Every Tuesday in July is my busiest day of the week.

Every hour there are phone calls from both acquaintances and strangers. Keep calling me about documents from each company.

I have to be responsible, organized, and organized so that I follow the plan I have set for each day.

My working time is From nine o'clock in the morning until five o'clock every day, I am never absent or late.

I have always followed the rules and respected the company's rules.

Even on days when I'm seriously ill I'm still waiting on the phone, arranging and checking the completeness of the documents.

Before the documents I made ended up in the hands of company heads in many countries.

They praise me for my work.

My subordinates praise me for my orderliness and thoughtfulness each time I work.

after work time I often walked back to the apartment my parents had left for me.

Before they died in a car accident

When they passed away I'm in my second year of university.

Makes me have to live with you. Father's younger sister who supported and paid for my tuition until I graduated with a bachelor's degree

I don't have any relatives besides my uncle. My mother's relatives cut us off.

Because Grandpa didn't agree to let Mom marry Dad. Both of you ran away and lived together when you were young.

My mother always told me this when I was a child. Grandpa is a strict person. Being a high-ranking civil servant

Grandpa couldn't accept that Mom was living with an uneducated man. I have no family and am an orphan like my father.

"So Mom ran away from Grandpa?"

“Yes, my mother ran away to live with his father. We both work. In the morning, everyone went their separate ways to work early in the morning.

Until in the evening, we sat down to eat together in a small rented room, relying on the kindness of the aunt next door that my father knew.

So Mom and Dad got very cheap rent in those days."

"Mother, aren't you afraid that Grandpa will regret running away from home without saying goodbye first?"

"After my mother ran away from home My grandmother always came to see Mom, but Grandpa never came to see Mom.

But until the day Mom and Dad had a mouse.

Grandfather even promised to pay for the mother's expenses to go to a better place. But the mothers chose to stay here.”

"Why doesn't Mom move away from here?"

''Here, there are more memories between my father and mother than I can afford to lose.

Therefore, mother decided to stay here.”

''Memories?'' I could only feel doubt as soon as I heard it.

But I didn't think to ask Mom about the details of the memories that Mom and Dad had together in that room.

Next Tuesday marks five years since the death of the person I loved most in my life.

So I applied for leave from the company. The company approved me.

I traveled by train and it was a very new feeling for me.

From a very busy Tuesday with waiting to solve problems from careless subordinates.

Having to please the heads of companies who looked at me like they saw me as a sex object.

Before this train leaves the platform Vendors also take turns selling boiled eggs, grilled chicken, and sticky rice.

and had to rush off the train so he could sell things on other trains.

I just sat and looked out the window.

Feel the wind I haven't felt in over two years.

Feel the sunshine shining on my face before I close my eyes.

hear people's voices People of different generations expressed their feelings on this train.

I continued to touch myself now that I began to feel a shiver on my body.

I'm shaking, yeah, I can't control it

Many thoughts began to emerge. The lights, colors, and sounds I had heard now came back to frighten me again.

Afraid, afraid, afraid of having to face what still surrounds me.

Both my ears could still hear the sound of those words.

Until it made me fall asleep.