Hirai Momoh
“Even though I wanted it so much, why did I get it on a day when I was already a different person..”
Kim Dahyun
"Is she seeing someone else?"
Moring :
What do you have to tell yourself?
I saw it and replied.
12:15 a.m.
Hello, let me introduce myself. My name is Momoh "Hirai Momoh". I'm about to break up with my boyfriend. It's really difficult. How do I tell him? I've been thinking about this for many nights and tonight. That's what I'm going to tell my soon-to-be ex-girlfriend. Telling things that I'm still not sure about, if I told them I would be able to live with them or not.
“Sigh..she must have gone to sleep. It's always been like this. There's never been time for me." I mumbled to myself for a while and fell asleep, not knowing when I fell asleep. All I knew was that I was tired of thinking so much about my boyfriend again.
Ding ding!!!!
The loud blue notification sound from the app rang out throughout the room but it didn't wake some of the bodies from their sleep in the slightest. As time passed, some of the bodies started to feel a little stretched out and looked for Smart. A trusty phone that needs to be checked regularly every morning. But when she saw the message of the person who had kept her up all night thinking, her eyes widened and her heart twitched strangely. I feel unspeakably worried.
..Kim Dahyun..
Ti ding ng ti ding!!! The sound of the alarm clock rang throughout the room. “Damn, is it already morning? I have to go to work again, I'm so lazy." I muttered, my voice muffled in my throat. Well, since the school is closed for the big semester. I have to do extra work every day. Sigh, why am I always sick like Momoh? But eh.."
When did Momoe send me a message?" I hurriedly clicked to look at the message, and it turns out that since the semester break, I haven't talked to Momoh at all. Even though I have to work, when I come home I have to sell things online and read novels. There's hardly any time for us to talk. Moreover, lately Momoh hasn't greeted me at all. Yes
Oh, and I don't have to wonder why we don't call and talk. It's because I'm a momo. I don't like talking on the phone. Last time I called, they talked to me for a while and then just hung up because everyone was quiet and heard. Just the sound of moving. Sigh..
Moring :
What do you have to tell yourself?
I saw it and replied.
12:15 a.m.
dubby :
I saw it.
You can tell me.
6:30 a.m.
Why did Mo say hello to me so late? Is there something wrong? Or..... "Please don't let it be like I think."
...Hirai Momoh
I sat staring at my phone for a long time as I debated how to tell Dahyun. You can say this when you're done with work beforehand, maybe because you're afraid they won't have the courage to work.
moring :
I'll just leave it to myself to do some work first. I'll tell you later.
12.30 p.m.
dubby :
Oh, then that's fine.
12.40 p.m.
I immediately breathed a sigh of relief. "I'm sorry, Dahyun." I sat absently thinking about the future that was about to happen for a long time.
Ding!! There's another message notification sound. "Who greeted me when..." I couldn't finish my words and had to stop while my heart was pounding. It wasn't because I was shy or anything. But I'm afraid Afraid to tell my lover, Dahyun...
moring :
I'll just leave it to myself to do some work first. I'll tell you later.
12.30 p.m.
dubby :
Oh, then that's fine.
12.40 p.m.
"Leave work first.." Or is it really what I thought?
"Oh! I can't stand it and I want to know!" I shouted so loudly that my friends at work all turned their heads to look at me.
I could only give a sheepish smile to my co-workers before I lowered my head and stared at my phone for a while before sending another message back to Momoh.
moring :
I'll just leave it to myself to do some work first. I'll tell you later.
12.30 p.m.
dubby :
Oh, then that's fine.
12.40 p.m.
Let me tell you, I don't have to wait, I'm worried.
moring :
Are you sure yourself?
dubby :
Yes, please tell me.
There's no doubt about it. You're definitely breaking up with me, right, Momo?? ..Ah, already replied.
"Damn..." I moaned as tears suddenly flowed from my eyes. The message in front of me was this.. Even though I had already prepared myself.
moring :
I'll just leave it to myself to do some work first. I'll tell you later.
12.30 p.m.
dubby :
Oh, then that's fine.
12.40 p.m.
Let me tell you, I don't have to wait and I'm worried.
moring :
Are you sure yourself?
dubby :
Yes, please tell me.
moring :
It's better to break up.
dubby :
That's what I said. I have to say this.
It's true, Momoh has changed. At first I wasn't sure, but the other day I brought things to Momoh's house. Momoh, who usually complains when she sees my face and misses her all the time, comes in and begs me for crying out to be a child. But at that time, Momoh walked back in with a blank look and a blank stare. What does that mean? Plus, I wasn't happy at all. Even though I went in first, Momoh didn't even hug me back. Until I pulled him out of the hug, he acted like he was about to hug me back, but wait... Is it too late or not?
moring :
Oh, how do you know?
dubby :
Momoh has changed. You can see it.
moring :
I'm sorry.
Now I ran away to the bathroom for a while and was so embarrassed and cried in front of so many people like that. I don't understand Momoh at all. Even though we didn't fight, why did she break up with me.. Or..
moring :
Oh, how do you know?
dubby :
Momoh has changed. You can see it.
moring :
I'm sorry.
dubby :
Is she seeing someone else?
Heck, until now, you're still you. Haven't you ever thought about anything else? We haven't talked for this long. You probably think I have so many people to talk to that I'm not interested in you. It's really crazy. You really don't know, right? That I didn't say hello earlier because of you. I don't have time for me at all. I know she has to work. I don't know when she's free. When I say hello, she rarely answers, so I think if she's free, just message me and see if we can talk. But no, she showed up to say goodnight and said that she had to go to work tomorrow. I understood, but seriously, I knew that she was going to continue reading the novel, right?
Damn, I really feel bad for you. And it grew more and more every day until I didn't realize when I stopped feeling like I wanted to talk and see you. Then she herself came and said she would bring me something. No matter what, I went out to find her. As she said, she came and hugged me. I was just standing there stunned so I didn't hug her back. I didn't mean to. Like that, but it looks like Dahyun is already angry at me. Sigh.
It's probably because of this that you said I've changed. But I really don't have anyone else, Dahyun..
moring :
Yes, he has someone else. I'm really sorry, Dahyun. He's not good.
...........Dahyun's birthday............
I went out to buy Dahyun's birthday present. But I still don't know what to get. Sigh.
"Auntie, I'd like a chocolate cake." I walked into a famous bakery in my area before telling the owner of the menu I wanted.
"How should I write about it?" Auntie said with a smile. I'm stuck on how to write this. Ah!! It's fine like this.
"It says 'Happy Birthday, little one,'" I said, giving the shop aunt a smile before she handed me the cake.
"Give it to Dahyun's father. Then said that it's better to do business, "I don't want him to see my face. Oh, he's upset."
........Dahyun's house
“Hello, Father. It's Dahyun." (Ah!! If you say you don't want to meet, what are you asking for? I'm bragging. Momo.) Shut your mouth right, yaaas (I'm scared already).
"Aww, I'm Momo, right? Who do you think I am?" Father is still a kind father to me. "Dahyun just left on his own. I'll call him later."
"It's okay, Dad. I left the cake for Dahyun. I have other business to do." I told him respectfully. Besides, Dahyun just left, so he must have something else to do.
"No, no, just come and go sit and wait in the house, Momo. I'll follow Mr. Yeon for you." Father gave an order like this, who would dare to disobey it?
"Yes..Okay." I smiled sheepishly at the person who was said to be Dahyun's father before walking into the house.
I walked over and sat down in the living room before I could think of anything. "Not here," before raising a smile on his lips and getting up to walk out of the living room and head towards a familiar room, and I'm sure Dahyun must know that well. Where am I? Huh!
After hanging up the phone from Dad, I couldn't be happier and rushed home without thinking about anything. Of course, Momoh came to see me. The more Dad told me Momoh was in a hurry, the more I had to go home. Go as fast as you can, I'm in front of the house right now. That's Momoh's car already in the house. I hurried into the house and shouted loudly to Momo. Where's the momo?
Inside the living room, there was only emptiness.. Or... I rushed to my room before opening the door and saw Fire glowed from the chocolate cake that was on the bed.. Momo? So I hurriedly turned on the room light to clearly see Momoh who was holding back laughter next to my closet. So cute, but...!!
"Momo, you stepped on my underwear." Momoh quickly bounced out of there, so I hurried to go and put it away in time. I was so embarrassed. (Dahyun, oh my!)
"Happy birthday, Dahyun," Momo said with a smile on her face but looked tense.
"Blow the cake, what are you waiting for?" I hurriedly did as Momoh said. When I finished blowing the cake, I walked over and rubbed Momo's head diligently. She was very shy. Momoh complained to me a little before walking out of the room with a blank expression. "What is this?"
Momo walked out into the living room and sat down on the sofa quietly with me watching, sending eyes and a smile full of love and longing to another person who didn't even utter a word. Sigh, it was uncomfortable. terribly
Damn Dahyun, how long will he have to sit and stare at my face again? That look that I've been waiting for the whole time we've been together but never got to see it. It's really crazy that I got to see this when we broke up.
"I'll be right back, Dahyun," I break the awkward silence as I say my goodbyes. Dahyun immediately smiled before saying.
"Don't go back yet, let's be together first." Looking wistfully like this isn't going to work.
"See you tomorrow at Songkran, bad!! Finished speaking, he immediately walked out of the house without waiting for an answer.
Oh, it's already late when I get home. I'm going to sleep now. I've been tired all day.... Tomorrow we have to go to the Songkran party again. We have to take a break and get some exercise. Dancers like us can't lose to anyone.
Tight! Tight! Tight! Tight! Tight! Tight! Tight! Tight! Tight! Tight!!! The music at the event started to sound louder and the surrounding area was full of people moving and shaking their hips.
"Momo, you're here. I've been looking for you for a long time." I turned to look at the voice I was familiar with. That's right, Dahyun.
"Let's go dancing over there." I pretended to ask Dahyun like that. Everyone knows that Dahyun doesn't like things like this, but he came today because of me.
Throughout today's event, I was hardly myself. Well, Dahyun just sits and stares at me like that. Oh, this doesn't even include Dahyun showing ownership of me, even though he never did before. Now we've all gone home, but Dahyun made an appointment for me to go with him tomorrow. What are you thinking?
Oh, I'm going crazy. Why did Momo dress like that to go to Songkran? She's so inconsiderate. I sat as a dog guarding the bone the whole time, but she didn't really care about me. That's crazy. So I made an appointment with her and thought I'd talk to her for a bit. Hehe, I'm really excited so I want the appointment time to be quick.
....Famous dessert shop in the neighborhood....
“Momo, this way.” I waved at the woman who was looking for me right now. "Hurry and come, you can keep your face dizzy."
"Is there something wrong? Even though I made an appointment yesterday, I forgot to ask." When I arrived, I immediately asked, "Why can't I just call out something like this?"
"Nothing, just....I miss you," I replied shyly. Well, who wouldn't be embarrassed, right?
Do you miss me? What do you want to convey to me, Dahyun? Plus he's looking at me with those eyes again.
“You..look at me with those eyes that I've been waiting for all the time we've been together. No matter how much I've tried to change myself, I've never been able to see it. That look that you gave me both on my birthday and yesterday, that look that I should have seen when we were dating, but now I've stopped trying to do everything just because I want to see that look when I tried when I wanted to do it. Why don't you do it? I feel bad. You know when what I've always done?
What I've been waiting for all this time was expressed on the day we weren't together anymore.. I won't cry because nothing gets better and I have no more tears to shed for you. I wonder why I say this. You don't even know that it often makes me cry. The words that she may have thought about and said a lot have hurt my feelings all the time. This doesn't include the fact that she's been deaf to other people and refuses to trust me every time she's talked about me in a bad way, just a few things. Cheating is something she likes to talk about often, and the more often she talks, the more often I cry because throughout our relationship, I kept proving to her that I had no one else but her. Always suspicious of me. I'm very sad and disappointed even though I tried and wanted to be a good person in your eyes, but no. The more I proved, the worse she looked at me until I felt discouraged. Isn't that wrong? If I get so discouraged that I start moving away from you more and more, yes, you're right, it's not you who's the one who disappeared, but me who walks away from you, and I don't think I'll be able to come out this far.
So far that I can't remember which way I walked. I stopped proving everything just because no matter what I did, you would never see. I was too tired to continue walking with her until we broke up. I still followed her. As I said, my heart isn't as hard as my mouth. Even though I said I had nothing to do with her, I still wanted to accept it. Knowing her well-being, I found an excuse to see her on her birthday. I also never thought that I would see that smile in my eyes that I had been waiting for all this time again. I really didn't understand even though I had to. It's so oily, why did I get it on a day when I was already someone else..” I said what I was thinking right now and I could feel the heat in my eyes now. There was clear water overflowing, ready to overflow if I blinked my eyes.
“I'm sorry, Momoh. Can we go back to the way we used to be? Let's go back to the way we were before.” Dahyun looked at me with those eyes again. But I'm sorry, Dahyun.
“It's already too late, Dahyun. We're good like this. I don't want to get myself hurt over the same thing again.”
I love you, Dahyun. But it's too late for us.