Phuthi
Fic - ' Feeling '
I want to write, I want to post a lot, haha.
Try decorating the mountain corners.
I want many people to be able to look at the mountain's perspective.
Sometimes being the one who chooses doesn't always lead to 'happiness'.
Enjoy with fic! ^^
Fic
Phuthi -
Feeling
'Did I do something wrong, Pu?'
What am I doing?
It's 8 a.m. and I should have gone to class long ago.
But what did I do?
Sitting still on the bed, looking around the room.
Ask yourself what I'm thinking.
I couldn't answer.
I just feel weak in the knees every time I walk past 'it'.
'It' is
Bed, cabinet, bathroom, toothbrush, towels, blankets, pillows, mattress, low table in the middle of the room, and CDs.
Having said that, almost everything in my room is 'it'.
'It' is something that has been used by me.
Through use from 'us'
Things we used to remember together
The corner where we used to laugh at each other
Things that connect us
connect us together
Until our feelings are the same
Until our hearts match
But I left everything behind
overlook it
Just because one woman stepped into my life.
Toey is an ex-girlfriend.
But Thee is the current person.
Someone once asked me,
'If your ex comes back But you already have a new boyfriend. Who will you choose?'
I smiled and laughed goofily.
'What the hell are you asking? I have to choose a new person.'
I feel like the problem is very simple. At that time, I could answer with all my heart.
But now it's not.
It won't be this bad. If someone asks that question, it's not Tee.
My answer is as promised.
But why can't I do as I said?
Why why why
Why is everything delayed?
Everything is confusing.
With Toey, I feel good. I feel comfortable with Toey and am confident that I will be ready to start over.
But with Tee, it was a special feeling. I'm close with Tee, very close, we go everywhere together.
Even though I used to think that if I encountered a problem like this I'll probably get through it.
But why am I so fickle?
Is it possible? I'm just close to Tee, but it's a misunderstanding that it's love.
Is it possible? I'm just comfortable being with Toey. And Toey is a woman. It's not unnatural.
Is it possible? I'm just not used to being like this. That only close friends have disappeared
Or it may be that I'm like this because I'm not ready to face any problems yet. Let's go together with Theer.
Both problems include men, parents, families, other people.
What is this?
At this moment, I really can't think of anything.
Thinking of this, tears began to well up. I lifted the back of my hand and wiped away the stray tears.
I can't help it. Everywhere I look, there's only Tee.
It's all full.
Looking at the table, he saw a picture of Theer. Looking at the cabinet, I thought of that day.
The day I moved beyond friendship
Whoever I am, everyone must think I'm wrong.
Whatever you do, I'm the one who started it.
Because I can't stop myself. Thee therefore became the one who had to give in.
I've always given in.
But who knows that people 'choose'
How painful is it?
That day I went to see Toey.
But the hiccup came back just because of the word
'But Phu is gay'
Even though I can argue back But Toey doesn't like it.
Toey probably knows.
That I'm fickle
Everything hurts.
It was like there were a million tiny needles embedded in the left side of my chest.
heart position
I can't hold it back anymore, I can't hold back my tears anymore.
help
Why does it hurt so much?
knock knock
“Phu, are you awake yet?”
mother..
knock knock
“Phu can go to school now.”
Mom.. why?
Why can't Phu do anything?
'I know I'm allergic to alcohol and I'll still drink it'
“Hug.. Hug”
I choose Toey.
I really chose Toey.
But why do I get hurt like this?
In my head there is only your face. There's only one problem.
Why Wathi?
Will you know that day you ignored me, looked past me, didn't care?
I'm hurt.
But I had to keep it because I was wrong.
'Did you bring boxers for me?'
Every story, I still think about it.
Why do I always miss you?
Tee
"vigorous.."
'Why do you have to be so fierce...'
Will you know that day? How much did I try to stop myself from doing anything to you?
Well, you're stubborn.
If I'm not fierce, will you follow me?!!
'mountain..'
soft moaning sound Just sleepwalking and calling my name again.
You drunk person is sleeping soundly.
But I, a normal person, can't sleep.
Because I'm afraid.
I'm afraid of my own heart.
I'm afraid I'll do something.
'um..'
That's it.
But you make me go crazy.
Do you know that you were so cute that night?
Luckily for you, you were drunk and fell asleep first.
Otherwise it definitely wouldn't end with just a kiss.
'I'll use your brush'
Huh, has a person like you ever had anything of their own?
What are you going to borrow from me next time?
Next time..
No more
Why?
Every story must happen in my room.
Both audio evidence All photos are complete.
And how can I forget it?
What traces will it leave in my heart?
I'm selfish. I want it to be me who goes to his house, sleeps at his house, and brushes his hair instead of my house.
I wouldn't feel so guilty.
In case it's easier for me to forget it. In case the tears will be less than this
But I still choose to keep everything.
in case he wants to come back
I sat and reorganized all my thoughts.
What should I do?
What do I want to do?
And what can I do?
Every problem has a solution.
But there's only one thing I can think of.
In fact, I thought about it a long time ago.
Only I don't accept it.
Okay, I really admit it.
I miss Thee.
I want it next to me.
Become the same as before
But why?
Since I feel good about Toey, right?
But what can I do?
I picked up the iPhone, which has become the 33rd part of this generation.
Unlock the screen
Debating whether to call or not
I look at it like that.
Picture of the owner of the number...
He always smiles at me.
return..
Suddenly this word popped into my head.
return..
Come back and live with me.
Come back to me.
Because I can't stay here alone.
I'm weak..
I'm sorry.
I'm coming back...
That day all day
I kept myself hidden.
cry
passed until evening
There was no knock from mother.
Ai Pao wandered off and refused to return.
Quiet, completely quiet.
It's another painful day.
and lonely
Because just look to the side
The bed is empty..
The tears came again.
I reached out and picked up the pillow next to me.
The leaf that it always uses as support
Hug it tenderly
Let the tears flow down the pillow.
I already know
What do I really want?
emptiness in the mind
Missing things
There is only one person who can complete it.
you
Only you
I agree.
I really accept it.
Just found out today.
I just understood.
I already know.
How much does it hurt?
'What did I do wrong..?'
"You're not wrong at all, Thor."
Its face, its eyes
Grieving, feeling hurt, hurt and hurt.
How does it feel?
It didn't cry. Let me see just one drop.
“It was my fault.”
I made the wrong choice.
I accept it, Thee.
I'm sorry.
I'm really sorry.
knock knock
“Phu, you can eat now, child.”
mother..
I'm sorry.
He likes men.
Haha 555555555555555
It's finished. How are you?
Actually, I wrote it before episode 13 came out.
But it got stuck at the very end.
T^T
At first I thought hard about it too. Put it down. Will anyone read it? Haha.
Thee Phu, Tee Phu, all over the place.
TT
We probably aren't the only Phuthi, right?
But I secretly saw the fic. Phuthee, sometimes like
Let's have fun >///<.
I saw people say there are a lot of mountains. I'd like to tell you about the mountain ^^
Actually, there's more to this than that, including Tee, haha.
It's up to the reader.
Do you want there to be a sequel? Please comment, comment, comment :)
I'm afraid of it. Haha.
We want to finish this couple.
Y^Y