open : 18/10/2017

pairing : minhyun x jaehwan (minhwan)

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It's not dramatic in the slightest. Because I don't know how to write drama.

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“Jae Hwan, kick the ball!”

“I'm not going today!!”

Kim Jae Hwan shouted back to a friend who often went to play football together. He managed to put things in his bag. Glancing at the clock again Waiting anxiously for someone's arrival

“Jae”

“Just a moment,” Jaehwan picked up his bag and carried it. Pretend like you just finished packing up your things. All actions were in the eyes of Hwang Minhyun. The young man called Jaehwan and complained, “Hurry up, I want to go home and sleep.”

“Just push yourself to a different room.”

“Oh, I'm sorry I'm not as good as you.” Minhyun smiled widely. Use your own palm to rub the other person's head. For a moment, Jaehwan thought his heart had stopped.

Because recently Jaehwan has just discovered that he has fallen in love with Minhyun, his close childhood friend.

"Hey, I'm losing my hair. Stop it." Jae Hwan smiled along with the other person. Trying to cover up his discolored face by stroking his head and spreading it to his face.

“What is that rubbish? Your face is all red.” A warm hand gripped Jae Hwan's hand to stop the unnecessary harsh rubbing. Jae Hwan jumped, making Minhyun, who was holding the other's hand, jump as well.

There was silence. before they both burst out laughing at the same time

Our journey home from school was only a matter of time. But Jaehwan wanted it to last as long as he thought about the other person. But if that were true, he would definitely walk with a broken leg.

“Come, come and deliver it to your doorstep. Where is the reward?” Minhyun crossed his arms over his chest, staring at Jaehwan after delivering it to his doorstep. Jae Hwan furrowed his brows, “What was the last time you told me yesterday?”

I ran out of flour used to bake cookies. So what did you forget? Jaehwan thought.

“No, I want to eat some more.” Minhyun stomped his feet. But even so, those mischievous eyes still shine through. Jaehwan saw this and was shocked. He hurriedly replied, “Ah! I'll just bake it for you. Go ahead!"

“K, then you can go.” Minhyun stopped acting strangely. The young man smiled, raising his hand to wave goodbye. “Bye, I miss you.”

“Oh, the same…” Jae Hwan muttered in front of his own fence, “Bye.”

Jae Hwan greets his mother as she enters the house. He walked up to his room. Throwing the bag and himself on the floor, he slowly closed his eyes due to the sleepiness that had accumulated all day.

'Did Jaehwan and Minhyun send you again?'

'Ha, Mom!'

‘What? We are so close to each other that we still have to have him deliver it.’ Jae Hwan's mother laughed. 'We must have something to repay him... ah... but what? .. So, is it okay for Jaehwan to help Mom bake cookies for Minhyun?'

'Good!'

Jaehwan opened his eyes. He was found lying on the floor in the room with his uniform on. Haven't showered yet and haven't started doing homework yet.

“Damn it..” Jaehwan tilted his head to the side. He pressed his phone to look at the time. "...Is it already 9 p.m.?"

He sat up. I don't understand why I suddenly dream about old things. In the past, he and Minhyun were very close. Minhyun always walked him home. And every time since then Minhyun's reward will be cookies that he bakes himself. We became closer until we took the entrance exam to study at the same place. And Minhyun ended up in a different room from him.

But recently He began to feel strange about the other's actions. At first he didn't know why. Before I was old enough to know it was love He tried to keep the feelings and everything the same. But it's not in time.

Jaehwan didn't know when it had changed.

Wake up and bake tomorrow morning, probably in time.

"Aren't you in the room?"

“That's right. Minhyun said that if you come looking for me, say it's on the rooftop. You can go up and find him.” Jonghyun, Minhyun's close friend, smiled wide until his eyes narrowed. “We want to eat some of the cookies you made. When I saw it, I said it was delicious.”

“Until next time,” Jaehwan smiled. “Let's go see Minhyun first. Thank you very much.”

Jaehwan had been walking away for a while. But Jonghyun didn't move. The young man was still standing in front of the door. Sungwoo turned and saw his friend standing still for a long time, so he walked over and grabbed his shoulder. “What are you doing? Standing there smiling all alone.”

“No.” Jonghyun still had a smile on his face. “Jaehwan, Min's friend. Smile and it's cute."

“Minhyun?” Jaehwan opened the rooftop door. before leaning forward and calling the other person's name The rooftop was quiet. And there was Minhyun standing alone.

“Hi,” Minhyun turned around when he heard the voice. He leaned naturally against the rooftop railing. “What kind of cookies are they today?”

“Chocolate chips,” Jaehwan replied, walking closer. “I remember always making strange recipes for you to eat. So today I made something normal to eat..... What's wrong?”

Jaehwan touched the other's face. Minhyun hurriedly shook his head, “No, just tired. And how do you know? Is it that shabby??”

“No..” Jaehwan just realized that he had grabbed the other person's face. Suddenly he felt his face heat up. “So what's going on today? Called up here and his behavior is not good.”

Minhyun gulped.

".. Well, I'm going to move to study abroad."

“Ah …” Jaehwan blinked, “So .. when will you come back?”

“Well .. maybe he won't come back ..”

Jaehwan gripped the bag of cookies tightly in his hand. What he wanted to say faded away like smoke. He lowered his head, looking at the ground as if it was the most beautiful thing in his life---or right now.

In the midst of that silence He pretended to be brave. He raised his head to look at Minhyun's face. And as soon as he saw himself in the other's eyes It made him think.

That he should just be a friend

He wanted Minhyun to not want to lose him. In whatever capacity

The school time bell rang. Jaehwan snapped out of his trance. Looking at Minhyun's face, he revealed a smile. “The bell rings at this time and it's definitely past six o'clock... If anything... I'd like to go home today first. It's like mom wants me to go run errands too.. Bye."

Jaehwan turns and walks away. speed change From walking to jogging and turned into running

“Jaehwan…” Minhyun called out in a low voice. But Jaehwan didn't even turn around. The young man ran off the rooftop without giving Minhyun a cookie.

“… Why…” Minhyun sighed. Just thinking about Jaehwan's face just now. He discovered that he would definitely not be happy today.

The young man sat down on the ground and rubbed his head with his palms. The sun began to set behind the horizon. It glowed an unprecedentedly bright orange.

Minhyun muttered.

“Why didn't you just say it…”

Jaehwan ran down from the rooftop without thinking for his life. He kept running. I ran until I didn't know where I was at the school. He ran and concentrated on his feet. until exhausted He found himself running towards the balcony of the main building.

He gasped for breath before leaning against the wall. and slowly sat down on the ground But after I stopped running, there was nothing to distract me from thinking about things I didn't want to think about anymore.

Jaehwan unwrapped the cookie in his hand and took it out to take a bite. The bitter taste of chocolate spreads throughout your mouth. He sat thinking. He didn't want to cry. If we speak as friends, there must be some flutters. All close friends

And it doesn't exist in any other capacity.

Jaehwan had never loved anyone before. I don't know if this feeling is the same as he felt when his favorite idol left the group. Or is it like his idol getting married?

Minhyun is a man. And he is a man.

Jaehwan heard the sounds of boys playing football in the field below. The sun that cast an orange glow all over the school building was very beautiful. Jaehwan likes this atmosphere the most. But he couldn't see it clearly because the light from the sun was completely scattered by the water in his eyes.

He didn't want to cry. But he cried out

It was a mistake that he felt himself. I feel alone. Even though it should have ended as friends It just ended with us being friends like before.

“Huh…” The young man huffed a few times. Tear stains on his knees It was funny when he saw his own expression in the mirror (he pursed his lips too, I didn't like it), even though the tears weren't flowing anymore. But he still sobbed. Jaehwan stood up. Wiping the tears from your face, you sighed. No matter how you like it, you have to act as a friend.

He had always thought that Minhyun was mist. But it seemed that this mist was poisonous to him.

“Minhyun!”

“... Jaehwan” As soon as the other party saw his face Minhyun quickly stood up proudly, causing everyone in the room to turn to look at him as well. A young man made a strange face that Jaehwan couldn't describe as he walked towards him. Grabbing his arm and dragging him away immediately, “Where are you going, Minhyun?”

“Why did you suddenly run away yesterday?” Minhyun turned around and asked Jaehwan. The smaller man was taken aback. before answering in a low voice, “It was … shocking ..”

“It's like, do you understand? We've always lived close to each other. And suddenly you'll disappear and I don't know where... It's like, wow.” Jae Hwan made a handmade stick. Minhyun frowned. “So you ran away?”

“I don't know what to do…”

"You didn't run away and cry, right?"

“Not at all!” Jaehwan replied loudly. “This is so manly. I'm a man, not a little girl."

“Oh, keep it real,” Minhyun finally smiled. He hugged the other's neck. “I thought you ran away from me because you were crying. But hearing this is okay.

Jaehwan smiles.

“Yes, you.”

“What?”

“From now on, I will invite you to do everything we haven't done together yet.”

“And you don't have to tell me the date you're going. I won't have to worry.” Jaehwan's smile was clearer than before on his face. Minhyun smiled in response. didn't say anything and dispersed to go to class

Minhyun knows that Jae Hwan is unhappy.

And Jaehwan knows. That I can't stop thinking about another person.

1 month has passed

It's so serious, Jae Hwan is going crazy.

As expected, Jaehwan thought that he couldn't be friends with Minhyun anymore.

If you ask how they are different….Jae Hwan can't answer either. Because we have always been close friends. When he thinks otherwise Everything was turned upside down.

He didn't know if Minhyun would notice a month ago or not. We both went to the water park. Going to other provinces Eat at expensive restaurants and eat at restaurants that dogs don't eat together. We did so many things together and were together so often that Jaehwan thought he was used to this kind of heartbeat.

But it's not.

Every time he saw Minhyun's face A heart that is already beating will work harder. It beats like a drum set every time Minhyun smiles at you. It shakes like it's stuck in ice when Minhyun holds hands.

But he's a friend.

“Jae Hwan”

“What about Jonghyun?” Lately, he's gotten close to Jonghyun because he often plays with them. He likes to bake cookies for each other and sing along in his spare time.

“Minhyun called you to the rooftop.”

Jaehwan's smile lingered. He thought that going up to the rooftop this time would be his last.

“Come for a moment.”

“Why don't you just go after me yourself? Shit, you always like to run away and stand there pretentiously.”

Minhyun looked at the other's face, "You are me----"

"Oh, I know."

"... What do you know?"

“Are you going now?” Jaehwan replied, “Oh, I know. Are you going to call me up and say goodbye? But let me speak first. I prepared a script --- Ahem!”

“This is it... in the past I was very happy. It's a life that I can't live without. But now it must be lacking.”

“No, no, no, no, I'm saying this not to moan and demand anything, but I'm like…” Jaehwan frowned before pulling out two movie tickets from his pocket. Minhyun stared blankly. Because it was the movie he complained about wanting to see.

“I bought two movie tickets. I thought I'd invite you to take a look today. But when you came up like this, I knew you should probably go. Please confirm with me that you will go next week.”

“....... I'm going tomorrow. You have to prepare this evening.”

“Er… oh my,” Jae Hwan said. “In the end, I couldn't make it in time. I couldn't do anything as a friend in time."

“I want you to go without any worries. I want you to go knowing that we can still talk to each other even though you may never come back. I want you to know that I will always be your friend, even if you meet a blonde girl with busty breasts.”

“But I can't do it. Couldn't do it from the beginning Since a month ago.” Jaehwan took a deep breath, filling his lungs.

All right, all right.

“Because I like you/I like you.”

“....... Huh?” Jaehwan blurted out. Minhyun stared at Jaehwan with serious eyes. before speaking without giving the other party any space to think about anything

“I don't like it when you bake cookies for Jonghyun. It's true that he complains that he wants to eat your cookies. But it has never done anything in return for you.”

“I don't like it when you sit and sing with the men in the back of my room. It says you have a good voice. But if you cry often, your throat will hurt.”

“I don't like it when you go play football with your classmates. It's actually exercise. But I don't like it when you get wounds from a fall.”

“I don't like it. I'm very irritated. And there are a lot more things that I don't like, Jaehwan. But I never said it. All this time I think I can forget. Get used to it. But not at all.”

Wait a minute.

"I can't do it. I couldn't do it from the beginning."

“Minhyun,” Jaehwan's voice is shaking. Damn, what the hell is shaking right now?

“Since a month ago.”

What a bastard!

“I don't like everything I said. And when I sit and think about it, I realize That it's because I like you."

Jae Hwan's breath hitched when he heard the other person say this directly. What should he do? Should I seize this opportunity? Even though you know that the other party will have a better future? With people like him------

Too bad, Jaehwan knew the outcome from the beginning.

“Minhyun, we are friends.”

“With people like me. That is, I'm not handsome or cute enough to walk next to you. Do you understand? I have chubby cheeks too. Well, you're going to go abroad. It has a lot of beautiful people. They're all crazy about foreigners. You should find something good---”

“Then why are you crying, Jaehwan?”

“..." Jaehwan didn't answer. He thought that the hot feeling on his face was caused by the heat of the sun. But when I touched it and looked at it, it was wet. ".... Huh... Minhyun... you've brought tears to my manly eyes, you damned man...."

"You answered me, then why are you crying?"

“Don't scold me, heh,” Jaehwan pursed his lips. Do you know what happened? Minhyun, who was being pretentious, burst out laughing. That made Jaehwan cry even harder.

Minhyun moved closer. Gently pat the other person's head. Then made some proposals to Jaehwan.

Minhyun's voice was gentle. It was laced with another person's feelings, and that's when Jaehwan accepted the offer.

“You … my mother called me .. I have to go.”

"yeah"

“I have to go now…?”

"Uh .. hee hee hee hee hee hee hee hee hee"

“That's enough, don't cry.” Minhyun hugged the other person to his chest. Rest your chin on the other person's head. "What are you going to do now that I'm crying?"

“Huh, huh, not crying anymore,” Jaehwan sniffled. “Go home now… I don't want to see you.”

“Don't forget your promise?” Minhyun held the other man's hand tightly, pulling away.

It made Jaehwan want to go crazy. he is angry at himself Angry that he was dissatisfied that the other person stopped hugging.

“... Oh,” Jae Hwan looked at the hammer, “Let's go.”

------and the next day Minhyun boarded the plane safely among the friends who had sent him. But in that group, there was no Jaehwan. The most deserving person will come.

So what am I doing here? Jaehwan thought to himself.

Ever since he hadn't met Minhyun It's been three years now.

He was now standing on the school rooftop. The three years that have passed can be called good or bad. Jaehwan graduated I went to university a year ago. He has become an old freshman who has to keep busy studying and being a home sick person. He is very busy.

Everyone around him has changed. For example, Daniel has to read a book every day. Or Song Wu who travels there every day.

But there is one thing that has never changed.

I mean, he can't forget Minhyun. Damn it.

What the hell is a three-year contract? Why do you have to believe this? I must have forgotten about this by now.

'I'm asking for three years. I will not contact you at all. I won't try to contact you. We will each live to forget each other. And if it gets to that time When will three years be up? I'll come back and ask you another question, right here, right here. Is this okay?'

'Until then, can you just say I can forget and I can't forget? I don't want to shed any more tears'

'can'

'Then deal'

Which he lied about, he secretly looked at his face for three years. Have you seen the blonde girl? How about some cheerleader girls? This guy is evil.

But it hurts.

“Oh…” It's never been this cold. Jae Hwan thought, will Uncle Guard come up and chase him out? But I'll go now. It's okay, Jaehwan. I thought I was back for fun. “If you tell me you're late, I'll scold you.”

Jaehwan stood up. Along with the sound of the door opening echoing in the silence.

Uncle was shocked. Jae Hwan turned around and opened his mouth to speak. 'I'm going now.' But all those words faded into the air on the rooftop.

That person was not the building's security guard. But it was the person he had been watching all evening.

or throughout the past three years

We stared into each other's eyes and didn't say anything. Three years without each other He didn't know what Minhyun was like. But he's already going crazy.

All the feelings came rushing in until Jaehwan didn't know what he should do first. He knew he was sweating and his hands were numb. Minhyun is still the same. There were no wrinkles or dullness on the face at all. But in that still face Jae Hwan saw the nervousness hidden… and Jae Hwan was about to cry.

He became the person who didn't know what to say. I could only stand dumbly in the silence and the tears that were ready to burst all the time.

And Minhyun's strong words made him shed manly tears again.

And it will be the last time

“Can't forget.” Minhyun shook his head. It was the first time he saw Minhyun's tears. This is enough.

Jaehwan raised his hand to cover his mouth. His Minhyun Minhyun he loves Minhyun who never forgets his promise

Minhyun, the person who made him unforgettable for the past three years.

A hoarse voice sounded from the other party. young man has a question And it needs answers now.

“And you.. do you still love me?”

Jaehwan smiled through tears. and answer the other party's questions loudly and clearly.

Because the past three years have been more than enough, almost too long to wait. which he had thought until he was confident

that … .. .

To you, who looks at the sun When I was looking at the moon.

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