A sharp, dark face that makes everyone fall in love with just one look. Walking on this path alone like a body without a soul Raise your head and stare at the black night sky. There was only one star that shone brightly in the dark, quiet sky. Like a single star still shining in the middle of his heart in his palm. Someone who is like his star

That person, the person who always hugs from behind. People who say he's not as cold as people think. Inside the dark room, that person would hold him all night long. It was like a signal for him to know that he was not alone in this world. Thinking back to the old days Someone's cute face that always has a smile on it.

Cheeks chubby as he chewed his handmade ramyeon. No matter how bad the food he made tasted. But the little thumb still rose as a sign that it was always the best.

It might be because of the alcohol, although not to the point of being sober. But it made him especially courageous during this time. Plus I miss it too much to restrain myself. Years of patience Right now he was just so tired. Tired of everything that happened in the past Tired of having to pretend to be strong every day.

This time, let him follow the voice of his heart that is calling from within. Even though I didn't hear a reply Didn't see eye to eye Not being able to touch the delicate, soft body that used to be just him. But I just want to tell you through this message.

"I miss you again.

No matter what you do, you can never forget it.

Even when I open my eyes

All of our items are still in the same place.

Or when I close my eyes

The dark room still smells of us on this bed.

Loneliness keeps reinforcing me to hate myself for repeating it.

Pain, sadness, almost suffocating, the emotions in those love songs I understand now.

You never forget us......

Youngjae"

It's true that I never forgot Youngjae for even a second. Youngjae is the name of the lover that I decided to abandon by my own hands. The biggest mistake of my life still haunts me. In the form of nostalgia, longing, longing, even though he once held his breath to say goodbye so he could meet someone better. People who are more ready

People who have more time to give I've learned that the whole thing was stupid.

I still remember that day well. As the first snow fell two years ago, I told him to forget me. My little child had endless tears streaming down her face. But there was no loud noise. Or even sobs that could be heard He's always like this. Good at capturing feelings But this time, many tears were the answer to all the sorrow.

Youngjae chose to just move his mouth and ask, "Yongguk hyung, can you do it? Can you really forget Youngjae?" I just swallowed the lump in my throat. He responded with words that pierced deep into his heart. "This matter is easy for me."

It's not that I didn't try. I've tried to look at all the other girls that have come for the past 2 years, but it's just not possible. I can't, not once. I can't replace Youngjae with anyone. I fell in love once. It's not just love that I give with all my heart. I lost my soul to that person... willingly

Tid!

An alarm sounded in the morning. Even though it was gentle, it was able to awaken him from his slumber. It was as if I had been waiting for this sound all night, even when I was dreaming with my eyes closed. He reached for the communication device that was placed next to the bed. Just seeing that someone who had been waiting for such a long time responded to the message, which made my eyes wide awake.

The last message that appeared on the screen made the young man feel like he was in a dream again, even though he was sure he had already opened his eyes. The message says "I still love you." A smile appeared on his sharp face. Before deciding to click to see all the messages from the person he still loves with all his heart.

“Sorry, I can't be by your side anymore.

but.....

I still love you."

The words that hurt the most More than just saying goodbye or directly arguing with each other. It's saying that you still love each other but can't be together. Can't go back That is the truth that must be accepted. A tired smile emerged. He knew that tonight and in the nights to come he would still be alone. With a heart that's been shattered beyond repair Without the arms that used to embrace so tenderly

So exhausted that he couldn't even stand up and walk out of the room. Found only his face buried in a pillow that faintly smelled of someone's body odor. but still clear and clear in feelings and memories Laying down and feeling alone again

After all, Youngjae is the only person I love with all my heart.

I will remember this in my heart.

There will never be a day to forget.

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