Have you ever thought that being in this vague state is good enough? Because we're afraid that people around us will see what they think of us. Or because you're still confused?

Many people probably think that living like this is enough, right?

But you know what?

If one day he leaves us...

What will we use to hold him back?

Well, since we don't have anything that binds us because the status we are in is not clear, is that true?

Which I myself am 1 of them who used to think like that as well..

Since childhood, we have always been taught that “women must love men” and “men must love women.” Loving people of the same gender is considered strange and will be viewed badly by those around us. I myself am one of them who has always been instilled with thinking like that.

I have never thought of dating any woman as a lover before because I like men according to what I was taught. Even though my home country of Korea is very famous for its skinship, I have never been shaken by it. But then why...it seems like everything that has been cultivated is shaken when Minatozaki Sana

That person came into my life. And if I had chosen to follow my heart back then, I wouldn't have regretted it like this, right? Sana-sama...

One snowy night Different people celebrate Christmas festival with fun, all children are waiting for gifts from Santa Claus. The whole town rejoices with the beautiful music that is often heard on Christmas Day. Today is a day of happiness for many people..

But for me, it reminded me of someone again...

Why hasn't it come yet? It's so late..

When I raised my hand and looked at the clock, I felt worried. Because it's already 5 minutes past the scheduled time to celebrate Christmas with Sana. He usually comes before me. The more I think about it, the more I worry about whether something has happened to him or not.

But I didn't feel worried for long. When suddenly everything was dark. Because someone's hand was covering my eyes.

"Uncle Sana, what are you playing at?"

"Oh, how do you know it's me?"

"It's just you, right? What do you like to play with as a kid like this?"

"What do you do when you're a kid like this....and do you like it, Dahyun-ah?"

Unsung Sana suddenly stopped talking before speaking the next sentence that seemed to have a hidden meaning behind my right ear. Because he whispered in my ear So it makes me feel like the two of us are very close. So close that I could feel the breath of the person behind me on my neck. And the closer we are to each other like this

My heart began to beat more rapidly. So much so that I was afraid that the people behind me would hear it..

Why do I have to feel this way about this person named Minatozaki Sana?

"Let's go now. Let's go quickly."

"Wait, you still haven't answered my question, Dahyun."

"Eh! That restaurant looks delicious. Let's go. Let's go quickly."

"Uh..you can go."

And it's me every time I choose to avoid something that he always conveys..

When I arrived at the dessert shop I had just dragged him to to avoid the question just now. We sat down and ordered dessert. Then we talked for a bit while waiting for the dessert until finally the dessert was served.

"Brother, is there something wrong?"

While eating dessert I said as I felt him staring at me.

"Dahyun"

"Huh?"

I looked at my brother in confusion. When Sana suddenly handed her own fork to me to hold. What are you thinking?

"Please give me some."

" yes? "

"Please give me some."

"Then why do I have to give it to you?"

"Nah, please enter it."

"Alright."

In the end, I couldn't stand the perverseness of the person in front of me. So I inevitably had to feed it.

"Mmm, it really tastes better."

"Huh? Does it taste better?"

“Yes, it really is as they say. Whether food is delicious or not depends on the person who feeds it."

"Honestly, if you don't believe Dahyun, try eating it."

Without another word, Sana quickly scooped up the cake and put it in my mouth.

"Open your mouth, it really tastes better."

I hesitated for a long time. But in the end, I decided to open my mouth to eat the cake he gave me.

"Is it more delicious?"

"I think it's the same as before."

"Eh..but I think it really tastes better."

"Did you think about it yourself?"

He suddenly took his finger and wiped the cream that was stuck on the side of my lips before licking it as if it was delicious. Until my face was very hot.

"Eh...this is sweet. Very sweet, even sweeter than the first bite."

The words that Sana said It caused my heart to beat rapidly again. With a face that I now feel must be as red as a ripe tomato. These feelings have returned again. What should I do with these feelings?

Am I feeling good?

These feelings are called Is it love?

Over the past several months...I kept asking myself what these feelings really were. But the more I asked, the more I felt afraid..more and more afraid. I'm afraid that if I search more..we might come across what we've been trying to deny all along...

“ Da Hyuna ”

“ Da Hyuna ”

“Is something wrong with Dahyun? Does your face look red and uncomfortable?”

“Don't touch me!!! ”

With various feelings, both worried and confused...

So I accidentally raised my voice to the person in front of me.. This made the person in front of me who had originally intended to touch my forehead stop. and had a very shocked look on his face

“I'm full..let's go.”

And because I don't want to cause tension. So I changed the subject and acted like nothing happened just now...

It's been almost an hour now that the two of us haven't talked at all. Since coming out of that store..

The atmosphere in the park was calm as people went to various places to celebrate Christmas. And the more we both became quiet This park makes it seem even more lonely than before..

" excuse me "

Sana suddenly apologized. Amidst the silence of this park

“Why are you apologizing to me?”

“If I have offended you in any way, I apologize, but please don't be quiet like this. I want to talk to her.”

“Dahyun, don't be so quiet.”

The reason I'm quiet isn't because of you. But I'm quiet because I think I feel too much for you again.

“Dahyun! Why are you crying?”

Suddenly, tears suddenly flowed down his cheeks unexpectedly.. I tried to hold back the tears from falling any further. But the more you hold it in, the more it feels like it's flowing..

“Dahyun, what is wrong with you? Look at your face, Dahyun.”

Sana tried to wipe away my tears with her fingers. Before supporting my face to turn to look at you When my face was turned to look at you Our eyes met each other's. We stared deep into each other's eyes as if a spell had been cast on the two of us. Our faces, from just looking at each other, became closer and closer, as if something was pulling the two of us together.

Until finally Sana's lips landed on my lips..

It was a soft, gentle kiss. I myself was unable to deny the feeling but then the soft kiss started to turn into a hot kiss. When Sana moved her lips to press harder. and also sends a hot tongue in to reap the sweetness We reap the sweetness of each other like no one else will. Until finally, it was me who was the one who pushed him away because he was starting to suffocate.

And then the two of us fell into silence again...

“Uh..Dahyun.”

“I know you didn't mean to. As for the matter just now, it is assumed that nothing happened.”

In the end, everything ended with a vague relationship like this like every time.. And since then we have always been in this vague relationship. Until one day he dated a woman named "Zhou Ziyu" and our relationship slowly faded and faded until it seemed like it had disappeared.

If that day I chose to accept and believe in my feelings That woman may not be Zhou Ziyu, but it's me....

If I could turn back time I want to be by your side again. Not as a close junior. But as a lover..

Talk 

Wright has only recently started learning to write novels.

Just recently designed

ONE-SHOT 

for the first time

Where is there an error? I'm sorry???”