Anyeong~
This fic is a short fic. that we write when we listen to music It was the first story that was finished very quickly.
But not to the extent that the song was finished immediately, haha.
Because it is a fic written according to the feel of that time. May not be able to read and understand I'm sorry too.
Some comments are good ><
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“Hyung, I think we should break up.”
I don't know how long it has been. that I have to wake up every morning Because it's just one sentence that haunts my heart
Since that day The day the person I love the most Walk out of my life to follow the path he had chosen I dreamed of the last scene between us over and over. Never would I wake up. And there are no tears, no crying.
I got out of bed, took a shower, got dressed and got ready for work. I do everything as I'm accustomed to: toast bread, make pancakes, make coffee.
But when I came to sit at the table I realized that I'm alone, there's no one else waiting to eat breakfast with me. There was no one who ever looked excited. Waiting to see that every morning Will there be his favorite pancakes? No more...
“Hey you, today is Minjoon's birthday. Don't forget to go. If you refuse, there is hope. I will definitely get stomped by my panda brother.”
This sentence came from my close friend Ok Taecyeon. As soon as he saw me walking into the department,
"Oh, I won't forget, because you'll have to drag me away anyway," I said, wagging my eyebrows at him once.
“Well, you always turn down party favors. Lately, this has happened. That's why I have to come and warn you."
It's true since that day. I went out with friends less. Because I'm still sad about the incident.
And I don't want anyone to know that every morning I have to wake up with tears in my eyes.
I don't want anyone to know. That I still can't forget that person.
I don't want anyone to know that every day from that day I had to force a smile all the time.
I don't want my friends to be uncomfortable. I had to force myself to act strong.
“Well, this time I'm not crooked. It's my brother's birthday. Hey, hurry up and get to work. The boss will say so."
I immediately cut Taecyeon off. Before it complains any more. along with walking around to his own desk then start working Like every past day
In the evening, I went to Minjoon's birthday party. As promised to Taecyeon I really don't want to come to this event, but if I don't come, Taek and Minjoon hyung will definitely be mad at me.
The reason I don't want to come Because I don't want to hear the same questions from acquaintances that they always ask me every time I meet face to face. Where have the people who were once beside me gone?
I don't want to answer anyone's questions, and I don't want to face anyone. that will remind me of the memories between me and that person even more than this
“Sister, hello. I didn't expect to meet you. I've been missing you for a while now."
“That's right. I really miss you. Are you okay?”
Greetings came from Junho and Chansung. Younger sister who is close to me
“Right now, I'm busy with work. And what about you guys? Are you fine? And oo…”
I nearly blurted out the names of the two closest friends, but I held my tongue in time. Even though it really has ended Why do I always like to cause myself pain?
"Uh.. We're fine. As for that guy, he's probably fine too. I haven't seen him lately."
Junho answers questions I didn't intend to ask, but Chansung was already gone at the dining table.
“Oh, then I'll excuse myself first. I'm going to go find the owner of the job. You go eat.”
I said as I excused myself and walked out. Then I walked towards Taecyeon and Minjoon hyung.
Minjoon hyung who just saw my face Since the incident happened at that time Hurry up and hug me. Along with saying in a stern voice,
“Why don't you come and meet your friends? Do you know that everyone is worried?”
“I'm sorry, bro. But I'm not ready to really meet anyone yet.” Even at this time...
I know that all my friends are worried about me. Especially Taecyeon, Minjoon hyung, Chansung and Junho because we are very close.
In the past, we mostly went together. Until that person came to say goodbye to me. So I disappeared from my friend group as well.
I stayed and talked with friends a little. Then he asked to leave. Claiming that his boss called to rush him to finish the project and submit it tomorrow morning.
Taecyeon definitely knew I was lying. Well, tomorrow is my holiday.
But it can be seen that I have had many friends interrogate me about the past too much. So he didn't hold me back. Before I left, Taecyeon said to me,
"You bastard, you're okay, right? Are you okay?"
What kind of behavior did I accidentally show? That's why Tack said that. Or I accidentally acted weak in front of my friends.
“Oh, I'm fine. I guess I'm a little drunk. Let's go first."
I quickly cut myself off as soon as I saw Taek open his mouth to say anything else. So it nodded. So I immediately walked out of work.
I came to my senses again while standing in front of the door of my own house. I don't even remember that. When did I buy the beer I was holding in my hand?
But, again, I probably do everything according to habit.
Since the day we broke up There isn't any day. That I wouldn't have any beer at home.
This is probably the reason why the floor in my house It's full of beer cans. that I would clean it But I haven't done it yet.
When I have a holiday, I just sit and think about the same things. The memories between us keep popping back into my head.
And that led to more beer cans on the floor.
I intend that today will be the last day that I behave like this. Tomorrow I will clean the house. Forget all the stories of the past To start a new life, even though it's difficult, I must try again.
Just today, only today That I will be a weak nichkhun Stuck in the past Holding on to the person who chose to leave me
Even though I know that he chose to go on his own.
But why can't I erase his image from my heart? It's like my time Stop walking with him. Stop walking with that goodbye sentence.
Stop walking with the love between the two of us that stopped, like everything was frozen. Memories are stuck everywhere.
Even next to the sofa where I was sitting. I still saw him sitting and smiling at me.
I saw him in front of me. Even though I know there's no way it's possible. Not the real one But it makes me happy. Even if it's just for a fraction of a second
Before I remember The picture in front of me doesn't actually exist. Then I had to come back and get hurt again. It's been like this over and over again. That I have to be stuck in my own memories
Until I want to turn back time In the time before I met him Before we love each other If you can do that I probably don't have to get hurt again like this.
I can only pray that today will pass. And tomorrow I'll forget everything. But right now, I can only cling to memories. that seems to have just happened Even though it's been a long time
I lay down on the bed with eyes closed Leaving various memories floating around Waiting for tomorrow The day I might be strong
“Hyung, I think we should break up.”
I woke up with tears again.. This is the first time I don't know.
How long will I be like this?
When will I be strong?
When will you come back to me?
When, Wooyoung...
End.