Caution

This novel is a YA novel.

“Yes, my wife doesn't like to drink alcohol, so she brought it so she could carry it back. I won't be able to go back on my own,” Pheem replied casually, without hesitation, wrapping his arm around my neck. He also turned and raised his eyebrows at me.

“Crazy wife, crazy wife, you stupid wife is already drunk!” I yelled at him and shook his arm away, but it was too heavy to fall off so I had to let him leave it like that.

"It's like this. My wife always likes to be shy." Not yet! It hasn't stopped yet! “Is that right, my lady?” before he pressed his lips once on my cheek and turned to laugh at his senior.

I was stunned for three seconds. After the contact with his lips, my body turned to stone as if I had been cursed and my consciousness was scattered. I turned to look at it, looking for an answer from the incident, but it didn't seem to care about me at all. All I could do now was live with my strange feelings.

Hello~~

Today I come to update a new story. It's a short story that has just been rewritten. I'd like to try reading it. Because we tried to interpret the international songs that we were listening to and use them as the main story line for the story. Try listening to music while reading, it might make you feel more involved. Hehe.

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song

Track #1

Just a friend to you – MeghanTrainor

                Why you gotta hug me likethat every time you see me?

Why do you have to hug me like that every time we meet?

            Why you alwaysmaking me laugh, swear you’re catching feelings.

Why do you have to make me laugh? I swear you feel something.

Hello, my name is 'Frank'.

Right now I'm having serious problems. I know in my heart Anyone in this world knows that they are going to face problems ahead. He will try to find a way to avoid it because of everyone. I really don't like being in trouble.

I am one of them...one of those people who know that the road ahead will definitely cause problems. But what's different from other people is that I walked into problems before I even knew it. Therefore I can't avoid it anymore.

“Dammit Frank.”

My problem is here, it's already gone...

“Dammit,” I took off my headphones before answering.

My friend 'Phim' We've known each other since we first arrived. We study in the same faculty, Faculty of Engineering. Computer branch It came from a famous school in Bangkok and I came from an international school. Coincidentally, we have the same code brother, so we've been close since then until now, which is about to be our third year.

That's my problem.

Everyone knows that having a crush on a close friend is forbidden. It is like the apple of knowledge in the Garden of Eden if anyone wants to taste it. will receive punishment from above

But that's it... I've already committed the same crime as Eve. I plucked the apple of knowledge and tasted it.

I secretly like it.

I can't tell you when it sunk in and I became aware of it...it became a part of my daily life. Both chatting online and eating lunch. Walking everywhere together, watching movies (but mostly with two other friends), things like this, these stories are all things that stimulate my feelings to mutate.

...but I don't know if that side feels the same as me or not.

Actually, I don't know if he likes women or men just by appearance. His personality doesn't suggest that he likes men at all.

Phim is a young man with one eyelid, ivory skin, and is tall and in his mid-eighties. He once said that in high school he was a high school basketball player. He also has braces. He's very handsome, to be honest.

The strange thing is... since one year I haven't seen or been to Waawae. Clinging to any woman...really even if there are women who come to give things to me on occasion. Because it was the month of the faculty, in his first year he was quite famous in the university, but he said that he preferred to live like a normal person.

Right now we're sitting in Starbucks and this bastard made me come out. It says that he's bored at home even though the school term will start in a few days and besides, he himself isn't at home during the school break at all. In IG, he sees posts going out and traveling here and there. Hua Hin soon Now it's Khao Yai, I'm the one who has to stay home lonely, not him.

“It's extremely hot outside. How long have you been waiting?” He sat down opposite me. before grabbing my cappuccino cup and sucking it, "Wow, I'm drinking coffee again."

“Who would eat only green tea and cocoa like you, sir?” I nibbled a bit before snatching the glass back. "Aren't you going to order something for dinner?"

“No, I have this,” he said, holding up a small piece of paper to show.

“Movie tickets?”

“Yesser”

“You damn bastard, you're going to watch a movie and then you're going to ask me to come out and fuck you?” I yelled at this guy. I made an appointment to watch a movie with someone else, so why do I have to wait?

“So I invited you out to watch a movie.” He wiggled his eyebrows at me. “If I tell you first, will you come? Many times already. Every time I invite you to watch, you always find an excuse.”

That's right. The truth is that I've never seen a movie with him alone. If I did, there would have to be someone present and I would definitely not sit near it for the reason of protecting myself from my inner feelings. He invited me to watch many movies, some of which I declined. Accepted but poured it in before the day of viewing.

I really don't dare watch it. I'm afraid I'll accidentally do something subconsciously. Then everything will fall apart.

I don't want to lose it now...

...Really don't want it to last forever.

“Then why don't you invite more friends to watch? Wow,” I said angrily. What the hell? How do I escape?

“Well, I'm going to invite you first. And then you're really free. Just having you alone is enough, right?”

Fuck...

tuk tak tuk tak

“Why, what will happen if you watch it with me?” He stared at my face and wanted an answer. “Here, I'll take care of you. I really want to see this.”

He uses his eyes to pleading with me. Can a person like me endure this? I want to curse him to death. But he could only surrender. There's no justice at all.

Listen to me, Bhim, if I don't have feelings for you like that. You can take me to see as many movies as you want.

“Alright!” I sighed and shook my head, but the person in front of me was very happy.

“Movie time at 1:30 p.m. right now…” He looked down at his watch. “Noon is another hour. Let's go find something to have fun with. I haven't eaten anything since morning. Have you eaten anything yet?”

“Still, just one coffee and one muffin.”

"Very good, friend. I'll let you choose the shop as you wish, my friend." He said and got up. I put the things in my bag before getting up and following him.

As I walked out of the store, he opened the door and waited for me with a good-natured smile. I scowled at him before walking through the door. I heard a soft laugh coming from it.

Before I knew it...a heavy arm was placed on my shoulder. I turned to him in shock. But Bheem shrugged his shoulders nonchalantly and continued walking. Now in my head there was chaos. On the one hand, I feel so good about its touch, the smell of its usual perfume always destroys my consciousness. On the other, it is the wall I built to prevent pain. I shouldn't let my heart go deeper than this.

This is more than enough discomfort and guilt if it turns out that I think of you as more than a friend. The person who must feel sad is probably not the only one.

...and I don't want it to hurt because of me.

But I couldn't decide whether I should let it go or push it away to prevent the pain.

“What's wrong with you?” ...It's like he knows there's something strange about me.

“You bastard buffalo, aren't you ashamed of all the people watching?” I scolded but still didn't defend myself.

"What's the embarrassment? Can't friends hug each other?"

"And does he know that you and I are friends? When he sees this, he thinks the same way."

"Never mind him. Whatever we become is our business. All he can think about is what does he care about?" I turned to look at him without understanding but didn't say anything further. “...Or so you think?”

“No…” The self-defense mechanism worked automatically against the denial, even though it was awkward.

“You think too much.” He laughed at that and even put his hand on my head. Damn it, you're my friend, right?

"Ugh, my head's all messed up."

"What? Just a little bit. It's like you're going to stare at a girl."

“Your father!”

I tried not to focus on the heavy arm resting on my shoulder. Letting my feet walk silently down the sidewalk, I brought the two of us to a Japanese restaurant.

“Is this the shop?” After we stopped walking in front of the shop Ai Phim spoke up and I could only nod before walking into the shop and being led to a table by an employee.

In my hand is a menu. My eyes swept back and forth, my subconscious said that I wanted to eat Japanese food, but I still couldn't think of anything to eat. I really wanted to eat sashimi. But at this time, my financial liquidity was broken. I really couldn't pay for the salmon. I could only endure it and not eat for now.

“Give me grilled pork on a hot griddle and a glass of cold green tea.” I ordered first and closed the menu before picking up my phone to check in on where I was and who I was with.

"I'll have beef curry rice and iced green tea," the employee responded. As for Phim, he turned to look at me and asked. “You don't eat salmon?”

“Since when have you noticed me? -_-;;”

"I see that every time you eat at this restaurant, it's always salmon. I've been your friend for two years, Frank."

It's true. Normally, two of my friends like to eat Japanese food at this restaurant. In their free time, they come to this restaurant as regulars. After watching the movie, what did you buy?

“No, Gushot.”

“Then I'll take care of you myself.” It wasn't until I could protest. It took the order first. “I'll take the salmon sashimi first.”

“Bheem!” I shouted. The waiter looked at me and Bheem in turn, hesitating whether I should order to go to the kitchen or not.

“That's it,” he confirmed and smiled at the employee. I could only look at his face, not understanding what was happening right now. Was it a ghost? The employee repeated the order before walking away.

“Did a ghost enter you?” I asked immediately after the employee walked out. “Suddenly, I was treating him normally, I had never seen him treat me. What do you want?”

“No,” his voice trailed off, “It's just...I don't know. You came to be my friend while watching a movie. Just now you looked like a jerk. It's like you're angry."

"I'm not angry..." My voice was soft, I didn't know what my expression was showing. Honestly, I'm just nervous about what it's doing. "I'm not angry at you in the slightest."

“If you have anything, you can talk to me. If you're not happy about something, why don't you? You are my only close friend. I don't want to be upset with you.”

I mean, right now, I have a grievance with you. If I tell you. Will you still be friends with me?

“I don't have anything, I'm just a little surprised and…” I don't know how to explain the reason why he's staring so seriously at me. The brain stopped working even more. "...Maybe I'm getting a little sleep."

"Normally, you're a hygienist, aren't you? You're already asleep at 10:30 p.m. Why are you suddenly sleeping late?" He wiggled his eyebrows in annoyance.

"I'm addicted to series" for stupid reasons

It was funny. I stopped paying attention to the person in front of me and grabbed my phone to play instead before Bhim got too distracted in my head.

“Frank,” Bhim called my name again.

"that?"

“This semester, can I sleep in the dormitory with you?”

To clarify about the dormitory...actually my house is quite far from the university. At first, my mother bought me a car to drive back and forth every evening, so I did it for about a month and a half. Traffic on the way home became more and more impaired because of road improvements. So I told my mother that I would rather stay in the dormitory. Bad luck hit the university dormitory and it was full.

The only remaining options are dormitories and condos. And the condo option can be completely eliminated. This university area is very expensive. Moreover, this area is close to the BTS and the room rates are even higher. If I were to buy it, I would have to sell my liver and kidneys to buy it, so I chose to stay in the dormitory, but my mother told me to go take a survey and choose it.

Get the most comfortable one, don't worry about the price. Because at least it's cheaper than a condo. Definitely one room. After getting the room, I lived there alone because two friends (girls) were in the dormitory and Bhim went home. At first it was scary. I'm not quite used to being alone, but after a while

Once he's adjusted, Peem likes to come and sit often. But he never slept over. Because there is a car...end of clarification

In my head, I thought my mind was divided into two factions again. I want it to stay, but I'm afraid I'll think too far ahead of myself because proximity always causes unexpected things to happen. But if I refuse, will it seem a little too cruel? It is. A 'friend', another thing if it's a 'friend', coming together. It wasn't anything strange, I was the only one who didn't think so.

“Why?”

"My parents have to work abroad. I don't want to stay home alone. It's not used to it."

“So you came to live with me?”

“At least I have you as a friend before bed…” He pursed his lips, playing thoughtfully. "But if it's not convenient for you, it doesn't matter. I'll probably get used to it in a little bit."

Oh, what should I do? I'm sorry.

“If you're coming, come and I'll be fine.” I lied. I wasn't as comfortable as I said. “But it only has one bed. You might have to sleep on the floor. Bring some sheets too.”

“Why can't I sleep in the same bed as you? Your bed is quite big.” He raised his eyebrows and looked suspicious.

"cannot!"

“Oh, you're afraid you'll lose your virginity to me?” He smiled slyly, so I smacked her arm once.

“Your father!”

"Ouch! Don't be afraid, friend. Even if someone says 'Friends are fun.' If you don't agree, I won't do it." He said it in a joking manner and also laughed happily. Personally, my face felt hot and I couldn't stop myself from raising my middle finger to scold him. Please, please. Don't face red.

T_T

"Please allow me to serve food." Good luck. The staff came to serve the food just in time. Please help distract me from my face. I almost died.

Each person's food was served and Bhim quickly broke his chopsticks and ate them immediately. As for me, I don't. It's a special occasion like this, so let me take some photos. I held up the camera and took a photo of my food. The top edge was framed so that only the shirt was visible. (I don't know what brand it is, but it's very expensive.) And the hand that was scooping here and there before pressing the shutter.

Ah, all right, I posted the picture on my secret IG with the caption...

                ‘Awkward and Dilemma’ (

I feel weird and can't make up my mind.)

Then slowly pick up the chopsticks and break them. Eat food in front of you In my head, I thought about the future, what would happen if Phim moved into the same dormitory? How should I act? How to protect yourself from falling further than this would be very difficult, but it would probably be something happy amidst the discomfort.

“Here,” Bhim's voice broke my reverie. In front of him was a piece of salmon hanging from chopsticks. “Eat it.”

“What? You can eat it yourself. I know how to use chopsticks.”

“I don't want you to treat me to sashimi. That means you have to be the one to open it,” he said, gently moving the salmon in his chopsticks, urging me to eat it. “Hurry up, the dipping sauce is all gone, and it won't taste good.”

I sighed as I couldn't argue with it before I opened my mouth and ate the whole thing. The coolness of the fish that I like spreads across the tongue. The sweet smell of salmon lulls the mind into a state of happiness and...

Oh-my-god!!!

A strange sensation spread along his tongue before heat surged through his mouth before coming out of his nose.

“Just!” I coughed hard. Both hands grabbed a glass of water to quench the spiciness of the wasabi. The person in front of me laughed loudly, "You damn bastard! You bastard!"

Oh, tears flowed from my ears. Now it's still not spicy at all. I suspect it's a very large chunk of wasabi.

T_T

He laughed, but he grabbed a tissue and gently wiped away the tears that were falling down my cheeks. My heart was pumping blood abnormally. Besides the heat in my mouth, it had spread to my face. Oh my god! I don't know how to feel about this situation at all.

“Would you like me to get some water first?” He handed me a glass of green tea as if he saw that I hadn't stopped coughing yet. Besides that, it also doesn't stop laughing.

Still coughing, I quickly reached out and grabbed a glass of green tea and immediately poured it into my mouth. Everything slowly disappeared. It got better after the spiciness gradually faded away. I could still feel the liquid flowing from my eyes and the tears still wouldn't stop. Damn it.

“Come here,” my voice trailed off as I was catching my breath. A long hand reached out to my face with a piece of tissue to wipe away the tears on my face. My eyes widened in shock. My heart was pumping at a higher pressure than my limit. I couldn't stand it any longer.

I don't want to think about anything more than this, right now it's too much to resist. I really wanted to blurt out the feelings inside. If it doesn't happen that the consequences will be too severe to bear, I will tell you immediately. It's so uncomfortable.

I regained consciousness and found a moment to grab the tissue from his hand.

“I...I wiped it myself. I have hands.” I (pretended) scolded. “You're being sarcastic. I won't be able to go see the movie in time.”

“Dad, you're such a fierce father.”

I wiped my face casually before paying attention to the food in front of me and not wanting to raise my head to focus on it again. Because right now every touch is still there, every one received.

I don't even want to think about how much I'll drift off into the world if I stay with me for one term.

T_T

“What number are we sitting in?”

                “F11 12”

He and I walked into the theater. Darkness and cold greeted us as we climbed the stairs. I ran my eyes along the side of the chair that had letters on it. Ai Peem chooses a row.

F

Ah... found it. Luckily, when I looked, there was no one sitting there even though The trailer screen had been showing for a while.

I turned on my phone's flashlight and looked at the numbers on the chairs to find our seat. Bhim chose the middle. It's great to be able to see the movie clearly.

After finding the reserved spot, I plopped down on the chair, pushed down the armrests and made myself as comfortable as possible. For a moment, I turned to look at the person next to me, Bhim, who was stuffing popcorn into his mouth without stopping while his eyes were staring at his face. screen in suspense

I feel strange because As I've said before I've never come to watch a movie with someone next to me. One-on-one before, it wasn't uncomfortable, but it was strange. I can't tell you. Watching movies alone isn't my friend's thing...but it's not always what I think. If we were really friends

It's not strange, but in my case...I don't know. Maybe it's because I myself am a person who thinks far away, so I might be beside myself. If Bhim didn't think of me It's just looking for friends to watch the movie you want to watch, like they say, but I can't stop feeling it. Who can stop their own feelings?

If I can do it...I will do it as quickly as possible.

As I was staring blankly at it, it suddenly turned to look at me. Our eyes met unexpectedly. I quickly turned around and looked at the screen, trying to keep my face as normal as possible.

“Why are you looking at me?” he asked.

What the fuck, Frank...

"Nothing..." I trailed off. Delaying time to think of reasons to justify "...I just want to eat popcorn."

“Then why don't you call me -_-”

“Well, I saw you thrusting hard. How can I find the right moment to insert it? You really enjoyed it.”

“You're secretly looking at me.” He raised his eyebrows firmly.

Oh, I'm secretly looking at you -_-

“You shut up and scream,” I said, grabbing a handful of popcorn and immediately stuffing it into his mouth to make him quiet.

He tried to defend but couldn't do anything because if he let go of the popcorn bucket he would starve for the rest of the story. Bhim had only the chance to surrender and cry out muffledly for help from the emptiness. I'm laughing. His face is very funny. Its cheeks puffed out like a monkey holding a banana in its cheeks. It turned to look at me with green eyes accusingly and spoke in an alien language that only it could understand. I responded by just wagging my eyebrows in annoyance like it did. Fortunately, the screen showed everyone standing up to pay their respects before the next royal anthem sounded, so my war ended.

The royal anthem ended and we sat. A few more commercials before the movie starts showing. Pictures slowly appear as if entering the movie. I think it's starting to have a dull atmosphere. The atmosphere is dull and strange.

“What are we looking at? You never told me.” I turned to whisper to the person next to me.

“Just take a look and you'll find out,” it whispered. It looked back at the screen to gather information to find out what it was.

Every second the movie plays Information began to pop up in my head and put together until it finally became an answer...

"You damn bastard! Why did you bring me here to see a ghost movie?!!!" I yelled in a low voice but the mood didn't fade with the sound. It's so infuriating. Even though he knew that I was a timid person, he came to see me.

The Conjuring 2

“Come on, it's not scary. He reviewed it and said it was really fun.”

“Have fun at your house, I won't have fun too. Just watching the trailer at home during the day and at night I can't sleep. And this time let me come see it in the theater!!!”

“I'm here if you're scared. You can cover it with my hand,” he said calmly before lifting the armrest that was separating us. "Oh, this will be convenient."

I ran out of words to say to him. My eyes almost fell out of their sockets. “You bastard, I'm going out.”

“Come on, don't waste your money on cheap tickets. Stay and watch with me first.” It used a pleading tone again.

“Who sent you to watch a ghost movie?!”

“I want to see it,” he purred.

“I understand why no one came to watch with you.”

“If you understand, just stay and watch with me first.” He took my arm and hugged it pleadingly. Do you think you're a cat? "Yes, Frank."

Ouch! Why do you have to enter? I can't deny it because of this. Afraid, afraid to reject, don't want to. Do I have to endure it?

"Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh of" it was still circling back and forth.

“Oh!” I replied, annoyed. “If I can't sleep tonight, you will be responsible!”

“Whatever you have to do, just do it.” His voice changed, he was very happy. I'm not happy with you, you damned friend. -_- I took a deep breath. before turning back to concentrate on watching the movie

The movie continued to play, and I felt out of breath every time the scene in the movie was at night. People are afraid of this. Besides I avoid watching movies alone with Bhim. Ghost movies and horror movies are another thing that I don't think of spending money on and sitting with my eyes closed.

As I watched the screen showing the climax in the next few seconds, a ghost was sure to appear. Oh my god, I couldn't take it anymore. I curled into myself, trying to shrink myself into as little space as possible to feel safe. Suddenly...

The sound from the speakers everywhere roaring out in the silence of the theater was intended to shock the people in the theater, which I had achieved. I screamed out in shock and Bon's hand grabbed the hand of the person next to me. Come cover yourself. I heard the people next to me laugh softly.

I wasn't in the mood to scold the person next to me for why I was laughing. Right now, I want to survive until the movie ends.

Why do I have to torture myself?

T_T

“You bastard, I hate you $%^ and *()_ ” was the first sentence I hurled at him after walking out of the theater without any words. Apart from all the rude words in the world

"You're a chicken, Frank," he scolded with a good-natured expression on his face. You'll still be in a good mood, you bastard.

“My cock is soft, my cock is hard. You know I don't like watching ghost movies, you bastard.”

"Just practice watching in case you might like it."

"Don't even try anything. If you're not my friend, I'll kill you!" I pursed my lips and walked quickly, not caring if the person behind me would catch up or not.

I'm nosy too _ ;; I forgot you have long legs.

“Where are you going in such a hurry?” he complained. “Then will you come back?”

"yeah"

"Let me send you. I'll bring the car."

“It's about you,” I was tired of answering. Now I'm angry and it hasn't gone away.

“As penance, I will send you home right away.” He smiled, showing thirty-two teeth. before taking my hand “Let's go now.”

I was pulled away by the force of Bhim who was dragging me. Why was he holding my hand? I don't like touching anything at all. (Except in the movie theater, which is really impossible.) Today, it has made my heart flutter several times.

“Dammit, let me go! Why are you dragging me away? I can walk on my own!” I yelled, trying to shake it off.

"How are you going to lose my temper? Your face is as grumpy as a dog's ass."

"I'm not upset."

“Lie.” He turned to stare at me and raised his eyebrows irritatingly. “Stay still and just follow me, sir.”

“Your father, sir!”

I cursed the last word and we all went to Peem's car which was parked when we reached the expensive car. It opened the door for me as if I were a driver before coming around and sitting in the driver's seat. Then I managed to open this, opened this, managed to start the car and it turned to look at my face with a smile.

“What are you smiling about?” I asked him because he didn't say anything.

“No,” he declined before shifting into gear and slowly getting out of the car. “Fasten your seat belt.”

After those words, I turned to pull my belt and fastened it while the car moved for a while. Bhim's long hand reached out and poked the radio to make it louder.

                When you say I’m just a friend toyou

When you said I was just a friend

            Friends don’t dothe things we do, everybody knows you love me too.

Did you know that friends don't do this? I know you love me too.

I picked up the phone and checked it after turning it on.

Airplane Mode

Since watching the movie, notifications have come up all over. Most of them come from a secret IG where I just posted pictures.

                misslimelemon commented: 

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

hr

            sainammmm_ commented:

When and how? Where's the announcement, friend? 1

hr

            misslimelemon commented:@sainammmm_

She got it now. After a long time 58

mins

            sainammmm_ commented:@misslimelemon

Going on a trip just the two of you without inviting any other friends, I think that's not normal, haha.

mins

            franc_leisure commented: @misslimelemon@sainammmm_

What's wrong with the two of you? -_-

just now

I replied to it before opening LINE and there was a notification.

official account

Four or five were added. (get free stickers) and there is a new chat channel that was just created and there are 2 people talking to each other.

Second clarification...Actually there are four people in my group: me, Pheem, and two other women named Manao and Sai Nam. Sai Nam and Manao know that I like Pheem. At first, I didn't know what to do and couldn't find a counselor. If I told my friends in the group, would they be disgusted or would I stop dating? Fortunately, these two guys understand.

Two of them tried to help me, but I always refused because I was more afraid of losing him than taking the risk for that kind of love. There were also times when I secretly regretted not doing it even though There is a chance, but as they say, it's better to be safe than sorry. I don't want to take any risks.

Manao and Saiman will know that I don't like to go anywhere with the two Bhims because I tend to behave incorrectly every time. When I go on a trip, I will encourage the two of them to go (secretly, without letting Bhim know), otherwise I will feel like I don't behave properly around the two of them (but in this case, I came out and encountered it myself because of... The good one urged me to take him on a trip and the mall was close to my house)...end of the second clarification.

                Lime:

Tell me, Frank, how are you?

                Sainam:

Why are you telling me every time that you don't want to go alone with him? What is this?

The two good friends had big hair and thought they were the suspects.

                Franc_:

He invited me out because he was bored at home.

                Franc_:

And did you know that he forced me to go watch a movie with him? Damn it, I'm like.

                Lime:

Oh, you pretend to be shocked. If you want to see it, just tell me. Longan!

                Franc_:

It doesn't mean that.

                Franc_:

Well, that's what I want, but I don't want it anyway.

                Sainam:

What are you talking about? I'm confused.

                Franc_:

He listened to me first.

                Franc_:

The stupid thing is that they took me to see a ghost movie and didn't tell me first. If you let me be surprised when the movie starts, I'll cry.

T_T

                Lime:

Peak is worth it. It's a good idea to follow a man.

                Franc_:

Bad, bad friend who reinforces his little friend.

                Sainam:

Yes, go be as thin as a longan bone skewer!

“What are you laughing at?” said the person next to me. Said after letting the silence hang in the air in the car. I turned to look at Phim, raising his eyebrows questioningly. His cute face looked 20 percent cuter.

"I'm suing Manao and Nam, saying you teased me." I pursed my lips into a vowel shape, annoyed by the driver.

“I'm so scared.” He pretended to be afraid. “You.”

"that?"

"Can you let me stay in the dormitory with you? If you're in trouble, that's okay. Like...do you want to be alone?"

I want it to stay but it's not safe for my heart. As I've said before. It's not difficult, but it's not completely comfortable. If you look at it positively... at least there are people to help lighten the burden and I'm not lonely. But in another sense... I don't know if it will make things difficult. Whether it's up or not, I really can't tell.

Everyone knows that closeness can lead to anything.

“It's okay, it's not convenient for you to stay here. How can you not let me help you? You are my friend.”

It feels strange saying the word 'friend'...

“Plus, I won't have to ride a motorcycle to university. There is personal identification in the room.”

“Who said they were going to send you away?” He turned around and made an annoyed face.

“Oh, okay, then you stay home by yourself, then.”

“Oh, I'm just kidding, Prince.” I laughed. “Thank you.”

“Uh,” I answered with slight embarrassment bubbling up inside. I didn't even dare to look at him. I rarely have one-on-one moments like this. There aren't many moments when he talks nicely. Because they usually annoy each other a lot.

...Because we are 'friends'.

Without even realizing it...a long hand came and squeezed my right cheek and pulled it back and forth with its fangs. "You're the cutest, my friend."

My heart was pounding at the hot touch on my face. I turned to look at him in surprise. But it doesn't seem to understand anything. It hasn't stopped playing with my cheek instead of a toy, and it still smiles and laughs. It doesn't know how much of an effect it has on me. I don't know...I'll never know.

...Because I'm a 'friend' to him.

But for me it is 'More than friends' always...

                I try to be careful with thewords I use

I'm trying to be careful with my words.

            I say it ‘causeI’m dying to

I'm saying this because I'm about to die.

            I’m so muchmore than just a friend to you

Because I feel more than friends with you

First day of school

4:48 p.m.

Today will be the first day he moves into my dorm. The car I'm sitting in is slowly moving into my dorm. Slowed down and parked in the parking lot of the dormitory when everything stopped moving. The two of us opened the car door.

“You take your stuff down first, I'll go get the cart for you. Not a lot of stuff, right?”

“Not a lot...maybe I don't know,” he replied, opening the trunk of the car, so I walked over to see how much it was.

“There are a lot of them _ ;;”

“A lot? _ ;; You can have a lot.”

“I'll go get the big truck so you can gradually bring your stuff down first,” I told him and walked to the lobby of the dormitory to get the big truck.

Oh, seriously -_-;;

I dragged and rubbed it along the wheel path. It wasn't easy to slip. The fact that it was so scraped showed the experience of being used extensively and for a long time, playing with it, and not being able to maneuver it well. Also good Especially since I'm a small person, I don't have much strength.

I pushed it until I reached a door that had to be lifted up because it was elevated from the lobby floor. (I keep walking and falling _ ;;) I try to push it up but it seems like God isn't happy with it. No matter how much I try, it can't go up.

You can try again...

Ugh...!

It doesn't show up _ ;;

One more time

Ugh...!

Not moving at all _ ;;

Damn it, I'm tired! Let's try again. If I don't get it, I don't push it and I get angry and angry!!!

Ugh...!

"Can't push the cart, why don't you call?"

“Ah...!”

Suddenly, a sound sounded behind me, along with a cart that had fallen off onto the floor upstairs. On one side, Bheem was standing behind me, his two arms holding on to the cart rails, and I was in the middle between them and his back. I felt the muscles under his school shirt. It's really extraordinary. You can feel your muscles not sagging at all (

Don't think of me as a grotesque psychopath-.,-) Plus, the heat radiating from its body also causes hot flashes in my hair, like my hormones have changed. It smells of its usual perfume again. I'm about to be unable to endure this situation!

“...Franc,” Bhim's voice rang out, pulling me out of my reverie, "Frank."

“Ha...ha!”

"What's the matter? Why aren't you pulling?" he asked, furrowing his brows in confusion.

"No...no, I just have a little pain in my arm." Actually, I thought I was just claiming it. I went, but now it's starting to hurt. I suspect it's a bit of a mistake.

“Then I'll push the cart myself. You can help me put things in the car over there.”

“Ah...umm.” I accepted easily and hurriedly walked towards his car.

I had to get myself out of the situation before I lost consciousness. I gasped outside after a short period of ragged breathing.

What's up with you? It's just the first day and I don't want to think about the future!

After Peem pushed the cart to the car I gradually put the things that he had placed on the floor in the cart. Once he was finished pushing them, he pushed them away by himself with me walking in front of him. When I helped him, he said that he would push them by himself and I would be more of a mess to him. He also chased me to clear the path for the cart.

"Oh, until it's finished," Phim complained and threw himself down on my bed, exhausted after he finished lifting things from the cart and putting them in their place.

“You bastard, get up, you're sweating and my bed is dirty,” I complained while sitting at the writing desk.

"No, I'm tired," he replied, closing his eyes.

I got up and pulled him to a sitting position and grabbed the mouse fur that was hanging on the railing in front of the bathroom and threw it at him. “Go take a shower and then you can find something to eat in the evening.”

“Mother,” he sighed heavily and even picked at me. -_- “You complain like a mother.”

Your mother!

It suddenly stood up and took off its t-shirt. Revealing the inner flesh

Full HD

Close to the edge of the stage, it really was a very white person. As I've said before that the skin outside the shade of the cloth is white Under the umbrella, the cloth was 3 times whiter, and the abdomen was just the right amount of curls, not too much, not too little. That figure seriously caught my eye and I almost forgot to take my breath away.

“What are you looking at?” His voice broke my reverie and brought me back to the real world. “Are you jealous of my figure?”

“Your father!” I immediately cursed him back and turned my head to look at something other than him. My face felt hot as I felt it. I think my face must be really red right now. Definitely, plus my heart is still beating fast.

“Haha.” He threw the t-shirt in his hand and fell on my head before laughing and walking into the bathroom.

God! How long must I put up with 'this kind of thing'!!!

11:48 p.m.

“Dammit, go to sleep, there's class tomorrow at 8:30,” I yelled at him, who was sitting on the table playing with his laptop.

“You go to sleep first, so I want one more time.”

“You bastard! I can't sleep, the fire is hurting my eyes!” I proudly rose up from my pillow and scolded him.

"You read my novel first. One more chapter should finish with me, One-Eyed. Promise."

“Damn…” I don't know what words to use to insult him. I always have to let it go.

I sighed before grabbing the novel I had just closed half an hour ago and opening it to read another chapter at the request of the good guy who was hitting Dot.

I yawned because it was already past my bedtime. Normally at 10:30 p.m. I turn off the lights and sleep, but it's already been more than an hour and a half late. My eyes are already closed...

My eyes...

In my hand, it was as if someone had pulled something heavy away. Before my head touched something cold, my eyelids opened, not the slightest unconsciousness remaining, only knowing that light had hit my eyes first. that it will go off along with the sound

Perfect!

My eyes were closed again but the rest of my senses were still working. I felt a force coming down on the bed, causing it to collapse a little. The blanket that was covering me moved and the feeling of warmth that spread into the blanket helped relieve the cold air in the room a little. The blanket moved again. time This time, the cloth that only covered half of my body was dragged up to cover my neck by the hand of the person next to me before the other person dropped down.

thank you...

That's all I could say in my heart before everything disappeared into darkness.

Bunch...Bunch...Bunch

The sound of the alarm clock pulled me out of my dream world. Sunlight pierced the edges of the curtains. I turned around to grab it.

iPhone

which is groaning and waiting to be pressed to close but...

A heavy arm was placed across my waist. Just as he was about to turn over and pick it up.

iPhone

Then I stopped in shock. I turned to look at the owner of that arm, whose handsome face was sleeping soundly as if he was dancing in his own dream. My heart was beating fast as if someone was playing rock music. A strange feeling pierced the heart.

The alarm clock had gone silent and in another five minutes it would have sounded again. But now I have to deal with the current situation. What should I do?

Take off its arms? Take time to enjoy your own happiness first...

...Even if it's happiness that comes from inadvertence and is fake happiness.

So I'd like to choose the latter...even if in the future I have to endure these memories with the pain of ever choosing to do it.

I turned my back on it and curled up into its embrace again. I knew it was wrong. Actually, it was wrong since I wasn't being honest with it. But people have different needs. If I'm being selfish, Sometimes it wouldn't be wrong, right?

The person behind me who had his hand on my waist began to move and moaned loudly before he tightened his embrace as if I were a body pillow. This kind of touch was so memorable. I don't want this time to run out, but if the alarm goes off one more time I must have woken up from this dream this morning.

Bunch...Bunch...Bunch

Time's up...

I sighed in regret before slowly Take your hands off me and step out of my dreams I stood up on the side of the bed and put a pillow in place of me as I had been staring for a moment. Thinking about the feelings that had passed before he turned and walked to the bathroom and hugged himself to comfort him instead.

We must wait for the day when God will reward us again...

...Maybe there won't be any more...

“...Franc”

“Dammit Frank!”

“Hah...ha!” I was startled by the sound of the person sitting in the driver's seat calling me out of my head. The images of the morning events were still swirling in my head. “Wha...what?”

"What's wrong? You look so quiet." He raised his eyebrows suspiciously.

“No...no.” I automatically lied.

Since coming out of the dormitory, I had only spoken to him for about a few sentences. I don't know how to act, even though the situation was only known to me, I still don't behave properly. "I...I'm just sleepy."

"What's wrong with you? You fell asleep before me last night." He laughed.

“Well, you slept late, so it was time for me to sleep. I don't get enough sleep. Because you are the only one.”

"You look like you're sleeping so soundly you'll die from snoring so loudly."

“Are you snoring?!” Seriously? It's so embarrassing. I didn't think I would snore.

"No, I'm just kidding." He smiled nervously. So I slammed my hand across his arm once, "Ouch, that hurts! My hand wasn't gentle."

“Deserves it,” I looked at him expectantly, “I'm already gone.”

"Oh, I'll call you this class after class." I nodded before getting out of the car, closing the door and watching the car drive away.

I don't know, I feel strange. Anyway, I don't know, I'm not used to the fact that they drove me to deliver. Even if it's comfortable. But I think it's out of character for my friend. Maybe I'm thinking too much or is there actually a type of friend who really takes care of each other this much? No one knows.

Today, in the morning, I have to study the French language subject that I chose as a minor subject with Manao and Sai Nam. As for Peem, he chose a minor subject from the Faculty of Communication Arts about film. At first, I didn't understand that it would be a major. Supervision What are you going to do? It says that you want to make television media and direct movies like this too. I was very surprised, I didn't think people like him would have this kind of angle. It was my good fortune to be able to meet these two female friends to vent to them my feelings that no one could understand.

"Hello, friend. What's wrong? Your face is as grumpy as a monkey's ass." Manao greeted me first as I was walking towards the two women sitting on the bench in front of the Faculty of Arts building. It was our usual place when we took this class.

“So, what happened with that Mercedes? Or last night..." Sainam smiled happily and looked at Manao. She's a good bitch who always likes to tie things down below her navel. Really disgusting, my friend _

I sighed before speaking to them, "Oh, I have a serious matter to discuss. I'm really serious about it. This time..."

"Damn it!" Manao

“God!” River

“I think it's starting to become unusual, or is it something like this? Manao started to make assumptions about the possibility from the story I told him. “From the information I saw, In the past, I haven't seen any women bothered by it except Noey. The stars of the group that were paired with it, but in a moment, they disappeared from the list, confusingly.”

"I think the peak is when he hugs you. Where do friends do that? No one," Sainam added.

“But he is asleep and has no consciousness. Can anything happen? Sleepwalkers still fall down the stairs.” I reasoned my objection to the river.

"Oh, I forgot to think about it." Stream's face shrank. before thinking further

“I guess right now it's still a bit vague. I really can't answer anything. I think only you can answer this matter because you will know the feelings. The message that he sent to you was completely complete, as you told me, I couldn't see his expression or his eyes. I couldn't decide. I couldn't give him a little more time in case anything happened. It will be clearer.”

“I agree with Lemon.”

I looked at the two of them before sighing in discomfort. Why is love so difficult? Why does love have to be this complicated?

'...Give it some time so things will become clearer.'

Is it time...?

How long will it take?

1 day... 1 month... 1 year or forever...

How long must I endure this kind of discomfort and ambiguity? Do I have to live in my daydreams and thoughts like this forever?

“Alright guys, take it easy, let's go study and stop acting so sad. I'm not responsible for it." Manao patted my shoulder. before inviting each other to the classroom

Sigh, I have to be patient right now...?

Three days later...

Everything was still in a vague situation as three days would turn four. I could only pretend like everything was normal after that incident. It didn't happen again. I didn't think to ask. Revive the threads, find the seams, make them wonder again. I don't want to think of an answer that would lead to feelings that can't be revealed.

It's best to stay still...Frank!

As I've told before, Bheem and I have the same code brother and today is my code brother's birthday (his name is 'Fai') and he invited us all to the birthday party as well. Of course, for engineering people like us, there's more to organizing a birthday than closing a liquor store for a party. P'Fai chose a small liquor store that his friend opened a little further from the university (according to the law).

Phim and I had promised to go. Actually, I didn't want to go. I'm the type of person who doesn't like to drink. But P' Fai was very persistent, plus Peem wanted to go, so I could go.

We came here in P' Fai's car to pick us up. At first, Peem said he would drive himself, but I stopped him. If he were drunk like a dog, who would drive and force me to drive? We will definitely die as weeds on the side of the road, waiting for our successor.

Actually, I went because I was going to prepare to take Bhim's body back to the dormitory. It's like this. Every time he eats, he gets drunk and doesn't understand what he's talking about. Last time, an older person from the faculty took me home and left the car behind. Have to go back and get the car the next day every time.

“Crash!” Phi Fai's voice announced as he held up a yellow glass of water. Everyone at the table rose in unison and cheered, causing joy. I was sitting next to them. The bastard who followed him as well I could only take it easy before drinking non-alcoholic soda instead.

Alcohol doesn't taste good at all. It's bitter and bitter. Eat it and you'll get drunk! Ordination, the fifth precept

In addition to Pee Fai closing the liquor store, P'Tonkla (the shop owner) also told the band to come play for him in special cases. I didn't really participate in the conversation. (Although Phim turns to talk to me sometimes) Because I'm not very close to my seniors, it's like our preferences and lifestyles don't match that much.

As for Phim, he is especially close, probably because he often comes to drink alcohol with him.

Lately, Pheem hasn't turned around to talk to me, and I suspect he's being noisy. They were here and the conversation was frantic. I wasn't really into their conversation. There will be some laughter depending on the situation. Luckily, there were beautiful songs on stage that played continuously. It alleviates some loneliness. Most of the songs are Thai songs that I know too. Some songs I forgot so I had to pick up my phone and write them down and then download them and store them in my phone.

If we secretly love and we say it, the secret love will seem meaningless.

So I chose a path that was comfortable to keep true love, how beautiful it is.

I like looking at your eyes when I don't know how much I like looking at them.

I love listening to the way she used to tell me that I was one of her friends.

Uh huh...this song is so hot.

Got it...take it 10 10 10.

There may not be a way for it to be as hoped, but at least it won't disappoint.

If it means seeing your face every day, I'll be able to accept it...

The people in the group seemed to like the song as well and started singing along with the singer. I swayed my body to the rhythm of the song. The person next to me seemed to be as into the song as I was. I wonder if he was a little too into it too -_-

This guy is taller than me. Suddenly he put his arm on my shoulder and hung it like that...simply put his arm around my neck and swayed to the rhythm. He also sings loudly.

“Being someone you trust is as good as it gets without taking too much of a risk. Because it may not be worth it. I want to be an important person, just a friend..."

The moment it sings It turned to look at my face, causing me to turn and look at it back. Now my face is white. It was red because of the alcohol. In addition to singing, it also turned and smiled at me. I love it so much when it smiles. Its smile always makes my heart flutter. The closer it is...the more I can't control the feelings inside. Its black eyes look at me with a meaning I don't know. I can't translate it. The truth is that right now I don't know anything in my head anymore and it's all so annoying.

I must have already fallen under the spell of Phim...

“...Because I can't have you...[1]”

As he sang out his last sentence, those eyes were still staring at me as I wasn't going anywhere. I don't know why, right now the feeling is so overwhelming that I can hardly breathe. The atmosphere made me want to possess those lips so much, my face moved towards them lingeringly.

ask...

“Oh, crash!”

The sound of someone at the table pulled me and him apart. I came out of my trance. My breathing was short of breath, as if I had been deprived of oxygen for a long time. I could only tell myself in my heart how lucky I was that the people in my circle were able to separate me from it. If 'it' happened, I wouldn't be able to find the words to say. Everything will change and the story after this will only be suffering and embarrassment.

My hand grabbed my own glass and drank it to relieve my embarrassment. I didn't know what it would do. I didn't even dare to look at it. I had to find a way out of this awkward situation.

Bathroom...bathroom is the best solution.

I decided to put down my glass and get up. Head towards the bathroom following the sign posted.

“Where are you going?” As I was about to turn around to go to the bathroom, someone grabbed my hand. I turned around in shock. Who is this person I'm avoiding?

“Go to the bathroom.”

“Oh,” he nodded in acknowledgment before letting go of my hand.

After finishing up my business, I came out in front of the mirror. Look at your reflection in the mirror. I sighed with my own thoughts. I kept thinking about how stupid I was for even thinking of kissing my own friend like that.

I sighed heavily. Hoping to let some of the stress escape before I pour water into my hands and wash my face for a bit of freshness. Then slowly walk away.

I walked back to the table and sat down as usual and slowly pieced together the conversation at the table that seemed to be talking about me...?

"Dude, did you bring your wife to take care of you? I haven't seen your wife drinking alcohol." I don't know what her name is, teasing me, making the whole table laugh. How do I know? The older guys like to tease me and say that we are like husband and wife because he and I are next to each other almost all the time (except when we're studying for the minor. Normally, my and his study schedules are the same because we make appointments).

Or maybe it's because I'm small? When we walk together with him, we feel like we're lovers (Imagination). However, I feel strange. That he said that I don't know what to do. I admit that I like it, but I'm afraid that Bhim will be embarrassed, so I just smile teasingly. and waiting to hear the answer on how to fix the situation

“Yes, my wife doesn't like to drink alcohol, so she brought it so she could carry it back. I won't be able to go back on my own,” Pheem replied casually, without hesitation, wrapping his arm around my neck. He also turned and raised his eyebrows at me.

“Crazy wife, stupid wife, you stupid wife is already drunk!” I yelled at him and shook his arm away, but it was too heavy to fall off so I had to let him leave it like that.

"It's like this. My wife always likes to be shy." Not yet! It hasn't stopped yet! “Is that right, my lady?” before he pressed his lips once on my cheek and turned to laugh at his senior.

I was stunned for three seconds. After the contact with his lips, my body turned to stone as if I had been cursed and my consciousness was scattered. I turned to look at it, looking for an answer from the incident, but it didn't seem to care about me at all. All I could do now was live with my strange feelings.

I regained my composure before pushing his arm off my shoulders and standing up. It turned to look at me and asked the same question.

“Where are you going?”

"I'm going to go get some fresh air." That's all I answered before walking outside the shop, which was a small garden.

I sighed, feeling butterflies in my stomach.

I don't want to think too much about it because right now, what it says is controlled by the alcohol. It comes from an unknown part of the brain. However, we can't trust sane people. Incomplete consciousness is not good.

But I will say...

If it's really like you say, then it's good, Bhim...

I opened my eyes before the clock rang.

Sigh

This is the first thing I think of doing in the morning.

Did you know that last night I hardly slept at all? After returning to the dormitory at almost 1:00 a.m., I went to take a shower and left Bhim to go to sleep before going to wipe his body so that it didn't get sticky. When I laid down and hoped to sleep, the thing that kept me from sleeping were his words, which still played in my head like a tape.

'It's like this, my wife always likes to be shy...isn't that right, wife?' along with a feeling of heat in the area that was touched last night. It haunted me to the point where I could hardly sleep.

It's so awkward... If he and I had the chance to be lovers, I would feel much better because these things are not things. 'People in friend status' do that, but this is me and him having been friends for a very long time. Plus being close is another level of complexity. Even though I claim to be close friends with it, there are some things I don't know about it as well.

That includes sexual orientation as well...

I grabbed the iPhone that was on the table next to the bed and turned off the alarm clock. The person next to me still didn't seem fazed by the sound of the clock and let it go to sleep. There's still a lot of time left. If you're nearby, you can gently wake it up to take a shower.

Thinking like that, I got out of bed, intending to refresh myself and let go of those uncomfortable thoughts first, in case things would get better.

...Maybe?

Epilogue

“Dude, wake up and go take a shower, you won't be in time,” I called out to the guy who still refused to wake up on the bed and was tugging at his blanket.

But it seems like he still hasn't heard it -_-

I sat down on the bed and grabbed his arm and shook him again and said the exact same sentence. He turned around a bit, as if annoyed that I was disturbing his sleep. No, I have class today. -_-

“Dammit, wake up quickly or you won't be in time for class.” I still didn't give up shaking his arm until he finally spoke.

"Uh oh." Really, don't call it a mouthful. It's better to call it mumbling in your throat than not being able to hear a word at all -_-

“If you still don't get up in three minutes, then you don't have to go drink alcohol,” I hissed and lay down in my place while I waited for him to get up and go about his personal business. In the meantime, I just wanted to sleep to collect my energy from last night. Just give it back a little.

I heard the sound of the blanket moving. It seemed like Bhim was getting up, but...

Hurry!

His arms and legs fell on top of me like I was a pillow (my back was turned), and he sighed into my head. I squirmed in its arms, trying to get out, but it was too heavy to resist. I'm even smaller (probably to myself).

"What the fuck are you doing? Let me go. Wake up and go take a shower. It's already late!" I yelled and tried to escape from his arms, but it held tighter.

"Oh, I want to stay like this for a little while longer..." A sleepy voice commanded him, begging and pleading. It made me a little stunned as I tried to find an excuse to stop the feeling of turmoil inside.

“No...no, that bastard is standing up! My shirt is all wrinkled.” I continued to shout.

"Oh, you can get up." He turned around. before getting up and staggering to the bathroom

Leave me alone and let me catch my breath a little after I've been involved with last night's events. It creates even more discomfort and difficulty for me. What should I do? Speaking out is definitely not a good thing. If he didn't think the way I thought, everything would definitely fail. Plus I would be labeled a narcissist.

But what can I do?

...Just be patient and accept the way things are. Because everything happened because of me...

2:30 p.m.

The morning after getting in the car I didn't even open my mouth to speak to the driver because I didn't know what to say. The feeling of discomfort was repressed in my heart, ready to burst out even though the driver invited me to talk. I asked for an answer. I knew that he knew that the atmosphere between us had changed. He secretly looked at my face with suspicion often.

But I chose to remain invisible and he refused to ask. Of course, I don't want him to ask anything because I'm not ready to answer anything.

I just want to buy as much time as possible when everything is still good...even though it's running out right now.

Two female friends and I walked out of the French class that today they had arranged to teach an additional 2 hours. The class started at 9:30 a.m. and ended at 12:30 p.m., so it ended at 2:30 p.m. instead. I almost vomited in French. The headache is so bad I'm about to die.

When it was around noon, Peem told me that he had finished class and asked me where to wait. Because we normally finish school together and go find something to eat as a foursome, I told him to go find something to eat first. I finished school at 2:30 p.m. Or you can just go back to the dorm and don't have to wait (actually, I don't want to face it so quickly).

But it says that I will wait to find a book to make a report with. And said that if you're finished, you should call him. I was very short. Every word that I answered, I felt that I was very short. Which is terrible. I knew it, but Bhim still answered me normally. I think he knew I was different.

I hadn't even had time to call him on the phone yet so I thought I'd go get something to put in his mouth because since morning there hasn't been anything in his stomach, Bhim appeared with a bag of snacks at a nearby shop. At the library where I like to eat a few bags with an extremely joyful expression.

“Here, I bought some snacks for the three of you.” He smiled and handed a bag of snacks to us. "This is yours, lemon juice, Frank."

“Wow, I'm craving buttercake. What inspired you to buy this and give it away? Normally, I've never seen such a thing as being kind to friends or groups. Plus you're still fighting for more food." Manao taunted the first person and put a piece of buttercake in his mouth.

"No, I saw you studying from nine-thirty, right? I thought you hadn't eaten anything yet, so I bought some just in case. Why can't I be considerate? If you don't eat it, you can eat it yourself."

"Calm down, Manao's handsome friend. I really appreciate your kindness." Manao hurriedly apologized profusely.

I put on an impassive face. I looked down in my bag and found that in the bag was my favorite pandan eclair, but I didn't bother to pick it up and look at it.

"I'm going to go buy some water first," I interrupted and told everyone. Before he could turn around, Sainam spoke before him.

"Then let's all go now. We have another appointment."

"Okay guys, let's go and say goodbye to the guys for a kiss." Manow gave me a kiss before the two girls walked away and left me alone.

I didn't say anything else before turning around and walking towards the coffee shop in front of the Faculty of Arts building, completely ignoring the people I was with. I walked quickly and stopped in front of the coffee shop before ordering.

“Take a glass of blended mocha and add whipped cream.”

“And a glass of iced green tea, please,” said an anonymous voice from behind. I knew who it was so I didn't turn to look.

“95 baht.” The employee calculated the total price because they thought we were coming together when really we were. Then we come together But I didn't plan to come together. (Eh?) Heck, I was taking out money from my wallet to pay. But he couldn't catch the guy behind him first.

“Here.”

Bhim handed him a red banknote. I, who had taken out the money, stopped and turned to look at him. The taller man smiled brightly at me... a smile that always made my heart flutter, but this time I couldn't do that. So I kept my face steady and turned my attention back to the employee.

Sigh, I don't want to be angry at him, I just don't want to say anything to him right now because the events of last night and this morning still haunt me and now whenever I look at his face, his words and actions various It came back to feel again. The more it drives me wild, sometimes it makes me almost unable to breathe. Because of depression, I can't tell anyone like this.

God help me!

“Mocha blended with whipped cream and iced green tea.”

The waiter placed the two glasses on the bar counter. I reached for mine and turned to walk out the door. But still...

“Oh, so Frank came to buy coffee?”

oh my God! Phi Fai

"Oh, hello, P'Fi."

P'Fai and his friends walked in a group and met me in front of the coffee shop, so I had to stop and greet them according to Thai culture. Not far from here, Bhim opened the door and followed me.

“Oh, P' Fai, hello, are you here to buy coffee?” Ai Phim greeted warmly.

"Oh, I'm really sleepy. I'll have to study for the lab in the afternoon. If I don't dope, I'm definitely going to get hurt. Last night my hangover still hasn't gone away," P'Fai complained. “At first I was like, where did you go? Why did you only meet Frank? I thought you were cheating on your wife and finding a new wife.”

"I'm like that..." Ai Peem bowed down and rejected P' Fai. “How can I be unfaithful to this wife?” Without even realizing it (again), Bhim put his arm on my shoulder and turned his face to ask again, “Is that right?”

I looked down at the ground and the corners of my mouth twitched as if I was playing with it, but I did just that. Because right now the discomfort is starting to become more and more pressing, even though I'm trying to press on. Both stepped on it. But it burst out more than I could resist and I bit my lip.

“Oh, well, then I'll go buy it first and I'll be late for class. Good luck, let's go eat again. See you later, little one.” P'Fai walked up and patted the two of us on the shoulder before walking away.

Bhim still hasn't taken his arm off my shoulders and now I can't stand it anymore. I can feel the tears rising up and I can't stop them. My head and ears were ringing, a mixed feeling was pouring out of my chest. Flowing like rapids

I can't stand it anymore!

I chose to break free from its arms and quickly sprinted away without any indication of the path I was walking quickly. There was no point, only that I should get out of here and get out of 'it'.

My head was full of his words and actions, circling around chaotically, clashing with each other, and it was repeating like that with the intention of causing me pain, like each word was slowly piercing with needles. into the heart

'Is that right, wife?'

'I want to stay like this for a little while longer...'

That night's hug...

Morning embrace...

Words that make the heart dance...

...Because I realized that no matter how good my words or actions were, my relationship would never come true.

Tears could not be stopped from falling down from my eyes and I tried to lift my head to let them flow back. But it's not in time. I had to wipe it away with my finger to destroy the weak evidence. I was too fragile to accept anything else. Please give me some time to come to terms with it.

“Hey, Frank! What's wrong with you!!? Where are you going!?” The sound of chasing behind followed me and I was startled. The sound of feet grinding against the ground made me speed up my steps to get away from him.

...but where have you ever caught it?

The person running behind grabbed my hand and pulled me to stop walking. I didn't dare turn to him because I was too embarrassed to let him cry.

“What have you been up to, Frank, since this morning?” Aim asked in a serious tone, the tears still not stopping. So I haven't thought about turning back yet. “Did I do something wrong? Frank, why are you mad at me? Just tell me. You are my only close friend.”

“..." I chose to remain silent because I thought that maybe he would stop asking me questions.

“Dammit Frank!!”

“Because you're my friend!” My last straw was broken. Finally, I turned around and faced him. He was a bit stunned by the violent reaction right now, no matter how the tears flowed. I'm not ashamed anymore. Everything has come too far to stop and if it's going to break...let it break right here. I'll stop being uncomfortable for once.

I want to be free from the shackles of impossible relationships...

“What do you mean?”

“I meant exactly what you heard,” I softened. Even though my feelings inside were raging, I had to control myself so that things didn't get any worse. "Because you're my only friend."

Bhim still makes a confused face at me. “I still don't understand.”

“So I have to say it, right?” I sighed, even though I kept telling myself that I didn't want to say this word because I thought that it should be clear enough that I didn't need to explain further. “I don't. I thought of you only as a friend.”

Silence engulfed the atmosphere. Luckily, when I walked away it was a confined space. It was a parking lot so I didn't have to worry about anyone hearing.

“I...I don't know when it started, but I've always felt guilty because I had to betray your trust.” Before and after, it also seemed like there was a lump blocking the way in my throat, making me unable to speak. “But what can I do? But it's also because of you.

I don't want to blame you, but…”

"You're very close to me, but I don't mean that I'm uncomfortable. I feel good, but it's one of the factors," I explained, my voice shaking. No matter how hard you try to control your tone, “You like to be funny and cover it up in a way that makes it seem like you're more special than everyone else. which many things have passed during this period It made me think more until I felt uncomfortable.”

Before I could compose the words in my brain Pictures keep coming back to remind me of how good but painful it was as a memory...

“First of all, friends don't offer their hands to cover each other's eyes while watching a ghost movie. Two...friends don't hug each other in bed. Please remember that."

"I don't know if you know or not, but I will tell you that the day you were drunk, you kissed me on the cheek, which I don't want to tell you because you hate me or not. Are you going to fade away from me?"

"I'm afraid of losing you the most in the world, and you put it in my skull, you bastard." I bit my lip to hold back the tears. I didn't want to cry anymore. “But what do you want me to do? Do I even have a choice? If I tell you, everything will be ruined. Like right now, I choose to keep you in my life rather than risk losing you because you are the only person I trust and the person I give my heart to.

Even if it isn't pure like a friend's.”

“Now you know why. Therefore..." I wiped away my tears, wiped the snot and tears from my face. "...If at any time you want to move out of my dorm, just tell me."

"Frank, I'm sorry..."

“You don't have to apologize. It's not your fault, it's my fault.” I smiled...smiled with self-pity. Yes, it's my fault. “Then I really want to tell you. Just once, Bhim."

“I like you,” I bit my lip, the most painful words I could ever utter.

“You probably don't think the same as me, right?” I laughed deep in my throat, pitying myself again, a question that already had a clear answer. I just asked in case it would help me get over it faster.

...but probably not anytime soon

"I'm sorry, Frank..." Phim lowered his head. refuses to meet my eyes

                I love you from the start, so it’sbreaks my heart...

                When you say I’m just a friend toyou, friend don’t do the things we do

                Everybody knows you love me too.

                I tryna be careful with thewords I use, I say it ‘cause I’m dying to

                I’m so much more than just afriend to you...

(I loved you from the beginning so it broke my heart...when you said I was just your friend

Friends, don't do things like we do.

Everyone knows that you love me too.

I try to be careful with the words I say because I suffer so much.

Because I'm more than just your friend)

[1] Song: My Friend is Not Real (

ForeverMate)

artist

Polycat