I know that you would never tell anyone what I was about to tell you. I know it would be rude because if you knew what I was about to tell you before you returned to the sky, maybe you would have a story. Please tease me some more. And I'm sorry that I wasn't close enough to you back then to talk to you like this.

The first thing I want to tell you is I used to secretly like you!

I know! It was such a surprise and I couldn't believe it myself. I was trying to figure out if I really like you. You do! no! I'm not saying you're a bad person. But because you weren't always nice to me, I was surprised. It's strange, isn't it? If I really like you

How can I do this when one of my closest friends really likes you and has liked you before? There's no way I can reveal my feelings. No, I definitely don't like you like that. Even though I secretly hoped that you would like me, I feel terrible that I let such feelings arise in my heart. It was a disaster for me to have to like the same person as my friend and me. There's absolutely no way to do that.

I can't make anyone feel bad because I'll feel worse, you know!

Later...that is Now I understand how I felt about you because you were so charming. He is a fun-loving person who always gets laughter from those around him. You're not boring! It's the complete opposite of me. That's why I began to look at you from the sidelines, feeling impressed by what you did and ending with the feeling that I wanted you to feel the same.

That is, I feel that I am also one of your close friends. Maybe I don't like the model of my best friend. Maybe I just want to have a close friend like you. That's all because you help fill in things. I'm missing being close to you. It might help me change myself a bit. At least I'm not a boring, old-fashioned, straight-laced person.

And I'm too messy. I thought you could teach me! But you, again, don't treat me well. When I join the conversation You pretended to interrupt and tease me until I didn't even dare to open my mouth. So how can I not secretly feel hurt like this, right?

Anyway, now that you want to argue You can't argue with that, which I'm not happy about!

Okay, the next thing I'm going to tell you is no different. You probably already know that one of the guys in the class likes me...so? I don't know if it's true or not, but as much as my friends tease me, I think he likes me. I'm secretly happy, but at the same time, I feel bad that he suddenly made me feel guilty, that I didn't like him. how

And if I said that he would feel bad and I would feel worse because I caused it. You understand, I'm such an overthinking woman. But in the end, I realized that he didn't like me at all and probably hated me. It was because of me that I acted disgusted at him first, so he retreated far away.

But another reason I was angry at him for liking me in the first place. It's because I secretly like a person, a friend in our class. Your friend, the tall one, is the favorite runner in the class, has nice eyes, has white skin, but he already has a girlfriend and changes girlfriends often. But I secretly liked him on one side like that. I know that secretly liking isn't happy forever when we start to expect victims from the other person. So

The friend who flirted with me So I'm really angry at him.

Later, I realized that I had no right to hope, so I slowly let go of that obsession. But then I fell in love with another male friend, who at that time happened to be the same person that my best friend liked. What else was wrong with him? Why do I have to like someone who owns me? Yes, that person already has a boyfriend, but my best friend and I like him too.

I can only keep my feelings hidden, how can I reveal them? I didn't want to lose my friendship with him or with my closest friend. The only thing I could do was step back and stand in my own space.

I kept my feelings for my friends hidden and didn't say anything to anyone who behaved like an unloving person until I graduated from high school. When we separated to go to university, I still felt strange whenever I met people I had a crush on before. You can say I'm upset, but I secretly hope they think of me too, at least as a friend who isn't just a classmate or roommate, but a female friend who has an influence on them. After all, who am I to want such privilege?

But all this I ask you to keep this a secret from me. I don't want these feelings to make me feel shameless. Of course, I haven't done anything like that. But I want to meet the person who loves me the most and I don't want him to be disappointed in me. I believe I'm not a flirt.

I just want to have someone by my side when I need to rest. Not all family members can listen to our stories, and not all friends are worth telling every story to. I want to meet the man of my dreams.

However I hope you are doing well in that sky and if possible. Please help me find the man of my dreams and bring him to me.

Finally, I have sent you to the sky. And thank you for being born as friends.

thank you...