(DAHYUN)

“Da~Hyunnie, I'm really tired today. Please give me a hug~~~”

Powerful blow from a Shiba man. Leaning on top of me, huddled under the blankets on my secret bed in my private study room.

"Alright, but I haven't showered yet."

“Hi, you can take a shower after you're done exercising. I'll give you a bath," she said, snuggling next to my ear.

I frowned in response.

Heh, what Sana said about exercising probably isn't out of the question. I didn't think of it that way. But what he is trying to convey is really like that. You can tell from your actions. The nickname Sanek didn't come from luck. But if asked if she has ever exercised in bed with him? To be honest, I haven't.

He was just joking and teasing me like that. To be honest, I tried to push on a little and I didn't dare. It's a sanaconda snake. It looks scary, but it's actually not poisonous.

I closed the book and turned around to face the person above me.

"I'll take it."

Sana looked stunned. Wide eyes and a shy expression A trembling look looked into my eyes in surprise.

“So what kind of exercise do you want to do?” I smiled, lifting the corners of my mouth like a superior person who had cornered another person.

“Well, why did you accept me today?”

“I don't know. I know you want to. As you wish, please.”

The more I get serious about it, will I be afraid? Is it really a good idea to take it this time?

“I always wanted to, hehehe, but she just wouldn't give in. I've been in the mood for a long time already..."

Heh, you're good at it.

I said I was shy.

“I can't say that.”

"Hmm, Dahyun, what's wrong? Are you crying?"

“Ah, no, it just hurts my eyes. You like to say sensual things in public. Other people will not look at you well.”

What crazy tears are flowing now?

Why don't my heart and body listen to each other?

“Well, you're my brother's,” she said, ducking her face and pressing her cheek against mine.

“Actually, I thought I would tell you a long time ago. I shouldn't have been V at that time. I'm still drowsy. I'm afraid something will come out. I'm sorry."

“Are you afraid? Actually, everyone wants our story to be true. Plus it really is like that!”

but..

"If you don't want it to be like that, then you don't have to bother me at all." Sana leaned up and folded her arms over her chest, ready to get up and want to get away from me.

“Are you really going to do that? I'll believe you if you have something to do with me and you still insist that you don't have feelings. Do you want it?" Sana turned around and made her eyes widen at me.

“Dahyun.... what's wrong?”

"Are you sick? It's not like this normally."

“Are you sick somewhere?” She grabbed my body and turned me around. Resting her forehead against mine When I saw that I didn't answer. Sana's face looked shocked.

It seems like I must have said something strange today.

The me today seems confused by the maze of words, even I myself am confused. Sometimes it's a challenge, sometimes it's rejected, sometimes it's an invitation.

Normally, I never took her seriously but I would never reject her once. Normally it seems like I would resist, but in the end I always give in to her. Why don't I know that she likes to tease me hard? But really, you were just trying to embarrass me like that. If I'm serious Instead, she acted shy.

Events like this continue every day. But..... Today was different in that there was no shyness inside me. There was no response to any more teasing. Because everything today

I'm serious

I've thought about it all, I've thought it all over.

and I will do it

“I'm joking.”

But then I said the same sentence. In the end, our story will end with the same sentences and constantly changing the subject.

If I don't say the words that make my heart beat faster

“But today, can I have something with you?”

This sentence of mine made the big man stunned for a while. The look in my eyes Look trembling again Confused, like you couldn't believe your ears

"You don't have to do it. I'll do it myself."

Seeing that she had been silent for a long time So I bent my elder brother's neck down. Press your lips against the other's lips. It seems like she's resisting a little. With a little struggle But I managed to lock her up. His other hand gripped her wrist tightly.

Uh...

Didn't even break the kiss. Don't even give it a second thought. I don't let you even breathe. A hot tongue inserted into the cold's mouth, teasingly teasing the small tongue that tried to avoid it. Only the slightest sound of a kiss could be heard. The lips are shiny and soft, it's as light as the whole body can float. It's like my heart wants to capture as much sweetness as possible.

I don't know where this raw instinct comes from. The urge of our lips became more and more intense. The heat from their bodies radiated to each other in the thick blanket. The only thing my mind could process was this. I only know that in my body I want to possess you.

I started unbuttoning Sana's shirt one by one. Take off your beige skirt. The heat radiated out so much that he wanted to remove all of his clothes from his body, as if using a spell to make them disappear in the blink of an eye, including those of the people beneath this body.

"Da Dahyun, ah, da, wait" when I opened the space for her to breathe. So there was a blurry sound coming out. Please stop my actions.

"You don't like it? If you don't like it, then I can stop."

"no! ....Oh, I'm just not used to it. She still looks like a little child in my eyes."

She said while avoiding my eyes. But I noticed that the look in your eyes was now even wetter than anything. You're completely limp in my arms.

"I think you'll be good at something like this. I'm over 20 already. I'm all grown up."

“Huh, crazy Dahyun,” her voice was muffled in her throat, but I was able to catch the words. Because our distance is so close that we will become one. His soft sentence made me smile. I'm like this too, pretending to be brave enough to really take it in. I suddenly became afraid.

“How do you decide to take it?”

“....... Yay! Who asks about things like this? Alas!"

When I got an answer from her

I started to act again.

Lips touching the neck Stop and gently smack your lips in that position. Wet to the touch Arouse emotion until the other person has to wrinkle their necks.

“Uh... Dahyunnie.”

The hand that had previously been attached to the little man's neck slid down. Passing through a thin white shirt Insert it into the hem of the shirt until it stops coming up. A thin hand touches the smooth skin. creating equally dizzying excitement for the people above

A wet tongue licked into his ear. Teasingly tugging at the earlobe

“Ah..”

(SANA)

Dahyun bent down and dragged his tongue across my throat again. kissing the collarbone Scroll down to the sweet colored brassiere. The mouth holds the front hook free like an expert. Revealing the upper body without any concealment. I raised my arms to cover my eyes and turned my head in another direction. Biting his lower lip, he held back his emotions.

White people won't stop. Their lips and hands tasted the sweetness in front of them like hungry wolves. The thrill made me arch my legs to welcome the thrilling sensation.

“Dahyun, hey, this is thrilling.”

I can't take it anymore.....

When I bite my lip until it hurts Dahyun inserted a finger into his mouth.

"Bite it so I don't cry."

Uh ..

In the middle of that night I woke up with all my clothes on as if nothing had happened. Dahyun has left the room. Leave only a note for me

'Uncle, if you wake up then go do your business. But I want to soak it for too long. Please wipe your hair dry. I'm worried. look after yourself too

I'd like to go first.

Kim Dahyun'

After reading I only had a slight smile on the corner of my mouth.

Ugh, why wouldn't I know what Dahyun was thinking? The sad look in his eyes was so evident.

Even though I look silly, my senses are as good as anyone else's. Especially people who aren't good at keeping their cool like Dahyun.

I know what you're trying to do. But when I really got into it, I was shocked too.

And then my tears started flowing.

(DAHYUN) 

Chaeyoung stood and leaned on the bed post, worshiping his legs with his arms crossed over his chest, asking.

“Dahyun hyung, do you really think doing this will be good?”

“The thing about not telling me I was going?”

"no! Are you crazy or crazy?!”

I glanced up from unpacking my things. Look at the younger man who is starting to show signs of violently shaking his head.

“Chaeyoung, calm down,” came the voice of Tzuyu who had been silent for a long time and had to be gently restrained. To prevent the incident of a tiger mauling its neck in the room.

“This is about taking him and abandoning him. Do you think it's funny?"

Chaeyoung uncrossed his arms and clung to the pole, his other hand raised and ready to attack.

“I don't know if it's good or not. But there might be the last thing I can do. If he wants it I want to give it.”

“You're crazy. Do you think that if you give it to him, he'll be happy? If I were Sana, I wouldn't be happy.”

“But it would be the last thing. The best thing The best memory ever.”

“Yah, that's bad, it's the worst.”

“Chaeyoung…” Tzuyu's voice spoke loudly, warning the hot-tempered person once again.

“Huh.” Chaeyoung then shook his head and walked out of the room with a shaky foot.

Bang! The door slammed shut.

There were only two quiet people left in this narrow bedroom.

“Why don't you know how bad your personality is? I don't want to do this. I'm just a coward. that wants to be self-centered Act like you care about him a lot, but actually you just take it for granted.”

“I know you're not thinking badly. But it is painful.”

(SANA)

That morning I walked down from the study room. The remaining members were all unexpectedly gathered in the living room.

It's strange.

“Here.” When Jihyo saw me She walked in and handed me a letter.

“From Dahyun.”

“So where did Dahyun go?” I asked curiously. Why did Dahyun have to give this letter? Where did Dahyun go? Everyone shook their heads in response. Made me confused

“Dahyun told me to go follow that post first and then read this letter,” Nayeon said of the message the tofu boy had left.

"Fighting, Sana. We're all rooting for you."

This sentence from everyone makes me feel bad. I don't know how strange it is. The question of where Dahyun went still lingers in my head. So I went and did what Postis said.

When I soak in water Finished washing my body, I changed clothes and dried my hair. Come and sit and unpack the letter that the white kid left for you. And finding that in was the beginning of my greatest regret.

To P'Sana

I'm Kim Dahyun. If you read this letter The me right now probably won't be in that place anymore. I feel very grateful from my heart. That I gave someone my greatest love I really didn't think I would be able to do this. It's hard to say sorry straight from my mouth.

I'm just a coward. I'm...a foolish person that you keep giving your love to. It's so much that I People who are not worthy enough to receive Feeling grateful from the heart I wrote this letter because I didn't have the courage to tell you directly. I really apologize. The bad things I did to you

It might be too late to say sorry. I don't hope you can forgive someone like me. But I still want to say these words to you. “I'm sorry,” and one thing I always feel is thank you. You are always a lovely older brother. You've always taken care of me, worried about me. I thought it would not be enough to make up for it for the rest of my life.

I want you to be very happy. Even without me I'm going to take good care of myself, right? Eat a lot and get a lot of rest. Finally, the words I want to say the most. But I don't know if I'll accept it or not. But I want you to know. I love you.

Please don't look for me. I'll be watching over you from afar. Goodbye.

Kim Da Hyun

After reading the entire message, it was like my spirit truly collapsed. Not a single sound came out of his throat. It hurts to the point of being full. It's a feeling I don't know. Stunned, sad, disappointed and angry. It's like it's all mixed together. Now my tears are starting to fall. After reading the letter, it was as if something had hit my head very hard.

His hand gripped the letter so tightly that the entire piece of paper was crumpled. It's probably like my heart is really broken. Tears fell on the letter until it was completely wet. In my head, even though I knew it, I really took it into consideration. Why does it hurt this much? I sat and cried for a long time until there were no tears. When the tears stopped flowing, he carried his weak body out of the room.

I found everyone waiting outside, except for the owner of this letter who probably isn't around anymore.

“Da...”

"I know who you're looking for. Dahyun isn't here anymore." My tears were flowing again and I wanted to stop myself from staying.

Then everything faded away.

“Sana!” And this was the last shout I heard.

I cried for many nights after that.

The more time passes It seems that the cries and sadness won't go away easily. The people outside were so agitated that they could hardly sit on the edge of their seats. Keep your head down and remain calm as much as possible. It's like in a competition where if someone loses patience they will be considered a loser.

'Crack', the sound of moving chairs, was heard by the girl leading the band. Making everyone look up and look at the same spot.

"No, I think I'd better go check on Sana."

"Jihyo hyung, please don't. I think it's better for us not to bother with the Sad Room."

“Tzuweeya... but” It's been many nights.

“I know what you're thinking. I won't be able to tell you. Because we made a promise.”

“Huh, Dahyun, this really stings.”

And then the conversation, along with the intention, was exhausted for the sake of promises.

“Chang is really angry at you. And then I did it.”

(SANA)

The marks that Dahyun made Now it has faded. But in my head I remember every image and every pose very well. Many memories are still rooted in my heart. Will there be a day? That we will meet again, Dahyun

After that, several months passed before I came to terms with it. I know Dahyun will go. But I didn't think it would disappear like this at all. At first I waited. But now I'm completely discouraged. Dahyun must really be gone. I never asked the members about this. Because Dahyun probably made a promise to them. Even though I have encountered many people in my life

There was no one who could relieve my sorrow. I still keep that letter... and keep you in my heart forever.

I thought about it and it hurt a lot.

It hurts a lot, it hurts the most.

I will miss you again, and again, and again, even though we never meet again in the end, Dahyun.

One More time, No more chance

3 years later

(DAHYUN)

"P'Sa......" Piya! The sound of a palm touching a white cheek. It was so loud and strong that his face turned white and turned the other way.

My words to another person hadn't finished yet. He returned with a forceful blow that made his entire face sting. But it probably won't hurt as bad as your heart. Heh, I'm such a bad person.

When I turned around, I saw Senior Sana, whose bright eyes were now filled with tears. looking straight at me His eyes hid many questions, confusion and bewilderment all directed at me.

It's not strange.

It's been 3 years since we haven't seen each other. And today I was the one who arranged for her to come out and meet me.

“Hyung, are you okay?”

(SANA)

“Hyung, are you okay?”

It's been 3 years since the day Dahyun disappeared.

“Why are you here?” The broken words spoke volumes about my consciousness.

“I personally asked Chang to make an appointment for you to come out.” Those words did not relieve my doubts at all.

“Will you explain everything to me?”

"yes"

When the sound stops Dahyun quickly moved closer to me. Gather yourself in your arms Their lips pressed together tightly.

My eyes widened. Unable to believe myself, I struggled for a moment but then relented. It was like my spirit had broken again. This warm feeling I only realized now how much I craved it. No matter how much I want to deny it But my heart says this is what I want

I began to move my lips in response to the little person's touch. Tears streamed down my cheek and the other person's thumb smoothed them out and held my face. His lips were hot and drawn, as if trying to apologize for everything that had happened in the past.

“Huh,” I start to tremble as Dahyun pulls his lips away.

She rubbed my head like she usually does when comforting me. When the one holding my face still won't let go The temperature of my palm told me this wasn't a dream.

"What's wrong with you?"

Hearing this question, I stopped choking and pulled away.

“Yay!!!!”

“That's where you disappeared. Are you kidding me!!!! Come take it like this and leave me alone. Came back and acted as if nothing had happened. You know that, Kim Dahyun!!” I shouted at the top of my lungs, feeling all uncomfortable. Making the other person a little startled.

“Hahahahahahaha, the same old Sana from sixteen. I haven't seen you in a long time.”

Dahyun's laughter made me dizzy again. After I spit out all my insults at you Now my mood was replaced by one of astonishment and doubt. It was not yet time to ask anything further. The little man's voice sounded again.

“Uncle Sana, who I fell in love with...

One more time I want to say

So I came back to find

...elder sibling

When I fell in love, I didn't tell you directly because I was afraid of losing you. I don't dare to face you. When you fell in love with me, you didn't tell me because you didn't know what I was thinking and you were afraid of losing me too. But if we talk, it will be better, right?

In the end, we both really lost each other.”

“You are a cheater, the biggest cheater, so how can I trust you? If you leave me again How will you take responsibility for it? Isn't it your older brother who has to suffer alone? crazy people!"

“There's no way. I promise before God that I will fall in love with you again, again, and forever. If I break my promise, you can come and take my soul.

But remember, only if I break my promise When you come and take my soul away My spirit will be with you forever.”

“Try loving me again.”

Just try one more time

FIN

Hello, I haven't seen you for a long time. Trying to write a fic based on the topic for the first time. I feel like it's very difficult.

I decorated it myself. I was confused. I had put it on hold for so long until now that I had to hurry and finish it. It might be a little confusing because the person who wrote it was confused. If you don't hurry, it might die on your computer forever, haha.

If you're confused or have any comments, please leave them here.

In the winter, where it's sometimes hot and then it's cold, take care of your health. Happy reading.

And thank you for coming to read.

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