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GOODBYE MY LOVE

HOPE TO SEE AGAIN

Before, it was Kukwi's version. We're Lin Hyun's version because he asked for it.

Snap, snap.

I slowly lowered the camera after capturing the desired image before slowly smiling. Look at the picture in front of you to remember it through the naked eye.

A bright smile that seemed to freeze time for me forever

'Hey, what's up? You're peeking again.' The new guy put his arm around my neck and said in a teasing tone, typical of a cheeky person. I looked away from the original spot I was looking at before turning and giving my friend a small smile. 'If you like it, just flirt'

'Don't bother, I can handle it myself'

'I've seen you sneaking around like this for a long time. I don't see what you're doing. Just wait and see. What will I do if the dog grabs it and eats it? You'll be able to cry now'

'I'm just going to study before the dog,' I replied to my friend before picking up my book and getting ready to study, looking at the board like a student. But I'm not going to study. It was only at the corner of my eye that I could see someone sitting in the front of the classroom.

'I heard there's a senior who's flirting with me. Hurry up. If you're angry, I'll laugh.'

When I heard the news from my friend at the time, I immediately knew what I had to do.

I remember the first time we talked that day it was snowing. It was almost midnight when I went out to buy something at the mart in front of the village when I was about to walk back with two bags full of the snacks I wanted. The surrounding atmosphere seemed so quiet that it was frightening.

‘Help!’ A cry for help came from an alley I was about to pass. My heart dropped to my knees.

I remember that voice well.

Jihoon's voice

I dropped the bag of snacks on the ground before running into an alley where there were cries for help and meeting two men who appeared to be very drunk. One person was about to take off the shirt of an unfortunate victim. The other person stood behind him and tried to put his hand into the victim's pants. Even though I could only see a fraction of his face, I was sure that it was definitely the person I had in mind.

I tried to look for something that could be used as a weapon before I found a rusty iron bar on the side of a building near me. I hurriedly grabbed the iron rod in my hand and rushed towards the three of them. I raised my hands above my head. He slammed the iron rod in his hand into the head of the man in front with such force that it cracked. The blood flowed horribly.

It immediately lay motionless, but I thought that it was only unconscious and not dead. I took my eyes off the body lying on the ground before turning to give the remaining tiger-like glare to the remaining person. When the villain saw that his own people were being attacked, I'm afraid. It hurriedly pushed the person whose clothes were frayed and fell onto the damp ground before running away out of fear.

wiry

I dropped the rusted iron bar that had blood stains on the ground before going to help the person who had been pushed onto the ground to stand up and hold hands, some of which had red marks from rubbing against the gravel until they were scratched and covered in blood. Gently brushing away the dirt, I could feel the trembling body of the person in my arms.

'Kuanlin,' the little person I helped called my name in a low voice. The round eyes that I had just been able to look straight into had a look of fear. I stretched out my thick arms to caress the thin waist, bringing it close to myself. His hand rubbed his back to soothe his fear.

'I myself don't have to be afraid'

I initially planned to go get some snacks to eat but ended up getting someone to come back instead.

After standing and comforting each other in the cold air for a long time until Jihoon stopped shivering, I took off my long coat and gave it to the other person to wear to relieve the cold. He managed to carry some of the bodies onto his back before leading him out of the scene of the incident. The other person's clothes were crumpled. Where will it be around the wound on the hand? If I went back to my own house right now it would definitely be a big deal, so I invited him to go to my own house first. As for the culprit, I already called the police to come take care of him.

'Oh, are we bothering you?'

'No, I'm alone'

When you arrive at the house, ask for yourself. I told Jihoon to go take a shower and wash himself. The other person spent almost an hour in the shower. And I heard soft sobs that came out, guessing that Jihoon was still afraid and so he secretly cried in the bathroom. I pressed my ear against the door. Standing and listening to another person cry with mixed feelings, the biggest being pity for Jihoon having to go through something like this. And one thought became clear.

I want to take care of Jihoon more.

'Jihoon, I like you, but I can start by being your friend. I won't rush you. When will you like me? Then I'll ask you to date me right away.'

And that was the beginning of the two of us.

Snap, snap.

My long fingers clicked to take another picture of the foreground as the little figure bent down to suck a smoothie while happily playing with the phone in his hand.

No matter how much time has passed But everything for me is still the same.

'Ji, let's date each other' on a day when the trees are blooming green leaves to say goodbye to winter. I arranged to meet Jihoon at a park near my house in the late afternoon of a Wednesday. I didn't kneel or hold a bouquet of flowers. Everything wasn't fancy, but it was memorable. For almost three years we have been friends, I have followed Jihoon and learned a little bit every day. Until today, I thought it might be time.

People who are asked to date have bright red cheeks because of embarrassment. before nodding slightly with a slightly nervous expression.

'Uh'

And that day was the day I got Jihoon's heart to take over.

I looked at the sweet face sitting on the bench through the camera lens, continuously taking photos of another person. From this angle, I'm sure the other person wouldn't be able to see me because the trees were blocking me.

Yes, I'm peeking behind a tree.

'Let's break up, Lin.' And once again, winter was creeping in. Jihoon cried until his eyes were red and bruised. The words ended our three-year relationship. I, who had no right to protest, could only bow my head and accept the decision. Even though I wanted to hold back, I didn't dare. In my heart, I thought that I should let the other person find someone better than myself.

This mistake of mine was huge and difficult to forgive. Even though it was just an extraversion, it caused quite a bit of damage to our love.

That day it was like the whole world was about to sink into the vast ocean. Everything was so dark that I couldn't find a way out of this matter. In the end, he could only let the other person go.

I remember being stubborn and not seeing Jihoon for a whole month and finally giving up. It was me who went in and asked for another opportunity. We wanted to start over and promise not to make the other person cry again, but it seemed too late. I immediately realized that the other person was about to fall out of love.

'Can you please wait for Lin? Lin really can't live without Ji. Please help love Lin a little. Please wait for Lin.'

I came to realize that I couldn't live without another person on the day I was about to die.

'Do you want to know who Jihoon chose? Wait and listen, I'll ask him for you.' The voice of the person I disliked because he was about to steal my lover from me sounded into my ears. It throbbed like someone was violently shaking it. I'm afraid of hearing the truth from the person I love.

'....Can we wait until we get over our feelings from Kuanlin?'

'If Jinyoung wants it...we will accept it'

My tears flowed down again. It felt like I was being pushed into a deep abyss. My heart was constricting and tightening in my chest to the point where I could hardly recover. A hard lump stuck in my throat but I couldn't swallow it.

'The pendant is gone, right?'

'Not yet, there's a lot left...but it's not like it used to be.'

'Right now, it's like a friend.' How many feelings can our hearts tolerate? It's something I've been wondering about and today I'm getting an answer. So many feelings were collapsing and piling up on top of me until I couldn't breathe.

'...Um, thank you...that at least there's some left.' And on the day that the rain was falling from the wide sky, that was the day that our love had reached a dead end, I could only smile and accept the truth. Even though I want to die

Snap, snap.

I clicked to take the last photo and the other person looked right at me. We looked into each other's eyes through the lens for a long time. Before I slowly lowered the camera to look at another person who was smiling gently at me, I slowly smiled back at the other person. I felt like I wanted to cry, but I held it back.

miss very much

I wanted to say these words to another person, but when I saw the new person running his hand through the soft hair I had touched, I stopped my words because I no longer had the right.

Jihoon looked away from me and looked at the person who was caressing himself with a happy smile. Jihoon stood up before joining Jinyoung in contact and turned to walk away. He didn't even look back at me from behind the tree.

I bent down and looked at the nearly one hundred pictures I had taken on my camera, smiling a little at the happiness that came from seeing Jihoon's face even though it was through a photograph, but that's all I wanted. I'm happy now.

I promise to love Jihoon forever. I'll keep watching from afar and never disappear.

The day Jihoon doesn't have anyone left, that day he will still have me by his side.

Because I really love Park Jihoon very much.

GOODBYEMY LOVE : END

Annyong came in because I saw someone commenting that I was lost. Haha. It's over. We haven't recovered.

P.S. Thank you for coming to read. I love you.