Title : Feeling of This Day

Couple : Dujun Yoseob

Rate : 15+ no NC

Writer : CHELER_DM

It's because you're still here.

It's because you're still in my heart.

In the heart of the person you once told

that I love him the most

That you love him very much in the promise you said.. the words

I love a man. Yes.. I've loved him for a long time. I didn't know that my heart was too weak to let go of this man. Or is he trying to make me stop loving him?

Now I'm studying in year 3. He is one year my senior. But we studied in the same faculty, the same year because he was a student, and of course I saw him every day.

We sit next to each other. From the first day we met until today In the eyes of others, he had not changed at all. He is with me almost all the time.

But with me, he has changed, his status has changed.. We used to be together.

“Hey Yoseob! I won't wait for you,” he shouted after him at the end of today's last class.

"Stop yelling," I muttered as he ran over and hugged my neck.

“Well, it's used to this. Can't I change it?" His big hand rubbed my head playfully as usual.

"Hold the megaphone." I couldn't help but stare at him. His face was so confident.

“You still haven't answered me why you didn't wait. I like to run away from my regulars.” No one knew how much his ignorant words would hurt my heart. I'm not teasing. But I really want to escape.

"I didn't escape much. I'm just too lazy to wait." I stuck out my tongue at him before running away.

But he couldn't run far. A taller person ran after me with long arms and grabbed me in an embrace.

"Brother Dujun! I don't want it!” I shouted.

"Hey, can't you hug me?" His chin rested on my shoulder before whispering in a soft voice.

"No!" I jabbed my elbow with full love before rebounding from the teasing person.

“Yoseob hurt you again.” He looked at me. Do you think it's cute? It's really cute.

"Please don't hurt me." I pretended to look at the hammer.

"Yoseob is a mean person. People who like to hurt Dujoon!" He mocked me before taking my hand and walking.. He likes to keep giving hope.

"Hey Dujun, I can walk by myself," I said quietly. But in my heart Pray that he doesn't hear the sound of his heart. You're dancing too hard.

"Okay, if you let me go, don't run away from me." He looked at my face, waiting for me to accept the offer.

I nodded in response before following him. Damn.. even the back of my head made me tremble. His back, no matter how many times I look at it, I want to hug him. So warm

"Which restaurant should I eat at today?" after the conversation was cut off. He was the one who started the conversation again.

"It's up to you." I replied, honestly not wanting to look at his face. I'm afraid my face will turn red.

"So, this shop?" He pointed towards the shop on the corner of the street ahead. If it were any other store, I wouldn't feel this strange. Well, this is the shop where he once confessed his love to me.

Just when he told me which restaurant to go to eat, my legs couldn't move.. Don't give me more hope than this, Dujoon.

He walked 4-5 steps and had to stop and turn around to look. When I didn't hear footsteps, I followed behind.. Of course, I didn't follow.

He walked back over and held my wrist loosely.

“What's wrong, Yoseob? Don't you like the food at this restaurant?" He asked me like he had amnesia. Here, you act as if our story never happened.

"Uh.. no." I dismissed him before he took my wrist and walked straight to the store.

We went into that store. The same atmosphere squeezed my heart even more than before. Why does it have to be this shop?

I don't understand how long the sky will bully me. Every table in the restaurant was crowded with lovers who had come to have dinner. And the last available table was at the same corner I had come with him. He didn't seem bothered and walked to that table like any other restaurant. But I wasn't, so he dragged me here and there.

“Take this,” he ordered the food as he had always eaten. Don't forget to turn around and ask me what you want to eat.

"Uh.. take this." I flipped through the menu before ordering a dish I'd never tried.

After the order taker went to deliver the food items, I almost went crazy again.

“I thought you were going to order your favorite menu. Every time I see it, I like to order only that one.” What does he want from me?

"I want to try something new. In case it's more palatable than something old." I accidentally said something hidden. Well, people are protecting themselves.

"Ah.. so?" He gave me a dry smile. I can't guess what he's thinking. Thinking about the past or just the food you eat so often that it might get monotonous.

The conversation ended again. I don't know what he's looking at. But now I don't dare look at his face. I don't want to tremble again.

The pressure dissipated when the waiter brought out the food. I concentrated on eating without looking at his face.. It's best not to look.

“You think you're on an eating competition, Yoseob?” he said, laughing. This made me have to look up at his face and frown.

"I'm just kidding." He knew he was ruining my life. But what could be more extreme than a large hand reaching up to wipe the messy corner of his mouth?

I could only keep my head down and eat. Did you have a lot of fun, Dujoon?!

"Er, it's almost the end of the semester. Where do you want to go during the semester break?" he asked in the silence.

"Ummm.. Where should I go?" I really couldn't think of anything.

"Let's go to the beach," he suggested.

"Fine, I can do it." I shrugged slightly.

"Invite a lot of friends to go," he said before letting out a smile.

"It's up to you," I replied, just in my heart. I'd rather go with just the two of us. I won't deny that my heart thinks this way. I don't want him to notice that I'm secretly pulling a face.

In no time we had finished eating. He told me that he would feed himself. No matter how much I refuse, he won't listen. What a stubborn person.

"I'll walk you home with you soon," he told me before smiling.. People like to give hope like this, right?

"It's okay, I can go back myself." I refused, because we weren't lovers.

"Your house is lonely. It's already dark. Let me walk with you as a friend. I'm in no hurry today. I'm too lazy to go home." Why does he have to worry about me?

"I didn't know when I came back that I was kidnapped," I said teasingly.

“Zhong Ji, who is afraid?” He acted confident again. Very disturbing. So I pretended to kick him once.

“It hurts!” he shouted.

"Why do you want to make yourself annoyed?" I turned around before running away.

"I shouldn't have told you I'd send you." He walked behind with his arms crossed, looking dissatisfied.

From running to walking Wait for him to catch up.

“Are you angry?” I asked, looking at him.

“Probably.” He turned his head in the other direction. It makes me feel bad.

"Sorry.." I apologized softly. Walking with head down, feeling guilty

"Forgive." I don't know when he brought his face this close. With joy, he turned to find My heart nearly jumped out of my chest when my nose and mouth pressed against the cheek of the person who was reaching closer to me.

My eyes widened. As soon as I regained consciousness, I hurriedly backed away but had to know that this was all something that he had intended to happen.

"Don't be angry at me." He walked forward cheerfully before grabbing my hand and leading me.

I probably would have let him mess with me like this. Let him hold your hand with his soft smile. I must let go. And tell him directly..right?

Then it was time to go to the beach. We made an appointment to go for 4 days and 3 nights. Everything is going well I'm happy. It's been a long time since I've gone to the sea.

During the day, we ran into the sea until evening. When it got dark, they bought alcohol to drink together and formed a circle of cards. That's it for the whole day. Until the last night I must muster up my courage.

While he excused himself to go to the bathroom I separated myself from the circle of cards. I walked out of the place that was built as a bungalow, leaving some distance between us. This accommodation is next to the sea. I walked slowly before lowering my hips onto the edge of the cement for protection from the waves.

I stared at the ocean waves for a while when my cell phone rang. Looking at the screen made me smile a little.. He called.

“Yoseob, where are you?” The voice on the other end of the line was frantic and searched throughout the house but there was no sign of me.

“Stay outside, come out and enjoy the sea breeze,” I replied, looking intently at the ocean waves.

"I don't find it fun at all. Come back and play cards together,” he joked. I could tell his nerves were gone.

“That Dujun hyung came out to me. It's at the edge of the wave." I finished speaking and hurriedly hung up the phone.

I won't wait long. The person I was waiting for has arrived. I saw that he was running and was angry.

“Yoseob, why did you have to hang up on me?” This time he seemed really angry. Because I know he doesn't like anyone cutting the cord. But I did it because I wanted it to come.

“Are Dujun angry?” I pretended to ask. In fact, he already knew the answer.

"You know that I don't like people hanging up on me." He walked over and sat next to me angrily.

"I'm sorry." I turned to him and gave him a small smile.

"You know I don't like it. So why are you doing this?” He tried to ask for an answer.

I was silent, but reached out and gently stroked my dark hair, smiling sweetly. His handsome face still had question marks all over it.

"I want you to come." I slowly ran my hand down his cheek.

"Doojoon hyung, can I hug you?" I asked. In my heart right now I felt both good and heartbroken.

“Yes, yes.” He opened his arms wide and took me in for a hug. His scent was still the same. His embrace was still as warm as before.

I slowly loosened my grip. I don't want to let go.

“Doojoon, can I kiss you?” I gently spread my fingers over the jagged lips. I admit I still long for it.

He didn't answer, only the sound of the waves. We locked eyes with each other as if time had stopped. I slowly leaned closer. He remained silent, showing no defense. I slowly pressed my lips down and sucked the petal lips of the person in front of me before inserting my small tongue in to invade indifferently. He remains indifferent. Don't deny but don't respond.

I slowly pulled away from the kiss. I know it's been a long time My needs are only for him.

I don't know why, but it feels empty. Instead, I felt a prick in my heart. Tears suddenly flowed down my face. Smiling is such a burden.

"Doojoon hyung.. I'm sorry. I still love you." I said in a trembling voice. There's no denying that the tears won't stop. I could only look down at the waves crashing on the shore. Everything has flowed out.

“Yoseob,” he called my name in the silence. while lifting my chin to make eye contact

"Yes.. Brother Doojun." By that time, my whole body was shaking and sobbing.

"If we start again Aren't you afraid that it will end the same way?”

End.

Talk :

Dress up within 4 hours to cure cravings during university admissions. I feel like I'm wasting a lot of time. But let it be.

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This fic is a new genre for writers. where the characters tell the story themselves I don't know if it works or not. Waiting to see the feedback. 5555555555.

The story here is partly based on real life. I don't want to tell you which part is true.

In fact, I normally upload fics to X-Teen. Then the website started to rot so I moved to Blogger. The blogger was very quiet so I moved to Dek Dee hahaha.

This fic is the first fic that has moved to Dek Dee. Please leave it to me, Reader <3

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