[TWICE]...Clear...(SaiDa)

relationship without status

It's like owning a treasure chest...with nothing in it.

I can't tell if packing my bags to return to Japan for the long holiday was exciting or depressingly lonely. It wasn't that I didn't want to go home to my family or friends. But it was because of the people here that made me hesitate.

A child white as a fluorescent light sleeping in a room without any attention to the dog or cat.

“Finished packing up, Sana-chan.”

Mina's soft voice asked in her native language, causing me to wake up from my trance to answer her.

"It's finished. I didn't take much, I only stayed for a week."

“I should probably get a month off. I miss Ray and want to be with Ray for a long time.”

The pretty face pretended to hug the pillow tightly in place of the golden-haired dog that he was raising but couldn't bring up here.

“If you take a break for that long, they won't come back and be lazy.”

"Oh no, Sana must come back anyway."

I really don't understand what Mina is trying to convey.

“Why do you have to go back?”

"I couldn't bear to miss Dahyun so I had to go back. Like Sana-chan, I've been so upset for three days."

I made my nostrils flare, suppressing a smile from embarrassment. The Kobe kid was playing with me.

“I know very well that I must be kissed to hurt my cheek.”

I started to go up and kiss him on the cheek, but was stopped by a younger person who used his arm to support me like a well-known person.

“When I came in, he really slapped me and walked out. Just now I saw Dahyun wake up and went to find him.”

When I heard the name of the important person, my eyes instantly widened with excitement. I was told that he was an important person. No matter what the other person did, I was all excited. That's when I left my room to go to my destination, which was the room. The maknae line member I was thinking about suddenly came out of the room.

"Oh Sana, where are you going?"

“I was about to go find her and she came out like I knew her.”

“I'm going to go see you too, for several days, just to kiss you goodbye.” My heart skipped a beat when I heard her say that. But it was like being slapped in mid-air later. “I will kiss all four of you. You and Momo, Mina and Nayeon as well. I see that you are going to Japan as well. I really want to go.”

“Why do you look like that? Did I say something wrong?”

“I just thought that you would want to kiss me alone.”

My honesty still comes as a shock to Dahyun, which gives me hope that the other person might feel the same. Our relationship is like this: taking turns being secretive, taking turns being shy. Take turns being jealous, take turns reconciling. But in the end, everything ended in ambiguity. And the word brother that I never wanted to be

“Have a nice trip, Miss Sana.”

"um"

"Don't get hurt, don't get sick, come back."

"yeah"

“Most importantly, don't forget souvenirs.”

"I know. Have you ever forgotten?"

"Don't forget to think of me, you know."

“Oh.”

I think about it every day. I won't tell you, I'm upset.

“Don't charm anyone. Don't smile too much and don't wear too many shorts because you might get cold.” Dahyun paused for a moment before speaking in a low voice. “Someone will get jealous.”

“Who is jealous?”

“What kind of fan club is this?”

“Who else?”

“Your parents might be worried.”

“And who else?”

“I am, I am jealous,” she made a tickling sound in her throat, pretending to be annoyed but gave me a red cheek, but smiled widely, cheeks almost exploding into Cocoa Crunch. “You always force me to say this.”

“I want you to be embarrassed. Why are you a little shy with me? Will it kill me?”

"I don't know. So you're going now, right?"

“Oh, wait for Moe to come back first, I saw that she's at the company...so when will she come home?”

“Wait for me to go. I told Nayeon that I would return after sending you all away.”

Dahyun talked about the manager unnie who was waiting at the bottom of the dorm and suddenly we were quiet, like we couldn't think of anything else to talk about, but no one thought of walking away like we were falling. in a trance

“Kiss me goodbye.”

I said, breaking the silence.

“Where is better? Forehead or cheek?”

"mouth"

"Are you crazy? We're women. How can we do that? Besides, we're brothers."

“I don't want to hear that word anymore. You know that I don't want to be just siblings.”

“So what do you want to be?”

"wife"

“Uncle Sana!”

Dahyun's face was red. I don't know if it was because of anger or because of embarrassment.

"I got my girlfriend. She hasn't made it clear what we are like even though she feels the same. Why haven't you made a decision yet?"

“You are a lovely older sister. That's really how I feel.”

It hurt like someone had hit me on the head with something hard and told me to wake up from my dream.

"You really don't like me like that, do you? Because it doesn't make any sense that someone as beautiful as you is gay."

“And why can't a beautiful person want to have sex with a beautiful person?”

“Uncle Sana!”

“Then why do you have to be jealous of me? Why do we have to care and take care of each other as we please if she doesn't think of anything more than that?”

"Well...I'm also your cute little sister."

“No, she just doesn't want to admit that she likes you...forget it. No need to kiss goodbye, I'm not in the mood for sex right now.”

That's right, I'm just your good older sister who holds my hand while playing Vikings together. The person who hugs you and wipes away your tears when you're the happiest, like graduation day, is the person who carries you through fear like when you went on a thrill walk in Switzerland. Just someone who sees that you are more beautiful than any other scenery in this world, as if you are everything in life.

But I can only be 'that' for you.

Fair? Not at all.

So people like me accept it?

I won't give in!

“I really miss ONCE.”

I've been back from Japan for a while now and am now chatting with my fans via V Live. You can say I'm exaggerating, but right now I think I'm more attached to my fans than my fans are to me. This isn't where I came to V Live to meet. ONCE, after thinking about it for a long time, it made a strange request, so he asked the manager to come alone in the car. There were many people screaming at me through the comments that they wanted to walk together. I want to eat together sometimes, and what I see with my eyes often is

'I want to have a wife like Sana...'

Look, there are thousands and thousands of people who want to have me by their side as their lover, but why does someone so close to me think the opposite? The white kid who calls me darling every time he gets upset, but when the anger goes away, he comes back and hurts me like before by saying I'm a good older sister. How many times have I told him that I don't want to be an older brother? I'll be your wife!

But if the word wife is too difficult to call, you can turn to be a husband.

I wanted to say this too, but I was afraid the child's heart would run away. Suddenly, my eyes caught a comment and a bright idea came up.

'How is it with Eunha Yeo Jashin Goo?'

“Um...with Eunha? Eunha is my girlfriend so I can't say much. It's a secret, right? A secret."

Heke, I'm 100% certain that the person who secretly watched me in the room would say hello within 5 minutes. Definitely a second later

Dahyuni:

I have a boyfriend and I don't tell him.

3 seconds even...

I almost couldn't help but smile when I saw someone's message pop up but I had to ignore it because it wouldn't just be one message because it would get suspicious. The other person will continue to spam in such a way that if they don't answer, they will probably send it like that.

Dahyuni:

Can you stop V yet? I'm annoyed by a lot of people smiling.

Dahyuni:

Your cheeks are about to break.

Dahyuni:

I told you not to eat pickled crab before going to bed.

Crazy boy

Dahyuni:

So when did you go to date? I don't see it at all...

Dahyuni:

Oh, it's a secret.

Dahyuni:

Or just fool the fans?

Dahyuni:

Just kidding, right? Is this fan service? The international fleet must be screaming, right?

This girl's mischievous jealousy is truly second to none.

And then you'll still be stubborn and say you don't like it.

I didn't reply to Dahyun's message and let it bounce and bounce like that until the live was finished. Until I finished filming anything, I walked into the room and saw Dahyun sitting on the phone, looking serious. I didn't know who I was talking to. But when he saw that I had walked in, he immediately swooped in to find me.

“Why don't you answer my messages? Sent many of them.”

“Do you have to answer anything?”

“Oh...er, say this. You don't have to, it's not important."

"You're live talking to your fan club. You're going to answer right there, aren't you?"

“The live was finished a long time ago, wasn't it?”

“Let's meet right here anyway. Why are you so agitated about hyung and Eunha?”

The other person hung his head in disapproval but was stunned and refused to speak.

“Well...”

“So?”

“Well, you already raised your leg high in the live. Wearing a short skirt doesn't look good.” I rolled my eyes in the shape of eight at the change of subject. "Fans are so jealous of you. Reading in the comments, people complain that your legs aren't as slender and beautiful as Yoon Ah Sun Ba Nim's. You don't have to show as much."

"The lips are so good they're kissable."

“I'm just kidding, people are very possessive...but just now I asked Shinbi what happened to Eunha and she said Eunha was talking to Sowon hyung. In conclusion, you really just want to please the international sailors, right?"

“I'm so anxious that if I don't ask you to join me, I'll have you wrestle me right now.”

"Let's get into this matter again. I'll hit you right away."

"If you dare to hit me, I will let you hit me. Come and hit me."

I made a stern face and put so much inner into every word that the person in front of me sensed that there was another hidden meaning. Dahyun's cheeks were bright red but he pouted and moaned like a man who couldn't fight.

"You pervert 2017"

I don't want the opportunity I've worked so hard to create to disappear into thin air. So he pulled the other person into serious mode.

“Dahyunna, why don't you tell me directly that you like me? What are you afraid of? It's not like I can wait for an answer from you forever. If you don't tell me now, I won't wait.”

"Sister Sana"

The heart is just a lump of flesh. If you're hurt a lot, you can't stand it either.

“I just thought that if the two of us feel this much for each other, then why don't we move our relationship to something more? It is not wrong at all.”

“Is status really that important to you?”

“No one doesn't want clarity.”

“But where we are is already good.”

“So, can you tolerate it if one day I have a boyfriend?”

“Can you tolerate it if the person you hug is not you but someone else?”

"I..."

“Can you bear it if you are happy because of someone else's words of love that didn't come from your mouth?”

“Can't stand it.”

The younger's eyes became red and watery. I was glad that at least her feelings didn't lie and were clearly expressed to me.

“Did you see that, Dahyun? Just thinking about it makes you hurt, so what are you waiting for?”

“Wait for the dating contract to expire.”

It was me who was quiet enough to hear that.

“The company's rules are very strict, you know. I'm afraid we might be fired if he finds out. One more thing...my parents will definitely kill me if they find out I'm dating a woman. I'm a Christian. Things like this are quite 'abnormal' in other people's eyes.”

The things that had been repressed in my heart were finally released. On one hand, I felt relieved that at least I knew the truth about what she was thinking. But on the other hand, I was really thinking along with the other person as well. Most Koreans who are conservative will die and we may be hated by many people because of this. Even though it turned out to be beautiful

Love is always a beautiful thing, but why has it become 'abnormal'? I don't know.

I lovingly held the hand of the person who had just confessed my discomfort and wanted to show that I was ready to protect her.

“You don't have to be afraid. No matter what happens, I will be by your side.”

“I'm so happy to be near you. My heart beats so fast every time you come near me,” Dahyun said while scratching the back of her neck. I couldn't help but caress the side of her cheek affectionately. “So I'm afraid that if something actually happens, I won't be around you again.”

“I told you not to be afraid of our obstacles after this, just leave it in the future. Now I ask you to look at the present and not lie to your heart.”

It's not often that I hear a python queen like me say something like this, but I immediately feel like I'm not poisonous. The younger person gives me goosebumps and looks at me in disbelief.

“You can talk coolly to him too.”

"I like it. It's emotional, right?"

“Uncle Sana!”

"Oh, I won't say it...I love you."

“I love you too.”

"love very much"

“Very much the same.”

“The most”

"enough"

Keke

Sana is not a bird anymore, everyone.

“Haha, Sana, don't you understand the joke of wanting to be a fan's couch?”

I looked at Momo's face for a bit because I didn't know what the other person was talking about, but quickly figured it out because it was bothering me a lot and I still didn't get an answer.

"Oh, I don't understand why it's difficult to want to be a sofa and have to support other people's weight."

"Do you really not know or are you pretending to not know?"

“I really don't know. I'm starting to get annoyed. So it's a joke or what?"

“Go ask Dahyun.”

“Dahyun knows, right?”

"Oh, you're not stupid."

“Then I'll go ask now. Is your sister in the room?”

When I entered the maknae line's room, I saw Dahyun packing her bags because she had to go home. For a second, I felt a little sad. We'll have to stay apart again tonight.

“Have you finished packing yet?”

"Oh Sana, it's been a long time since I finished this. I'm just checking to see if I forgot anything."

I hugged Dahyun from behind and rested my chin on his shoulder pleadingly.

“I haven't gone yet and I already miss you.”

"I'm going home. I'm not going to fight."

"That"

“We can just call each other, no, we'll meet up tomorrow anyway.” Dahyun must have thought I was ridiculous so he laughed softly like that.

“I can hear the sound but can't hug, what does it matter?” I said in a muffled voice, unable to understand the words, so the white boy turned and hugged me tightly.

“Don't be a crybaby, darling.”

Oh, when the child is brave, his mouth becomes a lot sweeter.

“It's okay if you don't cry. Do you have anything you want to ask? Do you know what the joke about wanting to be a sofa means?" As soon as I finished asking, Dahyun burst out laughing, making me even more curious. "What's funny? Do you want to laugh?"

“Ah, if I had to explain it in words it would be difficult. It's like that.”

“Please explain. It shouldn't be too difficult for you to understand, right? Ready to listen."

I looked into the younger man's eyes and listened intently before seeing a mischievousness flashing in them that couldn't be hidden until I felt a bit giddy, like I was about to lose myself.

“It's really difficult to say. Let's say you come and sit on my lap first."

“Eh? Are you cheeky?”

"Just a little bit, but I know you like it. Come up quickly."

Now I'm starting to figure out what the sofa joke means, but I give in and play along with the crafty kid. My face gets hot because I'm sitting on top of another person's lap and my face. Ours was in such close proximity that we could feel his warm breath.

“Like this?”

“Like this, now I'm your sofa...do you know what that means?”

"Oh, I understand. That's cool. How did you think of that?"

"Why didn't you think of something better?"

“So what can you do with your personal sofa?”

I caressed the other's lips passionately. I'll definitely tease you too. Dare to be cunning towards the python goddess?

“I can do everything. I can sit and lie down.”

“Can I ride it?”

“Uncle Sana!”

Keke

Now it's really good.

And I will make it better every day.

For our love...

Thank you for coming to read.

Even though in real life it is much more real, we still want to imagine it to the end.

Long live Saida.