Questionmark [SaiDa]

How do you think love happens?

For me, love comes from when we are close to someone and the chemistry in our body tells us that this person is the right person. He can make our heart beat fast and our body secretes happiness substances until we feel full all day. I've read it in passing but I think it's true. It makes me feel like I can fall in love with anyone in this world.

Love has no gender.

I can tell you that from childhood until I grew up until dogs couldn't even lick my ass, I never thought about women more than my fellow humans. I was quite jealous when I saw someone prettier, even though I was already very pretty. Seriously, I dreamed about it. The appearance of the child's father has already been made known that he must be the most handsome and perfect like Nichkhun Rai like this. But when he became a trainee at

JYP

Those thoughts must be put away first. My number one dream is not to have a good-looking husband, but to be a successful artist.

“I'm sorry.”

"I'm not saying this because I want to hear an apology from you. What are you thinking? I really don't know."

I've never been scolded like this by people from my own generation before. Minatozaki Sana was the first person to say up front that I was irresponsible because I just had eye surgery and couldn't go practice with the launch team. Made the team wait and in the end we were scolded by adults for not being prepared. Because I kept thinking that it would be okay but forgot that other people didn't think like that, especially the Japanese people who were standing up to me right now.

"Do you think I'm joking? I'm really serious."

There was silence among the four of us and I couldn't say anything but admit my guilt.

But in the end, with my efforts to improve, we were able to win that round.

The mistake that happened made me think that if we actually won and were the same group, we would probably be the only couple who weren't close and still wondered if we would have problems later on. She may not be close to me anymore, even if she pretends to be nice to me. What will happen to our group if in the future the members don't love each other?

But I was wrong.

Sana is quite a person who sees the world in a strange way...let's call it a strange person. She is a person whose world is so beautiful that I want to try playing inside her head for once, what it would be like to have a unicorn walking around in it. Or not, we soon became close. We're so close that I don't think we've ever had an argument so severe that we'd cry. Maybe it's because we see each other every day.

The strange thing is probably only my heart...

It is well known that in Korea skinship is considered very casual, just like real men grab each other's asses without thinking. It's also normal for women to play with each other's breasts, which I also do and don't think that Japanese people have it many times more. Both Momo and Mina And the hardest part is P'Sana.

She is a very tactile person. I like to creep up on this person. Every member was treated like a wife by Sana, and the victim who was attacked most often was me.

“If I were a man, I would have a heart attack.”

To be honest, I was quite delirious when I said that sentence. When Sana hyung looked at me with sweet eyes, I couldn't even hear myself speak because my heartbeat was completely drowned out. Sana laughed softly. I don't know if she was embarrassed as well because she was too nervous and had to look away instead.

That was the first time that the chemistry in my body told me that this person was right. I fell completely in love with Sana.

Tonight, I was the last to take a shower. When I finished, it turned out that both Chaeyoung and Tzuyu had already fallen asleep. So I prepared to get some sleep because I was quite tired from today's schedule, but suddenly Sana unnie He opened the door and smiled at me in the dark, seeing that I wasn't asleep yet.

"What's wrong with Sana?"

“Are you going to sleep or not?”

"I'm sleepy already. It's very late." I yawned.

"So? But I'm still not sleepy so I don't know what's wrong. Can I stay with you for a moment?"

Sana walked over and sat down next to me even though I didn't have permission yet, but that's okay because no matter what she did, I would agree to everything, even if I like to show that I won't.

“Speak softly, Tzuyu is already asleep. Chang Chang too.”

I nodded towards the two sisters lying in their own beds.

“Okay, then let's lie down and talk.”

“Huh?”

Sana pushed me to lie down on the bed and pressed myself down to lie next to each other. She pulled up the blanket and finished covering us without me having the right to protest at all because everything happened so quickly in this bed. It's not a big deal at all. What do you think? Come sleep with me.

"As soon as I lay next to you, I felt sleepy. Can I sleep with you tonight?"

Sana lay on her side and pulled my arm into a begging hug. I tried to move myself as far away from Sana as possible for fear that another person would feel my rapidly beating heart. How can you not let me think about playing things all the time? Not dead-hearted like Tzuyu at all.

"If you're sleepy, go back to your room and sleep. I'm so uncomfortable that I can't breathe. Have you gotten fatter?"

“I'm shy, pretend like I'm older. You know that my heart is shaking."

I turned my head away when Sana rushed towards me, hoping to kiss my cheek like he liked to do. If you know, then love. It's not like you act like you have a heart and then one day act towards other people as if you didn't think at all, right?

“Stop playing. I have to work tomorrow.”

"Kiss your cheek first and then I'll go back to your room."

"no"

"Hurry up or I'll sleep here."

"Huh, don't take it back now or you'll wake up."

kiss

I was startled as the person next to me rushed forward and kissed me softly on the cheek and quickly pulled away. I blinked and looked at the other person who was smiling like a winner.

"I'll come see you again tomorrow."

There's no need to waste time making appointments because I can't escape from you anyway.

“Dahyunna, you've finished your work and tell me you did a good job.”

Sana's screechy voice was so loud that I had to hold the phone slightly away from my body. Since we were chatting on FaceTime, I could see Sana's proud face so clearly that I couldn't help but smile. Unable to follow, when she saw that I still had no reaction, she spoke up again.

"I'm the first to finish."

"If you're finished, hurry back."

Since I finished signing the album first, I came back to rest first. The three Japanese people weren't finished yet, so I had to stay at the company to finish work before I could go back. I was very tired because I had been working all day and this was it. It was more than 2:00 a.m. so I laid down to sleep, but the V App notification sound made me wake up. Not long after I opened it, I received a call from someone over there who was calling me.

"Oh, so you were woken up? Does that mean you're already asleep?"

"That's right. It's really late."

"You have to sleep with me, don't I have to wait for you to find me a place to sleep?"

This ambiguity kept me silent because I didn't know what to say.

“Since when did you sleep with your younger sibling?”

Momo asked in surprise.

"I'm going to sleep today. Dahyun and I are like that."

“Hurry up and finish it and come back now.”

I quickly cut in and changed the subject because I didn't want to make the atmosphere seem strange because this was already strange enough. Why do you like to tease each other so much?

"I'm really tired, so give me a kiss when you get to the dorm."

"Can you say this on V? Is it really okay?"

This is getting to be too much. I almost hurt my head when Sana hyung spoke in a calm voice, as if on purpose to announce to the whole world what we really were.

Even though it's not...she's just manipulating me, just playing with my feelings.

Today Sana wore a pink bridal crown at the fansign event. I thought it was cute so I went to play with it. Another thing I did was because I know how heavily fan clubs are about me and Sana. Even when we walk close to each other, they'll scream and shout out loud. I'm shy too. Have you ever had a time when you liked someone and a friend teased you and that person about liking each other? But I have to keep it down because I don't want the person I like to know that I really mean it because I'm afraid of losing friends like that.

Sana-nii looks at me with the same sparkling eyes that I don't know if I should have thought to myself that they were quite oily like when I looked at her. But suddenly, she rushed in, hoping to kiss my mouth. Kissing on the cheek is still okay in public. But kissing her on the mouth was too much, so I held back Sana-unnie, but she still rushed in for two more rounds and the final round. Our mouths touched each other until...

It's not good at all. I can't stand your behavior anymore. Why do you like to play with other people's feelings? Is it deserved?

As soon as I finished work, I told myself that I should avoid her for a while to stop the feelings that were running wild until I couldn't return. I didn't want the feeling to go any further than this. If I don't restrain myself from now on, it will not be good for both me and the people in the group. How can I continue working if one day she has a boyfriend and I still like her like this?

“Are you okay? It's been a long time since I saw it."

Chaeyoung asked me as he was climbing into his own bed but noticed that I was unusual and climbed back down to sit next to me.

“Um, it's nothing. I guess I'm tired."

"Are you waiting for Sana to come find me?"

"You don't have to come, people will sleep and don't want to talk."

“Talking is like arguing. What's the matter? At the time of the sign, we still saw each other kissing."

When Chaeyoung brought up the topic of kissing, my face burned because I wasn't expecting it and didn't think Chaeyoung would see.

"nothing"

“Let me guess, you must have been very shaken when you were kissed by Sana and probably couldn't stand the fact that Sana likes to act like she has feelings for you, but sometimes it's like you don't because Sana does the same to me and the other members. Likewise, I'm annoyed and don't want to see his face, right?"

Smart girl

“I know very well.”

"I don't know how. I always notice you."

“I thought I was only looking at Mina.”

So I teased Chaeyoung back a bit until the younger man's face was as red as a tomato.

“Are you crazy? I didn't even look at you. I'm already sleepy. I'm going to bed now."

The mischievous boy pretended to be annoyed and climbed into his own bed.

Crack...

I was a bit startled when I saw that Sana opened the door and walked in. With the intention of avoiding me, I accidentally acted like I was angry at her by turning away.

“Go out and talk to me.”

"I'm not going. I'm sleepy and want to sleep."

“Just a moment, I have something very important to tell you.”

"What's the matter? Why can't you tell me here?"

“Dahyunna...”

Her face was very serious like that time we argued on the show.

Sixteen

I reluctantly nodded and followed her out into the living room. By now everyone else was probably asleep, so it was just me and Sana-unnie.

“Do you have something to tell me?”

“Are you angry that I kissed you today?”

"Answer whether you're angry or not. I'll act right next time so I don't have to do it again."

I'm not angry...I just don't want to think about it.

“You shouldn't kiss me in public. And today it really hit. Have you ever thought about the negative effects if fans think that we really have something to do with each other and it turns out that you have a boyfriend? Do you know what will happen?"

ONCE might think we've betrayed us and stopped being a fan, even worse is turning into an anti. And most importantly, I would be as sad as anyone else.

“Just kissing, it doesn't seem like anything. Mina and Momo have done it before. Are you thinking too much?”

“Did I think too much or did you think too little? I just said it like this. Keep saying it's nothing because you never know what I feel!”

So weak...so weak that it slipped out of my mouth.

“What do you feel?”

"I like you. Do you think it's easy to act like you don't feel anything when you really do? I'm tired of having to restrain myself every day, but you still like to give me hope."

“Act like you don't know, but actually you know, right? Is it a lot of fun? But I'm not having fun at all, heh..."

Unable to bear it any longer, I held my face and sobbed because of the repression that I had suppressed for a long time. The forbidden feelings in my heart overflowed to the hilt. I don't know what the person in front of me was doing because everything was covered with a curtain of tears. She must have been confused. And he's definitely angry at me. Or maybe we already hate each other. Silence enveloped the two of us as if we were standing amidst dark clouds.

Sister Sana is still standing in the same place. As for me, I'm gently wiping away tears.

I decided to walk back into the room because I wanted to get away. It's over, the good relationship between the two of us. But before I could take a step out, Sana rushed over and grabbed my face and placed his lips on the same spot. My eyes widened in shock because I never expected her to do this. The moist and soft touch made my legs so weak that I almost didn't have the strength to stand. I was startled when she lightly touched her lips with the tip of her tongue. Let me open the way for you to insert your tongue.

What is this?

I immediately pushed the person in front of me away and looked at her without understanding.

“What are you doing?”

Sister Sana lowered her head and looked at the ground before slowly speaking in a soft voice.

"It's actually not fun, but I don't know how to tell her that I like her."

“Huh?”

I blinked when I heard that. The brain is completely dizzy. My heart wondered if she was joking, but a serious look that I don't see from her often was staring at me.

“Da Hyun Na, it's really not easy to tell someone you love them.”

“I'm just afraid that if one day she changes her mind and doesn't like me, then I won't be able to stand it. Sometimes I think it's fine to continue being siblings, but I can't stop myself whenever I'm around her. ...excuse me"

Sister Sana lowered her head, I don't know if it was because she felt guilty or because she was embarrassed. Above all, I still couldn't understand the beginning and end. Am I dreaming? But if it were a dream, it would probably be the best dream in the world.

"Aren't you going to say anything?"

"I'm so sleepy...do you want to go take a nap?"

“Eh?”

"Oh, I mean sleep. It's very late. Tomorrow I have to wake up early and I won't be refreshed."

Out of embarrassment, I said the wrong thing, causing the meaning to change slightly. I solved the situation by leading the other person to the bedroom, but then Sana-hyung grabbed my arm and turned me around to face me again.

“What are we doing now?”

“Maybe Twice?”

“No, it means our current situation.”

How can you hire someone without speaking and asking embarrassing questions like that? Who would dare answer?

“Are we lovers yet?”

"Then you can kiss her, right?"

I raised my head to meet the eyes of the person in front of me, still, the sweet eyes that looked at me were still the same as before. I realized then that she had been thinking the same thing all this time.

While I keep thinking you don't know In fact, I am the one who doesn't know anything.

I leaned forward towards Miss Sana and placed my lips on the same spot as she did for me, left it like that for a long time, then slowly and lingeringly withdrew. I secretly saw a trace of regret in those eyes. As if that wasn't enough, she took my hand and led me to the sofa and pushed me to lie down on it. I don't know why I gave in so easily to another person, even though another part of me was afraid that Someone came and saw it.

“When other people come out and see what to do?”

"It's okay to just kiss yourself..."

There are many questions in my mind that if I don't ask, I won't know the answer.

Just like me, I have many doubts but don't dare to ask.

Without knowing that the answer...may be very pleasing to us.

____________________THE END____________________

Really satisfying fic.

I saw a moment when Zaida was wearing a revealing outfit at a fansign event and couldn't help it.

My shit glands trembled until I had to ask.

ONE-SHOT

Rough 55555555555555555555

If you like someone, don't forget to tell them.

Think about it: if you tell, there's a 50 chance, but if you don't tell, there's a 0 chance.

Stopped by to say that I'm about to give birth to my first long story.

SaiDa

I plan to decorate a lot of spars first and then gradually add them. Readers will not have to wait aimlessly.

But whether I can do it or not is another matter because the semester isn't over yet. Haha.

If you work hard, it might happen soon, but if you're lazy, just wait for the semester break next month.

See you soon.