encounter and learning

(c) Chess theme

facing and learning

Ongsungwoo x Parkjihoon

2,291 words.

What we cannot see is far more vast than what is evident– Beauty of Physics(2017)

He doesn't believe in things he can't see. Many things are hard to believe if we have never seen them. Never even touched So how can we be confident in that? Some things even have pictures. There is confirmation, but we have never seen it with our own eyes. because it is like that However, it is hard to believe it wholeheartedly.

In addition to experiencing it ourselves, learning is one thing that helps increase belief. We learn it in order to know it. Gradually approach it, study it deeply to the core of everything that it is. so that we can know And believing that without any hesitation, we will sink deeper into the theory.

principles and reasons while nodding to yourself that you understand everything like this For that reason

However, the above methods cannot be used for everything in the world.

Especially human feelings

The most mysterious thing in the world for him besides the universe and black holes is probably feelings. It is more vast than the universe, more mysterious than a black hole. Or is it more complicated than the mechanics of how time works? It was something he didn't understand. And it was difficult to understand that he tried so hard to reach it, but couldn't.

He had never guessed anything about it. He had tried to predict what would happen from his feelings, but the results were different. Or is it always wrong?

Even the various theories of psychologists could not help him.

As he said It's a mystery.

It was the only thing he gave up on searching for answers. Because it's difficult. Every human being has different ideas according to various factors that shape that human being. One person can think more than anyone else could imagine. Because if it weren't so, we would all be living the same life.

move in the same direction And everything would be so bland that I couldn't bear it.

It's what we call life.

Lively

Things beyond expectations But you can use your heart to feel it.

Even though he doesn't really understand human feelings. However, he could feel that he still understood the word vitality. I understand the word dull completely, even though his dullness is when it's like all the interesting books suddenly disappear from the bookstore when I open the website and can't find any exciting articles. Now it's raining and the power goes out at night to the point where you can't do anything and fall asleep to the dullness waiting for color and excitement to fill you up.

But recently

It was like his color was changing.

young boy at bookstore

A part-time employee whose name he didn't know even though he had a name tag on his shirt because he never bothered to read it, a bright-haired boy with a smile on his face that he didn't understand was a smile that It usually came out when the book bag was handed to him. A sweet voice said thank you. Along with the saying meet again Every time he bought a book back

Although every time he could only look at that face silently and walk out of the store, when he returned to his room, he felt that he had subconsciously absorbed what he had been holding in his heart from the first time. who received it

He felt good every time he returned from the bookstore. An indescribable feeling arose every time he thought of going to buy a new book to read, where he used to buy three or four books at a time because he was too lazy. At that store, he often bought them one at a time and read them quickly to the end so he could buy a new one.

Sometimes he's confused about whether he enjoys reading those books or something.

Human feelings are difficult to predict, including your own feelings.

But it seems like His colors become more vivid than ever before.

It was a mid-week evening in July. The short hand of the clock points to the number. 7, while the long hand points to the number 5He was standing intently selecting books on the shelf with a sharp face, staring at the second shelf alternating with the lower shelf with confusion in his brain, carefully evaluating the interestingness of the contents and covers just because of his intentions. Today is about buying just one book to take home.

He stood with one leg resting in front of the floor until he heard a sweet, familiar sound next to him.

"Can't you choose?"

He turned to look at the owner of the voice, not knowing what kind of expression he had on his face, his sweet face still smiling like that as always. As he had seen every time he had visited here, he saw the person in front of him tilt his head slightly as if trying to emphasize the question that had been uttered just now.

“Uh..”

That was his clumsy voice. It was as if his brain that had been processing so quickly had suddenly slowed down. He raised his awkward hand and scratched at his temple for no reason.

"I've seen you staring at those two books for a long time. Why don't you just take them both?"

The young man said as he picked up the said book and flipped it around to see its condition, then stacked it on top of the other and held it in front of his face.

“I think they're both interesting.”

He took them with both hands, looking at the owner of a bright smile before his brain decided to abandon the determination he had made from before.

"thank you"

He said it in a low voice. The boy nodded in agreement before turning around. He looked at the group of light-colored hair that looked like he was checking books on various shelves, staring at the person's movements. that cannot take your eyes off Before he knew it, the sound of rain had suddenly replaced the silence in his reverie. He looked out of the clear glass and saw large raindrops falling continuously.

His sigh was so loud that everyone else in the store turned their heads to watch him walk towards the cash register and put down the books with a heavy heart at the thought of running through the downpour. The sight of the room made him feel a little uneasy. The young cashier did his duty as usual while his thick hand reached into his pocket. He held out a banknote close to the value of the two books. That's the most before receiving the withdrawal money along with those bags of books.

and of course

Thank you

and

The saying that I found....

“Do you want to take shelter from the rain here first?”

No, this time it was different. It's not a thank you and a saying that we'll see each other again.

It was like he was stunned for a moment. His brain was processing the unexpected and he gave a small nod in response before the little figure told him to come and sit together at the counter. This was probably the closest he and the child could get. The man at the bookstore, the sound of water hitting the concrete floor and clear glass outside the store, was loud enough to break the silence between us, but he didn't feel any discomfort in the atmosphere.

Because he was in a place with nothing but books, he could only pick up the book and read it, his hands slowly unwrapping the plastic wrap that held the book he had just bought, his sharp eyes filled with the excitement of searching. Discovering and learning new things, he touched the cover with his hand and muttered the name of the book softly, not knowing that all of this action was in the eyes of another person.

Sometimes the feeling of getting a new toy made him forget that there was another person sitting next to him who couldn't be further apart.

A small figure who should walk out and take care of the various books on the stocking shelves or whatever. Instead, they sat there, sitting behind the cash counter next to the regular customers. They weren't seated close together like close friends. But it was not distant, as if people didn't know each other. It was a good distance that both of them were happy to give to each other.

Sweet eyes looked at the customer in front of him with interest, as if the employee wanted to know what the person in front of him would do with the book next. But the customer put the book on his lap and those sharp eyes looked up. Staring at the small figure's face To the point that the person being stared at had to return a slight smile, but those eyes suddenly dropped downwards.

"Don't you read it?"

the bright-haired boy asked as his eyes landed on the cover of the book on his lap, to be honest. He should have been the one to ask why they were staring so much. He, who was in the trance of the new book, suddenly raised his head to meet those shining eyes.

A feeling that could be called embarrassment appeared for the first time inside his heart. It was strange. without understanding and invites you to escape before your brain has to think about processing any commands The damned mouth suddenly spoke.

“Better not.”

He answered simply. Before the silence could form again, the strange feeling he had mentioned earlier suddenly faded. The eyes that had once shone brightly dimmed after hearing the answer. If the person in front of him had a tail, he would probably... I can feel that it has clearly slumped.

We all sat like that. It's been more than an hour now, but it looks like the rain won't stop easily this time. Our eyes have been focused on various points inside the store. For the past one hour, there hasn't been any interaction within this shophouse. There was only the sound of the two people breathing and the sound of the rain flowing like that.

“Where are you staying?”

A young man's question broke the silence once again, causing him to look away from his original position.

“The condo near the corner,” he said, pointing in the direction of his residence. “That way.”

“Is that right there?”

The young employee's index finger pointed in the same direction as him to be sure. The voice of the person in front of him suddenly brightened to the point that he could feel it. It was exciting and surprising, and those clear eyes lit up again.

He nodded his head up and down in response. before receiving that bright smile back

“You are in the same place as me.”

“I've never seen you before.”

“Usually we meet here.”

That voice chattered nonstop about our accommodations and the places around here, our encounters, why we'd never met him anywhere except at this bookstore, and his status. He, who seemed to become an honorary customer of the shop, could not tell when, as his clumsiness decreased inversely with his enjoyment of listening to those stories.

“Uh...but....”

He raised his eyebrows slightly in confusion.

“Want to go back together?”

A sweet voice asked as he listened to the story with flowing emotion. That question immediately made him bounce upright and sit up straight. An attack of feelings he couldn't understand arose once again. As that strange feeling grew more and more It was churning inside and couldn't be ordered to stop right now.

butterflies flying in the stomach

Nonsense sentences from romantic novels that had passed before his eyes.

Perhaps this was the best definition he could give of what was happening to him right now.

It was more than the feeling of embarrassment of being watched, it was more than the feeling he absorbed after walking back from the bookstore, it was more than the excitement of holding a new book for the first time, it was more than when he was able to find the answer. to a math problem that is more difficult than anything I've ever encountered.

A strange feeling that he had just discovered.

And he seemed to want to study it.

“Here you go, employee.”

FIN

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