"Stop skinshipping me. I really don't like it. I'm embarrassed."

Hyung's words from that day still echoed in my head, replaying in my head over and over and it was hard to take my attention away.

Even when sleeping When I woke up and even moved, I was still afraid of the feelings I had created.

What is that feeling?

I'm afraid he doesn't like me anymore.

The person who used to do everything I wanted. Pleased everything and taken care of us in everything.

With some of his words making us this sensitive.

I don't like it, but I never deny it.

Embarrassed, but sometimes I do it myself.

Babi hyung is so difficult to understand.

That day I was so embarrassed that I spoke up.

Maybe it's the words hyung wanted to tell me all along but I never dared to admit it.

I admit here that I am very sorry for his words that day.

When people know that something they've done is not good, they have to fix it, right?

Accepting that other people's criticisms hurt, but it's better than losing them through misunderstandings.

“Hanbin, eat,” Junhoe's voice called out to the person sitting alone in the room where the three of them were together. But it seems like he tends to hang out in a single room with someone else.

That room must have been impossible.

That brother's every personal space was now a forbidden area for him.

Hanbin pulled himself out of his confused reverie and went out to eat together.

Today everyone has a day off and it's a quieter holiday than ever or is he the only one who feels this way?

“Eat it, eat a lot.” Junhoe gave Hanbin a large serving of stir-fried pork with kimchi made by Brother Yoon.

Hanbin opened his mouth to take it and chewed it before getting up and leaving with the words that he was full.

It's late at night and everyone is still cheering and watching their favorite shows together on the living room sofa.

But only Hanbin was still distracted.

He took out a notebook and a pencil and wrote something down. There is no escaping what is known as new music.

It's a new song about his feelings right now.

From among the hundreds of songs written This is probably another song that has both his real feelings and experiences mixed in intensely.

“Hanbin, let's go watch television.” Junhoe followed him, seeing that Hanbin looked a bit too stressed. He couldn't accept seeing his roommate like this. He didn't like it when Hanbin was stressed. Because he always had to stress as if they were the same person.

“Let's see, I'm working on a new song.”

"We don't want new songs, now we need you." Take a break and relax. On working days, just do it.

But some stories feel good, so why bother interrupting them?

Hanbin put down his pencil and walked over to hug Junhoe tightly.

It's probably true that he lacks love, as Hyung says, just now he has to find a place to rely on.

Asking for a hug, asking to cuddle with someone will make you feel safer.

“What's wrong? Say, who did what to you?” A person who doesn't seem to care about anyone, but who knows that people like Junhoe are the ones that Oh Hanbin is the best at?

“Hyung,” Hanbin replied in a muffled voice.

“Babihyung, what else did you say? Come on, he's fierce because he loves you.”

“He wasn't fierce, but he didn't let me get close.”

"You've grown up, Hanbin. He wants you to be strong, you know that?" It's good to get some distance from him. stuck together like twins

“Why do I want to be weak just when I'm with him, Junhoe?” Hanbin buried his face in his broad shoulders. Junhoe hugged him understandingly.

The reason why you care about him so much, you know very well, Hanbin.

Junhoe let Hanbin compose the song as he wished, he chose to sleep with Jinhwan and Donghyuk slept with Mane hyung.

Hanbin came out of his room late at night, a little hungry because he had only eaten a little food that evening.

The kitchen was the target and of course he rushed there hoping there would be something for him to eat.

Someone was sitting there quietly playing a mobile game. Hanbin was a little taken aback when he saw that Babihyung was sitting there.

On the table were potato chips and the beer he liked to drink. Hyung had said that if he's stressed, he usually drinks beer.

As he walked back to his room, it was evident that hunger was not forcing him to come here. But fear was not powerful enough to compel him to turn back.

Hanbin walked in and opened the refrigerator quietly. He didn't plan on having a conversation with the person sitting there first.

He searched for something in the refrigerator to see if there was anything he could eat without realizing it.

Hands search for things, but the heart thinks only about the people behind them.

And that small hand had to stop moving because someone else's hand was holding it. Hanbin was shocked before he turned to face the person he knew.

“What are you doing?”

“How do you find something to eat?”

“The refrigerator is a complete mess and Yunhyung has arranged it in an orderly manner. You come and dismantle his things like this or you will get scolded.”

“Yunhyung hyung never scolds me.” Hanbin waved his hand away nonchalantly.

My heart is shaking all over, but I have to be kind and fight.

“Come here.” He was grabbed by his thin waist and hugged him before being taken away from the refrigerator.

“Let go of me,” Hanbin removed his large hand with his heart pounding.

Why did you tell him to stop skinship and hug him like this?

“Naughty doesn't understand what to eat or what to say.” Jiwon pretended to offer to find things in the refrigerator instead.

"I'm not eating anymore," Hanbin said before pretending to walk out of the kitchen.

But he had to stop and turn around to face Jiwon again because the big man had snatched him back.

He accidentally pushed his hand too hard, causing the small man to turn and hit him in the chest with a loud thud.

The long arms worked automatically as well, being a gentleman, he quickly wrapped his arms around the thin waist for fear that something might happen to the other person.

"Aren't you hungry? You had to come out this late. In the evening, you only ate a little."

Hanbin's heart beat faster than before when he heard Jiwon say that.

Hyung, do you even care how much or how little he eats?

Hanbin didn't answer. If it was like before, he would have made a pleading face and asked Hyung to make him something simple to eat. But now his feelings have changed a little.

The fear that the person in front of him would be dissatisfied had completely replaced his self-will.

“I will go after Yunhyung.”

“Why are you bothering him while I'm all here?”

“I won't disturb you, hyung,” Hanbin tried to pull himself away from those strong arms.

You can hug. Who exactly likes to come to skinship?

"Do you not like something about me? You've been acting weird these past few days."

“I don't like myself any more.”

Bobby heard this and fell silent. Now the thing that mesmerized him was the little man in his arms looking at him.

It was painful to see the person in front of him hurt by his actions.

I just want to be more clear with you. I don't know if you snuggle with me like that, it makes me feel too much about you. I feel so much that I don't know if I can still call you my little sister or my friend. nothing

I want to use words that are deeper than that for you, even though I don't know whether your actions that resemble those who lack love are real or just a joke.

I'm afraid that I'll just think about it myself. I'm afraid that one day if you find out and we're not on the same page, then I'll lose our closeness.

“Hate myself for never once being able to stop myself. I don't know why I wanted to beg Hyung. Want to be near hyung, want to do a lot of things with hyung. I feel safe and feel that my hyung protects me in everything no matter what anyone says but just the things that he says he doesn't like. I feel very sorry for making Hyung annoy me this much.”

Hanbin finished speaking and closed his eyes, his head shaking back and forth like he liked to do when he couldn't think of anything else. Can't process anything

Because of his adorable appearance, Jiwon doesn't protect him more than anyone else.

It's completely wrong because of your cuteness.

I said I don't like it because my heart races every time you get close.

That said I'm ashamed Because I couldn't hide my trembling.

And I don't want to do it again because I don't know how much longer I can endure your cuteness.

Do you understand what I'm thinking right now?

We won't touch each other at all, but please don't ignore each other like we have in the past few days.

I didn't realize what position I was in until others in the group caught on to my strange behavior.

But what you expressed after that day has made a huge impact on my heart.

People who can hardly stand it It turned out to be me.

Hanbin continued to stare at Bobby's face without looking away, a look in his eyes that doesn't lie.

I've already said the feelings he has. And what are you thinking hyung? I really want to know.

Jiwon didn't look away either and his mind was thinking of Jinhwan's advice.

/If he comes to catch you, catch him back./

Now it's been taken back.

And another advice

/kiss it/

Their eyes met, neither of them willing to leave until they got the answer.

I don't know if Hanbin thinks the same.

But Jiwon had already answered it.

Answered like the last advice that Jin gave.

END

I haven't written a fic for a long time, but I really can't stand this moment.

I miss everyone. And thank you to everyone who misses Kat. Hehe.

I'll come back soon.

Please leave a comment to give encouragement. Kiss and kiss.

BOBBY

"Stop skinshipping me. I really don't like it. I'm embarrassed."

Our own words from that day still repeat in our heads over and over and it reinforces the strange feeling every time we see the behavior of someone who is known as a close friend change like that.

I'm the one who asked him to stop doing it, but why does it hurt every time he walks away?

That thought made him sleepless. Jiwon leaves his room.

The kitchen is where the things he needs right now are beer and his favorite snacks.

He sipped beer and played games in hopes of relieving stress.

It wasn't long before he saw Hanbin walk in and went straight to search the refrigerator.

That figure stayed busy for a long time in front of the refrigerator until he couldn't bear to go in and stop him.

“What are you doing?” Jiwon asked, looking a little annoyed by the actions of the person in front of him for no reason. But when I saw him walk in and not even think to say hello, it made me a little annoyed.

“How do you find something to eat?”

“The refrigerator is a complete mess and Yunhyung has arranged it in an orderly manner. You come and dismantle his things like this or you will get scolded.”

“Yunhyung hyung never scolds me.” Hanbin waved his hand away nonchalantly.

“Come here.” His thin waist was grabbed and hugged before he was taken away from the refrigerator.

This thin waist is fascinating every time you touch it. And it cannot be denied that it is not pleasant to the touch at all.

“Let go of me,” Hanbin removed his large hand.

Jiwon was slightly startled by this action. He really didn't think it was him who felt that Hanbin had changed. Change and do as he asks.

And it did well. Ignoring him so much that he felt his heart sway.

“Naughty doesn't understand what to eat or what to say.” Jiwon pretended to offer to find things in the refrigerator instead.

"I'm not eating anymore," Hanbin said before pretending to walk out of the kitchen.

But he had to stop and turn around to face Jiwon again because the big man had snatched him back.

He accidentally pushed his hand too hard, causing the small man to turn and hit him in the chest with a loud thud. before wrapping his arms around his thin waist again

"Aren't you hungry? You had to come out this late. In the evening, you only ate a little."

Hanbin didn't answer. If it was like before, he would have made a pleading face and asked Hyung to make something simple for him to eat. But right now, the person in front of him doesn't show any signs of doing the same thing as before.

“I will go after Yunhyung.”

“Why are you bothering him while I'm here?” I've given you everything, Hanbin, just tell me.

“I won't disturb you, hyung,” Hanbin tried to pull himself away from those strong arms.

“Is there something you don't like about me? You've been acting strange these past few days."

“I don't like myself any more.”

I don't like myself like this. Go back to being yourself. I can hardly stand the situation between the two of us right now.

A situation that I caused, but I don't know how to solve it.

“Hate myself for never once being able to stop myself. I don't know why I wanted to beg Hyung. Want to be near hyung, want to do a lot of things with hyung. I feel safe and feel like my hyung protects me in every way, no matter what anyone says. But just because he said that he doesn't like me, I feel very sorry that he annoyed me this much.”

I want you to know that

I said I don't like it because my heart races every time you get close.

I said I was embarrassed because I couldn't hide my trembling.

And I don't want to do it again because I don't know how much longer I can endure your cuteness.

How do I explain it if the other person doesn't think the same way?

Brother Jin said that there is a way to solve this by saying: If he did it then do it back and another way is

Jiwon grabbed her thin waist and brought her close, their eyes meeting without anyone taking their eyes off.

Jiwon bowed down a bit because the other person was smaller.

His thin lips rested softly on the other's lips as if he owned them.

Hanbin pulled away before he could feel the softness of Jiwon's lips any further.

Hanbin's face brightened until another person noticed that Hanbin's face wasn't smiling. It made Jiwon nervous.

Jiwon stood still. He didn't mean to make Hanbin feel worse or even more confused than before, but just now he did it as he thought.

Why? Everything that made up Kim Hanbin made him shake and it was difficult to accept that one day he would have someone else he trusted more than himself.

Or what we say will be good and you should stop thinking about yourself from now on.

People who have to meet and live together every day, what should they do to keep their hearts from being shaken?

END

There is a sequel from Babi's point of view. My heart aches for my younger sibling so much.

May everything be better My chipper heart can't stand it anymore and I love you so much.