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I really miss Jaehyun.

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Jaehyun Fighting!!!

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Jaehyun had never been gone for this long.

At first, I didn't know that I had fallen in love with Jaehyun. Plus there are so many that... I just think that tomorrow I will have to wake up and not see my face. How much suffering must it be?

The owner of that house once told me... I won't run away. Then look and do it.

Every time Jaehyun brought chocolate ice cream to the front of the room. I'll leave a short note saying, 'Keep fighting.

xx'

Sometimes I leave it like that until it melts. Tiny note paper stained with ice cream stains

This happened often until recently, the same flavor of ice cream started to have dry ice attached to it. But the note in there was still the same message: 'Fighting'.

I already know that... Sometimes you think People like Jaehyun Aside from a sweet smile, are you able to say other words other than this word?

But I can only think. I never asked. How can I ever go? We hardly ever talk more than three sentences.

Is my first paragraph annoying? If so... I'm sorry, it's my first time... That I could be myself and dared to talk about my feelings for Jaehyun

I'm just one of those people who never realized how valuable love from someone close to me like 'Jaehyun' is.

I was only arrogant. Praise myself every time he tried to give me love.

I feel like it doesn't matter. Jaehyun isn't going anywhere.

Three years of having Jaehyun in my life, morning, noon, evening, and before bed, a short message of greeting. in the morning of a new day Nothing but 'Hello, I really like your smile'.

I get goosebumps every time I have to read it. But once I got used to it, it became fun to read aloud and look around to find the owner of the message hidden somewhere beside me.

As for the bedtime messages that are usually sent at 23:40 minutes, they will revolve around something like: 'Think of only good things. Before closing your eyes, if you can't think of it, you can think of me.'

At first, I almost threw my phone away. But after a while, it turned out to be I just sat and smiled at the short message. that's an hour To the point of not being able to sleep

Talking about Jaehyun There are only good things in my head. There will be bad things right now. I don't know where he disappeared to...

No notepad in the morning

There was no ice cream during the day with the same message of 'keep fighting'.

Plus, when I went to sleep, there were no sweet messages to invite my heart to beat irregularly.

Right now there's nothing related to Jaehyun.

"What's wrong? I'm so annoyed." These are the words I often say to myself these days. He talks so often that he starts to get annoyed with himself.

Without Jaehyun, why must I be so lonely?

No note was written the same way every day for three years. So why don't you have the courage to do anything?

I hate myself for always running away...

I hate saying 'I don't love you'.

I hate it when I make a bad face. Make another person feel bad

I hate every moment where every day there is only Jaehyun.

Until one day there is no more... I can barely survive.

I think one of the sad things about people is not being aware that there is love floating around us. Hold us out of times of suffering. Loneliness without us knowing

At least I am one person...

I don't know anything about Jaehyun. Besides the locker number at the radio club It's the only thing about Jaehyun that I remember.

In the morning, I write notes on brown paper. Folded into the shape of a fox Then put it in locker number 501.

During the day, before going down to eat I wrote a note on white paper. Pasted it onto a bag of snacks from a brand that he assumed Jaehyun would like to eat. When finished, put it in the same locker number 501.

Been doing this for almost two weeks now...

Locker number 501 is now full of snacks and animal-themed notes.

Anyone passing by would probably notice me. I smiled sadly at my locker every time he asked me to smile. I usually do the opposite.

There's no way... I can't smile at Jaehyun. I don't know why I would be jealous. Now I'm smiling like a crazy person. Plus he smiled at the locker.

Me right now... I'm extremely lonely, I haven't had Jaehyun for two weeks.

I sat down and wrote the original message. I've been writing for two weeks in the morning.

'Your smile is very important to my heart.'

Before going down to eat, he wrote down: 'Wherever you are or what are you doing I'll be right here, keep fighting, Jaehyun' and put it on a small piece of candy.

and before bedtime I wrote it down in my personal notebook: 'I'm falling in love with Jaehyun.'

It is a true feeling that I have always tried to avoid. From now on, I will abandon all the conditions that I have made. At least if Jaehyun comes back and asks me about it. I would be able to tell him directly, "I like you the most, Jung Jaehyun."