Sf •Raken 

You’re my rose.

After finishing album promotion

The Closer

Everyone got some rest. But I still continue working on my solo album with my dreams and love for hip-hop music, but…

“Hello hyung, can you come to me? Right now...in the music studio?"

I hung up the phone before staring at the picture on the phone screen that was stuck in the Instagram application. He's really cute. Well, he's the cute main vocalist of our group.

“Wonsik-ah.”

“Have you arrived?”

“I went to eat with Seokjin and bought some snacks. The kind of snacks you like to eat, Wonshik.”

My eyes followed the bag he was carrying. Jaehwan placed it on the table before plopping down on the large sofa that I had just used the money from songwriting royalties to buy. He bent his legs as he usually did before placing a cushion between his legs as if it were a bolster.

“How are you?”

“Not getting anywhere, hyung. I can't think of anything.”

“Do you need any help?”

Jaehwan hyung often stops by to play with me in the music room. Buy snacks and come over to be friends every once in a while. He has a bright smile when I'm next to him, which gives me even more ideas for making music. Sometimes I write songs with him in mind. I don't know, sometimes I feel like I'm going to write that song for him.

He walked over and kneaded the shoulder that was heavy with pressure and stress. The tension gradually decreases and relaxation occurs as the pressure presses along the nerve relaxation points. He massages really well.

“Are you guys ready?”

The staff's voices sounded in the music program preparation room.

XXXX

This made the members and I put down what we were doing and get ready to go on camera for recording. They always have games for us to play. To entertain fans And I thought it was fun.

“I'm ready.”

N-hyung dutifully turned to tell the team. We stood in front of the camera. Even though there were only six people, it looked so tight and full of screen that we had to squeeze together to stand. I accidentally grabbed the person in front of me and hugged him from behind. Jaehwan hyung laughed and still smiled at me. And he was even more delighted when we played games and won macarons as prizes.

“I think this machine is playing a trick on us.”

“Let Ken hyung play.”

Jaehwanie said after we played the lie detector that we were lying. Hong Bin then offered and handed the device to Jae Hwan Hyung. He inserted his finger and placed it in position. His eyes flashed slightly with worry, although he was still smiling. He was afraid. If I had to guess, he was more afraid of hurting his hand.

"Promotion period

Fantasy

There is a girl group that Ken is interested in.”

“I have it!”

Jaehwan shouted confidently. Where do you pay attention to him? I held his neck still. Abfel, hearing that, damn it... suddenly started to feel bad. Even if the other side is a woman? But my slow voice escaped my mouth softer than a whisper. It's more like a prayer.

“It's not true.”

Wow!!

“Ahhhh...”

The lie detector loudly tells him he's lying as he cries out from the pain. That made my heart feel relieved. Feeling in a good mood like that Moreover, Jaehwan pulled until the metal plate came off the machine. Make everyone laugh loudly He turned to the camera and waved cutely and said hello.

“Actually, I would say no, but I'm afraid this machine will say I'm lying…”

"No, you can't lie."

Hong Bin said as Jae Hwan muttered his own guesses. That made the members laugh. But he instead argued in a cute and innocent voice.

"No, we have to eat macarons."

The show ended with us getting Macaron because of the mission completion. The maknae's answer didn't seem very convincing, but okay... I have to admit that we ended the show in an interesting way. Sad at the same time as the leader. Haha. Now the members are getting ready to do other things. My work ended today and we were putting on makeup.

“How are you guys doing?”

"hair?"

Enhyung asked while I was sitting next to him getting my hair done. Hyung asked after I took my eyes off Jaehwan hyung's reflection in the mirror. Sometimes he was aware of it, but sometimes he was unintentionally looking at that tall, slender figure. He always stands out, cheerful and colorful.

“Have you noticed yourself that you keep looking at Jaehwan? In the program just now, I kept hugging that guy.”

“So, what did you notice about me, hyung?”

“Everyone has noticed you, noona.”

The hairstylist sister nodded approvingly at Nhyung's question, which made me laugh a little. I don't know if it was because I was embarrassed or because I had already been caught.

“No matter what, I look at it because Jaehwan hyung is cute. Like a puppy.”

“Oh, so… But I wonder if you're not the only one who thinks that guy is cute.”

Nhyung nodded his head to look at the person who had come to pull Jaehwanhyung out of the dressing room. Friends from different groups and agencies who feel especially close to Jaehwan hyung. He just came in and took the older man's hand outside.

“There are flowers here that are withered and about to die.”

Hyuk, the mischievous maknae, interrupted, causing everyone in the room to burst into laughter. As for me, I could only give him a murderous glare instead. Don't let it get to you, maknae! Hongbin, who was sitting next to him, just laughed and laughed at the mischievous maknae's joke.

“Don't think too much. Those two are friends.”

Leohyung spoke next to me without me noticing when he stood here. His tone sounded a little concerned and worried to me. I'm not anything at all, I'm just…

I don't know, I'm just a little annoyed.

“Wonsik-ah…hyung, can I sleep with you?”

His sweet voice trembled slightly with fear. My eyes moved from the iPad in front of me to look at a thin person wearing a large shirt and shorts that he liked to wear. He used his arms to try and hold his favorite doll. His hands kept covering his ears like that. The sound of thunder outside was loud and the fire suddenly went out.

My vision was completely dark and the older man's frightened cry sounded. Some bodies jumped onto the mattress until the soft mattress collapsed. It defines his position very well.

“Jaehwan hyung?”

“...Wonsik-ah, hehe.”

The older man made a sound that sounded like he was pretending to sob, which made me feel a bit uneasy just for fun. He wasn't actually crying, just making childish noises. Actually, Jaehwanhyung doesn't like the sound of thunder much. This isn't the first time he's slept with me during a storm. But this time all the members weren't in the dorm except me.

Even though N-hyung isn't here, it can still rain. Haha.

“Hyung”

I reached for the spot where I thought he should be. He was scared, his body was shaking like a little puppy. together with the sound of the sky thundering again I pulled the person in front of me into a tight hug, unlike the older man who was startled and almost jumped up and sat on my lap. Even though the person in front of me was much smaller than me, But he sunk into my embrace.

“It's...so scary.”

“Don't be afraid.”

My hand lifted and caressed my soft hair in a comforting way. His sweet voice trembled as much as his body, even though Jaehwanhyung tried to keep it smooth like he wasn't scared at all. A slender hand wrapped around my neck like a baby monkey clinging to its mother. We hugged each other for a long time until the sky calmed down and the power came back on. He left my body.

That's a pity.

“What will those (members) be like?”

“It probably won't be anything. But I'm trembling all over."

“This is scary…”

His sweet face rested on his favorite doll that he had just walked in and hugged. I pulled it out of Jaehwan hyung's arms. Then he threw it away from the older man, sending his eyes to look at the doll that was lying cozily not far away. before turning his eyes to look at me He had a slightly bewildered expression on his face before I tightened my hug and moved my face closer to his and spoke.

Until you could almost hear the breathing of the person in front of you. His high nose almost brushed against my cheek.

"Why? Hug me. I'm jealous and I keep hugging him."

“Huh...what are you jealous of?”

“Jealous of Yi Jaehwan.”

"You crazy…"

He muttered softly. Jaehwan, who was sitting on top of me, had to lie down due to the force of my pushing. Some bodies lay flat on the bed even though they were still in my embrace. Jaehwan hyung pressed himself even more into my embrace. The air was cool enough now that the little man in front of me was trying to find a warm place to hide and rely on when he was scared.

I let my older brother sleep like that even though he was holding the phone in the other hand. He fidgeted for a short while and then fell silent.

“Already asleep?”

I accidentally smiled fondly. She's still cute when she sleeps. He looked comfortable lying here. I pressed my face firmly against his cheek. And don't forget to stop by to say hello to those soft, red lips. He moved away from me in annoyance. Haha, so cute.

I opened my eyes and woke up again and couldn't find the owner of the figure. Jaehwannie must have woken up and gone to work or rehearsed for his musical. I don't know when I fell asleep. His hand reached out to pick up the phone and look at it as usual. Even though it was still early, I adjusted my body and headed to the office. Today, if I don't have a work schedule, I'll probably be involved with music all day.

I stretched out after making almost half of the song.

Rrrrr*Rrrrr

The sound of the phone on the table made me raise my head and I reached out to pick it up and put it to my ear. before filling in his voice without paying attention to who was calling. Because of the exhaustion that was making my shoulders feel heavy.

“Hyung? Me? The music studio… hyung?”

"Me?... I'm here!!"

Slender hands clung to both my shoulders before laughing with delight at teasing me. A firm hand squeezed my shoulder, helping me relax.

“Why don't you eat anything? You're going to be sick, Wonshik-ah.”

“I just forgot.”

Jaehwan hyung stuffed a delicious looking burger into my hand. before moving the chair next to you We sat and ate and talked and exchanged ideas on many topics until we were satisfied. I think I'll continue making music but...

"I can't think of anything. Sigh."

I threw my body down on the sofa. Maybe I'm too stressed? Jaehwanhyung was busy with his phone screen, smiling and laughing happily.. I'm annoyed!

“Jaehwan hyung..”

“Hmm, what? Kick."

He answered me, but his eyes never left the screen in front of him. I got up and walked in before standing and supporting my thin body. He didn't even bother to look up at me. One hand was supported on the back of the sofa and the other was holding Jae Hwan Hyung's chin up to look at my face.

“Hmm, what is it, Ravi?”

I don't have an answer to what he asked. That's because I pressed a soft kiss on your lips. It was deep, it was passionate, of course... That was just what I thought. All I did was pull my body away from him and lay down on the sofa where the thin owner was sitting. Hold on to his lap.

I'm sorry for talking on the phone and not paying any attention to me. When I did that he was able to put it down. But I still closed my eyes gently So tired.... I would like to rest for a few minutes. But before I let myself fall into the depths of sleep A soft hand stroked my hair slowly. It's so gentle that it's enchanting.

“Are you tired, Mr. Ravi?”

“I'm tired. ..”

Jaehwan hyung laughed a few times. That little voice is so cute. I want to own him. Keep it in your bag. Or really keep it at home?

“You worked really hard. Rest, I'm here to stay as a friend."

I don't know how long I slept. Jaehwan is still my friend like he said. Only the owner himself probably fell asleep as well. The owner of the sweet face was dozing until his head was about to hit my face. That made me let out a small chuckle. before lifting himself out of the wide lap Hold that body and lie down on the sofa in a comfortable position. He picked up a blanket that was not far away and covered him with worry.

“Hyung is better at sleeping than me.”

I kissed his forehead without him even realizing it. But I can't blame him, Jaehwan himself has a lot of work to do. Did you get some rest or not? I don't know. Good or bad, he is the one who works harder than me. I feel good every time I see them (members) sleeping without worry.

But sometimes I don't know what he's thinking. I don't know if hyung likes me or not. It's as if everything we do for each other is normal, taking care of each other, paying attention to each other, or even... that I secretly kissed him often

I admit... that I like it enough that I don't have to lie at all.

Accept this with as much confidence as life can ever have. I like Jaehwan hyung. No need to say, does anyone already know? I'm so clear with him. You don't even need words to measure your sincerity from me. I never denied that I liked him. And never act like people don't like each other.

“If a hyung likes me even half as much as I like a hyung, that would be great.”

My hand was placed on the soft hair and I gently stroked it. The owner of the body shifted slightly. I smiled.

"Wonsik-ah"

"Wonshik!"

"Wonsik!"

"yes?"

Because Ravi is interested and immersed in making music. By the time Ken called out and he could turn around and respond, he threw three or four times. Ken pouted a bit at his lack of attention. His sweet face pouted cutely at the person in front of him.

"Are you awake?"

"Um"

"Are you ready to give me an audio guide?"

"okay"

Ken got up and twisted his body around to get rid of the aches and pains that were clinging to his body. Before using the audio guide, he would have to read the song and sing along to Ravi's melody. Ken dropped into another office chair next to Ravi. He handed me a piece of paper with scribbled notes on it.

You're my rose

Even though I'm stabbed by your thorns, I'm willing.

You're my rose

If I possess you I will deal with that wound myself.

Come on, even though you

It's okay to hurt me all day long.

If I could hold you with my hands No matter what, it's okay.

Rose oh rose girl you are my rose

Girl you are my rose

"Oh, I like it."

"I wrote it for someone."

"Hol... Can't that person make you possessive?"

Ravi shook his head at the question. He didn't know what to call it. Ken didn't block it. But I don't know if I'll open up to him or not. The opening melody accompanies Ken. I'm so sorry I'm singing this song. And it sounds pretty good.

"Then hyung, please listen to this..."

"okay"

Plump lips slightly parted.

His eyes sparkled every time he blinked.

like brown crystal

What will other men say? You don't have to care.

Slowly give it to me, give me those seductive glances.

Yes, I want to know you.

But I'm afraid that once I touch her, she'll disappear.

So it can only be done

caress with eyes and coax

Your own arrogant dignity

That space of loneliness

She is suitable to fill in.

When so decided

So I stepped towards her

I'm drawn in

My view narrows

A rose that glows red

I hold you tight and was pierced by her thorns

Even though it must be painful I want to hold you

Ravi looked at Ken as he rapped rhythmically. Just the meaning wouldn't make Ken feel the heat on his face. Ravi looked deep into his eyes with meaning. A thick hand caressed the side of his cheek, framing his face carefully. Touch his skin gently. and moved his face closer before pressing a soft kiss on Ken's lips.

"I love Ken hyung"

"I...I'll be back first."

Shocked.... Ken quickly got up and left the room. Ravi sat with his head down as if he had been rejected indirectly. He's about to be heartbroken.. Ken rejected him? The tall figure couldn't even think straight. He was so busy thinking about Ken that he could hardly continue with his song. That night he was so busy listening to music that he didn't go back to his dorm.

It must have been several days since he hadn't seen Ken. But it was a day of quite a lot of hard work. Even the elder monk did not read and did not answer him.

“This song is good if it's Jaehwan's voice. I think it must be good..."

One of the collaborators said this after I showed them the song. I just want to stay... But can't contact here. He may not want to meet anymore.

"Just coming back to get it now?"

"Work."

As soon as he entered the dorm, Hongbin was the first to greet him. he is going out I wonder if I'm going to work. I walked straight into my own bedroom first. The open door revealed that Hyuk was still inside. But a familiar voice made my feet stop in front of the door.

“Ken hyung, haha, I'm going to work now. You can let go now."

"Oh, so you're going to leave me? Bad kidㅠ ㅠ"

"I'll be right back, okay?"

They hug each other too. That made me feel numb all over. He refused because of this? Ken-hyung and Sang-hyuk? Before there was chaos in my head The maknae of the group also stepped out.

"Are you back yet?"

"Ah.. you guys?"

"I have to hurry to work. So let's talk tonight."

Hyuk took quick steps and ran after Hongbin immediately. He had to film a game show with Monsta X. And besides, he had already dropped a bomb for Ken to recover. It is considered that the work is completed.

After making sure there were no more members in the dorm. Ravi walked in and confronted the people inside. Ken looked a bit shocked to see him. The slender arms holding the doll let it roll down to the ground. Ravi bent down and picked it up before handing it back to Ken. Until he forgot to look at it and realized that the doll was his own.

“If you want to make out, let's do it in your room. This is my bed."

His voice was smooth, clearly showing his anger. A feeling of pain spread throughout his chest. The brain is mixed with only vulgar words. I want to swear in the face of the person in front of me so they know and survive. Jealous to the point of going crazy. So possessive that he wanted to go and lock the door of the room so Ken wouldn't go out. I was so sad that I wanted to cry for him to see.

"Hyung, if you don't like me I said it straight away. Let's not make it unresolved."

“I don't.. I don't know, Wonshik. I'm totally confused."

He furrowed his brow and showed a clearly worried expression. The smile that was before disappeared. It's like some body carries some kind of feeling on its shoulder.

"Then I'll go."

"no!"

A small hand grabbed the hem of Ravi's T-shirt. Until it was stretched and stood like that for several minutes. Silence reigned until the ticking of a clock could be heard. Full mouths pressed together as if holding back the courage to say something.

"I think..."

"I'm going to take a shower. Then come out and we'll talk."

“Unless you leave my room. And after that we won't talk about this again. I'll just pretend and forget about it."

Ravi removed Ken's palm from his shirt. The tall figure took it off and threw it into a basket not far away. A large towel was also grabbed in his hand.

He took a longer shower than usual. In my head I kept thinking about the other person inside. If he goes back and Ken isn't there, he will assume that the elder has really rejected him. He probably didn't expect anything else...

The lotus hatch was closed. A large towel was wrapped around his strong, muscular waist. His tan skin resembled that of someone who played outdoor sports, not too dark and not too white, but it looked good even though it was covered in water droplets. Long-legged walked out of the bathroom with a heavy heart. His bedroom door was closed.

The more I wonder if the elder is still alive or not. The knob was pressed down and the door slowly pushed forward.

A strong hand closed the door gently before locking the door with the latch. He couldn't even believe that Ken was still sitting on his own bed. Ravi took quick steps towards the target who was about to avoid his sight again.

“Because N-hyung thinks we're angry at each other. He asked me to deal with you according to the rules..."

"Don't talk about other people when you're with me, hyung."

Ravi dropped down and sat next to Ken. His slender finger gently touched Ken's lips, who was claiming why he didn't just get up and leave the room. Then there's no need to talk about these things again.

“Hyung already knows that we aren't angry at each other. Don't claim it."

"It's so difficult."

Ken slowly closed his eyes. His hand cupped Ravi's firm hand before sliding it up to his own cheek. Ravi's soft palm was gently pressed against his clear cheek and soft, full lips. Round brown eyes opened to meet his gaze.

"If it was difficult, hyung wouldn't be there waiting for me to come out."

The white nape of his neck was grabbed to receive Ravi's kiss. He pressed his lips against Ken's. Suck gently until it makes a sound. Both of them couldn't even deny that they were tilting their faces to get more intimate contact. Hot tongue tips caressing each other, not far apart in soft lips. Before the two of them slowly pulled away from each other's kiss.

"I love you"

I still confirm the same words. No matter how much it hurts How many more will be rejected? He was the one who made me accept the pain anyway. No matter how many wounds there are, I will accept it because he...

Ken hyung didn't answer, instead he crawled up and straddled me. His soft hands lightly touched the frame of my face. His sweet face moved closer before pressing a soft kiss to my lips.

No words needed Repeated heavy kisses on the lips are telling me He is the one inviting. Alluring to the touch My hand accidentally placed lightly on the hip of the person in front of me.

“Wonshik... Actually, I'm not going to reject you. But it felt shocking."

"Actually, I've liked you. Maybe for a while."

"Really?"

"Uh"

"You make me sad."

"I'm sorry I made you sad."

Ken pressed another kiss on the lips of the man beneath him. Ravi responded knowingly and seemed to take the lead. A moan escaped the main vocal's throat. You don't have to use your vocal cords to sing, but if you change it to sing something else, it's nice to listen to, not teasing.

"I will punish you."

"I haven't done anything wrong."

"That's because you're too cute."

Tonight he allowed Kane to get on top of him for once as a way of appeasing him. And he was in too good of a mood to interrupt the part where Ken was trying to please him. Let some body do things for you without even bothering to ask.

//After finishing the concert

Real1ze

“Wonshik-ah, you took off your shirt again.”

"You like it, don't you?"

"I'd love it if it was just the two of us together."

Ken was frowning after the concert ended and everyone was cleaning up their things. They were sitting in the waiting room. Actually, Hyuk was also present but had gone back earlier. Now he is repaying his karma for taking off his shirt on stage.

“Next time, if it were me, take it off. Are you okay?"

"no!!"

Don't think for a second. I allow myself to undress. But Ken hyung forbids him from taking off even one piece. For him, having no clothes to cover his body is enough just in the shower and in my arms.

"Stop taking it all off, you idiot! And transfer the money to me!”

He shouted loudly and then disappeared. If I had to guess, he'd probably be waiting in the van. I laughed a little. before picking up his bag and mine and following him out. Upgrade status from younger sibling to mixed boyfriend. As for Ken Hyung, he has upgraded from his older brother's skills to being his boyfriend and financial boss ??

But I love you, Jaehwan-ah.

Saungge ♡

THE END.