before coming out. I heard Mr. Kikwang's voice saying goodbye from behind the counter. I nodded and walked out.

I started walking on the same roadside path again. The cool wind of late autumn blew through my body again and again. My eyes continued to wander along the roadside as before, but it was different. It must have been shops along the side of the road that had started turning on their decorative lights because the sky was getting dark.

After walking for a while, I stopped in front of a clothing store, as if the images from that day replayed again.

Suddenly, Junhyung took me into a clothing store. He grabbed me and tried on me like I was a doll. In the end, what I got was a dark brown scarf that I was wearing. This is it.

“Please pin the name as I wrote it.”

“It's expensive, Junhyung..are you really going to buy it?”

“Really, just wait a moment and it'll be done.”

“Um...then when you're done with this, let me feed you tteokbokki.”

"okay"

To be honest, the exchange I offered him at that time didn't seem quite worth what he gave me, but the money I had with me wasn't much, at least this made me feel a little more at ease. that I had repaid him in some way Then you can pay him back the rest at a later date. At that time I thought so.

But who would have thought...that the day after that there would be no more...

Walking further from the clothing store, you'll soon come across a snack shop, which is a shop converted from a small truck that sells a variety of easy-to-eat snacks. But that day, what I ate with Junhyung was Tteokbokki.

Junhyung nudged me and opened his mouth to receive the tteokbokki from my hand. I used a stick to pick up a piece and held it close to his mouth. When he grabbed it, I pulled my hand back and put it in my own mouth instead. She popped a second piece into her mouth and smiled at him.

“You can eat it yourself..” In the end, Junhyung had to eat it himself because he didn't want to be teased by me a second time.

Why do I feel so happy? I want to know if he's as happy as I am right now. The person being bullied may not like it or not.

I didn't ask anything, I just stared at him silently and of course he knew, Junhyung turned and smiled back at me.

That smile always remains in my memory.

I used to think that I had become much stronger but in the end, those memories...every memory about Junhyung...still came back to attack me again and again, causing my heart to melt. That started out strong then weakened again and that's usually how I think about him.

I want him back...

I don't want him to leave me...

But I should come to terms with the fact that he... will never come back again...

I continued walking along the path ahead, but this time I didn't look around like I had before. Right now I'm walking with my head down and looking at the ground because I'm starting to fear that the more I look on both sides of this walkway, the more I'll see only memories filled with images of myself and Junhyung.

To be honest, I wasn't angry at him for leaving me, but I was angry at myself for not being able to live my life normally because I kept thinking about Junhyung every day.

Even while walking with my head down, my mind was still not in my body. My steps began to slow down until I finally stood still.

I didn't stop walking because I was exhausted, but because the path I had to walk on was blocked by someone. Not just 1 person, but 2 people. I slowly looked up. The image of the person in front of him flashed clearly.

This person is someone I am familiar with, someone I love. He's the person I miss. The person I wanted to meet the most was the person who left me many months ago. A person who is mean to me, a person who is like caffeine to me... this person... Yong Jun hyung...

This time, I'm sure it wasn't an illusion. Next to him was a pretty woman holding his arm...

It was definitely not wrong. Yong Junhyung was standing still and not moving away. I really wanted to shout loudly in his face to make him run away, but in the end I just managed to escape and continue walking along the path in front of me without looking back to see that he was following me. Or not, but it's definitely not..

Why is the path in front of me suddenly blurry like this?

And why are both my cheeks so wet?

I had thought that one day something like this might happen, but when it actually happened, I was unable to accept it in time.

Sometimes I think I'm being selfish. I'd rather let Junhyung die than if I had to see a picture like this just a moment ago. Especially seeing Junhyung looking at me with a face that was completely empty. Any emotion like that makes me even more irritated. But what should I do? I can't forget him..

Even though I hate you like this

But when I think of our time together, I smile.

Maybe I don't want to forget you.

Finally, I reached the end of the walkway and now I was stopped on the side of a large road with cars rushing by. In front of me was a zebra crossing with many people waiting to cross.

I wouldn't do something stupid like run down and hit a car to kill myself. What I'm doing right now is standing still. Even though the crossing light was green, I still didn't move. People around me were walking past each other. They probably thought I was seriously obstructing the walkway, but I stood still.

After roughly wiping the tears from my face, I began to think that maybe I should forget the bad things that had passed and start a new life...would that be good or not...

'Thump'

A taller man than me ran across the road from the opposite direction and crashed into me. The documents and other items that were clipped to his arm fell all over the place.

“I'm sorry, I'm sorry,” he apologized to me over and over again. I also repeatedly told him that it was okay as well. I bent down and helped him collect all the pieces. He thanked me and walked away.

I stood still as usual again.

The pedestrian crossing light turned red so I had to continue waiting in the same spot. After a while, I felt a nudge on one shoulder, causing me to turn around and look at the person who had nudged me, the person who ran into me just now.

“Excuse me, I mean...if I could invite you to be a model for pictures in my column, please, your image looks very suitable for this walkway, so there's compensation. Yes, don't worry.”

"...." Maybe my brain wasn't yet awake enough to process the slowness and couldn't even think of the right words to say, but stood looking at the interlocutor with wide eyes and a question mark that seemed to come out. appear on the face

“Ah..I forgot to introduce myself. I'm a newspaper columnist. My name is Yoon Doojoon.”

...The end of autumn this year was the time when I met the person who hurt me the most. At the same time, the end of autumn this year was the time when I met the person who hurt me the most. It just appeared in my life...

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