Hello

1. Let me first say that this story is a short story. Because I never finished writing long stories, so I changed the genre to writing short stories.

2. Don't expect too much from this novel. Because the writer is not very good at using words, some words may not be as elegant as they should be.

3. Have fun reading. If it's not fun, I apologize here.

But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?

(But we'll all be lost stars Trying to shine a light in the darkness?)

fog

“Mok, I forgot that I was going to invite Brother So to eat together. Then I'll come."

Seriously!!

“Sit down!! Do you want to have an affair, sir?"

"Yes!! A person with negative human relations skills. Just the two of us can have fun together."

"Just kidding. You don't have to want to build a friendly relationship with him."

chain

'Then show me you like me.'

'Oh, hey!! No.'

'If you don't, it means you don't like it, so I'll excuse myself.'

'Hey!! Wait.....oh! I like you too.'

'Then you must be my boyfriend.'

'What the fuck, my boyfriend? I like girls.'

'Hey wait!!!'

'Oh, I can be your girlfriend.'

If one day I disappear, will you find me...?

If one day I don't remember you, will you still have me in your memories...?

If one day I ignore you, will you try to get my attention?

And if one day I change, will you think that you were the one who did it...??

Sometimes the memories hurt. If I could choose that day I'm going to destroy these damn memories. If I could do it back then... Right now I will just be a fun teenager for my age, with friends, lovers, and a family.

But everything disappeared just because of one bad person. The person who made me love with all my heart... The person who made me so fascinated that I couldn't hold my head up... The person I allowed to become a part of my life... And the person who...I was willing to kneel down and beg and beg him to pay attention to my stupid love on the day he saw me as just a piece of trash.

It's like a drug. As for me, it's like I've become a drug addict. When there was no medicine, he went red. Feeling like I'm about to die. But when you don't take it for a long time, you will be able to recover from it.

Today I am like that. No matter how much I wanted it in the past But over time, I was left with only numbness. Today I'm still waiting for it to come back. I'm not waiting for him to come back to love. But wait....to take revenge on it!!

"Mok!! Have you heard the news that Brother So will come back to live next to our house like before?"

"So...is there anything else you want to say?" If you don't have it, I'll sleep on it."

“Isis, I thought you would be more excited than this. Your best friend has returned."

"If you don't, you can leave so I can sleep."

"Nervous bastard, going to bed at noon today is so damn hot."

"Yes!!"

Why should I care about it? A close couple? Enemies no matter what. People like that aren't worthy of being my best friend. People who make me feel like I'm dead don't deserve attention, they deserve death.

Boy, if I could turn back time I want it to disappear from my life. The happiness we received was nothing compared to the suffering that came our way.

Love is like the plot of many novels. The hero moves next to the heroine's house. At first it might not be right. But after meeting each other for a long time, there will be good feelings for each other until it becomes love, then the story will end. But my story isn't finished. And it turned from sweet love into a bitter memory. And I still can't forget

3 years ago

A boy in a high school uniform I'm sitting and playing games like crazy. Like a normal boy, he didn't know that a turning point was coming.

'Mok Luk, yesterday a neighbor moved in next to our house. So Mom made some food that she wanted to take to the house. Mother Wan Mok, please give it to him, please.' Mother carried a lunchbox and placed it on the table near where I was sitting playing games. Then he asked me to bring food to the house next door.

'Mom, can't you use Aun? The fog will lose the game,' I told my mother in a weak voice.

'Warm, let's go outside. Mother Wan, just a moment of fog, child.'

'Alright,' I inevitably replied to my mother.

I walked with a lunchbox and rang the doorbell of the house next door. Not long after, a woman about the same age as my mother opened the door for me.

'My mother asked me to bring food for you.'

'Oh, it's you, right?' She smiled at me kindly.

'Yes,' I answered and gave a dry smile like people just getting to know each other.

'Come inside first, child. Auntie plans to bring food to stay with her as well. But it's not finished yet. Please wait.' The auntie next door opened the door for me to follow her in.

She sat down on the sofa before telling me to sit down. While waiting for the house servant to bring me food in a lunchbox I looked around the house. This house is like my house in every way except the decoration is different. Because our house is in a housing development.

'Aunty, my name is Aunt Nee. I just moved here. When I saw you, I said I had twins. I just met the real person. Where did the other person go?" Auntie Nee talked friendly to me.

'Aun went outside. I don't know where I went.'

'It's like this, teenagers. By the way, my name is Ai Mok, right? Did you see that the twins' names are Ai Oun and Ai Mok?' I nodded and smiled at Aunt Nee.

'Oh, are you here to follow your son? I'm sorry, but I was going to bring food to you, so I'll wait for you to get it,' Auntie said when she saw my mother walking up to her.

'nevermind If I stay here, I feel comfortable thinking I'll sneak away and travel. So come and have a look.' Mother smiled and said to Aunt Nee before sitting down next to me.

'True, I haven't introduced my son to him yet. That's what I was talking about and just came down.' I looked at Aunt Nee. I saw a man my age walking down from the house. Its body is about the same size as mine, but it has this face. He won me over completely.

'Zo, come here first,' Auntie Nee beckoned. So he walked over and sat next to Aunt Nee.

'So, is this Uncle Mai, our neighbor? This part is Nong Ai Mok, Uncle Mai's son.'

'Hello, Aunt Mai?'

'Hello'

'Anyway, please take care of me. My father-in-law and I are doing business abroad. This just came to send my eyes out. Once everything was smoothed out, I had to go back to work. I'll leave you to take care of me.' I thought Auntie Nee would be right here. But it's not because Auntie Nee just came to settle Aiso's business. In this way, Ai So would have to live alone or with a servant.

'I can't leave it. I have to leave the mist separately. I'm in Japan with my husband. It's been a while since I've come to visit these guys. Come and stay every month or two. Next month I have to go back to Japan.' My father is Japanese. Doing IT business in Japan Every once in a while my father comes to visit because he is very busy. Mother had to take care of father. because father is alone

As for me, there are two people living together. So it's better for my mother to stay with my father.

'oh!! So, let Ai Mok take care of Chain for Auntie as well. Let's help each other if we have anything.' I turned to look at Chain's face. It looked at me too. Before he smiled at me annoyingly So I made a face at him.

'Yes, I'll take good care of you,' I said emphasizing the word and turned to look at Ai So's face. who still has the same annoying smile as before

My mother and Aunt Nee have all returned to foreign countries. Soi is alone. As for me, I'm with Aun. I had to take Soo to school every day because he moved to the same school as me and more importantly, he didn't have a car to study, so Aunt Nee entrusted him to study with me. Aun and I went out with a motorcycle each. Because Aun and I like to compete with each other to drive. So mom gave each one a car.

Aun and I really like Big Bite motorcycles. The cars are identical in every way except the color. Which is not surprising because we both bought the same things since childhood. I don't want to be twins who do exactly the same thing. But it's been there since I was a child until I was used to it.

To be honest, I really don't like having anyone sit with my child. Especially Ai So If it weren't for Aunt Nee entrusting it to me to take care of it, I would definitely abandon it, but for my peace of mind. I tease him every day. Until it became my daily routine.

Some days I pretend to abandon it for the reason that it is so slow.

'P'So, the fog says you're slow. So he rode to wait in front of the village. It told me to run and find it. I'll go first, I'll wait a long time.'

'Dammit mist!!!'

Some days I pretended to be late, causing me to be late for class.

'Dammit, it's already 8 o'clock, why hasn't he shown up yet?'

'It says it hurts. Please wait a bit and I'll go.'

'You haven't pooped since yesterday, what the heck?'

When he found out that I liked to pretend to leave him because he was late. He retaliated against me by getting dressed early in the morning. But I was always aware of it. Well, my room is opposite it. As soon as the light turned on, I ran into the bathroom. I'm afraid I won't be able to escape it in time.

'Where is the damn fog?'

'It said Pee So is late, so I'll go wait at the 7-Eleven in front of the alley first.'

'What the fuck are you so late? It's only six o'clock, dammit!'

My daily life is like this every day. It's fun to tease Ai So. But when he teased me back, it didn't sting as well.

That day, I pretended to run out of gas in the middle of the road and had him push my Big Bite all the way to school with the excuse that I was sick and couldn't push it. It really was a shopping cart. I'm so heartbroken. In the evening I will go home. I realized that the car keys were with Mr. So, but when I went to look for them, my roommate said that he had already taken a taxi back.

I knew he was teasing me. But I'm sad because I have a spare key in the school locker. I returned to the car and started the car, but the car wouldn't start. Looking at the oil indicator But I saw that I ran out of gas. How could I? At noon, I secretly brought it to fill up the tank until it was full.

'Damn you!!!!' Finally that day I had to take Big Bite to refuel. The damn gas station is so far away. By the time I got home it was more than midnight.

Sometimes he teases me to the point where I'm late too.

'Aun, have you seen Ai So? It said that he had gone home for an hour to do his work and he still hasn't come.'

'What kind of work are you doing? I saw Brother So take a taxi and leave for a long time. I thought you were teasing Brother So.'

'You damn heel!!!!'

He and I are like this every day. Whoever can be teased first will escape. Whoever is bullied will suffer.

Lately, I've started having girls come and talk to me. Today, I will volunteer to take her home. So I let him go home by himself.

'Ping, the fog will send you. Let's go see a movie together'

'So, my friend, who will I go back with?'

'Don't worry about it. It's possible. Let's go.'

I dropped it, I thought it wouldn't mind, but no, it got angry at me and avoided me.

'Ai So, it's warm.'

'Ask for!! Brother So has arrived at school by now? I saw you leaving early in the morning.'

'Fuck, you're not waiting for me anymore' I haven't talked to Mr. So in a week. It's like life is missing something. There's no one to tease. There's no one to tease. Plus, no one dares to return. In the end, I had to reconcile with it.

'You damn bastard, why are you avoiding me?'

'You don't like me, right? I'm about to get out of this life of yours.'

'No, when did I tell you that I don't like you?'

'Then show me you like me.'

'Oh, hey!! No.'

'If you don't, it means you don't like it, so I'll excuse myself.'

'Hey!! Wait.....oh! I like you too.'

'Then you must be my boyfriend.'

'What the fuck, my boyfriend? I like girls.'

He didn't say anything and turned and walked away from me.

'Hey wait!!!' It stopped.

'Oh, I can be your girlfriend.'

His face returned and he smiled like a winner. What the hell am I doing?

After that, he and I were the same as before. What's more is that he likes to harass me all this time. Damn it.

'Uh...um....' He kissed my lips ever since I agreed to be his girlfriend. He kissed me almost every first day and I resisted. But after that I got used to it.

'That's enough, are you confused and not able to do any more work? I won't help you escape and go home.'

'I do it, but I want to do it more'. Look at each word that he says.

'Dirty bastard'

'Yes, good father, Thai lady.'

'Thai ladies of your country. I'm a fucking man.'

It started to dawn on Aoun that Ai So and I were good relatives. Because I didn't tell anyone that I was a lover. All I know is me and two guys. But after a while, Aun started not to suspect anything. You probably thought that Ai So and I were at peace.

My sweet feelings continued to travel until that day. The day everything fell apart...

That guy was walking around with a cute guy. And then he broke up with me...

"The fog says we won't survive. I think we're breaking up.'

I was shocked by what I heard. Because right now I love it so much, but it has abandoned my love even though it was the one who asked for it.

'Are you kidding me? I'm not laughing.' I laughed dryly because right now my mind was racing. I'm afraid that the guy really did it.

'I'm telling the truth, we broke up. I don't like you anymore.'

I sat down on the ground before grabbing its leg and shaking it in confusion.

'Damn you!! Are you lying to me? Come say you're lying.' I shake the chain's leg. Tears that had never flowed down my cheeks. I really can't hold it back.

'I'm not lying. I like someone else already. I don't like you anymore. Stop messing with me.' I stopped. Looking up at it, its face was still before it shook its legs and walked away. As for me, I'm sitting here stupid. When it rains, I don't go anywhere.

After that day, I never saw it again. Aun said he moved back to America. As for me, I became a cold person. Not close to anyone Until they become like people without society How much suffering will I have to suffer before I can return to the way I was before? I promised myself that I would get revenge on him one day. One day it will have to be like me, Ai So...

"Fog, fog!!!!!!" I woke up from my fear. Because Aun was shouting loudly into my ear.

"What's wrong? I'm going to sleep." I turned to look annoyed at the warm man.

"Why are you sleeping? Sitting there looking blank for the rest of your life."

"I fell asleep, dammit," I corrected myself.

"Really!!"

"Yes! You can leave." I chased him out of the room.

"Let's chase each other. I just came to call you to eat." He smiled. then walked towards the door

"Come down and eat with me. I'll cook it deliciously and you'll like it." He turned and made a stupid heart-shaped hand at me and walked out of the room.

I got out of bed and walked to the balcony to get some air. I like the atmosphere in the evening. It made me feel like the chaos was finally coming to an end. There will be only peace. Unlike the morning, I felt that chaos was beginning. And my peace will disappear

I stood and closed my eyes for a moment. Then I opened my eyes. But I made the mistake of opening my eyes because I had to see the person I hated the most in front of me. He stood on the balcony of his room. His eyes seemed to ask for sympathy. But my eyes looked at it hard. Huh! Do your eyes ask for sympathy? It's so funny how badass people like that are. There's no way to do this. It's just a scam.

I walked into the room. Close the window, close the curtains I don't want to see his face. I hate it!!

“Mok, I'm coming after you for the millionth time. Go down and eat quickly. Just kick me and roll me down." Aun opened the door and followed me to eat again. I suspect it's because it followed me for a long time and didn't let me go down, so it followed me again. But this one went too far two times. Said he'd come for the millionth time.

“Following only two rounds, what the heck, he's talking too much. Let's just say I'll follow you down. You don't have to come after me for the millionth time." I teased him a bit. Sometimes they tease each other until they punch each other. But it's normal for twins, I think. When I see people who look the same I get annoyed and feel itchy. Nowadays, they regularly punch each other.

“Mok, I forgot that I was going to invite Brother So to eat together. Then I'll come." Right now, I'm sitting here eating deliciously. But the food tastes really bland. When that bastard warms up, he doesn't even think about it. I'm going to go with Ai So to eat. I hurriedly put down my spoon and hit the plate with a loud noise.

Seriously!!

“Sit down!! Do you want to have a problem with that?” I rolled my eyes and looked dissatisfied at him.

"Yes!! A person with negative human relations skills. Just the two of us can have fun together." Aun walked over and sat down, scowling at me.

"Just kidding, you don't have to make friends with him," I said again after eating for a while.

"I'm not a junior in your group. Don't yell at me, "I'm studying engineering." This year I am in third year. and also received the role of P'Wak As for Aun, he studies computers. It says that you get to play games every day, what's so crazy about it?

"shut your mouth! Fuck," I said quietly and continued eating.

"Mok, do you have class today?" Aun asked me mysteriously. Normally, he never once asked me about my studies.

"In the afternoon, why?" I looked at it suspiciously. Because right now he's smiling like a psychopath.

"So you're free this morning?" That's good. So can I ask you to help me?" I looked confused. What are you helping me with? It must be something bad for me.

"It won't help at all. I'm going to sleep! "

"Whoa~~ You stupid bastard, please help me~ Please, just one time, can't you help me?" Do you want me to break up with my girlfriend?” He shook my arm and begged like he was going to die.

"Quit, quit. "I'm not your boyfriend." I don't care about it.

"can!! If I'm heartbroken Remember that it's because of you. And if I jump off the bridge, it's because of you." He pretended to be hurt. Then pretended to walk away from me

"Yes!! Help, help." Why am I like this? I always lose when I see people walking away. Damn it!

"Thank you very much to Ai Mok for agreeing to come help Praew and his friend. It's very considerate." Praew, Aun's girlfriend, said thank you to me. That I agreed to help be a lab rat for them. But her words of consideration, I think, are a complete lie. What is it that is so considerate?

"Your girlfriend is lying," I whispered to the warm man standing next to me.

"Be quiet, you bastard!!" He put his hand over my mouth. I suspect he's the one who's afraid of his wife.

But let's just say I'm crazy too. for agreeing to come and conduct this crazy experiment of Aun's wife.

2 hours ago

'Really help me, don't go back on my word. Otherwise, the corpse won't be beautiful, Mok.'

'Okay, let's get big, heck. Hurry and say something.' He smiled mischievously and walked to sit next to me and hugged my neck to listen to what he was about to say.

'That's it! Do you know that my girlfriend is studying science? And this Faculty of Science has to do something...'

Auntie!!

'Let's get to the point, you rotten spear. If you were going to tell a story like this, why didn't you tell it when they founded the Faculty of Science?' I raised my arm and hit him on the head once because he didn't get to the point.

'I'm afraid you don't understand. Praew and his friend had to do some research. And the topic that they received was that male twins have homosexual tendencies, I don't know what. So he had to find a male twin to experiment with. And he went out of his way to beg me too. I can't refuse.' What kind of spear experiment is this? It's really crazy, I shouldn't have accepted it at all.

'I'm mentally retarded. If a person has it, then it will have nothing to do with being twins. Now, let me go summarize the research results for you, okay?' I made a disgusted face at Aun.

'I'm not kidding, sir. But, have you ever had feelings for a man?' He came up and asked me.

'ever! How upset are you, you eel-faced bastard!!"

Thump!!!

'Oh!!! What the heck? You can kick it!' I kicked it and it fell off the sofa. Play with someone who isn't nosy, come play with someone like me.

Now I'm sitting in a small square room. It's an open room, with two chairs across from each other. And the room is all light pink. It doesn't seem suitable to me. When I was outside, I saw almost 8 pairs of twin boys. Does my university have this many twins? Never knew before

Aun's wife told me to come sit in this room. Then another person will follow in to do the experiment.

Well!! There was a knock at the door. I wonder if that person will come.

"Come in!" I shouted to come in but stayed in the same place.

"!!!!" I was silent for a moment. Because of the person who came in It's that chain!!!!

"Mok" he said my name as if shocked. But I didn't answer anything. I don't want to look at it. I hurried towards the door, but it knew and locked the door. Then he grabbed my arm and pulled me to sit down in the same place. I tried to resist but couldn't resist. It looked much bigger than before.

He sat me down and sat me down in the chair opposite. I kept going the other way because I didn't want to see his face.

"fog"

"Shut your mouth, I don't want to hear your damn voice."

I still turned to face the other direction. Now the tears that had disappeared began to well up in his eyes. I think I'm strong enough But no, just by seeing his face, I turned into a weak person like before.

“I won't shut up about anything. You have to listen to me, Mok." He spoke softly, but do I have to follow it? Just dream.

“What else can a person like you say? A badass person like you!!!

You shouldn't receive anything from me anymore, not even listening." I turned to face him. Staring into its eyes, it looked tired and discouraged. But I know his eyes are lying. I don't believe it's a good person.

"Fog, I know you're sorry. I'm sorry. You can hate me. But I want you to know one thing: I love you..."

The fruit!!

"Love?! Can people who love each other act like that?"

I had a blown fuse and punched Mr. So hard in the face. People like him shouldn't say the word love.

“You should just die. Idiot," I said and looked at him blankly. It looked at me before smiling at me with bitter eyes.

"I'm sorry, I won't die without hearing the word 'love' from you." He smiled a little painfully and walked out of the laboratory. Only me was still standing, feeling confused.

"What's wrong with your fog? Why do you seem so quiet today?” Aun asked me because after I met Ai So, I didn't talk to anyone at all. and also rushed out first even though the experiment had not yet been completed.

"Nigger!!" I answered him angrily.

"Oh my gosh! Do you want to fight with me when you say that?" he said annoyingly at me.

"Don't bother me, P.Y.O." Aun looked confused. Just cursing like this doesn't make sense. Why did you have to be born with a twin who was so stupid?

"What's your PYO?"

"What the fuck, you idiot? Is your brain made of cashew nuts?” I secretly scolded him again. It's my little stress relief technique.

"I'm smarter than you. Don't you remember when Po Song passed the exam at thirty-eight? You only got thirty-ninth in the exam. You can see that I'm smarter than you." He smiled proudly.

"That's nonsense. Let's go drink alcohol this evening. It's better to invite a lot of friends so there will be people to help share the cost of the alcohol."

"It's bad, but it's good. During this time, I really don't have any money. Oh! So you're not going to study?" Stupid question. Who would be in the mood to study? This mood requires drinking alcohol alone.

"I'm lazy. If you have free time, please go study instead of me. Today I have to do an activity too." Aun and I often go to class instead. Sometimes he even acts like a senior instead of me. There aren't many people who can tell Aun and I apart because when we're outside, we look very serious as well. Only my closest friends and Aun know who is who.

"can!! In exchange, you have to pay for the alcohol instead of me. Do you care?"

The cost of alcohol is only a few baht, but I think they just want to go play and have fun. Nosy claims the cost of alcohol.

"Definitely interested"

Thump!!

"What's going on?" I asked Aun. Well, he's playing with the bag. Plus he made a scowl again. It's probably not something that happened at my group.

"There's something wrong with the dog," he answered me angrily.

"Why? Did a dog lick your lips? Huh! Huh!” I teased him for fun, but he turned around and looked at me, my neck almost flipping over.

"Yes!! Your team has so many dogs,” he said angrily at me.

"I think besides a lot, My group of dogs must be very talented. Otherwise, he wouldn't be able to bite your neck.” I saw a mark on his neck when he turned around. When I teased him, he went quiet. Was this someone in my group grabbing and sucking the throat?

“Oh, so you called them and told them about going out to drink alcohol? There won't be anyone to share the cost of the alcohol." I changed the subject. I don't want to herd too much or it will be difficult. Also, I'm afraid of losing my temper by drinking alcohol.

"Don't ask. I'll handle this matter neatly."

"So, which shop are they going to go to?" I let them choose the shop. I don't care too much, any store that has alcohol can go.

"A new shop opened near the university. It says the atmosphere is nice and chill."

"Hmm." I've heard the name of a new shop opening near the university. I think the atmosphere is chill and suitable for sitting and sipping liquor. But I've never been there before.

Right now I'm at 'Lao Mai Kak', a newly opened shop near the university that is our meeting place.

"You're the last to appear, you damn twins," Bat said teasingly. As Aun and I walked to sit at the table.

"The handsome one has to come last," I replied, smiling at Beth. But this warm guy is not accepting guests at all.

There were 6 people sitting at our table. There were Ai Bet, Ai Tee, Ai Ta, Ai Mai, and two of us. We've been close friends since high school. So they all joined together to enter the same university. And another reason is To make it easier to meet and socialize We sat and sipped and talked continuously because it was only 10:00 p.m. and it was expected to be all night. If I drank too much I was afraid I'd get knocked out.

But Aun drank a glass of alcohol rapidly and didn't know what was wrong, since he bit the dog at my group, it seemed strange. Or is it that he's afraid of people stealing his liquor?

Grit!!!!!!

The screams of the female students in the store were loud. Made me turn to look up at the stage. Saw a singer walking onto the stage. His face looked familiar. How could he not be familiar with it? That guy, when I saw his face, it made my liquor taste sour. I don't want to look at his face. I don't want to know. So I turned and drank alcohol to compete with Aon Oun who was about to be knocked out.

I want to get drunk quickly and not have to feel any more heartache.

“What the hell is wrong with you bastards? Are you afraid that they will steal you? Drink it like water, it's my liquor." Tee said when he saw the two of us eating like we were going to die.

"..." None of us answered. Kae turned to look at Tee's face at the same time. With eyes that say don't be nosy.

"I'm sorry, please continue." Tee laughed dryly.

"Hello everyone," a voice from the stage called out. I pretended not to care and drank pure liquor continuously.

“Today I want to dedicate a song to one person. I want to tell him that I still love him..."

Grit!!!!!

Please don’t see just a boy caught up in dreams and fantasies

(Please don't look at me as just a child chasing dreams and imagination.)

Please see me reaching out for someone I can’t see

(Please consider that I'm trying to reach out and grab someone I can't see)

Take my hand let’s see where we wake up tomorrow

(Take my hand And let's wait and see. Where will we wake up tomorrow?)

Best laid plans sometimes are just a one night stand

(The unavoidable mess sometimes It's just a one-night relationship)

I’d be damned Cupid’s demanding back his arrow

(I must be awful that Cupid wants his love arrow back.)

So let’s get drunk on our tears and

(So ​​let's drink to our tears)

God, tell us the reason youth is wasted on the young

(God Please tell me the reason. The teenage years are wasted by young people)

It’s hunting season and the lambs are on the run

(It's hunting season. and the lambs are running)

Searching for meaning

(to find meaning)

But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?

(But we'll all be lost stars Trying to shine a light in the darkness?)

Who are we? Just a speck of dust within the galaxy?

(Who are we? Or is it just a speck of dust in a galaxy?)

Woe is me, if we’re not careful turns into reality

(Sadness and misfortune will surely overwhelm me.

If we are not careful about returning to reality)

Don’t you dare let our best memories bring you sorrow

(You don't let our best memories Make you sad)

Yesterday I saw a lion kiss a deer

(Yesterday I saw a lion kiss a deer.)

Turn the page maybe we’ll find a brand new ending

(open next page We may find a new ending that we've never seen before.)

Where we’re dancing in our tears and

(Like in the way we can dance with tears in our eyes and…)

God, tell us the reason youth is wasted on the young

(God Please tell me the reason. The teenage years are wasted by young people)

It’s hunting season and the lambs are on the run

(It's hunting season. and the lambs are running)

Searching for meaning

(to find meaning)

But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?

(But we'll all be lost stars Trying to shine a light in the darkness?)

I thought I saw you out there crying

(I thought I saw you there and crying)

I thought I heard you call my name

(I think I hear you calling my name)

I thought I heard you out there crying

(I think I hear you crying)

Just the same

(It's the same)

God, tell us the reason youth is wasted on the young

(God Please tell me the reason. The teenage years are wasted by young people)

It’s hunting season and the lambs are on the run

(It's hunting season. and the lambs are running)

Searching for meaning

(to find meaning)

But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?

(But we'll all be lost stars Trying to shine a light in the darkness?)

I thought I saw you out there crying

(I thought I saw you there and crying)

I thought I heard you call my name

(I think I hear you calling my name)

I thought I heard you out there crying

(I think I hear you crying)

But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?

(But we'll all be lost stars Trying to shine a light in the darkness?)

But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?

(But we'll all be lost stars Is that trying to shine a light in the darkness..)

Hug! Hug!

"Oh my gosh, you're a little kid crying." Who's crying? And what was wet around my cheek? Now I'm all blurred. I drank so much alcohol that it felt like the world was spinning.

“Bitch, you took these two with you. In this situation, if we were to go alone, I think we would definitely be able to park at one of the light poles." I narrowed my eyes and looked at the face of the person who was speaking. Who was it? Oh, this is the tree. So where will it take me? I can go back myself.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm confused. I'm worried.

I'm sorry, Mug." I turned my head to look at the tree. Is that right? Then tell him that he will return himself. I only drank this much and didn't get very drunk at all.

"I'll take the fog back myself. I'm his neighbor." Who? I raised my head and narrowed my eyes to see clearly. Oh! He's handsome. More handsome than me

"Alright then. I'll take Aun back myself."

"No, you have to. Wait, Kwu Ja Ba Aye Oun Kap." My little brother, I have to see for myself.

"Then I'll take the mist back."

SO*****

"Oh..." I carried the mist up after walking out of the store and to the car. If it were still conscious, it would have punched me. It hates me. I made it sad He doesn't want to see my face. But I won't give up, I love it. I'm still waiting for him to have a heart. Even if I wait my whole life, I'll accept it.

I know from Aun that today they will come to drink alcohol. At the newly opened shop near the university. This shop is affiliated with me. So I followed along to see the mist as well. In the past, I would stop him from drinking a lot of alcohol. But no one forbids this. Let it be sipped as plain water. It looks very different. no bright smile There was no cheerful laughter.

I'm the one who made those things disappear. It makes me hate myself. I hate him more than he hates me.

Mok really likes listening to a certain song. A song that I've been listening to for the past three years. I want it to be heard But it only had a look of pain in its eyes. It cried. The song it liked the most turned out to be a song it didn't want to listen to. The song that made him happiest turned out to be the song that made him cry. This is all because of me.

But I want it to be known that I do everything because I love it. I let it hurt because I love it. I love you too much to be selfish....

3 years ago

'Doctor, how am I?' I asked the family doctor. About my illness that I have had since childhood

'Well....' The doctor had a troubled expression on his face. I knew my condition would definitely get worse.

'Please tell me, doctor. I'm ready to accept the truth. The truth is that I'm not ready at all. My death day is approaching. Then my love must end I probably won't have a chance to take care of the fog. And if I leave.... What will the fog be like?

'Now the virus has spread to the brain. It slowly begins to destroy the nervous system. Newer drugs being researched are not yet effective enough to destroy the virus. So the only way we can overcome it. That is, we need to research new drugs that are effective enough to destroy them before they spread throughout the brain.'

A virus that I have lived with my whole life. Now it's about to take my life away. It's about to destroy the person I love...

'If I can't invent medicine, If it keeps destroying my brain, what will happen to me? Please tell me.' I just want to know. What will I be like from now on? Will my oily symptoms remain the same or get worse? And will I... be able to survive to see the last fog?

'Your brain will gradually forget everything. Until I can't remember anything Even the person you love the most The eyes will start to become blurry and eventually become completely dark. And your body will begin to weaken and become like a sleeping prince. You won't be able to say anything at that point. Only your ears that can still know everything'

I must have arrived at the end of my life. But the person who is still beside me, Mok.. he still has a bright future. He still has to live. I must let the fog go. It's better than having him walk down a dead end with me...

'In bad things, there are still good things. At least heaven allows me to hear voices. Heh! Heh!' I laughed dryly. Even though my heart is full of tears....

I began to distance myself from the fog. I pretended I was with someone else At that time my health began to deteriorate. I had to get out of the mist before it knew I was sick.

'The fog says we won't survive. I think we're breaking up.'

I broke up with him, he sounded like he was crying. I want to hug and comfort him and tell him that it's okay. But now I can't, I have to hurt it. But the person who was hurt was me.

'Are you kidding me? 'The Mok laughed dryly with an expression that was not good. At that time I wanted to give up everything and embrace it. But I can't back down. I had to cut it off. It's better to be sorry once than to be sorry for me for the rest of my life. Let it go find a good person who can take care of it for me. I have to make it...

'I'm telling the truth, we broke up. I don't like you anymore.' The mist collapsed before my eyes. He grabbed my leg and shook me incomprehensibly.

'Damn you!! Are you lying to me? Tell me you're lying. It shakes my leg. Tears that I had never seen from him flowed down my cheeks. I couldn't stand to watch him grieve any longer. I had to leave this place quickly.

'I'm not lying. I like someone else already. I don't like you anymore. Stop fucking with me,' I yelled at him and jerked my leg out of his grip. It stopped and looked at my face. I pretended not to care and walked out, leaving it to sit sadly in the rain. If I can continue to act as his lover I'll take it out of the rain

But now I can't do it anymore. I don't have that right anymore.........

I moved to America for treatment. My symptoms began to deteriorate. I couldn't do anything, I started to turn into a sleeping prince more and more.

'If I can't do anything, If I became the Sleeping Prince Mom, please tell the nurse to play this song for me every day.' I handed the music player to Mom with the songs that Mok liked to listen to. I thought that if I was going to die, I just wanted to feel like there was still fog next to me.

'Huh.

Lost star?

Don't you listen to this kind of music?' My mother looked at the name of the song in surprise.

'I've grown to love this kind of music,' I smiled at my mother.

'Yes, I hope you get well soon.' Mom smiled at me and rubbed my head gently.

Who are we? Just a speck of dust within the galaxy?

(Who are we? Or is it just a speck of dust in a galaxy?)

Woe is me, if we’re not careful turns into reality

(Sadness and misfortune will surely overwhelm me.

If we are not careful about returning to reality)

Don’t you dare let our best memories bring you sorrow

(You don't let our best memories Make you sad)

A song that I hear every day rings normally I don't know why I have to listen to this song every day. I don't know what this song is called. I don't know who I am. I don't know anyone. My world right now is lonely and empty. There's only darkness all the time. A body that can never move I can't do anything.

Having only ears to hear makes me not alone. The songs that are played repeatedly don't make you feel bored. I feel good and warm listening to it every day. It allows me to see someone's face every day. Even though I couldn't see that person's face clearly But at least I still know I once had that person in my life.

"Brain development And Khun So's perception has improved. Some parts of the virus have disappeared as well. It's a strange story and a very good thing. And more importantly, we think we can produce a drug that can fight the virus and revitalize your body.' Whose voice was it? I heard someone speaking, but I didn't know what they were saying.

'That means we have hope, right? Doctor, hey, hey, Mom's chain is very strong. Soon we'll be able to meet each other again. You probably want to meet Nong Mok more than mom, right? Huh! Huh! Try to get in, child.' The voice started coming closer to me. A voice that cries out with joy She must be my mother. Mom said the name of a person, Mok.

In my life I have known a person named Mok. I'd rather see fog than mom. It shows that fog is probably my love. I will fight now that I know that. I have to live my life back to the person named Mok.

I felt that my frozen body was strange. I have a feeling I want to open my eyes even though I know that I will encounter darkness...

'Oh.....' I blinked, adjusting to the light shining in my eyes.

The picture in front of me wasn't black, it was the ceiling of the room. I could see it!!! I stood up in shock, but I must have been more shocked. I can move my body now. My body is normal. Except I still don't remember anyone.

'chain!!!!! This is my child!! Mother's child. Haha. A woman ran up and hugged me. She cried. Are you my mother?

'Mom....' I called her.

'Mother, why did the doctor say that you still can't remember anyone?'

'I...still don't remember anyone'

'It's okay, child. The doctor said that your memories will gradually begin to return.' Mother smiled at me warmly. I haven't seen this smile in a long time.

'How long have I been asleep?' I asked my mother curiously.

'Two years is a very long time,' my mother told me. Two years already? I was a corpse for two years.

'And do we still have to listen to music today?' A song that has stayed with me for two years. Songs that make me not lonely The song that made me meet the person my mother called Mok.....

'Listen, Mom, who is Mok?' Mom turned to look at me and wanted to be surprised. then smile at me

'Dear friend, next to Ban So, my son, in Thailand' is not! Not a dear friend I feel like Mok is not just a dear friend. Mok must be.....a lover.

'No, no, Mok is not just a dear friend. He is my lover,' I said as I felt. My mother was not at all shocked. She smiled back at me in understanding.

'I must go back to the mist. I have to remember everything.' My serious eyes reflected hope.

'Mom, I'll help you chain harder.' Mom held my hand to encourage me.

I'm sure I'll have to go back to the fog again....

I came to deliver fog to his house. I still don't want to cause the mist to break so shallow that it will run away if it finds out I'm messing with it again.

"Oh....." I let the mist fall from my back and lie down on the bed. It struggled for a while and then lay there as before.

"I love you, Mok. Get over your anger at me quickly. Dream about me too. Kiss~" I squatted down next to his bed. Talk to it while it's asleep. and kissed its forehead once to make it disappear. Then I walked out of his room to go home, myself afraid that it would be shallow first.

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