Friends?...I don't want to be one at all.

You are the friend I love the most..

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Friends are probably the most important thing in many people's lives, but for him, friends are the last thing he wants for this girl. Kim Taeyeon was sitting quietly reflecting on her thoughts in his condo. Today this little person did something that he never thought he could do. That's how to tell a close friend you love them.

He didn't expect her to think the same way as him, but he also didn't think that being rejected would make him feel this bad, even though his close friend had reiterated that he was her friend and she would never hit him. Definitely distanced myself from this matter. I don't know if that was a good thing or not, but he didn't say anything else.

Even though I had prepared myself beforehand, why..

Why does it hurt so much...

After that day Taeyeon tried to act normal. No matter how cheerful he used to be, he tried to act the same in front of his friends. Other people, the only thing that is different is... He didn't make eye contact, didn't speak, and tried to avoid Stephanie. The friend he just confessed to didn't know if him doing this would make her feel bad, but he thought it would be better if we didn't talk.

No need to face each other for a while...

....and he was wrong....

The more he hides away He wants to see you even more. The more he doesn't talk to her, the more he misses...

Someone grabs his beloved cell phone. Slender fingers pressed the familiar application and scrolled to see the pictures of Stephanie in various poses that she had uploaded. He scrolled through the pictures until he realized what he had been trying to do all week. It's no result at all, he still has Stephanie with his whole heart. Really crazy, what should he do? Averting your eyes, not talking, not greeting each other for a whole week made him feel crazy, or should he go back to acting like her friend like before?

“Ah, a pen.” As he was about to sign in to enter the exam room, Taeyeon saw his close friend searching in his bag for a pen for a while, so he decided to offer a little kindness. as an excuse to find something to talk to her about

“Thank you,” the smiling-eyed girl replied with a smile. Even though her eyes were a little confused, she responded to her friend's kindness by taking the pen from Taeyeon's hand and signing it before returning it to the owner.

After that, the two of them returned to talking normally. Or at least it was almost like normal because Taeyeon's feelings in her heart remained the same even after she told other friends who knew that it was okay. But his eyes were still searching only for Stephanie.

“The university is going to hold a singing competition?” Sunny, his petite female friend, said after seeing the announcement board that two male seniors from a different faculty had recently posted on the board in front of the faculty building, which made Taeyeon excited. too

“Are you going to get off, Tae?” When his friend turned to ask, the little man slowly nodded and answered his friend. His eyes scanned the details on the notice board before he persuaded his friend next to him to go with him.

“You go down together. Let's go apply now." With that, the small figure half-tugged his friend, leading him to the Faculty of Fine Arts building where the application for contestants in this singing contest was located. Ignoring Sunny's protestations for the slightest bit.

The little man sat and looked distraught out of the library window. He kept turning the pen in his hand and using his brain to think about what song to use in this contest, even though there were many songs that he felt would be okay. But he still couldn't decide.

Sigh!

The little man's heavy sigh was a clear sign that he still couldn't make up his mind as usual, causing his close friend Sunny, who was sitting on the other side reading a book, to ask.

"What's wrong with you? Are you still stressed about choosing a song?"

“Oh, Taeyang can't choose a song?” It was Stephanie who asked in surprise after Sunny! Well, it's been a week and he's still stressing about this, but it's definitely there. This is the first singing contest in his life!!

“Um, there isn't any song that feels right,” he answered honestly, because he'd spent a while searching for the right song but couldn't seem to find it.

“Try to choose the song that you can relate to the most because the contestants probably already have good voices. But if someone can really relate to the emotion of the song, it should stand out,” said another close friend, Sooyoung. In order to help him have more ideas for finding songs.

“Do you want this song?

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Oh,” a friend with smiling eyes suggested the name of an international song.

“You're really into this song, aren't you, Fany?” and he just realized that Stephanie really liked this song when Sunny said those words.

“Yes, and I think that if the key were adjusted, Tae's voice would be very suitable for this song,” Stephanie answered Sunny before turning to ask the opinion of her little friend sitting next to her. To which Taeyeon thought for a moment before nodding in agreement.

“Okay, I chose this song.”

Taeyeon's reason for choosing the song wasn't at all her own and it wasn't because her voice would suit the song as Stephanie said, he just thought of songs that Stefani would like. that He should be able to easily relate to the emotions of the song since he still has good feelings right now. To a close friend whose eyes smile with all her heart even though she doesn't think the same way...never mind.

He was no longer a mischievous person, and the small figure stepped into the music club room of the faculty. Put the backpack on the ground. Before he picked up his trusty guitar that he had left in his room and sat down to carve out the song that he would use in the contest, he just thought that playing live music along with singing would add more charm to his performance than the soft, sweet voice that accompanies him. Go with the sound of the guitar

Until the sunlight began to fade away, the little man got up and put the guitar back in its original place. Before he steps out of the room with a smile, there are few things in the world that make him want to wake up and do it every day. And one of them is singing. Although this contest He may not win the prize. But just doing it makes him happy.

His two legs walked along the path and he tightened his backpack. before wondering why it was so cold and Stephanie hadn't come home as quickly as she thought. Taeyeon immediately asked.

“You haven't returned yet, Fanny?”

Hearing the familiar voice of her close friend, the smiling eyed girl put her hand away from the document in front of her and called for Taeyeon to sit next to her. at the wooden table in front of the building before immediately asking the little man about something important

“Fanye is preparing documents to submit a request for a volunteer camp. Where should we go this year?” Taeyeon thought for a moment before expressing her opinion.

“In previous years, we focused on the north. Should we try going to the South this year?” Stephanie listened and nodded. and speak softly to himself That it's interesting or something like that. which Taeyeon herself didn't pay attention to because he was secretly looking at the side of her smiling friend's face, not knowing if she was thinking about it or not.

But he felt that after telling his best friend he loved her, he and she didn't spend as much time together as usual. He would remain silent for a long time until Stephanie felt it. Someone then raised her head to ask what was wrong with her little friend who was silent, but it turned out that she had turned her eyes to meet the little friend who looked like he had been secretly watching her for a long time. Taeyeon's eyes She felt very comfortable with this close friend, but she just didn't think the same way as him...

She thought so, and it was Taeyeon who couldn't bear the sight of her smiling-eyed friend anymore. The little girl coughed a few times to regain her composure. Before asking to leave, he didn't notice the smile Stephanie gave her from behind.

There wasn't much time left for Taeyeon's first practice session to compete on stage. Staying huddled in the music room when she didn't have class was something the little girl had been doing for several days even though Sunny was competing (because she was forced). But I don't think she practices as hard as Taeyeon, so her small body spends a lot of time practicing, causing her to hardly eat anything and come home quite late.

This made the friends in the group worried that the little one would fall ill before they could compete, so everyone tried (in tow) to take Taeyeon to get something to eat on time and followed her home together. The music room was already quite cold. She also reminded her over the phone when it was time to sleep, which Taeyeon understood well about her friend's feelings.

So he complied easily. Until a week of devotion had passed and the little body was reclining on his bed. Tomorrow was the day he had to go on stage and it made Taeyeon very excited. Sunny had just hung up on him about half an hour ago. Before hanging up, his close friend had firmly emphasized that he should get some sleep so he could be ready to compete tomorrow. But no matter how hard he tried, it seemed It's not effective.

"Come on, if you don't sleep, you won't sleep."

The little man decided to get up from his bed. Then he walked onto the balcony to feel the breeze while letting his thoughts float along with the wind in his head. Now there was the sound of the song he had to sing tomorrow ringing around inside. Just imagining that tomorrow he would have to stand up and sing in front of many people, his heart pumped faster.

The excitement increased like crazy. Damn it, he really didn't think at all. That it would make him feel crazy excited....even more exciting than when he confessed his love to Stephanie. Thinking of Stephanie, the small person's thin lips curled into a smile. He didn't understand what made him like her so much. His big round eyes that curved into the shape of the moon when he smiled.

A charming smile that everyone will fall in love with. Or is it the sweet, pretty face that he likes to secretly look at when she's not aware? Taeyeon thinks that he definitely doesn't have a clear answer to this question because he...falls in love with everything that Stephanie is.

Stunned!

The sound of a message from the green chat program rang out in the silence. Taeyeon walked back to the bed and suddenly grabbed her phone to see who had sent the message so late at night, and he was surprised to see that it was a person. The person who sent the message was the person who was in his thoughts just now. A wide smile appeared on his face again before the owner of the phone decided to send the message back. and go to bed

'I know Tae isn't asleep yet. Don't be excited. Tae can do it already. If you do well tomorrow, Fany will have a reward for you. Sweet dreams.'

'Thank you, sweet dreams too'

Kim Taeyeon was pacing back and forth behind the stage despite encouragement from her friends. Even before entering Today, the small body has been arranged by a personal stylist to wear a gray T-shirt without a pattern. Pair it with dark jeans. and light brown moccasins along with a light colored jean jacket worn over it.

His stylist was none other than Stephanie, who walked to the side of the stage to wait. Hearing the sound of the song before him end, his heart pumped harder as he looked out. outside and saw many people At the end of the announcement of her name, Kim Taeyeon took another breath before stepping onto the stage with her trusty guitar.

When he walked to the spot that the staff had prepared for him, the little man sat down on a chair. And slowly played the melody through his good guitar before starting to sing... the song he intended to sing for her. He didn't care about anyone or anything. Kim Taeyeon's eyes kept looking at Stephanie alone. until the end of the song

The little figure looked at the figure one last time. before stepping off the stage The applause from the spectators below could not catch the little man's attention as he stood on the roof of the building. Taeyeon decided to stand with her arms on the handrail and let her thoughts wander. The song he had planned to sing for Stephanie had already ended and that should be the last thing he would do to Fany as his secret lover. He'll break up with you, yes.

He decided to set himself free. The small figure closed his eyes and took a deep breath into his lungs. before letting out a breath of relief and turning around to walk towards his friends. He was probably waiting downstairs, but was surprised to see that someone was secretly following him up.

“..Fany, how did you find Tae?” Although surprised, Taeyeon asked her friend with a smile.

“I'm sorry, Tae.” At the end of the confusing words, the little man was even more shocked by his best friend. She rushed over and embraced him and let tears flow without hiding it.

"Hey Fany, why are you apologizing to Tae? You don't have to cry." Taeyeon hugged her back and comforted her.

“I'm sorry, I'm sorry that Fany couldn't love Tae like that.” The reason for the apology made Taeyeon's heart flutter even though he had already prepared to break up with Stephanie. But he didn't think that hearing the person he loved say these words would still hurt him like the first time he had been rejected.

“It's okay, Fanny. It's really okay.” Even though I tried to stop it, the damn tears still flowed. Until he had to hurry and wipe it away before trying to wipe away his dear friend's tears.

“Look, crying isn't pretty. Stop crying.” Stephanie heard this and tried to hold back her sobs. And that made Taeyeon laugh out loud before turning into a moan when someone hit her in the arm with full love. But that didn't offend Taeyeon in the slightest as he smiled widely.

When I see my dear friend stop crying

“Let's go, Fany, Tae is hungry.” And the little man led the thin figure by the hand to follow him.

Even in the end, the person he loves won't love him back

But the fact that he was there to take care of What have you done to her?

That was enough for him...really enough.